Eeek! Very sorry for the long wait but I've been extremely busy. Well, Seth's POV for the whole chapter. Quite short, I know, but I just wanted to get it out there. I'm very nervous about it, I must admit :L
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Seth's POV
"It's okay, love. She won't hurt Renesmee- she's a half-breed too."
Edward's words had lulled into insignificance, and I could only just make out their gentle echoes trying to pull me back to reality.
Hah, I wished that was possible, I was drowning, floundering aimlessly in this airless white, everything pointing only to one spot, one face – but I didn't want to come back up to the surface. She was... everywhere. Everything.
I couldn't breathe, I didn't remember how to. I wasn't sure if I needed to any more. She was keeping me alive, she was my oxygen... no, she was more than that, I couldn't begin to explain. She was my lungs, she controlled when my heart beat, she overrode my thoughts, sweeping a waterfall of her in my mind, she moved my muscles, she had a hold on me, an unbreakable, unfaltering hold that would forever clasp my aching heart to hers.
Breathe. I needed to breathe... but, how could it matter? How could I think of such insignificant things when she burned into my mind?
Breathing, it was nothing. I let go of it, feeling the weight taken off me. The pack, that meant nothing, I let go of it too, allowing it to turn to dust and blow away with the wind. The Cullens, my family, everything I was- I asked myself, did it matter? Was it worth more than her? One answer pounded in my heart, confident, and I let it all slip away, making more room in my head for her.
My eyes burned, but I couldn't look away. They were scorching, searing in the heat, but I couldn't bare to look away from her, afraid that one blink, one second glance and she would be gone, merely a dream, whispering into the air.
My heart skipped and stuttered back to life, a new feeling emerging. This felt... unbearable. This hurt. My heart ached, it throbbed in blistering pain. Had I been bitten? Had venom entered my heart, had one of the vampires lost control? I thought they didn't even want to try our blood? Was this the end?
The angel before me confirmed my notion, surely this must be heaven. ...But I couldn't reach her, and this pain was overwhelming... even then, it seemed to blissful for hell, but too unbearable for heaven.
Am I dead?...
No, my mind answered, having checked my body it now could not explain the agonising pain in my chest. It felt like my heart was being drenched in acid, then being burned, cremated.
No, this pain was too much, please, it needed to stop, I couldn't bear it.
And then, as if she had heard my pleas, her eyes stopped and rested on me. I allowed my gaze to search and melt into hers.
Immediately the pain was reduced to nothing but a small ache, a background note that I could ignore for this one second in time.
My heart beat faster, faltering and failing, out of time. She smiled, and I was up, above everything, filled with a new energy, a new light, pure sunshine, pure happiness... I couldn't find the words. I'd never felt this way, never imagined I could.
What was happening to me? Had she placed me under a spell? I didn't care if she had, for I could happily live out the rest of eternity under this spell, just me and her. No one else mattering, noticing nothing but her.
She was my Sun, burning me, but pulling me towards her, no hope of escape. She was my Universe, my everything, she was more things than I would ever be able to think of, she was a word that had never been invented, a word that had never been thought, a word that could never exist, because there was no explanation for her. She had my heart, and I was helpless.
I felt a sharp nudge in my side, but this new feeling was too demanding to take any notice of it.
SETH! Screamed a voice in my head. The peace was shattered, dark patches breaking my light.
No. Please, no. I thought, Don't take it away, don't break this.
It was too late. The light began to fade, to drift and merge with reality. Sounds came back, smells came back, and my mind was again harnessed by mundane needs... like oxygen.
Breathe! Screamed the voice again, and I realised I hadn't taken in oxygen for over six minutes now.
I inhaled, letting the moist, fragrant air fill my lungs. It felt good, but nothing compared with the ecstasy that had been so cruelly snatched away from me.
No, Seth, NO! The voice was Leah's, her screaming bewildered and infuriated.
It clicked then. She had obviously just shared in everything I had just been through. The thought angered me slightly- how dare she take my feelings, that experience should have just been mine. But the shallow anger evaporated into nothing, because there was no need. Why had I ever felt angry in the past? With her, all I could comprehend was happiness.
Wait...
How was Leah's reaction even possible? If she had already heard my every thought, shared every feeling I'd only just discovered, how could she turn such a blissful experience into anger?
Seth she's a bloodsucker! NO! You CAN'T!
I growled. Leah was ruining this, she shouldn't even be here. Why was it her place to try to overrule my emotions?
If she was trying to smother these feelings, then how could she possibly have any consideration for me?
Leah, please. Jake's voice was calm, but also shocked.
Seth, what just happened? Don't tell me you... Oh shit, you did, didn't you? Aww, gee, not HER. Why, Seth?
I didn't understand, Jacob knew this was unavoidable, it was just a natural feeling we couldn't help.
I didn't choose her, you know as well as I do I can't stop this...
She's a bloodsucker! Hissed Leah. That hit a nerve.
She is not, Leah! She's a half-breed, she's not a killer, and if you so much as refer to her as that again I will MAKE you realise how wrong you goddamn are!
I could feel the fury boiling inside of me, and evidently so could Edward.
"Leah, Seth, calm down." His voice was soft and careful, but I could feel his stunned gaze.
The angel's face twisted into confusion, then into hurt. Had she heard all of this? The pain on her face couldn't be due to me... No, NO!
"Did I upset anyone?" She whispered, looking down.
Her voice. It was soft, velvet, a delicious sound. Gentle like water running slowly over stones, carefully, carefully eroding a smooth path- the sound made my heart go into shock again.
"No... they're just a bit tense," murmured Edward. "Jasper, do you mind?"
Suddenly my previous anger was forgotten, a wave of calm running through my whole body.
Thanks, I thought at Edward. He smiled, but I could see some anxiety in his eyes.
"Oh," Said my angel again, "I'm very sorry. I promise I won't hurt anyone-honestly, that was never my intention."
She rushed the words, anxious to make herself heard. I didn't understand how anyone could find her a threat, but I noticed the vampires glance at Edward for reassurance. He nodded once, and then signalled to Carlisle.
"Ah, yes," Said the blonde vampire, stepping forward again.
"I am a doctor and obviously out of curiosity..."
"I know," she interrupted cheerfully. "That you're a doctor, I mean,"
"Oh... of course, yes. Edward told us briefly about your... gift, but we didn't have any real explanation..." His words lingered in the air and I marvelled as her beautiful face broke into confusion.
"You want me to stay?" She asked, perplexed.
They wanted her to stay? She could stay? My heart did a triple somersault and I felt light headed.
"Only if you want to, of course," Edward murmured.
What? No! Make her stay. She has to.
Edward glanced at me and chuckled.
"What's so funny?" She asked, looking too at me now. She screwed up my heart's rhythm- again- It's a surprise I hadn't passed out by now.
Her face concentrated as she searched through thoughts... oh god. Will she find out? Please let me die now.
Immediately she frowned.
"I can't see anything," She muttered.
"That would be me," Grinned Bella. Thank you! "If you knew everything now, then what reason would you have to stay?"
The angel laughed, it sounded like bells, I sighed with relief.
"I suppose you're right," She grinned and relaxed. "Well, if you want me, I suppose it'd be rude to say no."
Yes! Yes! YES!
Edward chuckled again.
Well, there you go, quite short I must admit, but you know, I've been so busy I've only had about ten, fifteen maybe even twenty minutes tops for this at all :L
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