Hi there my dear readers!

So, this is the last and final chapter of "Wish of love, wish of sin"...

I don't really know what to say, so...

You now will see what will happen after that three some chapter,

what the consequences will be...

for every character who had taken part in this complicated thing before...

What will Kandas thoughts be like? What will be Allens?

Will this change everything?

But in which direction, good or bad?

Let yourself get surprised...

I hope you enjoy it, although it isn't as long as the chapter before...^^"

Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own -man or any characters of it, otherwise I would upload a new chapter every fu**week for the poor readers ripping their hair out in frustration

Kanda didn't know how he managed to walk back with Allen in his arms, he felt so drained out of energy, but somehow he got through the hallway of that strange house, through the whispering darkness until he finally reached the door and opened it.

"Just what is happening behind that door?", Komui said worried, nervously wandering back and forth in front of the innocence door, he couldn't hide his fears. Together with a few others of the science department he had immediately come when Kanda had called them and told him about the innocence before he went through the door himself. Now they were waiting together with Lavi an Linalee, who nervously fumbled with her hair while Lavi stared at the door, but nobody knew what to answer at Komui's question, then Linalee said nervously: "Nii-san, I'm sure they'll be-". Just at this moment the door creaked, and everybody turned around quickly, staring at the black door, another creak could be heard then the door swung open with the same quit click it had opened before.

Out of the black darkness stepped Kanda, holding Allen, who was unconscious, wrapped in a jacket, his blue eyes wrenched together at the brightness, then widened in surprise at the people waiting there, then his face turned back into the usual scowl. "Oh my god, Allen! Kanda, what did happen to you?", Linalee asked shocked, running towards them together with Lavi and Komui. " What did happen, Kanda?", Komui asked as well, "And why is Allen unconscious?" "Wait, Kanda, I'll help you, let me take Allen", Lavi said, visible relieved, and reached out to take Allen out of Kanda's arms. "Fuck off", the black haired hissed and stepped back, his blue eyes flashed angrily with such an intensity that Lavi and the other jerked back in shock. Without looking back the black haired exorcist walked past, protectively holding the white haired in his arms, out of the hall, ignoring Linalee's cry: "Kanda! Kanda, please! Wait!" Behind them the black door trembled and melted, forming a black puddle before it changed back into the small key laying on the floor.

Three days. Since that three days had passed and Kanda refused to speak about what had happened, threatening every one with Mugen who wouldn't leave him alone and wanted to know more about what had happened and if the rumors were true, even Lavi or Linalee, although the two didn't stop asking him. But worse then the annoying questions was that he hadn't seen Allen anymore since he had brought him into his room and had left him there, not even in the cafeteria, and he hadn't open the door to anyone, not even Lavi or Linalee, there had always been silence as an answer. "Kanda, why don't you tell us what happened? We just want to help you!", Linalee pleaded, "It must have been something terrible which happened to Allen there, otherwise he would have already been here to eat something!" "Come on, Kanda, tell us! Whatever has happened, we just want to help you two, and that won't work if you refuse to ay anything!", Lavi said annoyed, his green eye fixed on the black haired who just growled in anger: "For the last time, shut the fuck up! I don't want to talk about what-", but was interrupted by Linalee who cried out: "Oh my god, he finally came out...look, there's Allen!"

Kanda's head turned around fast, his blue eyes widened. She was right. Right there at the big door was Allen, slowly walking into the big hall, liming visibly. All the people around him started to whisper, discussing about the things they had heard about that strange event, the dark haired could see how Allen flinched with all the eyes on him, he bit on his lips and lowered his head, the white bangs hiding his face, pretending to not hear anything. Slowly he walked past the desks, walking towards the kitchen when Linalee cried out: "Allen! Allen, here! Please come to us!" The white haired swung his head around, searching for the one who had called him when his eyes fell on the three and froze on the spot, his silver eyes widened when he saw Kanda. A mix of emotions flashed over his face, so fast that it wasn't possible to recognize them, then abrupt, the white haired turned around and ran away, as fast as he could. "Fuck no!", Kanda cursed loudly, pushing Lavi out of his way to chase after Allen, running past the surprised people. This time he wouldn't let him escape, this time he wanted to talk to him, not to a silent door.

Angrily he pushed more people out of his way, slowly coming closer because Allen couldn't run as fast usual. "Moyashi! Wait!", he yelled after him finally he reached him short in front of the door and grabbed his arm, behind him Lavi and Linalee came running closer. Wildly pulling at his right arm the white haired tried to free himself, but Kanda stubbornly refused to let go and growled: "Fuck, wait Moyashi! I just wanna-" WLAM. A loud smack could be heard, the people around the two gasped in shock when Kandas head was thrown aside and he stumbled back slightly, letting go of the white haired's right arm, his left cheek bright red and his lower lip was split by the force. Allen had used his left hand to slap Kanda hard across his face, Lavi and Linalee who now stood behind the dark haired exorcist stared with wide eyes at Allen, who still stood in front of the older one. The white haired's lips trembled, then he screamed at Kanda: " I HATE YOU!"

Then he turned around and ran out of the hall, leaving a silent crowd behind. For a moment no one spoke, then the people started to whisper, talking and discussing heatedly about what had happened just before while they were throwing side glances at Kanda, who still stood there on his spot. "Uhm, Kanda...is everything o.k.? Does it hurt?", Linalee asked carefully, glancing at the dark haired's red and swollen cheek, then she asked: "B-but why did Al-". "It doesn't hurt. And don't ask", Kanda cut her, ignoring Lavi who opened his mouth to speak and walked past, throwing the crowd a murderous glare which made them swallow in fear before he spoke: "Talk more about what had just happened before or annoy the bean sprout and I personally rip out your tongues and nail them into the kitchen door", then he went through the big door.

He had lied. It hurt. His left cheek stung and pulsed in pain, hot and swollen, while his lower lip burned painfully, like thousand needles which were red hot pieced into it. But worse, far worse then that had hurt the look in Allen's eyes before he ran away. Hate mixed with deep pain. The words echoed through his head again and again, piercing through his heart, while he slowly walked back into his room, numb from Allen's words. The exorcist gritted his teeth in desperation, slamming his fist against the door, not caring about the pain which shot through his hand. Just what should he do? He couldn't bear the thought that Allen hated him, not even a bit. He needed to talk to him. Immediately. As son as he made this decision he turned around and ran to Allen's room, determined to talk to him. Finally he reached the door, his door, and knocked hard and loud against the wood.

"Moyashi! Oi Moyashi!".

After he had he had slapped Kanda the white haired had run into his room, locking the door before he threw himself on his bed, starting to cry. The tears ran down his face, every sob made his chest and heart ache, but he couldn't stop crying, every time he took a breath his eyes started to water again, pouring out the pain he felt. It hurt. It hurt so much. Although he had been dazed and hot, he could remember everything, everything they had done, and the memory alone was enough to make him feel like trash, wanting nothing more then to curl up in a dark corner of his room and never come out again. With a sob he buried his nails into his arms, he felt used, tainted, dirty, like a whore he had moaned for more, letting himself get used by Kanda and- he refused to name him- that person, in a disgusting, humiliating way. He felt like trash, used b the person he fell in love with, like a toy, a doll thrown aside after playing with, after ripping it open and pulling the inner parts out, broken into pieces, and there was nothing which could heal him. A sudden, loud sound ripped him out of his thoughts, someone was knocking against his door angrily.

"Moyashi! Oi, Moyashi!". Not him. "Go away!", he screamed back, burying his head into the soft pillow to suppress any sound of his crying. "No, I won't go away! Open the door, I need to talk to you!", Kanda persistently said, feeling the urge to kick the door open, but he quickly shoved the thought aside. He hard rustling and an irritated sniff, quiet sobs which made his stomach twist hard in guilt, then the white haired yelled back: " I don't want to talk with you! Leave me alone!" "Moyashi, listen, I just wanted to-" "Go away!", Allen cried, barely able to see the door through the haze of tears. "Moyashi, open the fucking door!" "No!" "Open it!" "No!" "Open it!" "No!". The dark haired growled in annoyance, feeling a vein pulse on his forehead. Here he was, the Orders most feared and worst tempered exorcist, arguing with a swollen cheek, with the one he loved in front of his door! Hissing he sucked in air, knowing that this wouldn't bring any result if he acted like an angry rhino. He took a deep breath, trying to calm down, then he cleared his throat and asked carefully, now sounding softer: "Would you open the door Moyashi?"

The white haired twitched in surprise, staring at his door. Did he just imagine it? Kanda's voice was now suddenly softer, sounding calm and...gentle. He hesitated, the dark haired seemed to really want it, but still...He couldn't open the door, afraid of what Kanda would think if he saw his red eyes, shame still like a heavy weight on him. "Ka...Kanda?", he warily asked, his voice so quiet that the other one almost did not hear it. "I'm...I'm sorry, but I just...i can't. I don't want to open the door." The dark haired groaned in desperation, hectically thinking of something else. "Then, if you don't want to open the door...would you a least listen to me?", he asked, nervously tightening his grip on Mugen to steady himself. Silence answered him, but he couldn't bear that, he just needed to talk to him! "Just listen, you don't have to talk", he said, now sounding a bit desperate. Still no answer. Again he took a deep breath, fumbling on his zipper before he finally had enough bravery and dared to say two of the words which had never or rarely passed his lips aloud: "Please...Allen?"

Inside his room the white haired, who had finally climbed off his bed, spun around, his silver eyes widened in shock. Had he just heard it right? Kanda, THE Kanda had said please? Had the Earl decided to leave the job being the first evil guy and make career as a famous go go dancer? But...more importantly...That name. That name which had just crossed the blue eyed's lips. No, it couldn't be. He must have heard it wrong. But then Kanda spoke again, louder then before: "Please Allen". A warm shiver ran down Allen's back, he shuddered unwillingly, suddenly feeling strangely better. His name. Kanda had said his name, without cursing, without a growl, so soft and gentle like it was something docile. Something important. The white haired swallowed strained, hesitantly walking to the door until he stood in front of it, he forced his lips open, to let his dry mouth for the words: "I...i will listen...and talk if necessary...". He could hear the dark haired sigh, relief mixed...fear? "Good. Look, I...i really needed to talk to you, we finally have to clear everything, what had happened...at that day."

He could hear Allen breathing out hard, rustling through the door. "I-", before he could say more the white haired interrupted him sharply: "No. I don't want to talk about it, about that...day. I can't." "But-", Kanda wanted to say, but was cut again:" No, I don't want to! Look...", Allen sounded softer again, exhaustion in his voice clearly visible, "Can't we just forget it? Please...please just go and leave me alone-". Kanda could swear he felt something inside him ripping, falling apart, no longer able to suppress his feelings he exploded: "NO! I can't! I can't just fucking forget it!" Allen jerked back in shock and plopped on the floor, deeply frightened by Kanda's hard protest, and almost too shy to ask he managed to whisper: "B-but why?" The dark haired breathed out, sighing before he said a bit calmer: "Because I hurt you. I'm not stupid, I know it. I can't just forget what has happened, I can't! Its in my head all the time, the pictures repeating themselves again and again. I can't forget it because I can't stand to know that I hurt you. I can't bear that you don't look at me, that you don't talk to me. That you don't fight with me, that you try to ignore me, the ay you looked at me after you slapped me. That you are trying to hide yourself in your room, that you are not there in the cafeteria to stuff that abnormally big stomach of yours. That I can't touch you, can't see you, can't feel your presence. And you want to know why? Because I love you. I fucking love you."

At the other side of the door Allen gasped in shock and sunk onto the floor, his face paled while he started to hyperventilate. /Calm down Allen, calm down!/, he thought in panic, pulling on his bangs, his face felt hot and his chest suddenly felt too tight for the fast beating of his heart, the blood swoosh in his ears. What should he do? The other exorcist heard something plopping onto the floor, getting nervous. "Moyashi, oi, is everything o.k.?". He swallowed again, cursing inside his head about his knotted tongue before he continued, more desperate now, in fear of getting send away: "Look, I- I don't demand that you forgive me, I just want you to understand! I shouldn't have done this to you, Allen, but I couldn't stop, couldn't resist you. All I wanted, thought about was to have you, to claim you as mine...and I can't stop loving you, wanting you although I know you hate me now, for what him and I have done to you-". "Kanda, stop! Stop it, please!", Allen interrupted him, now sounding desperate as well and out of breath.

"Its enough. Listen, I...", the white haired swallowed, leaning his head against the door, he heard the dark haired male shifting his weight, coming closer. "Kanda, I...i don't hate you. I can't. I said I do, but that wasn't true. I can't hate you because...b-because I l-love you...". Kanda's breath stopped, his eyes widened, while his thoughts started to race, quickly he stepped closer, pressing his hands against the dark wood. He didn't dare to breath, in fear just one breath would destroy it, what seemed like a dream, too unsteady and docile were his hopes. Kanda could hear Allen cough, soft foot steps coming closer, then the white haired continued: "But...i don't know if I can forgive you. What has happened at that day, in that world, what you...and what that person did...it hurt. That's the reason why I don't know if I can forgive you. In that day- or world you used me like a toy, something you throw away after using, something to play with. And it hurt. I...i feel like a w-whore, dirty, tainted, trash on the streets. Something inside me...broke, and I don't know if i can fix it. You used me like a toy, driven by that- that person, to simply fuck me!"

Allen couldn't help, he tried to hold them back, but it didn't work, tears started to run down his face, crying he sunk down on the floor, head buried into his arms, legs pulled up like a protection. He heard Kanda step back, the grinding of teeth before the dark haired said bitterly: "But you can't deny that you wanted it, that you needed it. If you say that I took you against your will, I won't be able to live on with that lie, I'd rather bear to know that you hate me then this." The white haired flinched, being hit by the bitter sadness and truth in that dark voice. He trembled, knowing it was true, but his mind still fought against the fact, refusing to admit that he had wanted it, he had practically begged for it. "So, please...please don't deny it. Don't lie to me. Try to understand what I mean, I...fuck, I just couldn't control myself! Do you know that I've been dreaming about you night for night? To have you under me, screaming my name in pleasure while I take you? So, please don't lie. Please...Allen".

The last words were whispered in desperation, barely covering the wild ocean of mixed feelings the dark haired carried hidden under the cold surface and by his acting. It hit his heart like a sword, piercing through it with no mercy, and Allen knew, he knew that he could no longer hide it, no longer deny it, it couldn't stay in that dark corner of his mind any longer. With a desperate cry he broke down, pressing his hands against his ears. Kanda heard the cry, frightened his heart jumped in shock, nervously he hammered against the door. "Mo-moyashi? Oi, is everything o.k.? Say something!" Kanda's nervous yell ripped the younger exorcist out of the hole his mind had fallen into, he tried to calm down, he had to answer him. To say what he had decided. He couldn't lie to Kanda, not without breaking him and his heart as well, and with that knowledge, heavy but strangely releasing and calming he knew what he had to do. After a long silence, so long that Kanda almost believed the silver eyed didn't want to speak anymore, he suddenly heard hi whisper softly: "Kanda...i...i won't lie. I can't do this since I know I can't deny it-", "Does this mean you will no longer hide yourself? And that you will with me-", Kanda interrupted him, but was cut by Allen again: "N-no, Kanda, wait! That's too quick for me, too fast. I mean, I will come out of my room, but...I can't just admit it and then...w-with you together...I need to think about it, to clear my mind and feelings, that's what I can offer you for now...but...i will- I will need time. Time to think about it..."

The dark haired male sighed in relief, knowing this meant there was still a chance. For him and Allen, to be together someday. "Then...", he slowly said, "Its a deal? Or is it...a promise?" Against his will Allen felt the corners of his mouth curl up a bit, he chuckled weakly: "I...i don't make deals, Kanda. They remind me too much of Masters debts. I will tell you my answer, but I will need time to think about it...Will you wait for the answer?", he asked warily. The dark haired exorcist replied immediately with a strong voice: "I will. I will wait for your answer." The blue eyed thought shortly before he asked: "So...then its a promise?" Allen wiped his tears away and smiled faintly: "Yes. Its a promise."

So, that was it...

That was the last chapter of 'Wish of love, wish of sin'...

I finished it, the last word is written. *dramatic break with music*

I feel happy, but sad at the same time,

I feel like I need to write more xD

So, what do you think about it? I know its not as long as the other chapters,

but I think its a fitting end for this story, right?

Tell me what you think about it! I want to know everything :)

By the way, it could be a few readers of you aren't satisfied with this end, so...

What do you think about a sequel?

Do you want to know what will happen next?

I'm curious about what you think^^

So, if there are enough readers interested in it, I will write it!

Although maybe even without that xxxD

By the way, if you want to read something else of me and don't know everything,

either look at my bio or take a look at this story : .net/s/6015252/8/Mwahaha

That's a one shot I first presented in Pandy-chans story collection^^

Have fun reading it!

your author Kamo-chan

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