A/N: Heey everyone,,

I'm so sorry for not uploading so long!

there was just so much going on...

but you're not here to hear about my life, so let's move on with the next chapter!

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I panted heavily and fell on my knees. The guys and Master Splinter decided to give me ninjitsu lessons too, after our encounter with the Foot on the roof.

But I had a hard time.

It was a lot heavier than it looked from the sidelines and it sure was difficult.

"Stand up and move on!", Master Splinter yelled.

I clenched my teeth, but I didn't get up. I just couldn't.

"Raphael attack!", Master Splinter demanded.

The last two weeks I had been meditating (actually, most of the meditation sessions Master Splinter and I did, I was sleeping) and in every training we did (4 every day) I had been kicked and punched around.

And I wouldn't let that happen again.

When I heared Raphael getting closer, I rose to my feet fastly and I gave him a roundkick in his ribs. He stumbled back a bit, but then he moved on and he tried to tackle me. I jumped up and dodged his tackle, but suddenly I got a hit in my own ribs from someone behind me and I fell on the ground again.

"Always expect the unexpected," Master Splinter said seriously, but I could feel he was a bit amused.

After my talk with Master Splinter two weeks ago, I decided to train myself in controling my powers. The meditation sessions of Master Splinter were meant for that purpose too, but I didn't have the concentration for that.

Sitting still for hours wasn't really my thing. I prefered the active approach.

So when we were watching tv, I silently and carefully tried to Read their feelings. And I had to admit, it was working out quite well. They hadn't noticed yet and I was getting better and better.

Leo offered me his hand. I took it and stood up.

I felt a bit anger rush through my veins. I hated it when I got tossed around like a doll or a punchbag.

"Training is over," Master Splinter said, "Well done, everyone."

We bowed to our Master and he bowed back and then he left the trainingroom.

Leo went after him, probably for meditation and Donatello followed too. He probably went back to his lab.

Mikey streched and yawned. "Well, I'm going back to my videogames! Does anyone want to be beaten by the Master?"

I gave him a deathglare and my guess was Raphael did the same, because Michelangelo shrugged and walked out of the trainingroom.

Raph and I looked at eachother shortly and then we both walked to another side of the room, to a punchingbag.

I had to let my frustrations out, so I started to punch the bag hard and fast. I heard Raphael doing the same.

The rythm of my beatings got faster and faster and how harder I punched, how more frustrated I got.

It took a while before I realised these frustrations weren't mine.

I stopped and looked at Raphael. His face was concentrated and full of anger, but I didn't know why.

I breathed in and out slowly and tried to let go of the frustrations, the anger that burned within me. But it was hard and it costed me a lot of strength.

I decided to just leave the trainingroom and so I did. I sat next to the pond in the center of the lair. I always sat here when I wanted to concentrate or relax. The murmuring water relaxed me somehow.

I closed my eyes and listened to the sounds of the lair, the sounds of the sewers and the sounds of my friends.

I heared Michelangelo screaming and yelling to his videogame. I heared the shooting sounds of that videogame. I heared Donatello typing on one of his many computers. I heared Raphael, still punching the bag.

Those frustrations hadn't been mine. Somehow I linked with the feelings of Raphael and I'd felt what he'd felt. That proved I hadn't my powers under control yet.

Maybe I should pay attention when I'm meditating with Master Splinter, I thought, when I sighed out loud.

I promised myself I would do that and then started listening again. Again to the sounds of the guys. Again to the sounds of the televisions and computers.

Suddenly, I heared sounds of things that I couldn't see. But it wasn't really hearing, it was almost like feeling. Though I could hear the sounds. It was really strange and when I realised that, the feeling was immediately gone.

So I started again, first the lair, then the guys, then the televisions and the computers. Slowly, I got back to that feeling again.

I heared rats walk, water running, a waterfall dissapear in the depths of more water. Then I heared dripping, like it was the only thing that existed.

It was a steady dripping, almost like the ticking of a clock. I felt my mind and body relax more and more with every drop that fell.

And all of the sudden the drops started to glow. It was a nice light blue colour and it felt warm.

Then, the dripping got worse and worse. And after a while, it looked like a whole waterfall came down. But I didn't panic, because I didn't fell the power of the waterfall at all and all the water around me felt warm and nice.

It felt like I was floating in air, but I was surrounded by warm, glowing water. It felt good, it felt right, I felt like I was right where I belonged.

And then the dripping sound started again and it sounded liked the drops called my name. The screaming got louder and louder and I was now sure the water was calling my name, though the voices sounded familiar.

Then I felt someone or something shaking my shoulders and I felt someone putting an arm around me. And when the shaking finally stopped, the arm tried to pull me away.

And then the water fell. Now it was dark and cold and I still felt the arm around me, trying to pull me away. Then, I fell. I fell into the darkness.

Suddenly, I stopped falling. I felt a hand holding mine and pulling me up and then I felt two strong arms holding me, pulling me close. I felt my knees breaking down, still standing in the cold darkness, but the person who saved me, lifted me up in his arms.

Then I could open my eyes and I saw I sat on the same spot next to the pond, but this time I didn't sat on the ground.

I sat on the lap of a turtle, who was holding me strong. He was rocking me back and forth and I felt myself tremble and shiver.

"It's okay," he whispered. "It's okay..."

I was more than surprised to hear his voice. Of all turtles it was he who saved me.

"Raph...", I said, my voice raw and hoarse.

"No, kid...", he said stern, but softly. "Save your strength, you lost a lot..."

I didn't understand what happened. And I lost strenght? What did I do?

I felt that a hand was put on my forehead. I looked up slowly to see Don sitting next to us, feeling my temperature. Behind him I saw Mikey, looking at us with big, concerned eyes. I heared Leo speak with Master Splinter, their voices worried.

But I didn't understand. What happened? What was all the panic about?

I tried to follow the conversation between Master Splinter and Leonardo, but somehow I couldn't. After that, Donatello spoke with them too and Raphael and Michelangelo also got involved in the conversation.

I tried and I fought to hear what they were saying and what they were talking about, but I failed. I heared them speaking, yes, but I couldn't follow what they were saying. They were speaking English, but it was like they spoke in another language.

The strenght I had left after what-ever-I-did, also faded away slowly. My tries to understand them got harder and harder and then I decided to gave up.

And when I'd decided that, I heard them all screaming my name.

Then, everything went black again. But at least I wasn't falling, I just laid there. Feeling the warmth of my friends around me.

When I opened my eyes I laid in my bed. I looked around in the room that the guys and I made for me. It was a nice room and I was very glad with it. Then Donatello entered with a plate full of food and drinks.

"I didn't know what you would like to have," he said. "So..."

"You brought everything?", I finished with a smirk. "What will the others say?"

Don shrugged. "They'll call for pizza anyway..."

I smiled. "Thanks Don..."

"You're welcome." He gave me the plate and then wanted to leave again.

"Don?".

He turned and looked at me.

"What happened?"

He shook his head. "I'm not sure."

"But you have a clue?"

"Maybe," he answered slowly. "But I don't know, I haven't seen anything like you before…"

"Anything like… me?"

"Not that you're a thing or something!", he said fast. "But…"

Then he stopped.

"But what?".

He sat down at the edge of my bed and sighed.

"Can you explain what happened to you?"

I thought of the moment I heard or more felt the feeling. "Not really, I think I felt something, but I saw it too, you know. I saw, or felt, dripping. Dripping of water. Then there was a big flow of water, like a waterfall and then it felt like I was floating in the water. It felt nice and warm and I felt good. And everything was light, a strange light-blue light. Then I felt an arm around me, pulling me away and then the water was gone and it was cold and dark. And then I was back with you guys, I think."

That was all I could remember, but it was all I had to remember to know it had to do something with my Powers.

Donatello had just listened, but now he nodded.

"I'll explain what it looked like to us. You were floating actually, only than in air. Water was floating around you and it was shining, light-blue. Then the water closed into you and we kinda paniced. Raph acted instinctual as always and jumped towards you. He wrapped an arm around you to prevent falling down again and tried to shake you out of it, when that didn't work, he tried pulling you down with our help and that worked, only you passed out and started to tremble."

I nodded. I was starting to get a little scared of my Powers. What more could I do? "What did you think that happened?"

"I really don't know, well… actually…". He hesitated.

"Yes?"

He still didn't react.

"Don, please, I want to know what's happening to me…"

"I think… it's another one of your Powers, but… we have to get it under control… if else… I'm afraid that you'll hurt people…".

I frowned. "What makes you think that?"

He hesitated again, but decided to continue anyway. "Didn't you see the wounds on Raph's arms? The water around you did that…"

I felt my eyes growing bigger. "You're… you're kidding right? You know I would never… not on purpose…"

"No! No!," Donnie said fast. "We know! But that's why we have to get it under control, before you do something worse…".

I nodded slowly and now I really started to get scared. Hurting people? Hurting my friends?

"Now, get something to eat…", Donatello said and he smiled. He tried to act normal, but the smile was a sad one instead of a reassuring one. "And you must rest after you've eaten, you need it…"

I nodded, but I never did it.

A/N: what is happening? what is she planning to do?

You have to wait 'till the next chapter!