A/N: heey everyone!

I feel so guilty not uploading for such a long time... I hope you guys don't hate me too much...

Again I will not bore you with my personal life, so let's get on with finally the next chapter!

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Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters related to TMNT and I don't own TMNT itself! I DO own my imagination =) (one of the characters (Mini,, the 'I' person =P) and the story.)

As soon as Donatello left my chamber I'd grabbed my stuff and sneaked out of the lair.

An hour or so later, I sat on a rooftop in the city I didn't know. I was lost for sure, but that was good. If I ever felt the urge to return to the lair again, I would never find it back. I pulled my knees to my face and felt my tears through my pants. I hurt my friends, I thought. I hurt my friends, the only ones I had in here. I had no choice, but to run away. My Powers were too unpredictable to be around anyone. I couldn't risk hurting them again.

So there I sat; in the dark, on a rooftop. In a city unknown, with no money or anything else. I had people who tried to hunt me down for some reason, but I couldn't return to the lair again. I promised myself I would never hurt my friends again. And the only way to prevent myself from hurting them was to not be around.

Coldness filled the air. I trembled a bit, but realized this wasn't the coldness of the night. This was something else, something evil.

"Well, well, what do we have here?", the voice was sharp and loud after the silence a second ago. "All alone, in the dark..."

I felt shivers running down my spine. I felt her coming closer, fast. "Go away," I said, my head still on my knees. "Leave me alone…"

"I'm afraid I can't do that…". She did another step towards me, she was too close. In the meanwhile I heard others approaching too, from the other sides.

The Foot. I had nowhere to go.

"Just turn around and leave while you can," I said, trying to scare them.

"Threatening?", she laughed. Again a shiver on my back. "I'm not afraid." The Foot approached faster.

"Please, leave me alone…", I whispered. They were a couple of metres away. "Please…" I heard them pulling they're weapons out in order to capture me.

"Go away!", I yelled. And suddenly it seemed like the air opened above me. A flash of light and then a crack of thunder and then the rain came down. And I saw all that drops of water glowing, light-blue. These are not my friends, I thought. So I gave in to the Power I felt rushing through me. All the drops around me bundled above me.

I saw the Foot and Karai hesitate. The Foot were looking around, confused. Then they looked at Karai to see what they had to do. The water was making a dome around me and the Foot, still glowing. But Karai didn't hesitate. "Attack!", she yelled. So the Foot did.

I dodged some attacks, but they were with too many. I tried dodging and dodging, but soon I was flying through the air and I landed on my back, hard. And then I landed on my knees. And then it was my face that hit the stone roof. I felt something dripping down, while a sharp pain shot through my left eyebrow. I winked a couple of times to get my vision clear. When another sting shot through my entire head, I growled and then tried to crawl up. I was tired. All the emotions of this evening and all the fighting had drained my energy away.

I heard footsteps, slowly, but relaxed. I looked up and saw Karai next to me, lifting her sword above her.

My body was too tired to shiver or tremble. Maybe it was just because I wasn't afraid. I felt she'd searched for me because she needed me for some reason, so she wouldn't hurt me too bad. At least, she wouldn't kill me. Then another flash of light split the dark ceiling above us in two. And in that second, when the lightning was reaching to the ground as far as it could, I saw everything clear. And more clear than ever.

I was in a world that I didn't knew, but had that to be something bad? Couldn't I learn and know?

I obviously had some Powers, but were they uncontrollable? Could it be beside scary, cool too?

I met new people, they weren't scary, they weren't bad, why abandon them then? They wanted to help me, right?

I was under attack, cornered, no way out. Or was there? It would be risky, dangerous, but wasn't that the thing I searched for before?

The answers were obvious. For this test, I would get a A+, because the answers came right from my heart, where answers always should come from. "It is not over yet Karai…", I said to her.

"What's…?", she began, but then went silent. She looked around her, to the dome that had covered us the whole time.

It had started moving.

It gathered, it formed. The rain poured down on us again. I felt the Power flowing through me, giving me new energy, giving me strength. Suddenly, my glowing water wasn't so shiny anymore, though it didn't felt different. Then two eyes opened in the water-form that'd formed.

I wasn't scared, afraid or anything like that. I wasn't surprised, like I knew it would happen, but I didn't.

The eyes weren't human eyes, these were light blue shining eyes. But they were beautiful. The water creature looked like a dragon, with spikes on his back, a long tail and a beak shaped head. His wings looked strong and powerful and the end of the wings had finger shaped feathers.

Then it attacked.

With one swing of his wing he wiped all the Footninja on the right side of the roof off their feet and they stayed down.

"Foot! Attack!", Karai yelled. And the remaining Foot listened loyal. They jumped in the air with their weapons ready, but the creature shrieked and knocked them off their feet too.

Then only Karai remained. "You!", she yelled and pointed at me. She stared at me angrily, with eyes like ice cubes, trying to freeze me or knock me out.

But I stood there, staring back at her. Since the creature had appeared, I felt warmth all around me; he protected me from freezing under her gaze.

When Karai realized she couldn't win, she came in for the attack. The creature moved, gracious, not really what you would expect with such a large creature, but what I knew somehow. He stopped right in front of me, his back to me, facing Karai. Her step changed, then slowed and at the end stopped.

"I see…", she said, looking in the light blue glowing eyes of the creature. Then she looked at me, through the creature. Her image was weird and deformed. "We'll meet again." Then she jumped to the next roof and disappeared into the night.

The creature turned around and looked at me. Then it laid down, curling up around me. I indeed felt tired and sleeping was a pretty good idea. Maybe it was because the adrenaline rush was away, maybe because it'd cost me ánd the creature a lot of strength.

'Cause I knew the creature and I were connected somehow. But that was not important now, now we just had to sleep.

"Mini! MINI!"

Someone was yelling at me, but I didn't want him to yell because I'd such a beautiful dream.

"Mini! Wake up! Please!"

He sounded so sad, so worried. So I opened my eyes slowly.

I saw it was still dark, but I saw too that the sun began to rise; there was an orange glow at the horizon. Next to me was Raphael, his arm underneath my head, bowed over me to see if I was okay.

"I'm okay Raph," I said, my voice hoarse, but I tried to smile anyway. "Really!"

"How could you be so stupid! Running away, sleeping at a building!", he suddenly screamed. "You could've been hurt or death or worse!"

I looked at him, but I didn't really see him. I let him yell and scream at me, he wouldn't listen to me anyway. So I thought of last night again and felt that warm, certain feeling rushing to my veins again.

"Are you even listening to me?", Raphael yelled.

I nodded faintly.

"Raph! Stop yelling! The whole neighbourhood can hear you!", Leonardo said. He'd appeared at the edge of the building a second ago, followed by his brothers.

"Yeah, and I'm right next to you, I'm not deaf, you know," I said, still smiling at him.

He looked at me, seriously. Then he sighed. "We were really worried."

"Me too," I answered. They all gave me not understanding looks. "I was worried I would hurt one of you again, so that's why I ran away. I had a lot of time to think and I'm sorry for running away, but I felt horrible about hurting you Raph, and I was so afraid that I would lose control again. I couldn't think clearly, I think I'm still not immune for the sewer stench… So… you guys forgive me?"

They started to smile.

"Of course we'll forgive you!", Michelangelo then yelled.

He grabbed my arm, pulled me up and then started to hug me. Although, hugging was maybe not the right word, because it was more like trying to suffocate me.

"So, you wanna go home?", Donatello said, while he put an arm around me.

I nodded. "If you still want me there, then yes, I would like that." I smiled. Donatello smiled back. He pulled me closer to him for a couple of seconds and then let go.

Then we jumped into the alley next to the building and disappeared into the sewers.

It was silent for a couple of minutes when Leo spoke up. "We talked to master Splinter when you lied in bed, or at least, when we thought you were lying in bed…".

"Yes?", I said.

"And he thought it was a bad idea of us to pull you out of your… floating experience," he said, maybe a bit ashamed.

I felt nothing but curiosity. "Why?"

"He thinks that you were in a sort of trance and it's always bad to pull people out of their trance rudely, because they could get stuck or other bad things could happen."

I went silent. Our footsteps and the dripping of water were the only sounds left.

I thought of the experience I had in the lair. And I thought of the light-blue water, what was the same as the water last night. My mind automatically switched to the creature, the water creature that had protected me. I'd felt one with that creature, like it was a part of me. Maybe it was, I thought, maybe it was a part of me.

Then we finally reached the lair.

I sat down on the couch and felt my back and my neck hurt. But the soft pillows lifted the pain for a bit.

"You okay kid?", Raphael asked.

I nodded. Yes, I was okay, I was just confused.

The next day I was tired. I'd been thinking the whole night instead of sleeping and after a harsh training all my body wanted to do was breaking down. But when it was time for my meditation, I fought against the sleepiness in my eyes. I had to talk with Master Splinter about yesterday.

"Let us continue with our meditation," Master Splinter said.

I wobbled nervous on my knees.

Master Splinter opened his eyes. "Something wrong, my child?"

I sighed. "Yes Master. I wanted to… discus something with you."

"And what would that be?"

"Master," I started, afraid. I was afraid of what his reaction would be. "Master, yesterday, when I was on that roof… I was attacked by the Foot and… I used my Powers."

"You WHAT?", Master Splinter asked furiously.

I stopped myself from crouching. I had to do this. "They didn't hurt me, well, they didn't hurt me badly. They threw and tossed me around, just as what happens while training, only without care."

Master Splinter kept glancing at me dangerously.

I decided to continue, but first I took a deep breath. "I was scared, but when I got angry, there suddenly was a thunderstorm. All the drops made a bubble around the rooftop and we were dry, until Karai stood above me with her sword raised high."

I swallowed, but it felt good to share this story with someone. With someone who probably understood. "I knew they wouldn't hurt me badly, or at least, they wouldn't kill me, because I know they need me for some reason… Then there was a lightning strike close by and I suddenly saw everything clear. I understood I had been stupid running away and that these 'Powers' of me isn't a reason to be afraid, I just have to learn to control it."

Master Splinter still looked at me, but his glancing became less dangerous.

"And then," I said, but hesitated lightly. This was where the creature came in. "I realised that those people weren't my friends and that I had to fight for my life, so I… I decided to… to let the Power flow…"

Master Splinter kept silent. I had been preparing for angry shouting or something, but he just sat there. So I continued again. "The bubble faded away and the rain started to fall again, only the bubble started to form something and it became a creature of water. It had light-blue eyes, just as the colour from the water I had been floating in two days ago, just as the colour of the rain and the bubble. Karai always makes the air around her cold and full of hatred, but this creature seemed to protect me from that, the air felt warm. And then the creature attack and knocked all of the Foot from their feet en it scared Karai away and then we slept."

Master Splinter looked at me. Looked right through me.

"Master, it felt… like this creature en me were one, like it was a part of me."

Then he nodded. "I had been curious when you would find your Spirit."

Now it was my turn to look at him without saying a word. Only this silence was a not-understanding one.

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