BILLY (two months before Spencer's arrest)

I was alone at my motel room in Mattapan since the whore had just left. I pulled out some coke. I grabbed a bottle of whiskey and took a needle or two of heroin. I injected myself with the heroin right away.

"What happened to you, Billy?" Brittany spoke. But she wasn't here.

"You fucking left me. That's what fucking happened. Bones came in and offered me a new life that sounded good. I didn't have to worry about bitches leaving and shit because they were only used for sex and then they got forgotten." I yelled to the ceiling.

"You promised to leave even if I left. Why, Billy, did you stay?" She asked. I took a few gulps of whiskey from the bottle.

"I thought you were going to New York." I lied.

"A fucking lie. Why did you really stay?" She spat. I popped a few pills of pain relievers into my mouth and swallowed them with whiskey.

"New York was something with you so there was no fucking way in hell I would go where I planned to with my ex-fiancé." I spat back.

"I never took off the ring. When I sold myself, I kept the ring on my neck as a chain." She whispered.

"Why did you leave?" I asked. I finished off the whiskey.

"I did a favor for Bones but the result wasn't to his liking. He was going to kill you and I. Plus if he found out the baby, he would have killed Spencer too. I left to protect Spencer and myself but I knew that if I told you, you would have gone after Bones and died. So I just left to save you." She admitted.

"That motherfucker!" I yelled and got ready to do a line.

"The night I died, Bones sent a guy to California to kill me. The truck hit me by chance but the second car that killed me, that was the guy that was hired by Bones. He told Bones that I was dead and so was the brat." Brittany muttered. I threw the bottle of whiskey at the wall. I did some lines of coke as quick as possible.

"NO! Don't tell me that he killed you!" I yelled. I popped some more pills into my mouth.

"Bones doesn't find out that Spencer is alive until he reads the paper about him going to Juvy. He plans on killing him after he finds out." She added. Then Brittany was gone and I was truly alone. I did some more lines of coke. Until everything slowed down including my heart. I passed out on the floor holding the pill bottle. Darkness surrounded me and a single ray of light shone down upon me. Yelling filled my ears but I couldn't hear what was being said. Brittany came back to me. She was 17 and she knelt down to hold my hand.

"Billy! Don't you die on me! Billy!" She screamed.

Dream

Brittany's face flashed from the very first time I met her to the last time I saw her as a teenager and then her face as she was when she died.

"If you love me, come to me." She whispered but she was not there physically.

Bodie came around a corner walking with his head down. He looked up into my eyes.

"Don't man, she'll just leave you." Bodie said to me. Brittany walked across the street to me.

"I won't leave. We can go to New York together. I love you Billy Darley." She promised me.

"Me or her?" Bodie asked me. Then all of a sudden he wasn't there anymore.

"Take my hand." Brittany demanded. I reached out for it but her hand went through mine. Joe ran towards me carrying a limp Spencer.

"Billy help me!" Joe screamed. I took a step toward him. He set Spencer down on the sidewalk. Blood oozed from his body. I put my hand on where the blood cam from the most, the heart.

"It's too late." I murmured to Joe.

"No, it is not! He still is alive! Help him Billy!" Joe screamed. I shook my head.

"He's dead, Joe." I told him. Spencer disappeared from the sidewalk when I looked back down. Joe still knelt crying and holding something to his chest.

"Joe, come with me to New York." I pleaded. I looked back to Brittany for help to get him to come but she wasn't there.

"There never was a New York, Billy." She spoke.

"What do you mean?" I yelled.

"I tricked you." She answered. I turned to drag Joe back home. But Joe wasn't there next to me. The sky darkened and lighting cracked. Thunder roared.

End of Dream

After the dream, everything went black.

BODIE (same time two months before Spencer's arrest)

I came back to Billy's motel room and found him passé out on the floor. I checked his pulse that was barely there. He was cold to the touch and I started freaking out.

"Billy! Don't you die on me! Billy!" I yelled. I shook him but there was no response. I called 911. The paramedics came and hauled him to the hospital.

"Looks like an overdose." One paramedic said.

"And you are?" The other said to me.

"I'm his best friend, Bodie." I answered. I sat in the front of the ambulance as we rode to the hospital. They pumped his stomach. The doctor came out to talk to me about him as they hauled him to a room.

"You're lucky that he got here before he passed. If you would have found him any later than two hours then he be dead. We're keeping him here to watch him. He's still passed out but you can see him now." The doctor told me.

"Thanks doc." I said.

-Next day around 6 pm-

Billy woke up and I had him eat some food.

"What the fuck happened?" He asked after he figured out he was in the hospital.

"You fucking overdosed and was two hours to death." I told him pissed at him.

"We almost fucking lost you." I added.

"Does Spencer know?" He asked me.

"No, none of the guys do but me." I told him.