A/N: So a few of you got most of the songs but not all, they are as follows:
My Beloved Monster - The Eels
Forbidden Friendship - HTTYD Soundtrack
Everytime I Look For You - Blink 182
There She Goes - Sixpence None The Richer
She Is - The Fray
Dismantle Repair - Anberlin
SleepyHead - Passion Pit
Clever Love - Angels & Airwaves.
Congrats to those who attempted it! And I appreciate all the reviews! That chapter got the most yet! Woo! I must be doing something right!
GUEST PASSES ARE EXPLAINED AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER
"Ms. Swan, I'm not sure I fully understand your request…"
"I don't…understand how you don't understand it."
"Okay, look, let me get this straight. This young lady, Alice was it?" Mrs. Reinhardt pointed at my girl who waved happily back at her before she resumed her talking, "Wants to spend a day at the school…you, you want a guest pass(1), right?"
"Yes, that is correct." I affirmed calmly though it was like, the fifth time we'd gone through this. Mrs. Reinhardt pursed her lips, a brow rising each time her eyes passed between me and Alice and back again. I smiled awkwardly, teeth showing as I glanced at Alice next time, nudging her when I noticed she was looking around the room curiously, her finger scratching at her ear. She growled at my push but then she noticed what was going on and smiled charmingly at Mrs. Reinhardt who released a sigh before FINALLY jotting down her John Hancock on the required papers.
"Thank you very much, she won't be a bother, I promise," I said as I snagged the forms off of her desk and Mrs. Reinhardt simply stared at me, "Really….I mean it."
"Before you go, she needs this," The overpaid, overweight secretary reached beneath her desk before pulled out a large sheet of paper with those stupid sticky name tags attached to it. She adjusted her half moon glasses before peeling one off and jotting down Alice's name sloppily in red marker, coughing nasally as she slapped it onto Alice's chest that didn't move an inch at the force and Mrs. Reinhardt looked a bit taken aback at Alice's stone cold stature. She coughed again, pushing her glasses back against her slightly piggish nose, "You're all set. Now go, first period starts in less than 5."
"Bye-bye, Lady, enjoy your job!" Alice chirped happily, waving a goodbye as she bounced out of the office with me in tow. I halted as soon as we were out of the office and out of ear shot from anyone. Alice stopped her skipping, noticing my cease in movement and she looked back at me curiously.
"Alice…you can't be so…so…" I gestured at her entire being and she cocked her at me.
"So?"
"So…you," I deadpanned and she made a small noise indicating her confusion, "You're too happy for a teenager at 7:30 in the morning. You gotta act like you don't wanna be here! Like you're miserable and no one understands you and that these short, semi-meaningless 4 years of high school are the most important years of your life even though they are absolutely not….do you get what I'm saying?"
"I need to act…not happy?" Alice said slowly, an upward inflection at the end signifying her uncertainty and I nodded at her, placing a hand on her upper arm, rubbing it for comfort.
"I'm afraid so."
"But…but I'm with you! How can I not act happy?" She asked simply, her golden eyes shining with sincerity and I felt myself blushing. She really knew the right things to say to make my heart melt for her. Before I knew what I was doing, I'd wrapped her up in a hug, squeezing her sweet little self tight before pulling away to place a quick kiss on her cheek, thankfully being ignored from the students passing through the halls.
"I love you, okay?"
"Okay!" She grinned happily at me and I shook my head at her enthusiasm.
"But tone it down a bit, alright?" I requested gently and Alice shook her head, a serious expression on her face that still looked adorable because it was beyond obvious that it was forced.
"Sir, yes, sir!" She affirmed with a salute, bringing her feet together and I rolled my eyes at her.
"You're such a brat."
"Well, I am a high school student for the day, remember?" Alice smirked at me just as the bell rang.
"Oh, shit! Here, come on, we gotta go. My first hour teacher is such a bitch about being on time." I rambled off quickly, grabbing her hand and running with her to my first class. We skidded to a stop and I zoomed past my teacher in order to get into the classroom first.
"Late again, Ms. Swan?" He muttered as I took my seat, pulling up an empty desk so that Alice could sit next to me. I ran a hand through my now messy hair, shrugging my shoulders as a few classmates looked back at me, eyeballing the new girl, Alice, next to me.
"I got in before you did so technically, no, I'm on time and you're late." I smiled innocently at him and he rolled his eyes at me, checking me off on his attendance sheet.
"And who do we have here?" He asked nonchalantly as he made his way over to his desk, logging onto the prehistoric school computer to log in the attendance. As soon as he asked the question that was on everyone's mind, the entire classroom turned around in their desks to look at Alice and me. I scowled at my classmates but stopped when I noticed Alice was smiling happily back at them, waving at them enthusiastically.
This was a bad idea.
"So, like, you're the new girl?" asked a petite little blonde with a black peekaboo who had turned around in her desk to give Alice the once-over, a look of displeasure on her face and I'd bet anything that it was because Alice was prettier than her.
"Oh no, I'm just visiting for the day, see?" Alice explained cheerfully, pulling on her shirt to show off her guest pass name tag. The blonde, Melissa I think it was, wrinkled her nose in annoyance over the fact that her rudeness had been ignored by Alice's sweet disposition.
"Why would you do that?" Melissa asked petulantly.
"Because I wanna keep Bella safe from-" Alice began but I immediately interrupted with a clearing of my throat, shifting in my seat to lean towards Alice in a protective manner.
"Because she's been home schooled all her life and she wants to know what high school feels like before she decides anything definite, alright?" I ended my explanation with a sense of hostility in my voice, telling this Melissa bitch to back off. The other students, who had been not so discreetly eavesdropping, nodded their heads in understanding and turned their attention back to the teacher.
Once I was sure no one's eyes were on us, I shot my head in Alice's direction, glaring at her. She looked back at me innocently, shrugging her shoulders and whispering, 'What'd I do?'
"Alice, you can't tell people why you're really here!" I whispered quiet enough to where only her vampire senses would catch it.
"I was just gunna say bullies!" She whined back and I smacked my hand to my forehead.
"But that makes me look lame!"
"You are lame! Look at what you're wearing! Those shoes do not match the color of your shirt and those jeans just do not compliment your ass well and not to mention-"
"Hey, hey, hey, whoa! Where'd that come from?" I whispered heatedly, feeling a tad embarrassed over the fact that Alice had totally just called me out on looking like a slob. Wasn't she from the woods or some shit! How does she know anything about fashion! She must've seen a vision of my next few questions because she rolled her eyes as she explained herself.
"Look, just because I stayed away from society for the past few decades doesn't mean I don't a.) Have fashion sense and b.) Haven't been to a few places," She said matter-of-factly and I gave her a quizzical look, "I have been around?"
"Like where?" I asked her, genuinely curious now and no longer offended at her earlier rant.
"Um, pretty much everywhere minus a few of the tropical areas due to the sun. Well, actually I did manage to go to Barbados when it was storming. My favorite place was France!" She stated excitedly and I couldn't help but admire her and at the same time feel a bit…left out? Alice had been around for so long and has done and seen so many things I bet and I have no idea about them. I don't really know Alice and that fact kinda stung a little because I do love her and I want to know everything about her. I'd decided then and there that I was going to make it a point to get to know her.
"Ms. Swan, do you and your friend have something you'd like to share with the rest of the class?" Ah, stupid teachers are always so darn nosey.
"No, sir." I groaned back at him and he seemed pleased with himself.
"Good, now then…" As he babbled on, I heard Alice sigh next to me. I sensed that she wasn't so happy anymore and I scooted more towards her, carefully placing a hand on her thigh to get her attention. She looked up at me with a sad expression and my heart ached for her, feeling what she was feeling which was still a weird concept to me but I was getting used to it; we were connected after all.
"What is it?" I whispered soothingly, moving a few strands of soft black hair behind her little ear.
"It's not fair that I found you only now…I wish you coulda been there with me when I went all those places…" She admitted and I smiled gently back at her.
"Don't worry; we've got all the time in the world to do things together, okay?" I assured her and she instantly brightened up, beaming at me.
"Okay! Ah!" We both jumped as a piece of paper was slammed down onto my desk and we both looked up to find my teacher glaring down at me before he abruptly turned away to move down the rest of the aisle. I looked down at the paper realizing that it was homework and I groaned, "Wha's that?"
"It's homework…"
"So…do it at home?"
"No, I'd rather get it done now besides we've got 45 minutes left of class anyway, might as well do it." I mustered up some motivation and picked up my pencil, my eyes scanning over the sheet of paper. Ugh, I regret taking easy classes it meant that I pretty much knew everything and that all the work was frivolous. The assignment was just about paper chromatography…why the fuck did I take forensics? I'm not planning on being a C.S.I anytime soon. I thought this class would be like the t.v show, all guns and blood and maybe actually watching the show but no, it's not. It's just stupid.
"Oooo, that looks stupid." Alice commented and I glanced at her out of the corner of my eye.
"Your face looks stupid."
"You look stupid."
"Alice!" I hissed at her as she tried to pull my homework away from me and she crossed her arms over her chest, pouting like a child.
"I'm bored! This is boring! When do we get to lunch?" She whined out and I only sighed, placing my elbows on my desk and leaning my head into my hands, rubbing my temples.
Today was going to be a long day.
"Hi guys! This is Alice Brandon…she's…a…friend of the family and she's been home schooled all her life and she wanted to find out what high school was like before she made any decisions, alright?" Everyone at my lunch table shared a few glances before nodding their heads at me, smiling at me and Alice who waved happily back at them, "Okay, Alice, this is Mike, Angela, Eric, and Jessica."
"Hi there!" Alice greeted excitedly, her tone reminding me of Dug from Up and everyone laughed at how charming she was, gladly making room for her at the table.
"So how do you like high school so far?" Eric asked as I took a bite out of my sandwich. When I noticed Alice hadn't replied, I glanced next to me to find that she was staring off at the Cullen's who were doing their best to ignore her. I nudged Alice and she merely released a small growl that only I noticed.
"It's interesting." She responded, making it obvious that she was distracted. Jessica noticed what she was staring at and I knew that she was about to go off on her 'Cullen's' speech, the same one I'd gotten when I'd first moved here.
"Are you looking at that family over there?" Jessica asked cautiously, gearing herself up for her speech.
"Yes, the Cullen's." Alice responded, catching everyone at the table off guard, "I know them from a while back. I don't like them all that much."
"Any particular reason?" Mike asked her and Alice turned her head to look at him, a neutral expression on her face. She glanced down at his food then back up at his face.
"What is that?" She asked, sounding disgusted as she wrinkled her nose cutely, pointing a finger at Mike's lunch. Everyone laughed and Mike poked at it with a fork.
"What once was someone's pet, I presume." He joked and this time even Alice and I laughed. I let out a sigh of relief over the fact that the subject had been changed, kudos to my little vampire.
"Oh hey Bella, I gotta go potty, can you show me where the bathrooms are?" Alice asked, tugging on my sleeve. No one seemed to pay us any mind so I nodded, quickly getting up and escorting us out of the cafeteria, down the hall and into the nearest bathroom.
"Alice, why'd we come here?" I asked but no sooner had my question left my mouth had Alice pushed me against the sink, my lower back hitting it as both her hands gripped it on either side of my waist, "Uh…Alice?"
"I can't do this anymore!" She ground out frantically and only then did I realize that her eyes were a pitch black color. I could feel her breathing spastically, her chest heaving up and down as she moved her body close to me and it was then I realized I was cornered by her as well, "I thought I could just for a few hours but there's so many kids and the smell, oh god, Bella, the smell! I just…I need-"
"Alice, whoa, what're you doing!" I asked, my voice high pitched with panic when in a flash, she'd pressed her lower half into mine, creating a delicious pressure between us. I bit back a moan as she leant into me, her lips bypassing mine and I felt her cold cheek graze against my own flushed ones and I shivered as she pressed her nose into my hair, inhaling deeply.
"You smell so good…like vanilla and strawberries and flowers and it's-it's distracting, please, just…I need this." Her voice was low and husky and god, she could have asked me to do anything right then. I tried to calm my breathing down but it was really hard to do with Alice so close to me. I knew it was a matter of time before she started to smell…something else because my body was getting far too excited at the position we were in and I really couldn't help it! She was just so enticing and I could feel her lithe body against mine, pressing into me as she attempted to rid herself of the smell of blood. I almost lost it when her hands slid from the sink and onto my hips, gripping me gently as she moved her head down to my neck and I could feel her breathing me in deep.
But then her body tensed.
She sniffed once…twice before she slowly pulled her head back to look me in the eyes. I bit my lip as I looked at her, ashamed and embarrassed because I'm willing to bet money on what she'd only now just discovered. Her eyes were still a dark color but they seemed less threatening as she cocked her head to the side slightly, her lips parted in curiosity as she watched me. I couldn't quite look her in the eye and the fact that she was still against me caused me to squirm. Ah, this is embarrassing, she knew, she totally knew.
Here she was trying to be a good vampire and simply smell me to keep her from killing my classmates and here I am, getting really turned on by her. The look on her face hadn't changed even when she'd decided to try something and I believe it was her way of making sure of what was going on here as she ground her hips into me, making me lose it.
"Alice!" I cried out, my voice breathy and high, my eyes shutting tight for a brief moment at the amazing sensation. I heard a small, dark chuckle and as I opened my eyes, I found her smirking at me, "Alice…no, don't-"
"Mmm, mine!" Alice purred out before she captured my lips with her own, one hand gripping my hip while the other came up to cup my cheek, tilting my head slightly, encouraging me to move with her. Ah! But we were at school! We were in the bathroom at school, making out! We can't do this! Not here! Not right now! I released a small moan when her cold, silky tongue came out to trace my bottom lip, her teeth gently nipped at it, earning her another moan. I opened my mouth just so for her, my head spinning when I felt her tongue slide gracefully against my own, her hips rocking against mine. I was no longer coherent, Alice had managed to completely shut down my brain or at least force it to only think about one thing; Alice, Alice, Alice. I no longer cared where I was, how long I'd been there for or anything of the sort. I just cared about her, I only wanted her, and I only needed her.
"Alice, baby!" I gasped, biting at my lower lip when she pulled away, her lips sucking, her teeth nipping at the sensitive skin on my neck. My hands came up to tangle themselves in her hair, tugging on a few strands and she growled against me, lifting her head up, her coal black eyes smoldering with desire for me and only me as she looked into my own chocolate brown eyes which reflected much the same feeling.
"You are mine," She purred out, kissing me roughly before pulling away again, her hands coming up to cup my face, "You're all mine," She repeated more firmly and I could only nod back stupidly, my mind in a daze over how worked up I was. I didn't even notice when her hands slid down to my breasts until she squeezed them, making me cry out in ecstasy, "These are mine!" She kissed me again and it felt like I was floating on air…that is until her right hand went straight between my legs, cupping me firmly, "This is mine!"
Whoa! I'm up!
"Whoa whoa whoa, Alice, hold up, hold up! Stop!" I gasped out, my hands coming up to grip at her shoulders, pushing her away from me slightly. I wasn't surprised when she didn't budge but she did seem to sort of snap out of whatever it was she was in. She didn't move her hand as she looked up at me confusedly.
"But I wanna show you!" Alice whined out, her fangs dropping a bit as her black eyes swirled with a little bit of gold showing me that her love for me was winning out over her lust for me.
"Show me what!" I asked incredulously, her face still close to mine.
"I wanna show you how much I love you!"
Oh.
Oooooh!
Oh no.
Oh hell no!
"What? No! Not here! We can't do that here!" I practically shouted at her and she furrowed her brows at me, an almost pouting look on her face when she realized that she wasn't getting any, at least not right now, not here of all places. In fact I had no idea where this came from all of a sudden.
"But why not? I love you! I wanna show you that! Don't you love me?" She whined, a puppy dog pout expression plastered on her face that she knew I couldn't resist.
"Don't be ridiculous, Alice! Of course I love you! You know I do, it's just that…we can't do that here! And you know that too, you just need to calm down…" I trailed off as the gold in her eyes became over clouded with black once more; it was like watching ink drop into water. I bit my lip nervously as a small growling sound vibrated from within her chest as she took a few steps back from me and I instantly missed the contact.
"Fine! I see how it is! You don't love me, it's cool, I get it!" Alice snarled out and I was completely flabbergasted by her words and her sudden hostility. She was trying to make me feel bad about not wanting to get down and dirty with her in my school's bathroom? What the hell was wrong with her? It's like she was pissed because she couldn't have her own way.
"Alice, stop! You know that's not true! What's wrong with you? I didn't mean to upset you but now you're just being a…a jerk!" I accused her and she bared her fangs at me, her tiny hands balled tightly into shaking fists at her side, her shoulders squared in a threatening position and I knew that her vampire side was in almost complete control.
"A jerk? You're the jerk! You teased me!" She shouted, her words sounding vicious as she glowered at me.
"Teased you!"
"Yes, teased me! I know you wanted it, I could smell it! And then you push me away when I'm only trying to-" Alice paused her yelling as the bell rang loudly in the restroom, indicating that lunch was over and that in less than a few seconds, students would be pouring out into the halls. I looked over at Alice warily, watching as she looked up at the bell then slowly back down at me, her face contorted with pain, anger, and sadness. I had no idea what she was going through but I really wanted us to be okay and I really wanted to hold her in my arms until she was okay. I extended a hand but ceased my actions when Alice cried out in pain, clutching at her head as though she had a migraine, "I can't take this anymore, I gotta go."
"Wait, Alice, don't leave-" I called out but in a blur, she was gone, the bathroom door swinging with her exit. I felt sick. Like physically sick. My stomach hurt and my heart ached as my mind replayed what just happened. We just had a fight and I think it's my fault…I wrapped my arms around my torso as I walked out of the bathroom only to be stopped by Jasper Cullen.
"Ma'am." He greeted me and I eyed him warily, pursing my lips.
"Jasper."
"So Alice left, huh?"
"Yes, she did but I'm not discussing her with you. Now if you'll excuse me-" I began, attempting to move past him but he cut me off, stepping in front of me.
"Look, I'm not going to hurt you. I'm not here to anger you or talk bad about Alice, in fact just the opposite. I want to tell you a few things about Alice that might help you out." He explained calmly in his somewhat charming southern accent.
"Why would you wanna help me out?" I inquired, not quite falling for this bullshit just yet.
"Because what happened between us, Cullen's and her, isn't what you think. It was bad, yes, and I feel bad about what my family tried to do to her but that's another story that should probably be told to you by her when she's ready but until then…I'd like to make up for what we did the best I can. So please, will you hear me out?" He pleaded with me and I felt myself loosening up a bit.
"Okay…"
"Thank you, Ms. Swan. I'm guessing you're confused about what just happened in there, am I right?"
"How'd you-you know what never mind, it's probably a vampire thing." I deadpanned and he actually chuckled at my words.
"Yes, you're right. You're Alice's mate, you know? The way you smell to her is more than just blood. You smell like the most appealing thing in the world to her which is why she used you as a distraction so she wouldn't harm anyone. It's a defense mechanism, if you will. The close contact wasn't meant to stir anything up, it was harmless. You can't help the way you reacted to it but that also means she can't help the way she reacted to the way you were starting to smell to her. Forgive me if this embarrasses you but you were…aroused and when she sensed that, her natural instincts were telling her to take care of that, to please you, understand?" He explained evenly and though my cheeks were burning red with embarrassment, I managed to shake my head in understanding, allowing him to continue, "Then when you came to your senses and pushed her away, she felt rejected, denied. So she got mad, she was already stressed out enough as it is, she can't help the way she acted, Bella."
"I know that but…"
"Look, it's like…it's like when say, one of your friends is sad so you hug them to comfort them but they don't like to be touched so they push you away and for you it's like 'I was just trying to help! Fine, fuck you then!' ya know?" I laughed at the sudden curse because he just seemed like type of guy to not swear, that and his example was not exactly the same thing but the guy was trying so I gave him that, "Did that help any?"
"Yeah…yeah it actually did. Thank you very much, Jasper. I…I'm glad that not all the Cullen's are so bad." I smiled at him softly and he seemed more than happy to smile back, a sigh escaping his lips.
"No thank you, Bella, for actually giving me a chance and listening to me. You're not such a bad human. It's a shame about this whole…misunderstanding going on between us all." He muttered as he began to turn himself, ready to walk off down on the wall.
"Well you can change that can't you?" I said just as he took his first step away from me. He looked over his shoulder, a sad expression on his face.
"Not alone, no." Was all he said before he finally walked off down the hall.
I stood there for a moment, thinking about everything and as the one minute warning bell rang, I realized what I had to do.
I'd quickly signed myself out at the office, fake calling my dad at work and claiming that I was sick. I smirked proudly at myself for my ingenious acting skills as I drove home in my beat up red truck. I knew Alice couldn't be anywhere else but back at home, I could feel it. I pulled up into the driveway, shutting the car off and yanking the keys out as I kicked the door open, slamming it shut and running up into my house. I shut the door behind me, happy to see that Charlie was still at work.
"Alice!" I called out, tearing off my shoes as I stormed up the stairs, down the hall, skidding to a stop as I pushed the door to my room open.
"Alice…" I whispered gently, my eyes welling up with tears of relief when I found her, lying curled up on my bed, wearing nothing but an oversized t-shirt of mine and panties which from the looks of my room, looked as if she'd scrambled through my dresser to find something that fit proper. She was hugging my pillow to her little body and my heart ached as she looked up at me, her bright golden eyes shining with unshed tears.
"I missed you…" She stated as she sat up on the bed, an arm clutching the pillow to her torso while the other rubbed away at her eyes.
"Come here…" I commanded softly, opening my arms for her as she got up off the bed slowly, her head hanging low and her arms loosely at her sides. She stepped into my embrace, allowing her body to slump against mine as soon I'd wrapped my arms around her.
"I'm sorry, Bella." She sobbed, burying her head in between my neck and shoulder. I nuzzled the side of her head, feeling her soft black locks caress my cheek as my hands rubbed soothingly at her back, holding her tight.
"Babygirl…" I cooed, taking on a motherly tone as she began to settle down against me, a deep purring sound began to vibrate from her chest, instantly making me feel more at ease.
"I didn't mean to-" She began but I cut her off with a kiss to the top of her head.
"Sh, I know, Hun. I do, it's okay. Let's not talk about it right now, alright?"
"Alright…"
"Okay, then," I spoke to her like a mother would her child, a small smile on my lips. I slowly began to walk us back on to my bed and Alice allowed me to place us down on it carefully. I lay on my back, sprawled out on the bed with my head and shoulders on the pillow and Alice was simply curled up into my side, a leg over mine and an arm hugging my waist as my own arms held her to me. Her purring had not ceased as she burrowed her head into my neck, inhaling me and I couldn't help but smile again because I knew what she was doing, "I love you, Alice Brandon."
"I love you, Bella Swan." She mumbled against my skin and I laughed at the feel of her lips moving against my neck. We lay there quietly for a few minutes, simply enjoying each other's presence.
"So…I see that you're wearing my shirt…" I began and I felt Alice laugh in her throat as her hand round my waist began to knead at said shirt.
"Yeah…I am…I couldn't help it. I came home so upset about everything and then I realized I'd left you at school and I'd no idea how long you'd be there for cause you really didn't decide anything so…so I went through your drawers and stuff and this shirt smelled most like you…so I put it on…" Alice admitted softly, sounding embarrassed and I couldn't help but go 'awe'.
"Alice…! Baby, that's the cutest thing I've ever heard!" I exclaimed, placing a kiss on the top of her head.
"I like it when you call me baby…"
"Oh yeah? Well get used it because-What is it? I asked her when I felt her body tense up against my own. It took a few seconds but she snapped out of it.
"Charlie's home," She stated, moving to get up and go hide but I only held her tighter to me. She looked down at me in surprise, "Bella! Let go! I gotta hide or he's gunna-"
"Alice, I think it's about time I introduced you to him. It's only fair since you've been staying here, in his house, uninvited, for the past few nights….and since you intend on staying for the rest of forever...agree?" I asked her, my cutest expression on that I knew would make her melt. I grinned when she rolled her eyes at me, sighing at how easily she'd given in.
"Agreed…"
1.) Guess Passes are real, no I did not make them up. We had them in middle school. My best friend had moved away 8th grade year but the one day her school didn't have school but we did and so I took her to school and filled out a 'guest pass' which allowed to her to go to all my classes with me as long as she behaved. Which...we did not. So! Yeah, I figured it would work for this chapter...but it's only for a day.