I don't know why, but I seem fond of drabbles lately. And yes, I'm aware that it is vague and rambling. I intended that. I though I would try out stream of consciousness and see how it went. It's based of a bit of RP that I am currently doing with Ambyrawrawr. If you can't tell what's going on (I was rather vague...) Feel free to ask, I don't mind explaining. One last thing and I'll stop my rambling, yes I do know the formatting is odd. I did that on purpose too XD
"I'm sorry."
The words echo in my head.
"I'm sorry."
Then why did you leave?
"I'm sorry."
No, you're not.
You're never sorry.
"I'm sorry."
Make it stop!
"I'm sorry."
A prick.
Sweet oblivion.
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...
He left me.
That's all I can think.
He left me.
There is no point.
No point in trying. He's not here.
Who am I supposed to stand beside?
He's not here.
I finger the blade.
Oh happy dagger here is your sheath.
Sweet, sweet pain.
Bandages.
Not tonight, not today.
Death is denied once again.
Hot, so hot.
Yet, I'm freezing.
Pain, confusion.
Why isn't he here? Doesn't he love me anymore?
I flinch away from a gentle hand.
Please! Make it stop! Let me fall into sweet oblivion.
He left me.
Let me die! He doesn't love me!
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...
Time.
How much?
Don't know.
"Matt, wake up Mattie! Please!"
An angel? An angel is calling me?
"I shouldn't have left! I'm sorry!"
Crying? Don't cry angel. You shouldn't be sad.
"I'm sorry…"
The words echo in my head.
Blackness.
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...
Ow. My head hurts. I'm sweaty and gross. There is a weight on my chest? I hear crying… I open my eyes and see blond hair. I stop breathing. No, no. He left! I-I've lost it! I'm delusional! I have to be. He sits up quickly. His eyes are red and puffy. Why? Why cry for me?
"Matt, you dumbass! What the hell were you thinking you idiot!" I place a hand on his face.
"You're real…"
"No shit." He growled. I struggled to sit up, clinging to him. He returned the embrace.
"So help me, Matt. You touch that shit again I'm going to beat your fucking ass!"
"I love you Mello."
"I love you too, Matt." As his lips touched mine my dormant heart burst, crying happily with each beat, "He's back, he's back!"