Title: Love Me Love Me Not
Chapter: Mother Nature's Mistake
Date: November 9, 2010
Everything stopped as the consort of the Western Lands finally hit the ground. The soldiers all looked to their lord and his heir, the transformed wolf lord laid upon the ground in pain and shock, and Inuyasha continued to bounce lightly in the large crevasse that had suddenly appeared before being hastily covered with vines. The half demon gave a howl of heart wrenching agony at yet another failed attempt before his youki exploded across the courtyard. It swirled about a twenty square meter area, killing off the plant life and sending the guards of the palace to their knees while the two DaiYoukai remained mostly unaffected. It was then that another voice joined the fray.
"INUTAISHO! STOP HIM!" Mother Nature showed herself once more in the face of her followers. Inuyasha's human side and youkai side had finally completely separated from each other and began to attack the other half themselves. Mother Nature had not thought that Inuyasha was that desperate, did not think that the pain of what he was had been that much, that the betrayal of his family had ran that deep, but she could see it with every expanding lash of his youki. There was nothing she could do to stop him from the path of self-destruction that he had chosen; only blood would be able to do that.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. OKAA-CHAN, I'M SORRY!" Sesshoumaru yelled out as he ran to his mother and hugged the hanyou fiercely. He embraced Inuyasha like he had not done since he was ten years old and he cried in repentance of what he had done to the wonderful being that had birthed him and loved him despite what he had become and what he had done. He cried like a child, like the child he had been when he had fell from his first tree when he was a pup exploring the boundaries of his abilities. He clung to Inuyasha now like he had then when his mother would soothe ache with tender kisses and heal his wounded pride with words of pride and praise.
The swirling, clashing, lashing youki abruptly ceased, the glow that had started to engulf the hanyou dimmed and died out, and slowly, Inuyasha began to react even as his mind was still in pieces. The white haired half-inu's arms surrounded his firstborn child just as if Sesshoumaru were a demon of ten again rather than one hundred. Just as slowly, Inuyasha's fragmented mind began to haphazardly piece things back together as he buried his nose in the scent of his child, as he kissed the crescent moon that made Sesshoumaru unique, and then he began to cry. Inuyasha cried in mourning over the fact he had caused his son such pain, that he had reduced the strong, stoic demon to shameless tears, and most of all, Inuyasha cried for himself for still being alive to haunt the lives of those that he loved the most.
It had been almost a month since Inuyasha's last attempt at taking his own life and his children had yet to let go of him as though he would disappear from their lives. They refused to do anything without the presence of their mother including their tutoring, meals, and playtime. Sesshoumaru would not even attend meetings with his father unless his mother was there as well. Unbeknownst to Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha, the hanyou's appearance had the added effect of demonstrating Inuyasha's politically sharp mind. InuTaisho had seen it when the half-demon had slept for fifty years, but to see the boy in action was absolutely jaw dropping. Not only was InuTaisho impressed, so were the other lords as they even admitted to their jealousy of the inu king having such an intelligent and beautiful mate.
"Not all of us can be that lucky, dear friend. Oh, and should you ever pass on, I would love to take care of your…," the demon was silenced by the dangerous aura that began to admit from the great DaiYoukai.
"Kidding, kidding! Sheesh, with an aura like that, someone might actually think you cared for the little one." InuTaisho tried to snort, but something about his old friend's words rang true and the demon lord found that instead of angry or amused, he was just tired. With his constant vigilance of Inuyasha, he had not had much time to sort through his own emotions and separate them so that he could finally find out what Inuyasha truly meant to him, if the bastard meant anything to him at all.
Mother Nature watched with sad eyes as she observed her favored child going through the motions of life listlessly. Her predictions were never wrong, but she was starting to seriously doubt this one would end the way she had seen it as she watched Inuyasha continue to wither away despite the love of his children and the attempts of compromise of his mate. Inuyasha had already been a broken being when he had been forced by not only InuTaisho's hand to mate, but hers as well. The last straw seemed to be when Inuyasha's own children, the fruit of his own womb, turned against him as well and the betrayal of those that were supposed to love you unconditionally still ran deep in the hanyou. Perhaps he would have been happier if she had not intervened on InuTaisho's behalf, but there was nothing she could do to change the past. However, it was not looking good for the future either.
The woman cried as she thought about how she had destroyed one of her own in mind, body, spirit, and most of all, she had destroyed his trust in not only her, but anyone. Even the healer that had always taken care of him, taken his side was no longer trusted by Inuyasha, despite having done nothing to break Inuyasha's trust. It was because of her and not listening to his pleas and cries of help when the pain had become too much, when the betrayal had begun to dig crevasses instead of trenches, and most of all, she had allowed other priorities to top him when for so long he had been her number one. She had been his solace and she had provided him shelter and friends when the world would give him neither. She had ruined that to further her own plans of change for a world that was not yet ready and she had put it on shoulders that were not strong enough to bear the weight that it had already held. She had told the house of inu that it was up to them to fix Inuyasha, but it was also up to her. She also knew that it was going to cause Inuyasha yet more pain, but this time she knew, she had to know, that it would work out for the best in the end.
Inuyasha was drowning and every time he got a breath of fresh air, someone ripped it away from him. They screamed, yelled, and beat it into him that he was not wanted or needed on this earth and yet they refuse to let him die. His children, the few beings on this plane that were supposed to love him in equal turnabout of his love for them betrayed him, and his mate made it quite clear that he had no more use for him. All it did was to reaffirm to him what he already knew; no one ever has or ever will love a hanyou. He was a filthy, disgusting creature that was not fit to inhabit the earth, yet every time he tried to fix that mistake that Mother had forced upon everyone, no one would let him do it. He was confused, yet he knew one thing, he wanted out, he wanted peace, and for once he was going to be selfish enough to do whatever it took to achieve it.
A/N: Depressing, I know, but I did give out warnings in the beginning so no complaints as I will burn them at the bonfire this weekend. However, I posted earlier than planned because I got so many reviews last chapter. However, I am a greedy authoress and demand more before I will consider posting the next chapter. So, Review, Review, Review, Review!
Cheers!
Nama