So here we go! I'm warning you right now, this chapter gets a little...angsty. Thank you very much to all who have review/alerted once again :)
The following Saturday Puck picked her up at exactly 5:00. Quinn noticed that he was wearing one of the few collar shirts he owned.
"You look pretty," He commented as he walked her to his car as he was mentally kicking himself for saying something that cheesy.
"Thank you," she mumbled as she self consiously adjusted her cardigan.
"No, really, you do. I always liked it when you had your hair down," He absentmindingly reached out to play with her hair.
Quinn's eyes trailed down to where he was playing with the tip of her hair. Puck seemed to realize where his hand was too, so he withdrew it quickly.
"Um, lets go," Quinn made the rest of the way to his truck. Puck followed in silence.
"Do you know where she lives?" Quinn asked once they were in the car.
"Yeah, she lives about 15 minutes away." Puck answered.
So, they started driving and slipped into an awkward silence. Puck started to fiddle with the radio, finaling settling on a station. Things were still awkward until 'Only The Good Die Young'. Puck chuckled as he started to hum and turn up the volume.
"What's the matter? Don't like my song choice?" Puck asked Quinn, "You do know at one point last year I was considering singing this to you."
"Are you serious?" Quinn asked in disbelief.
"Yeah, I never wanted anyone so badly," He paused before saying, "I still want you." He mumbled quietly under his breath.
Quinn had heard that last statement, but kept quiet. She smiled as Puck mumbled along to the lyrics.
"I can so see you doing that too," She smiled.
"What? Singing to your window or grinding you at homecoming to this?" Puck winked at her. "I would have, too."
"And I probably still would have slept with you," Quinn confessed.
"Oh yeah?" Puck inquired.
"Yes, you are the only person with whom I only want...more. I wanted you, pretty bad." She admitted.
Puck raised his eyebrow and smirked, "What can I say, chicks dig the Puckasaurus."
"Shut up," Quinn replied while rolling her eyes.
"What about Sammie boy?" Puck chuckled, "Do you ever want more with him?"
"No, the only times I ever really push myself with Sam is when I need a distraction. When the world gets too hard, I fool around with Sam." She answers honestly.
"Do you enjoy it?" Puck presses further.
"He's cute, but no, It's when I can't escape my thoughts, i call him over and we fool around." She says quietly.
"Oh, ok." Puck didn't know what else to say.
Puck turned the car around a corner. "Are you nervous?" He finally asked.
"Yes," she replied without a minute of hesistation. "Are you?"
"Not really, I'm excited." He said.
"Yeah, me too." Quinn agreed.
The rest of the ride was silent, they couldn't really think of anything to say. When they finally reached Shelby's house, Puck stopped the car but neither of them could make a move towards the house.
"Alright," Puck breathed out "Lets do this."
Quinn nodded and they both got out of the car, Puck took her hand as they made there way to the door bell. Quinn rang the doorbell and waited for Shelby to answer.
When Shebly opened the door she immedeantly let them in. She hugged both of them and lead them to the family room where Beth was playing. Once they laid eyes on her they both stopped breathing.
Beth was the most beautiful baby in the world. She had light curly blong hair and green eyes and cheeks that dimpled when she smiled. Quinn thought she looked Puck with her eyes but Puck saw Quinn in her.
"Well," shelby began, "I have to get my friend, but thank you for the gift certificat, I have my cell phone if you need anything so..bye." She smiled and left.
Puck and Quinn couldn't stop staring at the baby, the one person who was half Quinn and half Puck.
"Wow." Was all that Quinn said after a while.
"Yeah, she still looks like you," Puck smiled as he went down to sit next to Beth.
"I see you, shes gotten so big..." Quinn trailed aff as she went to join him.
"Yeah..." Puck mumbled.
For the rest of the night they spent playing with Beth, they played peek-a-boo and with her puppets. Beth rarely stopped smiling the entire time as neither did Quinn and Puck. Eventually though Beth let out a little yawn and rifted off to sleep in Quinns arms.
"Shes perfect," Puck mumbled as he lightly ran his fingers through her hair.
"Shes the best thing I have ever done." Quinn said with a completly serious tone.
"We have ever done," Puck corrected, "It's pretty cool, we made a baby together, like this little person is from a tiny part of me and a tiny part of you. I can get that through my head."
"Yeah, no doubt." Quinn went silent until she realized what Puck was doing with his fingers and her hair. "Hey! What are you doing to her hair?"
"C'mon I'm making her happy! Look its a mini mohawk!" He laughed as he kept on scooping her hair into a tiny mohawk.
"Stop! You'll wake her up!" but Quinn couldn't help laughing, the mohawk was cute on Beth.
"I wish I could live in this moment forever," Puck mused out loud, continued as Quinn didn't say anything, "With you and Beth, screw school and Sam and Santana and whoever else. Right here on this couch are the only things I need. Everthing else can get fucked."
Quinn opened her mouth to say something but at that exact moment Shelby came into the door.
"Hey," She whispered quietly looking at a sleeping Beth. "How was it?" She asked.
"It was great, thank you so much." Quinn thanked her.
After they said their goodbyes and both kissed Beth on the head, they ended up in Pucks car, driving home in an even quieter silence.
"I already miss her," Puck finally broke the silence that had formed.
"Me too," Quinn admitted.
"We could have kept her," Puck knew he was charting into forbidden territory here as he said those words.
"No, we really couldn't have." Quinn said immedeantly in a slightly acidin tone.
"Yes, we could have." Puck further pressed on.
"How could we Puck? You went to juvie this year! You slept around, broke up relationships as usual, it wouldn't have worked!" Quinn said in a raised voice.
"At least I never forgot about her!" Puck yelled back at her.
"How did I forget?" Quinn asked him sarcastically.
"Yeah, maybe I slept around, but you moved on into a serious relationship! Do you know the whole time I was with Rachel I was thinking of us last year! I stopped because I didn't want her viginity, I wanted yours last year!" Quinn tried to say something but Puck kept on going. "Why do you think I got a vasectomy? Because I didn't want to have another baby with anyon e else but you!" Puck spat out at her she her turned the corner onto her street.
"It wouldn't have worked, Noah" she added the use of his real name to empathaize her point.
"You heartless bitch, it would have worked, I love you and I love her more then anything in the world." Puck said to her with the most hate he could muster.
"Don't you dare call me heartless, I love Beth more than anything in this world. And that's why I gave her up for adoption, she deserves so much better then anything we could have provided for her!" Quinn paused for a moment before looking directly into Pucks eyes and adding, "And you don't love me."
"How dare you say that, I loved you since I was in grade 8." Puck spat out at her. They were at the end of her driveway now but neither one of them moved.
"No you didn't!" Quinn screamed at him, "where was the guy that loved me when we were babysitting those triplets! Oh yeah, sexting Santana! What were you doing when we were dating and I was living at your house? Oh yeah, trying to get Rachel to make out with you! Do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep at your house! I thought I could love you too...so many people rejected me; my parents, Finn, the cheerios. But I honestly thought that maybe you would be different to love. But you weren't, you were the biggest dispointment of all."
Puck then undid his seatbelt and moved toward Quinn, capturing her face in his hands and kissing her. Puck put all his emotions into the kiss; he put the pain of not having Beth with him, the anger of her and Sam, the love that he will always have...he put all the emotions that he couldn't put into words into that kiss. Quinn didn't move her lips, instead she pushed his off with all her force. Puck was far stronger then her and continued to kiss Quinn and forced her mouth open with his and pushed his tongue into her mouth. Quinn quickly slapped Puck on the side of his face and he pulled away.
"Stay the fuck away from me," Quinn said slowly and in the most hateful voice she had ever used in her life. She quickly got out of the car and ran to her house, never once looking back.
Puck drives away, when he gets home he takes a bottle of Jack Daniels and he drinks, he drinks until the bottle is empty and he's passed out.
The following Monday at school he walks into glee. Quinn is sitting next to Sam, who is smiling like crazy. It isn't until Puck sits next to Finn that he finds that that Sam and Quinn had sex over the weekend. Puck can feel his heart literally drop to his stomach.
This week, the assignement is putting emotions into songs. Without a second of hesistation Puck gets up and finds the guitar and makes his way to the front of the classroom. Without rehearsal or any thought whatsoever he sings a mash-up of Grenade by Bruno Mars and Heartless covered by the Fray. He shamelessly stares at Quinn throughout the whole song, she shamelessly stares back.
When the bell rings at the end of his performence he watches Quinn leave the classroom. She doesnt look back.
So...hope you enjoyed! Should I continue or leave it as is? let me know please :) !