Chapter 7: Confessions
Author's Notes: Oh! I could just kiss you guys for all of your great reviews! Thank you so much for leaving your comments! I take each and everyone to heart. :3
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Dark: A fan club, huh? Well, I would really be honored if it did happen… Would be so cool… -Daydreams- …Huh? Oh! Right! I'm supposed to be replying to your review… oo; Anyways… You think so. :3 I tried to make him as attractive as I could.
Safety: Thanks, Safety. :3 I thought it was pretty cute too.
Arowl: It does seem like a pretty yummy couple, doesn't it? ;3 I thought it was funny, how he was able to manipulate Mike and the waitress, and how the waitress was trying so hard to look sexy, not knowing she had no affect. xD
Amina: Will do. ;3 Thanks for the review! Hope to hear more from you. :3
Beth: You're not a loser!! You Cool for giving me such a huge review:P As for the Sam thing…I forgot to explain that, huh… Hmm…might have to try and fit it in this chapter somehow… I know, I love Angels and the name Bastion too. Sounds so cool… Bastion… xD So much better than Sebastian if you ask me…
Anyways, without further ado, I present to you a chapter that I'm pretty sure you'll all enjoy… :3
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"Oh my God!" Bella screamed for what seemed to be the fifth time. We were laughing as I flew us back to the Cullens.
"I can't believe we managed to get out of it! Did you see the look on her face when you pretended to ask her out?! She practically fainted! If it weren't for you, that waitress would have never let our meal on the house. Thanks, cuz!" She poked my ribs with her elbow.
"No problem," I stated cheerfully. We flew all the way back home, faster than before this time because Bella wished it. "I'm starting to get used to the speed. Edward never slows down for me." I smiled. "Well it is fun annoying you."
Bella faked a gasp and looked towards me, shocked. "What?! How could you say such a thing?!" We were still giggling as we finally reached the Cullen's house. Edward was waiting outside. No surprise there. Bella sighed, but sat in his lap anyway. He wrapped his arms around her protectively, looking suspiciously at me.
Before Edward could say anything, Bella interrupted him. "Thanks for tonight, Bastion, and for saving me from Mike." She made sure to stress the last sentence so that Edward would hear her clearly. Then she said something I wasn't really expecting. "If it's worth anything, I already consider you like a distant cousin. We get along so well, but I barely even know you. Maybe we should do this more often? You know, going out and stuff. Edward isn't one to leave the house much, and when he can he doesn't even eat. Plus it was fun talking about guys with ya."
I stood there, completely stunned. After a few more moments I scratched the back of my head, grinning awkwardly. "Aw, thanks, Bells. It would be an honor to be your distant fake cousin." I chuckled, but bowed anyway. She giggled. I looked towards Edward now. He seemed to be in a better mood. I smiled towards him.
You're a very lucky man, Edward Cullen. Please, don't let anything bad happen to Bella, I told him telepathically. He seemed shocked.
You can…
Speak telepathically? Yup. I smirked. He didn't have anything else to say. I could have stood there grinning for a while, but I felt a weird feeling come over me.
Bastion, spoke up my angel. Someone's coming, I'm pretty sure it's a werewolf. I nodded my head.
"You guys should go inside, I have some…business to take care of," I explained. They seemed confused but went inside anyway, although not before Edward had a chance to glance at me once more. They shut the door and I quickly flew deeper into the forest. Having a werewolf so close to the Cullens wouldn't be a good thing…
After finally finding a good spot in the middle of the dense trees, I waited for my visitor. I stood there for several seconds before I heard a rustling in the leaves. I turned around to have the surprise of my life. "Jacob…?"
Jacob came slowly out of the trees towards me. He tried to grin, but it ended up looking awkward. He seemed uncomfortable about something.
"Mind if we talk?" he asked me. I shook my head and sat down, waiting for whatever it was he had to tell me. He took a seat right beside me, smiling more comfortably now.
"You're looking better," he complimented. I smiled.
"Thanks. Food'll do that to ya," I responded. He chuckled. He seemed to stare off into the distance for awhile. I could only guess he was thinking about how to go about saying what he had to say.
"May I ask you a question?" he asked after awhile, still staring off into space.
"Anything," I replied, my voice close to a whisper. He smiled warmly now. I loved it when he smiled that way…
"Why did you fly off after telling me your story?"
I blinked, slightly taken aback, before looking towards the ground. "I thought you wanted me to leave… Not many take a liking to my sexuality, and from the look you had on your face I thought…" I was suddenly silenced when Jacob took my hand in his, interlacing our fingers. He was sitting directly in front of me, his face only inches from mine. I felt my heart beat faster. He was so close to me…and that smile…
"You thought I hated you for being gay?" he asked me, slight astonishment evident in his voice. I nodded my head sadly. He began laughing. A deep, beautiful laugh that was music to my very heart and soul.
"I'm sorry for giving you the wrong impression, but I wasn't stunned about your being gay, more at what your parents did to you…" His face suddenly became very stern. "It's beyond words, how they treated you… How they could overlook someone as magnificent as you is beyond me. It makes me so angry… I wish I was there to stop them or something, to stop the pain that you must have had to go through." His other hand suddenly clenched into a fist, shaking with anger, but the hand intertwined with my own remained gentle and loving. I felt tears stream down my eyes and I looked away, shutting them tightly. He stroked my cheeks, wiping the tears away.
"Bastion? What's wrong?" he asked, his voice full of concern. I turned back to look at him, my eyes filled with grief.
"I can't do it," I sobbed. He seemed confused, but he brought my face to his chest, holding me protectively.
"I don't understand," he muttered, trying to calm me down. I shook my head and pulled away enough for him to look into my eyes.
"I tried… I honestly tried to get over you. I told myself that you were straight, that you were in love with Bella and could never have feelings for me, but I just couldn't do it…" My voice became higher as I tried to stop the tears from flowing. I swallowed audibly, sniffling and wiping my own tears away. "I couldn't do it, Jacob… You're such a great guy. So wonderful, so caring… I told myself that after Jason I would never again find someone to love…but I have…he just won't be able to return my feelings… I'm sorry, Jacob… I'm so…"
Once again I was silenced, but this time from Jacob's lips on my own. He was kissing me! My eyes widened, darting from side to side frantically, trying to make sure I wasn't just imagining things, but it was actually happening…! Jacob poured emotion more into the kiss and I found myself quickly giving in, kissing back passionately. I felt Jacob's large, strong arms wrap around me, holding me closer to him. I wrapped my own arms around his neck, and stretched out my wings over his body. As he pushed me onto the ground, his much larger body leaning into mine keeping me flat against the ground, I felt his tongue slide over my lips, asking for entrance. I quickly complied, letting his tongue enter my own mouth, feeling it explore every crevice, every tooth… The feeling was better than I could have ever imagined.
We remained that way for several minutes, but what only seemed like seconds. When we finally parted I was left gasping for air. I hadn't been breathing too well. I felt Jacob nuzzle up against my neck, his arms growing slightly tighter around me, and it was then I discovered something. All this time I had felt empty, like some huge part of me was missing. With Jacob now here, holding me after such a wonderful kiss… I felt…whole… I sighed, still unable to believe it.
"But I thought…with you and Bella…"
He looked towards me and his face held the most beautiful smile I had ever seen on anyone. "I admit, I had strong feelings for Bella, but she has Edward now. I was angry with him for taking her from me, but I realized that I have no right to take her away form her happiness. She's deeply in love with Edward, a love that cannot be broken… A love that I find myself now feeling for you…"
I was rendered completely speechless. He looked at me quizzically and I mustered something to say.
"That was the most…beautiful thing anyone has ever told me… Not even Jason would tell me things like that," I admitted. For the first time ever I found that speaking his name didn't hurt. He grinned.
"Well, that's because Jason was an ass. He didn't know how to appreciate you or love you the way you should be…he wasn't the right guy for you. I can be that guy, Bastion…if you'll let me…"
I didn't speak. The question he asked required a different answer, something beyond those that mere words could offer, so I pulled him in for another kiss. One that lasted longer than the first.
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We were left lying next to each other, our hands still laced together, staring up at the beautiful, white moon above us. Everything seemed right with the world.
"Bastion?" Jacob muttered, trying to grab my attention. I looked towards him, into his dark, beautiful eyes.
"Yes, Jacob?"
He looked back towards the sky. "Back at the house…what happened to you then? You seemed to be in so much pain…I doubt it all came just from hunger."
I smiled and nuzzled my head into his neck. He wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling me closer. I placed one of my hands on his chest. "Jason ripped some really big, emotional scars in me after he left… I was so heartbroken that whenever those who were in love were to display it before me it hurt, like being stabbed through the heart. The love Sam has for Emily is unconditional, it's why it hurt so much." I felt Jacob's chest tremble beneath my hand as he growled.
"I swear, if I ever find him I'll tear him to pieces for what he's done to you… Single-handedly." I smiled slightly, but a question began bugging me so I decided to ask.
"What will Sam and the rest of the werewolves think of us being together?"
Jacob smirked. "They're still trying to register it all, but Sam seems fine with it. In fact, I think he's…happy for me…"
I chuckled. "Must be weird having people open to your thoughts twenty-four seven." He shrugged.
"I've gotten used to it. Comes with the territory," he remarked. He turned over to face me, placing a tender kiss to my lips before holding me close. "I've got to go, though… They're calling me."
I sighed, disappointed, but he gave me a tight squeeze. "I'll come see you, like tonight. I promise." He kissed my forehead. I kissed him on the neck, pulled away, and he was gone.
I flew back towards the Cullens feeling lighter and happier than I have ever felt in ages. There was no more ache, no more pain…
I've waited to long to see you like this, my angel muttered. If we were separate beings now would be the time where I would give you a big hug!
I laughed. "If only, huh?" I replied audibly.
As I entered the house I found Edward and Bella still sitting there. I looked questioningly towards her. "Isn't it past your bedtime, Ms. Swan?" She scoffed, but then proceeded to stick her tongue out at me. Before I could respond, Edward gave me a dirty look.
"You smell like werewolf," he muttered. I blushed visibly, struggling to try and explain.
"Well you see, umm. There was this…well…"
"He's right, Edward, it's time you took me home," Bella interrupted. I mouthed a "Thank you" and she nodded slightly as she led Edward out of the house.
Perhaps it would be better if you slept outside for tonight… Just think about how the rest of the Cullens would react to your new cologne.
I shuddered at the thought. "Yeah, who needs a bed when you have a cold hard rooftop waiting for you?" I mumbled, flying up to the top before lying down, trying to get comfortable. I stared up into the milk white moon, the same one Jacob and I had shared, and before I knew it I was fast asleep.
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