Hello everyone I'm really happy to see that you are still following my story and also because i got a new reviewer this really gets me excited so I'll keep on writing and I hope to get more reviews so let's begin. I want to make clear that I don't own the rugrats or all grown up series.
Even if I'm gone I'll have you in my hearth with me
It was a cold morning and tommy suddenly woke up feeling pain on his neck and his eyes were sticky he also had sore throat. He looked around the room he realized that this wasn't his home and suddenly everything came back to his mind he remembered the bad news that his parents gave him yesterday he remembered himself wondering on the streets under the rain probably the reason of his sore throat but he also remembered that he finally realized that he was very angry because he was afraid of change but this was possible thanks to her. Tommy looked down and saw kimi she was sleeping quietly hugging him but she also had dried tears on her face he could feel pain on his heart as he thought " Dammit she really looks like an angel certainly kimi Finster having you in my life is one of the things that I'm going to miss the most " he then looked at his watch 7:00 am "I better get going I don't want to have problems with chuckie and I certainly will If he finds out that I passed the night with his sister" he thought as he with a lot of caution took kimis arm and put it aside he then stood up and before heading towards the front door he made sure to cover up kimi with the blankets she brought last night then he opened the door and went outside but before closing it he said with a nostalgic voice:
"You know the only thing that I will always regret it's the fact of not being brave enough to tell you how I feel about you before because now it's just too late" and then he closed the door and started walking along the sideway towards his house
At the pickles house
"Do you both think that T will be alright he was very pissed of last night when he runed ut the house" Dil said with a worried tones
"Yeah Dill don't worry I received a message from him last night and it seemed that he realized that he was angry because he was scared of change just like you were too" his dad said.
"Yeah and besides he stayed at chuckies place so he may have helped him to understand thing better" his mother said whit a smile in her face
"Well you may be right but you got to remember that chukie is his best friend and maybe It have caused him a lot more pain to talk about leaving the country with him" he said with fear in his voice
"Look Dil have some fate in your brother I know he can get through this he just need some time after all not everyone is as optimistic about changes as you are" her mother said
"Hey I'm also scared of the change but I just realized the possibilities that will have over there at England you know maybe I can finally met a real vampire or a werewolf" Dill said whit excitement on his voice
Both of his parents looked at each other and laughed but in the same moment they heard that someone opened the front door and the closed both of their parents looked on the direction of the entrance to the kitchen Tommy was standing there using the clothes that kimi lend him last night he was only staring at his parents with a thoughtful look on the face
His father was the one to break the silence "What happened champ you look terrible and why are you wearing those old clothes?" he asked whit concern on his voice.
Tommy snapped out of his thoughtful look and answered nervously "well you see lots of things happened that you see I was… very angry and I just ran off sit up on a bench at the park then I lost the notion of time and well… you see I ended up wandering on the streets late at night with heavy rain falling over my head" he said with shame and insecurity on his voice.
"WHAT YOU WERE WONDERING ON THE STREETS AT NIGHT YESTERDAY WHIT THAT STORM FALLING OVER THE CITY" both of his parents panicked.
"Look just forgive about that it's not that important anyway what matters now is that…." He doubted for a second "I'm really sorry for the way I talked to you last night I didn't mean all the stuff that I said but you have to understand I was really angry because I thought that you just wanted to go to England for the big money they offered you but then I realized that none of you have ever made something without thinking in us so dad if you really want to accept that job I will support you after all you have always been there for me so this time is my turn" tommy said with a lot of decision on his voice.
"So are you okay with having to move out of the country now dear?" her mother asked
"Not at all mom what I'm saying is that I will support dad on his decision but I want you two to understand me and be patient with me after all this is a great change in my life and you have to understand that by leaving this country I'm leaving a lot of memories that I had with the people that I love so it's hard for me to forgive that easily so It may take me some time to get accustomed to the idea and to return to be my normal self but yeah now I'm ok with it mom now there's only one more thing that we have to do an that is to tell the others that we are leaving" he said with a serious tone in his voice but he was really surprised by the fact that he was capable of telling all those things to his parents.
Then stu went to where tommy was and hugged him "Thank you son and by the way just now you have proved to us to be more mature than we thought and don't worry we understand that it will take you some time to get accustomed to this change but don't worry you are not alone after all me your mother and you brother also had to get accustomed to this change in our lives" he said with a fatherly tone of voice.
"So have you gotten any ideas of how we are going to tell the others that we are leaving next Friday" tommy asked with a calmed voice
His father stepped back and answered his question "Well your mother and I were thinking about organizing a barbecue tomorrow and tell the others then" he looked at tommys eyes "but I can see that you have planned something else don't you"
"Well I wanted to talk with the guys first cause it will be quite hard for them and for me If I don't tell them personally" tommy said
"Well in that case you better call a reunion at Java lava as you always do when you have something important to tell them" Dill said
"Well that's ok with us "their parents said
"Well in that case I'm going to get a shower and then I will call them by the way mom do you have something for sore throat it seem that walking under the rain had some consequences on me after all" he said while laughing a little and then he went upstairs to his room.
Just before tommy closed up his door her mother shouted from the kitchen "By the way tommy you should start packing your stuff the people who is helping us to move out will be here on Wednesday to pick our luggage"
"Ok mom" he responded "I,,,, will do it"
Tommy went into the bathroom to take a shower but before he put the wet clothes he was using the last night at the window in order to dry them but he realized that his black jacket wasn't there "Shit I must have dropped it somewhere at kimis house I guess I won't see it again cause I'm not planning to go back to that house it will hurt just too much damn it was one of my favorites" he thought.
An hour later he came out of the bathroom and he was about to call the guys but tommy realized that it was too early to call the guys probably most of them were still sleeping so he decided to start packing his stuff even when he didn't want to. He start by looking for his favorite stuff just like his camera his music cd´s and a bunch of stuff that he gathered around the year's most of that stuff where things that he gathered from the adventures he had with his friends so he couldn't avoid to feel quite emotional "damn now I'm feeling this pain again I'm really going to miss the guys I mean we have passed all our lives together but soon will be over" he thought as he took out an old picture of them that his parents took when they were babies he felt a tear falling from his eyes "Man telling them will be very hard" two hour later he had all his favorite stuff packed in boxes but he had separate some stuff that he decided to give to his friends as his last gesture of friendship.
"well mom said that she will be the one packing my clothes so I think I'm done or now" he thought as he was taking the boxes out of his room he suddenly remembered something so hi rushed back to his room he opened the door of his now nearly empty closet he moved some old clothes in order to be capable of taking out an old guitar he had there. he didn't knew why he had the feeling that he should take it with him on this trip after all he hadn't played his guitar since the time his voice broke when he was at 4th grade maybe it was just a hunch but he felt that it could be useful sometime in the future.
He put the guitar on his bed and took his cellphone he was about to call phil and lill when he tought "how do I tell them what if they feel that I'm going just because I don't like them anymore and I just want some new friends after all Phil was arguing about how weird it was to hang out just between us" he was getting very nervous and scared "what if they think that I betrayed our all life friendship and start hating me that would hurt so much" he was entering into panic "I'm just not ready to tell them shit" he thought angrily as he threw his cellphone to the floor then he got up he took the guitar and walked down stairs and the towards the door as he shouted:
"I'm going for a walk see you later"
Dil was the only one that saw him going out and he knew that his brother was not okay probably he was feeling depressed again he decided to follow him but when he was about to get out of the house the phone rang.
(POV at the finsters house)
Kimi was walking along a road with Tommy they were holding hands she looked around an realized that the road was quite weird in some places she could see lots of flowers and animals, in other places she could only see wastelands, in other places she could see places that were filled with shadows and scary noises, even in some places see could see herself laughing and having fun with her friend but even when they had to pass through a part of the road that was filled with shadows she didn't care because Tommy was with her his presence made her feel safe and gave her strength to continue walking but suddenly they reached a place where the road split in two and then tommy stopped walking and turned to tell her with a sad tone of voice.
"Well kimi I believe this is it I have walked with you along the way of our life's until now but now I need to leave and move on just like you we can't be together anymore until we met again" and with that he let go off her hand and started walking alone towards his side of the road and in the same moment he did that for some reason the world around them felt empty like if all the magic that it had until now just vanished.
Kimi was very afraid of being alone she could feel inside her that she wasn't going to see him again so he started running after him but no matter how fast she run she couldn't reach him and then he disappeared on the horizon and suddenly the road was filled with darkness and she couldn't see where she was going se was really scared so she started screaming with tears falling from her eyes
"Please tommy don't leave me alone please come back I really need you whiteout you I'm,,, lost ¡Please don't go!" she cried.
Suddenly she woke up sweeting feeling really scared and nervous her mother and Dad were hugging her and his brother Chukie was really scared looking at her.
"It's alright Kimi-chan everything is all right you are not alone we are here it was just a nightmare" her mother whispered to her whit a lovely voice.
"Yeah you are safe with us now sweetie" his dad said as he kissed her on the cheek.
"Mom but everything felt so real he was going away he left me alone" kimi said with a voice filed with pain.
"We are not sure if Tommy is leaving or not Kimi I thought I talked to you about that yesterday on the phone and you told me you were feeling better" her mother said kindly
"Oh don't tell me you are still feeling uneasy about that strange thing that you felt at java lava I already told you sis tommy is not hiding anything and he would tell us if something is wrong?"
Kimi didn't knew what to do she was pretty altered for the events that happened the last night and also because of her nightmare she needed to talk about it so she didn't cared anymore of what could happen so she started talking.
"Ok everyone please listen to me tommy was here last night actually he passed the night here with me" she said with a nervous voice
"What I must be a part of your dream sis cause we didn't see him around here when we arrive like twenty minutes ago just when you scared us with your screams" chukie said with an angry tone of voice
"I'm not lying he passed the night here with me on this same sofa" she said with an angry voice but the she realized the faces the her mother her father and her brother had "Ok kimi that was not the grates approach to this topic you dummy" she tought
"You slept with him here I can't believe you being that irresponsible kimiko I'm calling his mother to…" her mother was saying with a very angry tone in her voice
"NO YOU JUST WAIT RIGHT THERE MOM YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG LET ME EXPLAIN PELASE" kimi shouted.
"Well in that case please calm down little miss and explain it to us" her mother said with irritation in her voice.
So then Kimi explained everything that happened on the last night their parents were more calmed but still worried but now they were worried about tommy but chukie seemed to be angry
"Poor tommy and Dil they must have been feeling horrible yesterday I can't believe that their parents were so carefree about how he would feel about that notice" kira said whit concern on the voice
"Yeah I mean his like a second son to me and I'm sure that he must be very confused and afraid right now" chaz said
"And when are they leaving did he told you kimi" kira asked
"Next Friday..." she said on a very sad tone
"Dammit an can't believe that he told you all that stuff what about me I'm his best friend" chukie said angrily
"Actually chukie he came here looking for you and he was about to leave when I told him that you weren't here but I didn't let him" she said whit shame on her voice
"And you did well sweetie you helped him and try to cheer him up on the saddest moment" kira said
"What kind of friend I am not bring there when I'm needed the most?" chukie said
"You are a very good kind of fried if you weren't he wouldn't have come here in the first place to look for you" chaz said
"Well sweetie I can only tell you one thing If he had decided to go with his family on that trip the only thing that you can do as a friend Is support him you promised him to help him on telling every one of you friends about the fact he is going away well in that case you should just do it by yourself I mean if it cost him that much to tell you I don't think that he would be capable of telling the others he must be really afraid of their reaction" kira said in a motherly way
"Yeah mom your right in that case I will go and call angelica, Phil and Lil and Susie and tell them to meet us at java lava there I will tell them" kimi said with decision as she went up stairs
"In that case I will help you sis" chukie said and then followed her upstairs
"You look pretty worried honey what is it?" chaz asked kira
"Well it's just that I'm worried about kimi she didn't seem to be feeling sad but I'm really sure that she is feeling a lot of pain in her hearth" kira said with a concerned voice
"Well its normal kira all of them love tommy and Dil as brothers" chaz said with a nostalgic tone
"It not only that as a mother I can feel that she don't sees him just like a brother I'm pretty sure that she really loves him more than anything and it's not rare since I get to meet tommy I felt that he was so alike my daughter like the perfect match for her so I believe that she must be in as much pain as tommy now that she feels that she is going to lose him" kira said with a worried expression on her face
"Now that you mention it everything makes since especially the thing that se screamed when we entered the house so how do we help her now" chaz asked her with concern
" If tommy has decided to go with his parents we can't do anything just support her and wait that time heals her heart it's a shame cause I really liked tommy for being her boyfriend " kira said with sadness on her voice
"Well we should go and ask Didi and Stu if they need any help with something before leaving don't you think" chaz asked to kira
"Yeah lets go "she said
(End of POV)
(Past overview at java lava)
An hour later the gang was gathered at java lava with the exception of Dil and Tommy
"So what up kimi why you were rushing us to come here is there something important that you want to tell us or you are not telling until tommy and Dil get here " Phil asked
"Yeah finster speak up I'm not planning to spend my whole day here with some kids" Angelica said on a bossy way
"Ok we can start now that everyone Is here" Chukie said
"But tommy and Dil aren't her yet" Susie said
"Well they won't come today because actually i have to tell you something about the both of them" kimi said looking rather depressed
"In that case shoot it girl if the leader is in problems I want to know why" Phil said with a funny voice
"¡Phil! Don't you see it must be something serious look at kimis face she is very sad" Lil glared to her bother
"Ok I'll tell you but first you all got to promise to understand tommy and his decision" kimi said with a serious tone of voice
"OK we promise but what is it?" all said
"Well the thing is that as all of you know tommys dad is a great inventor of toys and robots and all that stuff and because of that he have been called to work at a very important project for an English company and because of this well…." Kimi was speaking but angelica cut her off
"ahh I know where this is going so my uncle got a new job and he has to leave the city for a long time so tommy an Dill are now very depressed because they are so close to their dad gosh you got to let them deal with it alone it's no big deal most of the time I don't see my parents cause they are at work an look at me im just perfect so that a problem solved now I'm going home " angelica said with an annoying tone of voice an was to leave but then se notices the evil glare that kimi was giving her so he just sit down again
"Will you just shut up angelica if the problem was that simple I wouldn't have call you all here" kimi said sounding pretty pissed off "The real problem is that tommy and all his family are leaving" kimi said while still giving the evil glare at angelica
"What do you mean when you say he is leaving" asked Susie even she already knew what was the meaning of that
"Well you see in order to accept the job they have to complete some requisites and one of them and the most important of them is that they have to leave this country and go to live over there at England" kimi said and she coud feel again the pain raising up in her
The whole gang was in shock just staring at kimi the one who broke the silence was phil
"Ok that was not a good joke kimi cause it was a joke right?" phil said being afraid of the answer
"I wish it was phil but the fact is that he is leaving and pretty soon" kimi said with a low tone of voice
"so you are saying that he has already accepted the idea of leaving all behind and go to another country"
"I am afraid he has started to accept it so there's nothing else we can do but support him" chukie said sounding depressed
"I that case he is just a damn traitor to his word just yesterday when we were here he was saying all that stuff about how he was looking forward to spend all his life with us as his friends and look now he is the first one going away and to make it even worse he is not even capable of telling us in person" Phil said very angrily
"Phil please I know this is hard to understand but tommy is no traitor he has decided to go away because he want to support his father and believe me… since his parents told him the news he went into a horrible depression you don't know how much it coasted me to get him to tell me what was bothering him and when he told me he just went down into depression again just imagine how hard it must be the tough of having to tell you all that he is leaving he must be scared about your reaction and look he is not wrong to be just look at you calling him traitor when he is suffering a lot" kimi said with tears in her eyes.
"Dammit kimi sorry but it's hard for me to believe you I mean why did he even tell you and not us I mean I have known him for much longer than you and for me he just doesn't even care about that " phil said with a very sad tone of voice
"Look just shut up Philip i know it hurts to know that he wasn't capable of telling us in person but I believe in kimi I mean we have known tommy since we were in diapers and he had never done something to hurt us and besides every time that one of us is in problems he is there to support us" Lil said as she grabbed his brothers arm and gave him a dead glare
"dammit a can't believe you all have been my cousins best friends for all his life and even… and even after that you still mistrust him if there is one thing I can tell you about him is that since the moment he knew us all there hasn't been anything more important for him than all of us I'm ashamed of you" angelica said with a lot of anger in her voice as she give a hit on the table " and if there's a thing we should be doing right now is being with him cause right now I am pretty sure that he must be in a lot of pain so even if you don't want to I'm going to see him right now" she said but now she had tears in her eyes and a very sad look in her face.
Susie went to hug angelica and then said with a serious voice "Angelica is right guys if there is a place where we are needed right now is where tommy is I mean he is always there for us its our turn to be there for him" and then she got closer to angelicas ear and whispered "you are impressing when you are not in that bossy attitude and actually show your true self"
Angelica gave a little smile to Susie and then whispered "And because you are the only one who have noticed my true self you are the most dangerous person for me but also my only true friend Susan Carmichael"
"Thanks a lot angelica its seems that after all you do really care for your cousins" kimi said with a smile on her face "so what do you say guys if we leave the anger behind an go to help our leader" she said
"Yeah you are right and I'm sorry guys for thinking like that it's just that is hard for me to accept that my best friend is leaving" phil said with shame in his voice " and I'm sorry if I pissed you of angelica"
"Well now that this is settled we should go to where my cousins are I want to talk with them" angelica said
"yeah you are right angelica let me call to their house and ask if they are at home" kimi said
(end of past overview)
Dil answered to the phone "Hey kimi what's up"
"hey Dil I called to know if you and tommy were at home me and the guys want to go over there" kimi said with a happy tone.
"You and the guys want to come here well kimi I don't think that's a …" he was saying but kimi interrupted him
"hey Dil its ok we already know about your problem tommy told me last night and asked me if I could help him telling the others and I'm pretty sure he must be very sad for having to tell them so I went ahead and told them" kimi said
Dil thought a little about it "That must be the reason of why he looked so confused and sad" he thought to himself.
"And how did the guys took it I mean the notice" dil said
"Well let's just say that now they understand and are willing to support you both" kimi said
"in that case it's a good thing for you to tell them thanks a lot kim and about your question I'm at home but T went out for a walk looking quite miserable and I was about to chase after him but you called" he said and then chuckled
"Do you have any idea of where could he be?" kimi said now sounding worried
"Yes I do have an idea it's a place where we use to go when we are depressed look ill meet you guys at Java lava and take you there I'm also quite worried for him" Dil said sounding worried too
"Ok we will wait for you" kimi said and hung up
Then Dill went rushing to the door as he shouted "I'm going to see the guys see you later"
Meanwhile tommy was sitting on the same bench at the same park where he was last night looking at the sky thinking about all the adventures he had with his friends until today "Dammit what am I going to do how so I tell them I mean they mean a lot to me it should be easy to tell them but what if they don't take it well what if they end up hating me for leaving them that wound be too much even for me to bear" he thought to himself as he felt like a hole was growing in his heart "dammit in the end I'm not able of doing anything alone I'm not even capable of telling them and the worst thing is that at England I'll be alone and I don't think I can find friends as good as the guys " he thought as he threw away the guitar because of the anger he was felling.
"WHY DID I EVEN BRING THAT SHIT WITH ME" he screamed and that made that some of the people that were at the park to turn and look at him but he didn't care he jut close up his eyes.
But after some time passed he felt that someone sat next to him so he opened his eyes
"You know Pickles even if you are angry you shuldnt be tossing things to the ground specially a guitar like this one"
"Mister Pangborn what are you doing here "tommy said rather surprised
"Well first of all that not the way to speak to your director and second I was just doing my morning stroll around the park and saw you shouting like crazy" pangborn said with his strict voice as always
"Well sir you see I'm not…" tommy was saying but was interrupted by pangborn
"I know it pickles it's because you have to leave am I wrong? Your parents talked to me yesterday when they called the school to ask for your papers and all that stuff that you will need at England" pangborn said sounding serious
"Yes sir you are right I am not feeling well since they told me about it actually sir I feel very scared of the idea of going to live at another country" tommy said sounding quite sad and he didn't knew why he was telling all this stuff to Principal Pangborn the man who has always so strict with him and his friends but he tought it was alright.
"its understandable kid everyone even me can be scared of the changes that life can throw at us and the change that you have in front of you right now is a big one Pickles and to make it even worse you have a lot of things here that are good reasons for staying I mean a friendship like the one you have with your friends it's not something you see every day" Pangborn said but now he was talking in a way that Tommy never imagine he actually was talking with him I a friendly way.
"So sir you are saying that all the things that I'm felling right now are normal I mean the fact that I'm scared of telling this to my friends and also the fact that I feel that my life will be ruined in the moment I leave this city" tommy said sounding quite angry
"Of course it's normal that you feel that way Pickles look I'm sure that you feel unsure of talking about this with you friends because you are scared of losing them and that quite understandable as I said before one just have to look at you guys and can see that your friendship is special and hear me on this Pickles I'm sure that if you tell them they will understand and support you even if you are going away" Pangborn said as he was looking at tommy with a serious smile on his face "So don't worry about it"
"And about you're other worry pickles I can't believe that you feel that way boy cause if there's one thing that I can say about you Pickles is that you are one of those persons who never give up to anything and keeps trying even against the greatest odds and kid I'm pretty sure that when you get there it may be difficult at the beginning but in the end I know that you will end up being better that those English kids …. And I mean it you are one of the most promising students that I have ever met… SO PICKLES RISE UP THAT FACE AND GO STRIGHT AHEAD TO FACE THE CHANGE AND IF YOU EVER FALL RISE UP AGAIN AND KEEP TRYING" Pangborn said to tommy in his traditional strict voice as he handed over the guitar to tommy.
As tommy hear the last words of principal Pangborn he felt relived he was right "Yeah I have never given up before so why now" he thought to himself and then he smiled
"Thanks a lot sir those words mean a lot to me" tommy said with a smile as he grabbed his guitar back
"What words pickles I don't remember telling you anything but anyway the music can also be a way of expressing our fillings so you should give it a try pickles" Pangborn said with the same friendly voice from before "Anyway Pickles I have to go so I guess this is goodbye so it was a pleasure to meet you and I mean it" Principal Pangborn said as he shacked hand with tommy.
"No sir the pleasure was mine thanks a lot "tommy said with a smile
After that Pangborn left but tommy decided to stay just a little longer waiting right there at the park but right now he was feeling much better "Maybe the idea of using the music to express how I'm feeling is a good one but I wonder if I can still play this" he thought as he looked at his guitar "It has been some time since the last time I played but its worth to give it a try let's see what should I play" he thought as he started playing some basic notes but suddenly thanks to all the things he had on his head and all the things he was feeling those simple notes turned into a song and then he started singing with a lot of emotions on his words.
Just at the time Tommy started playing Kimi, Dil, Chukie, Angelica, Susie, Phil and Lil arrived to the park and started walking towards the playground near to were tommy was sitting
"Are you sure that tommy will be here" Kimi asked worried
"Hey I know him I'm pretty sure he is here" Dil said sounding annoyed
But as they got near to the playground they were able to hear a guitar playing and an incredible voice singing
(Sfx leave out all the rest- linking park)
I dreamed I was missing
you were so scared.
But no one would listen
Cuz' no one else cared.
Kimi and the others got closer from behind the bench where tommy was sitting and they noticed the one who was singing was him but he didn't notice them.
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear.
What am I leaving,
When I am done here?
So if you're asking me I want you to know...
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed.
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, Leave out all the rest.
Don't be afraid
Of taking my beatings
Of shit behind me.
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through.
I've never been perfect
But neither have you.
All of them were standing right behind him hearing him sing and every one of them could feel what he was feeling his words where filled with fear anger shame but also even if it was strange they could also feel love in them suddenly they noticed that tommy was crying as he was singing
So if you're asking me I want you to know...
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed.
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, Leave out all the rest.
Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well.
Pretending
someone else can come and save me from myself.
I can't be who you want… (Tommy modified this in the original son the word is are).
Suddenly kimi realized that she was also crying but not only her all his friends were crying as well she knew it was because of tommy´s song they could feel a lot of things as they hear him singing
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed.
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, Leave out all the rest.
Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well.
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself.
I can't be who you want.
I can't be who you want.
In the moment he stopped playing and singing he clean up his tears and dropped the guitar but when he was about to leave he felt a lot of hand pulling him from behind he turned to see all his friends standing right there all of them with tears in their eyes specially the girls he felt shocked when he look at them.
"Hey guys for how long have you being here I mean right behind me?" tommy asked sounding quite sad they didn't answered right away so he was feeling nervous now
Angelica was the one to break the silence "For long enough to hear all your singing and to realize how bad you were felling you stupid cousin" angelica said as she gave him a soft punch in his arm "Why didn't you tell us tommy you know you can trust us I mean we are your friends you didn't have to bare this all alone" she said but this time she hugged his cousin.
"Yeah man we would have understand you I mean aren't we like brothers" Phil said as he palmed him on his back "and by the way I'm really sorry for even thinking that you were a traitor" he said with shame in his words
"Yeah tommy you should have told me at least I mean I'm your best friend you know I'll always be there for you no matter what" chukie said as he smiled at his friend
"you know tommy you can trust us everything and I want you to know that as you have always been there to support us we will also always be there to support you no matter what" Lil said also smiling
"See bro I told you we could trust them didn't I" Dil said
"Yeah tommy you should have known that too but boy you are one hell of a singer you made us feel all the things you were felling whit that incredible voice of yours you are even better than me" Susie said smiling too
"Really do you think so…" tommy started to say but suddenly snapped out of it "Hey wait guys by having you all telling me this does it means that you already know about the problem of me and my family having to go away" he asked with an angry voice
"Yeah we know and we will support you in whatever you decide to do" all of them said
"But who the hell told you I wanted to be the one to tell you everything… Dammit it was you Dil right even when a tell you to wait for me you…" tommy was yelling at his brother but he was cut off by kimi.
"Actually tommy I was the one who told them everything" kimi said with a voice filled with fear
Tommy looked at her with his eyes filled with anger he walked over to where she was and grabbed her by the shoulders " Why kimi why … even when I told you to keep it as a secret I trusted it to you and told you that I was going to be the one to tell them why did you !BETEAYED ME¡" he yelled at her and grabbed her even stronger.
"I ….. I'm re-really sorry i… ju-just wanted t..to help you please… don't hate me" kimi said but now she was crying badly she was trying to help him by telling the problem to his friends but now he was there yelling at her hurting her looking at her with his eyes filled with hate.
"Ok tommy that enough man you know she is my sister and she did all of this for you son why are you acting like an ungrateful son of a bitch don't you see you are hurting her " chukie yelled at him and he was going to pull tommy an take his sister away but what happened next make him stop"
Tommy could feel a terrible pain inside as he was telling all those mean things to kimi but he had to do it because he had to make her hate him because maybe that could make things easier for him because in that way he wouldn't have to bear with the nightmare of not having her on his life anymore and things were going right until he saw her face filled with fear and pain looking at him that cause tommy to crumble into pieces and with that he said.
"DAMMIT it seems that no matter how many things I try to do to hate you … and to make you hate me its just useless in the moment that I see you feeling pain or being sad I just crumble to pieces… I'm very sorry for everything I just said please forgive me Kimi" and as he said that he pulled kimi towards him and hugged her tightly and then he whispered on her ear in order that no one could hear him " Kimi its seems that in the end the thing that I'm going to miss the most after I leave will be having you in my life … you know you are very important to me… and thank you for all the things that you have done for me and I want you to know that even if I'm gone I'll always have you in my hearth with me"
And that's it whit this chapter sorry because it took me longer than what I thought it would take me to finish it but you know school can be a pain so hope you like this chapter and give some reviews an stay tuned for next chapter cause tommy is finally going away