So…a lot of questions to answer. This is going to be an epic author's note, by the way.
Even though Bella and Edward have a daughter, they aren't exactly a couple. They call each other boyfriend and girlfriend…but it's more casual than that. It's hard to explain; I'll make sure to cover that in the story when the time is right. So they have sex, kiss, and refer to each other as boyfriend/girlfriend but are not an official couple (Just to clarify things for you).
James is going to play an itsy bitsy role in the story. He's not a nice guy, but I promise he's not going to eff up anyone.
Sorry to announce that as off right now, I have no plans for EPOV. Maybe we'll hear from him in the last chapter or an outtake…something like that. Otherwise, I promise that he and Bella will do enough talkin' so that you can figure some stuff out.
Hmm…what else? Edward and Bella do 'feel for each other', just not in the typical way…we'll get an indication of his feelings pretty soon…yep, he moved to Forks with her for both Bella and Avery- he doesn't want to let either of them down. The question of his job will be answered in this chapter (although I will say right here that he works in the diner on weekends)…and Bella getting pregnant changed his life a lot, but you don't get to figure that out yet. P.S. this entire paragraph is for Twilight44 for all these kickass questions that I finally answered for you!
And now we go on with the story, folks. If you've got anymore questions just ask and I'll answer them ASAP, probably in the next chapter. (Yep, that was a freaking long author's note…sorry about that, I guess.)
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I took a deep breath and looked at Alice warily. "Give me a second." I murmured, holding Avery against me and closing my eyes for a moment. "Okay." I said, letting out a long, deep breath. "Edward and I met at a party about a year ago. It was one of the first times I had a lot of alcohol and I got drunk pretty fast. And the next thing I knew, I lost my virginity to a twenty year old that I had just met. God…we did it in the fucking bathroom at our friend's house." I made sure to cover Avery's ears when I said 'fuck'. "It was a mistake, Alice, but I could never regret it. I screwed up my life, and Edward's, but look what we got out of that one mistake." I ducked my head and kissed Avery's soft, pudgy cheek as she nuzzled against me. "I'm moving on with my life. The only reason I'm even going to high school is because I promised my dad and Edward. Besides, I owe it to Avery to get a good education and a job."
"Why the big secrecy, Bella? You're eighteen years old now…why are you still keeping to so quiet?" Alice asked, and she reached across the table, gently touching Avery's cheek.
"Because this isn't my life, Alice. I don't want to be the high school student with the older boyfriend and the baby…I just want to move on with everything. High school isn't the same for me…it's just a pit stop. I've already got so much responsibility and stress going on. I already have a 'grown up' life no matter how unconventional it is."
Alice pursed her lips, looking at me intently. "I get it." She said gently. Then she glanced over her shoulder to where Edward stood, taking someone's order, and smiled. "He's a good guy?"
"One of the best, I think." I said easily, bouncing Avery up and down slightly. "Most guys, especially older ones, would just get the hell away from a situation like ours. But when I told Edward I was pregnant…he kind of stepped in and took responsibility. He talked to my dad and explained to Charlie and I both how he was planning to provide for me. He dropped out of college after his sophomore year, but he's going back next semester. Our relationship is far from perfect; I don't even know how to fully describe it…we're unconventional and we don't always get each other and we fight, but in the end I know Edward is always going to be there for Avery and I. And in our situation, that's all I can really hope for."
"I don't think I would be able to handle all of that if I were in your shoes." Alice admitted, shaking her hand slightly and toying with one of the salt shakers that sat on the table next to the napkin dispenser. "If you don't mind me asking…how did his family take it? And your dad has obviously at least accepted it…but what about your mom?"
I bit my lip and brushed a piece of my hair out of my eyes. "Edward doesn't have much to do with his family. I can't really tell you why, but they haven't been in contact for a while now." I said, and Alice raised her eyebrows at me. "I know. It's complicated. And yeah, my dad has pretty much accepted things. He's totally in love with Avery, and he's polite to Edward. I know it was hard on him…me having to grow up so fast, but Charlie has really been a huge help. My mom, on the other hand…now that's a different story. My dad met her when he moved to Seattle from Forks nineteen years ago. Not long after, I was born. My parents stayed together until I was fifteen, but it was obvious they weren't really a couple anymore. When they got divorced I lived with my mom. But when I got pregnant…she kicked me out of the house immediately and Charlie was the one to take me in. My mom, Renée, was just so disgusted with me, and disappointed. She doesn't want anything to do with me, or with Avery." I explained, continuing to cradle Avery in my arms as she started to drift off to sleep.
Alice huffed softly under her breath, making me smile slightly. Alice and I hadn't known each other for very long…but she was so concerned. "Bella Swan, you're a brave person." She said. "I'm glad to call you a friend."
"Aw…thanks, Alice." I said, blushing slightly as she stood and leaned across the table to give me a hug. "I'm glad to call you my friend, too."
She beamed with pride, checking the time on her phone after settling back down in her chair. "Oh, I've got to go!" Alice exclaimed. "Jasper and I are going to have to leave soon." With that, she blew Avery and I each a kiss and started gathering up her things. "Bella, thank you so much for the talk and for explaining things. It means a lot to me that we can trust each other fully now."
"Me too." I said honestly. Because it was true. Although I would prefer for no one else at school to know about my life, it did feel good to be able to confide in someone like Alice. Someone who was my age but hasn't gone through the things I have in the past year.
"Bye, Bella. I'll see you in school on Monday, and I promise I won't tell a soul about anything we talked about today." Alice swore, getting up from the table.
"Bye, Alice. And thanks again…for everything." I said, waving as she left the diner with a bounce in her step.
Once she was gone, I sat in silence, planning to drown myself in my own thoughts. I looked down at Avery and frowned slightly, wondering where my youth had gone. But before I could get start to get lost in my thoughts, Edward sat down across from me at the table in the seat that Alice had just vacated minutes before.
"How did that go?" He asked quietly, and I shrugged my shoulders. Edward ran one of his hands through his hair, exhaling loudly and giving me a solid, kind look. "I know it's hard for you to keep my secrets, but thank you."
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Ehh…we do need some EPOV now. As I see what I have to explain about him, EPOV is a must and it should be coming up pretty soon. I'm hoping for it to be in the next chapter, but with the way I write…let's see how that turns out.
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