Chapter 31
Lilzy Gets Hers and His Air
So I'm off to camp in 2 days, so this is a double chapter. 2200 words!! OH YEAH! Lol. So I worked my ass off to write this chapy cuz I've been totally busy and have cut open my foot . ENJOY
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"Why won't you talk to me?!" She said in a clearly upset tone.
No response.
"Jamesie?"
No response.
She was getting angry.
"James Potter you turn around and talk to me right now or I swear I'll break up with u this instant."
No response.
"Are you even listening to me?!"
"No Lizy, I'm not. I have a lot on my mind right now. So if you don't mind, please leave me alone." He said in monoton.
He'd been that way for 3 days…no emotion, no smiles or frowns.
Just a spaced out, foggy eyed, distant and cold version of James.
"That's no way to talk to your girl friend." She went over and sat in his lap. "I haven't talked to you in days. It's like your avoiding me. And when I do see you, you won't even look at me?"
"Look, I just have a lot on my mind. I'm sorry, I'm not trying to hurt your feelings or anything."
"Well you have. You prat. You won't even look at me when you say that."
Silence.
"It's Evans isn't it."
"What." James looked up in shock. She couldn't know. There was no possible way. He hadn't even told his friends.
"Ever since that day you talked to her in the infirmary you've been like this. Oh I'm gonna kill that little bitch."
"She has nothing to do with it" He lied.
"Really. I bet she does. She always does. That little good-for-nothing mudblood." She was furious now.
"Whoa! What did you just call her?"
"You're getting mad at me, your girlfriend, for calling a girl who's your "so called enemy" a bad name?! What the hell is wrong with you?!"
He sighed. "I don't know."
"That was retortable."
"You mean rhetorical."
"Gasp" (in the offended dumb blonde way)
She stomped off.
He sighed.
"Lily, you should eat something." Kay said.
"I'm not hungry."
"Sweetie, you need to eat." Lila said. The worry shown clearly in her voice.
"I'm not hungry."
"Sit you ass down and eat." That was Rach…good old Rachael.
"I am not hungry!"
"Eat or I'll feed you!"
"No."
"Yes!"
And with that Rach grabbed a spoon and forced it into Lily mouth.
Lily chewed resentfully.
"I'm gonna go upstairs and go to bed, see you guys tomorrow."
"Umm…Lily." Lila said tentatively. "It's only 7 o clock."
"Yeah, why don't you stay and hang out with us a bit?"
"No, I'm tired."
"Sweetie, you've been tired a lot for the last 3 days…we're really worried…are you sick? Madam Pomfrey said you'd be fine?"
"Does it have to do with James?"
"Potter?! No!" Lily said a bit too quickly. She hadn't told her friends.
"Right" Rach said, in a tone that clearly showed she didn't believe Lily in the slightest.
"Look, I probably just got a cold from being in the rain. That's why I'm tired and not hungry. If I get hungry I'll go get soup or something from the kitchens. Now I'm going to bed." She grabbed her books and stomped off.
"Maybe it's just a cold…" Kay said trying to keep a hopeful expression on her face…she did not succeed.
Rach raised an eyebrow at her. "A cold?"
Kay shrugged…it's hard to find the right answer to rhetorical questions.
"She took pepper-up potion. She shouldn't have these cold symptoms, even if she really is sick." Lila said matter-of-factly.
"I'm worried about her." Lila then added on.
"Me too." Agreed Kay.
Rach nodded. "What's gotten into her…she's barely been around since she got out of the hospital wing."
"And when she is she's spacey and distant."
"Her grades are falling."
"I say we corner James and get it out of him." Rach said.
"I concur." Said Kay
"So let's go…and by the way, if you even use the word concur in a conversation again I will peg you as a dork for the rest of your life." Rach laughed as she said this.
James was sitting in front of the fire in the heads dorms.
Though he was sitting in a large, plush, red sofa chair, he looked all but relaxed.
A worry line sat between his eyes.
He jumped at the sound of the door swinging open, expecting to see a flash of red hair and then a slamming door as Lily rushed in and away.
What he actually saw was the determined faces of three teenage girls, who did not look at all pleased.
These girls would of course be Rach, Kay, and Lila.
They came to stand directly in front of him, blocking his view of the tranquil fire, which hadn't been doing any good in calming him down anyway.
"What?" He asked, genuinely surprised to see them there. "Wait, how did you get in? There's a password."
"We have are ways." Was the short and to-the-point answer that came from Rach's mouth.
He gave her a funny look.
"Lily gave us the password a few months ago so we could sneak in for slumber parties." Said Lila.
"Are you here for a slumber party? At 8pm? When Lily isn't here?" James said rather puzzled.
"It's actually 7:38…Wait, did you say Lily wasn't here?" Kay asked.
"No."
The three girls looked at each other. Being best friends and living together or 7 years gave them the ability to practically read each other's mind. They nodded and looked back at James.
He looked at the bewildered. "OK, to start with, what are you guys, telepathic or something? And more importantly, why the hell are you here?"
Kay looked at Rach. "I hate it when guys are rude."
"You guys stormed in here, randomly, and are glaring at me; so sorry if I come off as a tad bit rude, but seriously, what are you doing here?"
"We're cornering you."
"Why?!"
"To find out what you did to Lily, why else would we be here?"
"To give me a headache? Look I didn't do anything to her. So if you don't mind, go away."
"No."
He sighed. "Please go away."
"Not gonna happen. Unless you tell us what you did."
"I didn't do anything. Now leave me alone!"
"Yes you did. She avoiding you, you're avoiding her; she's upset and acting funny. Ergo, you did something to her."
"No I didn't. And if you won't go away, I will!" And with that he got up and stomped out of the heads dorm.
Lily sat with her arms wrapped around her legs with her head tucked down.
She shivered. She had watched the end of the sunset from the edge of the lake.
It was…calm out. Tranquil.
Orange and red leaves carpeted the ground as the late October wind made the leaves of the tree dance.
However, the serene setting did nothing for Lily at the moment. Her inside were thrashing. Mixed emotions overlapping and mixing until she couldn't tell what she was feeling.
Nothing, yet everything.
She had dug the old journal her parents gave her out of her trunk. Unable to tell her friends, she could pour her feelings into a book.
She had opened the book, but the page remained blank.
She didn't know how she felt.
She wrote the date on the page, 10/28, but that's it.
She sighed.
"So, does that mean the parties off?" Peter asked.
"What? Who said anything about canceling the party" Sirius said aghast.
"Can we have a Halloween party with out James?"
"Two parties in two weeks? Doesn't sound like the best idea to me." Remus said looking up from his book.
"Are you crazy? We need this party. It'll fix James."
"I'm not sure I want to be "fixed," thanks." James said from the door way.
"Well I'm sure I want you to be fixed so we are having a party."
"The second one in two week?" James asked rather skeptically.
"Yes!"
"Why?"
"Have you not looked at the calendar? Halloween! Its four days away!"
"Oh yeah." The calendar had not been the most prominent thing on James's mind.
"Ok, so a costume party in the Gryffindor common room Halloween night, after the feast. Spread the word."
"Wait, do we need costumes?" Remus asked doubtfully .
"Obviously, it's our party."
Remus sighed. "I hate having to dress in costume."
"As do I." Agreed Peter.
"Yes, but think about it logically. Halloween is the one day of the year where girls can dress like playboy bunnies, and get away with it! Half of them just wear lingerie and some form of animal ears!" Sirius said excitedly.
Remus rolled his eyes at him. But they all knew he was secretly just as pleased about that as Sirius was.
"Ok, Peter, after the feast you're in charge of bringing food up from the kitchens. Remus, you're in charge of decorations. James, you're in charge of drinks." Sirius said seriously (No pun intended).
"And what will you be doing?"
"Everything else."
"What else is there?"
"Organizing things, getting people there, getting music…." Sirius responded as though it was the dumbest question in the world.
"Ok, so is it just the Gryffindors?"
"No, we can't sleep with any of the Gryffindors in our year, so everyone, except the SLytherins." Sirius said deffinately.
They looked at James.
"No objections?"
"Why would I have object?" Then it donned on him "Oh."
"We'll Invited Lizy of course."
"Yeah…good, um, all right then..."
"Trouble in paradise?" Remus asked.
James sighed "There always is."
"Spill."
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Sorry mate, but you don't really have a choice."
"It's nothing."
"No it's not."
"It's just not working." He admitted with a sigh.
"So dump her."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"'cuz."
"'Cuz?"
"It's this thing. I can't dump her for no reason, or someone else will never talk to me again."
"Oo, who's this someone?"
"No one."
"Look, mate, if it's not working, then it's not working. It's not fair to Lizy to be with her if you don't like her." Remus interrupted. James and Sirius had been going back and forth and back again for the last five minutes.
"That actually makes sense…kinda."
"If it didn't I wouldn't have said it."Remus said matter-of-factly and went back to his book.
"I've gotta go." James said and quickly disappeared from the room.
"That was strange."
"Ok, so back to the party."
James wondered the halls.
Maybe Remus was right, maybe the fact that he didn't like her was enough to dump Lizy. But Lily wouldn't understand that. She would just assume it was a dumb excuse to be able to ask her out.
He sighed.
He had to do it before the party.
He took out his wand and summoned the Marauder's Map.
He searched it for Lizy.
He had to do it now, before he lost his nerve.
He found her name in a room in the dungeons. It was moving back and forth. She was pacing.
He stowed the map in his pocket and went to find her.
Retrieving it when he got to the dungeons, he reopened it to find his way.
The dungeons where always dark, and he had only ever been down here for potions…and pranking the Slytherins.
What he saw was a shock to him. Like a slap in the face.
He stared at the map. It couldn't be true.
Wait, if it was, well that would be a relief, right? But still. It couldn't be true.
He searched the map. For another name. Lily Evans. She was at the lake.
He looked back at Lizy's name and headed towards her. Maybe he was lucky and things would work out to his advantage. Maybe they wouldn't.
He tried the door. It was locked.
"Alohamorah" He muttered. The draft in the dungeon swung the door open.
He couldn't believe his eyes. Feigning anger and distress, he looked from one person standing before him, to the other.
"Lizy?" He said, hurt showing in his voice.
She gasped. "James. Hi. How did you…I mean, why are you? Like, the dungeons. Ummm…I can explain. Did you know? Who told you that…? I mean…fuck."
"I guess I'm lucky that I happen to stumble upon this closet. I mean, ummm, like, I can explain…?" He said mocking her. "How else would I know my girl friend was a cheating skank? Sorry, I meant ex girlfriend."
"James, I can explain. It's not what it looks like. Ummmm…he made me do it!" She said pointing to the other person in the closet.
"Oh he made you. He made you. Why didn't you tell me that before, that changes everything."
Lizy sighed in relief.
"See now you're a cheat, a skank, and lying bitch." He said and stormed off... a secret smile playing on his lips. This made things easier, now he just had to make sure Lily found out why he dumped Lizy, or else she would never talk to him again.
The thought made him shudder.
A life time without Lily was something he could never bare. She was his everything. She was the air he breathed. Without her, he would suffocate. Without Lily, James was sure he would die.
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Hope that's long enuf 4 u. I'm at camp for 6 weeks, so there may or may not be an update. The former is most likely. R&R! and Happy Summer!!
the dyslexic bookworm --Sarah