Shattered Self

by ChaosAcrossTheUniverse13

After Jacob starts avoding Bella she decieds shes been hurt engouh and reaches out to her godmother. Thinking that if she got away from it all she can start to put her shatters self back together and heal. But the wound she bares is infected so it will have to be cut wide open and cleaned before she can truly start to heal. Healing is a BITCH and HURTS.

1. Chapter 1

Bella POV:

The numb feeling was overwhelming in its return, with the suffocation and overstimulation rushing back all at once. After a week of trying to see or even speak to Jacob, trying to stop it was pointless. The worst part was I saw it coming this time. After the movie disaster I saw Jacob's expression briefly through his window the next day when I went to visit him and see how he was feeling and got turned away by Billy. The look in his eyes was hauntingly familiar, it was one Edward and Alice gave me often when they decided something on my behalf because they thought they knew better.

I didn't want to feel this again, not when I was just beginning to feel like me again. But as I sat on my bed and looked around I began to realize that nothing in my room said it was mine. It was a combination of what Charlie wanting his little girl back but getting a teenager, and of whatever Edward and Alice were trying to turn me into before they got bored. Nothing felt like me.

Thinking back on everything I don't think Bella ever came to forks, she was left back in Arizona, but even then she was too busy being the parent and not the child with Renee. Making sure the bills were paid before the weekly change of hobbies and supplies. Making up her mind was easier then she thought, getting up from the bed and typing the email was like an out of body experience i was aware but not really response. i sat at my desk staring at my loptop then a replay came not even an hour later it was short but it lifted a weight from my chest makinging it easier to breath.

The hardest part would be convincing Charlie, but between the zombie state and the nightly nightmares it wouldn't be too hard to make him see a change of scenery would do me some good. My godmother had always said her door was open to her no matter the time or circumstance. She was Renee's younger cousin and actually was only in her twenties. Charlie thought Renee was crazy to name a 11 year old as a godmother when i was born but Renne eventually wore him down and one Eris Elizabeth Vines was names as a secondary godmother after gran and the primary after gran passed.

(The Email Reply)

Izzy,

Like I have always said, my door is always open to you. Just tell me when and i'll have a plane tick waiting for you and ill be on the other side.

With Lots of love your Eri.