A/N: Alright, so far we have: Finn: 0, Single: 1, Puck: 8. Keep the votes coming in. It's interesting. But please don't vote if you have already. I know I could make a poll on my profile, but I honestly can't be bothered.

Kurt had held Rachel's hand all the way to the hospital. The pain had dulled but she was still upset, scared and in tears. She couldn't remember if the pain was as bad as she thought it was or all of her emotions were just clouding her judgment. A miscarriage was something she couldn't wrap her head around. She hadn't even considered that she was pregnant. She had written off all the symptoms as stress and worry. She had an ultrasound that confirmed it. She hadn't been upset. She didn't know what to feel. It's like she couldn't feel anything anymore. She was sitting up in her bed with Kurt at her side when Carole, Finn and Puck arrived. She really didn't want them to see her like this. She looked down, trying to hide her face with her hair.

"How are you honey?" Carole asked as she rushed forward. Rachel didn't speak. She didn't want to. She was afraid that if she spoke she'd choke up and break down again. Which is something she really didn't want to do. Especially in front of so many people.

"She hasn't spoken."

"Since when?" Carole asked.

"Since she asked me to go with her in the ambulance." Kurt answered. Rachel felt awkward sitting there, but she was doing all she could do to hold whatever she had left of herself together. Kurt went on to explain to them what had happened, after getting a small nod of approval from Rachel, who was still avoiding eye contact with her. After what they had done for her, she figured they deserved to know. When Kurt finished Finn abruptly left the room.

"When are they letting you out?" Puck asked Rachel, she looked at Kurt.

"Tomorrow morning." Kurt said "I'll stay with her tonight and take her home tomorrow."

"Noah, could you go find Finn? We should let Rachel be." Puck nodded his head and left the room. He found Finn pretty easily, he was sitting outside, just next to the hospital entrance on the edge of a garden, his head was resting on his hands, he looked like he was crying. Puck suddenly felt a little bad about yelling at him in the car.

"Finn?" Puck said as he approached him. Finn looked up quickly, he wasn't crying, but he looked extremely stressed.

"What do you want? Do you want to tell me how wrong and horrible I was? Because if you are I beat you to it." Finn said in a kind of upset anger.

"No...I...are you alright?" Puck asked as he sat down next to Finn. Finn hung his head again.

"No, Puck, actually I'm not. It's not the first time I've lost a baby, you know. The first time it wasn't even mine to start with and this time I didn't even know about it. And the worst thing is that I did this to her. If it wasn't for me she wouldn't be in pain right now." Finn slowly looked back at Puck "Please just tell me there is no chance it could've been yours."

"There's no chance at all. Dude, you gotta trust Rachel. I mean, she didn't have to tell you in the first place. I told her not to, but she couldn't keep it to herself. She felt too bad about it to keep it a secret." Finn looked at his feet. "She honestly thought you'd forgive her if she was honest with you."

"Since when did you start having deep and meaningful conversations with my girlfriend?" Finn asked defensively.

"She's not your girlfriend anymore. So you better man up and stop feeling sorry for yourself. She's the one who was dumped, she's the one who's parents died, and she's the one who just had a miscarriage. Rachel is the one going through hell at the moment. And if you're not going to be there for her you shouldn't be here at all."

"Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse."

"What?" Puck was confused.

"Rachel said it, in her room."

"What do you mean?"

"Rachel basically said she thought life couldn't get worse when I broke up with her. Then her parents died. Now she's lost the baby she didn't even know she had." Finn sighed "Things can always get worse."

"Well, let's make sure she doesn't lose any friends." Puck said as Finn stood up. Puck hit his back friendlily. "We are on the same team, yeah?"

"Yeah."

Kurt didn't think he could be any more concerned for Rachel when he was looking after her when her dads died. He was wrong. He kept glancing over at Rachel sitting in the passenger seat as he drove her home. She was just staring out the window. Her face showed less emotion than a brick, like she was off in some other world. Kurt kind of hoped she was. This world had been cruel to her. Too cruel. She needed to have some kind of escape from it. They pulled into Rachel's driveway and she slowly opened the car door. "Rachel." Kurt said as she stepped out of the car. She looked up at him. "You don't have to be strong for me." She nodded and continued towards the house. Kurt followed her into the house. Carole had cleaned it up and left the keys on the bench for them.

Rachel took a towel out of the linen cupboard and headed towards the bathroom. A shower was exactly what she felt she needed. She stood under the water and let it wash over her. She started to cry. She couldn't understand how she could be so upset about losing something she never knew she even had. She imagined having the baby and raising a child. It was so surreal. She couldn't imagine doing it. But she had this feeling of almost happiness when she imagined herself nursing a baby. Her baby. But the baby was gone and so was Finn, so were her parents and Kurt would be gone soon too. He had been so good to her. She couldn't imagine living in this big house all by herself, just thinking about it made her feel lonely. If she had a baby she wouldn't be lonely, she thought about it as she cried. She knew all too well that a baby isn't the answer and she wasn't fit to be a parent by herself. But the thought that it was almost true was...comforting.

A/N: Review please.