A/N: Here's the next chapter guys! And I hate to tell you this, but it's the second last one! Don't fret though, cos I'm going to try and post the next story as soon as I can! If the title doesn't change, it should be called Please Don't Leave Me, and no it has nothing to do with the P!nk song.
Just a warning, this chapter contains mentions of drug abuse, as well as small spoilers for Jones.

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or any of its characters!

"You- you've been using?" JJ stammered.

Reid nodded. "Ever since Connors. He injected me so many times I- I became addicted. And I just- I didn't want to stop. I couldn't stop."

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" JJ demanded.

"I just- I don't know. I kept telling myself that you guys wouldn't understand, that you'd hate me and kick me off the team- and then I'd lose everything," Reid said. "The arguments just seem so… pointless now."

"That's because they are pointless, Spencer!" JJ said, her voice beginning to rise. "You could've trusted us; we would've helped you!"

"Look at the way the team is treating me now, JJ!" Reid pointed out. "They only suspect right now, imagine how they would treat me if they knew the truth! Especially you."

JJ had opened her mouth to speak, but Reid's words had stopped her. "What do you mean, especially me?" she asked.

"I was afraid you'd leave me," Reid said in a small voice.

JJ froze. She'd never seen Reid look so timid, so afraid. And it was because of her. No wonder he'd run off when he'd heard that LaMontagne had been flirting with her! He'd been afraid that, as soon as JJ knew that he had a serious drug problem, she would run straight into LaMontagne's arms.

"I can't do this without your help," Reid whispered. He looked so pitiful; she'd never seen him like this.

"You don't have to do this without me," JJ said, surprising even herself at the conviction in her voice. Reid's head snapped up and he looked at her, surprised and hopeful. "Spence, what you went through, it was just- horrible. It was torture. Connors forced you to take the drugs, you didn't choose it. You couldn't help it."

"But I chose to keep taking them," Reid pointed out.

"Addiction is a tough thing to fight, Spencer," JJ countered. "And with the memories of what you went through, the nightmares… of course you would want to get rid of them, in any way that you could."

"It still doesn't excuse what I did," said Reid.

"No, it doesn't," JJ admitted. "I'm just saying that Connors took the decision out of your hands. But you don't have to do this alone anymore."

"You mean…" Reid began, but was unable to finish talking. His voice caught in his throat, and he just looked at JJ.

She walked forwards and took both of his hands. "I'm not leaving you, Spencer. I couldn't leave you. I love you, and I'm going to stand by you, no matter what."

"Really?" There were tears swimming in Reid's eyes; he couldn't believe this was happening.

JJ nodded. "Really. I'm not going anywhere, and I am so glad you finally found the courage to tell me."

"You- you're amazing, JJ," Reid whispered. "I- I can't believe you're going to stay with me through this. Most women wouldn't."

JJ smiled. "I'm not most women," she said. She let go of one of Reid's hand, and ran the back of her own hand down the side of his face. "And you're not most men."

"Considering I have an IQ of 187, an eidetic memory and I can read 20,000 words per minute, I'd have to agree with you," Reid said, laughter creeping into his voice. JJ leaned forward to kiss him, but Reid stopped her. "Wait. There's something I've got to do first." He pulled away from her, and moved over to the bed where the vials and needle rested.

"What are you doing?" JJ asked, but Reid held up a hand to shush her as he picked up the vials and needle and walked into the bathroom. JJ followed. Reid stood next to the sink and opened both vials. A hand flew to JJ's mouth, and she reached forward to stop him- but then he poured the drug down the sink.

A smile spread across JJ's face. "Oh, Spence," she breathed. "You really, really mean to give this up, don't you?"

Reid nodded. "This isn't going to be easy, JJ," he said. "I'm going to go through withdrawals, cravings. I'm going to get angry with you and everyone else for no reason. There could even be times when I beg you for Dilaudid."

"I don't care," JJ said instantly. "I know it's going to be hard. But that's why it's worth it."

"Yes, it is." Reid leaned forward, and kissed JJ. The kiss was soft and sweet. It was full of feeling; Reid showing JJ how much he truly cared for her and loved her.

When the two of them broke apart, JJ stepped closer to Reid and leaned against his chest while he wrapped his arms around her. They stood like that for a while before JJ spoke up. "Morgan and Prentiss will be back by now," she said.

Reid sighed. "They're going to be wondering why I missed that plane."

"And you don't want to tell them what you just told me?" JJ asked, even though she already knew the answer.

"No," Reid replied instantly. "It… it took all I had to tell you. I can't tell them."

"I understand," JJ said. "But like you said, they do suspect something. They're going to ask questions."

"I know," said Reid. "Just tell them you're helping me. If they know that I'm getting help now, that should be enough for them."

"We were all so worried about you, Spencer," JJ murmured.

"I'm so sorry about that, Jayje," Reid said. "Really. I didn't want you to worry about me."

"I'm supposed to worry about you, Spencer," JJ replied. "You are my boyfriend, after all."

Reid couldn't speak after JJ's words, and he pulled her away from him so he could look at her face. "What?" she said, confused.

"I just- I never thought I'd hear you call me that," Reid admitted. "Boyfriend."

"Well, it's what you are," said JJ. "My boyfriend. As I am your girlfriend."

"My girlfriend," Reid repeated, a smile creeping across his face as he continued to look at JJ. "I never thought I'd be able to say that about you, either. My beautiful, beautiful girlfriend." Reid kissed JJ again, just as tenderly as he had before. "My secret girlfriend, unfortunately."

"You know we can't tell, Spencer," JJ reminded him.

"Yeah, I know," Reid sighed. "It's just… I wish I could. I wish I could show them how happy you make me feel. Plus, it would finally get Morgan off my back about him taking me out to various bars and clubs and teaching me what he calls the fine art of picking up women."

"Did his teaching work?" JJ laughed.

"Not for me, it didn't," Reid answered. "Most of the time he ended up with a woman buying him a drink, and I would leave for home alone while they were chatting each other up at the bar."

"You know you could always just tell Morgan, and make him promise to not tell anyone else," JJ suggested, a hint of laughter still in her voice.

"No, definitely not," Reid said straight away. "Morgan would make so many sexual innuendos, it would come out before you know it. I don't actually think I'm ready to tell them just yet, anyway. I need to deal with my other problems first."

"Like Prentiss and Morgan asking you why you missed that plane to Galveston," JJ said.

"And you explaining to LaMontagne exactly why you aren't interested in him," Reid added.

"You want me to tell LaMontagne about us?" JJ said, slightly shocked.

"You don't have to tell him you're with me," Reid said. "Just tell him you're already seeing someone."

"You mean that I already have a boyfriend," JJ corrected.

"Right," Reid said, smiling. "You already have a boyfriend. Although he could guess that you're talking about me anyway."

JJ nodded. "He might," she agreed. Removing Reid's arms from around her, she took one of his hands. "Now let's go face the others," she said, leading him out of the hotel room.

Prentiss and Morgan were already waiting in the precinct when JJ walked back in.

"Hey, have you seen-" Prentiss began, but then stopped when she saw Reid behind JJ. "Reid! Where were you? I called you, like three times."

"I didn't have any cell phone reception, so I didn't get your message until just after JJ found me," Reid replied. "Sorry."

Prentiss cocked her head to one side, giving Reid a look that meant she didn't believe him. "Uhuh," she said. "You have a good talk with your friend?"

Reid nodded. "I did. We had a very good catch-up, thank you."

"He actually didn't have any cell reception, Prentiss," JJ spoke up. "He didn't even know you guys were trying to reach him when I found him."

Prentiss still didn't look convinced, but Morgan gave her a look that made her decide not to press the issue. Reid gave JJ a relieved, grateful look. "Where's LaMontagne?" JJ asked, looking around. "I need to talk to him."

"He's in the other room, with Hotch and Gideon," Prentiss replied. JJ nodded her thanks and walked off. "What's she looking for him for?"

"I think she's actually going to turn him down once and for all," Reid said, turning around to the evidence board. Prentiss and Morgan exchanged confused glances.

"Why is she turning something like that down for, though?" Prentiss asked. "Once you get past the accent, LaMontagne is incredibly gorgeous!"

"I don't know why she isn't interested in him," Reid replied absently and truthfully, not turning around. "She just isn't. And she wants to make sure she doesn't leave him with any hope." Luckily Reid had managed to keep any of the happiness and love out of his voice, so Morgan and Prentiss didn't get suspicious.

JJ, meanwhile, was standing in the doorway to the room where LaMontagne was talking with Hotch and Gideon. She knocked on the doorframe, and the three men looked over at her. "Can I talk to you for a second?" she asked, looking at LaMontagne.

"Of course," he replied, following JJ out of the room and out of the precinct. The eyes of the team followed them.

A few metres away from the precinct, JJ stopped and turned around. "What did you want to talk about?" LaMontagne asked.

"I just wanted to make things clear, about why I don't want to go out with you," JJ said. She looked at LaMontagne. "I felt I owed you at least that much."

"Okay, then," said LaMontagne. "Tell me then. Why won't you go out with me? You know I like you."

"Yes, I do," JJ confirmed. "I know you like me; I know you've been flirting with me." She took a deep breath. "In another time, maybe I would've been interested in you. But there's absolutely no chance now. I have someone, and they mean the world to me. They are everything I've ever wanted, and I couldn't imagine my life without them."

"It's Doctor Reid, isn't it?" said LaMontagne.

"How did you know?" JJ gasped.

"It's not obvious, if that's what you're worried about," LaMontagne assured her. "But the way you were talking just then, and the fact that you ran off to find someone while you were with me- which I haven't told anyone, by the way- I just kind of figured it out."

JJ nodded. "It is Spencer," she said. "I love him so, so much. And he, by some miracle, loves me and trusts me enough to be with me and let me help him."

LaMontagne smiled. "I'm glad you have someone that makes you happy," he said. "Thanks for telling me, JJ."

"Anytime." JJ smiled back at LaMontagne, and put a comforting hand on his arm. "You'll find someone someday, Detective."

"Dr Reid is lucky to have you," LaMontagne said. "I hope he knows that."

"He definitely does," JJ assured him, and the two of them headed back into the precinct.

Good girl JJ! Like I said guys, the next chapter will be the last one, so after that keep an eye out for Please Don't Leave Me. Oh and for those of you reading my Morgan/Reid SLASH fic, A Secret Love, I am so so sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I lost my USB with an almost finished chapter on it! I'll try and find it, otherwise I'm going to have to try and write the chapter again! :(