Title: Disappointment

Author: zephiey

Rating: K

Pairing: None

Category: AU, One Shot

Warnings: Angst
Disclaimer: Dallas and its characters are the property of CBS, Larry Katzman and Warner Bros Studios. No infringement is intended from this work of fiction.

Summary: Disappointment is perhaps the hardest to endure but it often brings a new beginning.

Disappointment

"I hate you!" John Ross shouted.

"I hate you! I wish to God that you weren't my father. I wish Cliff Barnes had been my father, or Don or even Uncle Bobby. Anyone is better than you," John Ross yelled vehemently!

He didn't care that his father flinched at his words. He didn't care that his father's eyes filled with tears as he screamed and shouted his pain and frustration at the man who loved him more than anything in the world. He didn't care about anything but making his father feel the same pain he felt.

"Get out!" he yelled, his voice choke with tears. "Get the hell out! I don't want to ever see you again!" John Ross shouted, pushing his father out of his room before slamming the door in his father's face.

JR Ewing stood staring at the closed door. He laid a hand on the door, leaning his head against it as his son's words echoed in his head. His son hated him and it wasn't anyone's fault but his own.

He had caused this and now he had to live with it.

Taking a deep breath, JR caressed the dark wood and whispered, the tears in his voice easily heard. "You may hate me John Ross but I will always love you…always," said JR.

Straightening, JR stepped back from the door, walked down the hall and down the stairs. His steps were heavy and slow. Sue Ellen could feel the tears pooling in her eyes as she watched the man she would always love walk toward her. He didn't say anything to her as he picked up his Stetson from the hall table, and walked to the door. Opening the door, he placed his hat on, before taking a step out into the night.

A hand to his sleeve stopped him.

"J.R.?" said Sue Ellen. His name asking all the questions she couldn't voice.

JR covered Sue Ellen's elegant hand with his strong one, squeezing it slightly and looking at the woman he would always love. Giving her a soft smile, he bent and kissed her cheek before releasing her hand and walking out the door, closing it softly behind him.

Sue Ellen reached up and covered her cheek with her hand. JR's kiss felt like a final goodbye. Not thinking about the repercussions of her actions she quickly threw open the door. Before she had a chance to take one step outside, thundering footsteps sounded behind her and she turned to see her son tearing down the steps.

"Did he leave?" John Ross panted.

Sue Ellen stared at her son.

"Mom, did Daddy leave?" John Ross asked again, grabbing his mother by the arms, shaking her slightly.

"Yes, he just left," said Sue Ellen.

"Which way did he go?" asked John Ross. John Ross shook his mother's arms once again. "Mom... which way?"

"I don't know," she said. "But he couldn't have got far. Come on," she said, grabbing a light jacket and running out the door and down the steps, Sue Ellen didn't bother to see if John Ross followed. Her concern was finding JR. Sue Ellen looked left then right trying to see JR in the dark night.

"There he is," shouted John Ross, catching a glimpse of his father, wearing his distinctive Stetson in the muted street light. John Ross sprinted after his father, instinctively knowing his mother was right behind him.

"JR… wait...," shouted Sue Ellen.

"Daddy…wait…Daddy…Daddy," John Ross shouted as he raced down the street, ignoring the looks from passerby's as he yelled.

JR stopped and turned when he heard someone yelling daddy. He had only seconds to brace himself before his sixteen-year-old son was in his arms.

"Daddy…I'm sorry. I didn't mean it…I'm sorry," John Ross kept repeating as he clung to his father. JR hugged his son tightly to him, his voice cracking as he said, "Shh…John Ross…shhh…I'm sorry too."

Sue Ellen arrived a few minutes later and her son and ex-husband immediately pulled her into a hug. She returned their hug before linking her arms through theirs and leading them home and toward a new beginning.

The End