JPOV

Okay, so maybe she was my mate. I mean, surely the God of War deep within me, wouldn't just randomly decide to tell me to claim a random female. He was smarter than that. All the females id had over the years, not once did he even acknowledge that they were in my bed. He just slept. But now, he was more awake than ever, and it was all this females fault.

'major?' I heard her say, it brought me back from my thoughts.

'what Bella?' I felt her nervousness. So maybe I was being a dick to her, so sue me. I was having a hard time trying to sort out my thoughts, it's not my fault. It's the god of war's fault.

'um.. What happens if I lose one of the fights?' had I not told her this? Surely I had. Fuck! I hadn't.

'you die bella. Unless you mate to one of the males who actually hold some ground here. Then they wont kill you out of fear of being killed. They'll dismember you, maybe even bite you. But unmated females aren't worth shit out there if they cant fight. So you better start paying attention, because I wont save you if you get in trouble' why the fuck did I tell her that? She's gonna think im a sexist pig now, but its true. The vamps here over a year, are all from different eras but one thing remained the same, the only ones who will kill a mated female, is someone looking for revenge. that's one of the reasons ive never been interested in having a mate until now, ive got too many enemies that would use her to get to me. They would use her against me.

'major? .. Major?' guess I got lost in my thoughts again.

'yes Bella?' she was biting her lip. Sexy as hell.

'what should I do if one of the males, tried to mate with me?' that made me growl. Nobody touches what's mine! I leaned in close to her, knowing my eyes were black with anger, I was so close to her that our lips were almost touching. 'MINE!' I growled at her. Acting on instinct, I rubbed my cheek against hers, feeling more than hearing the purr coming from her chest, which caused me to start purring too. When my lips were against her ear I whispered 'mine' again to her once more and felt her hands move to my hair and lightly start massaging my scalp. My purr got louder. I felt her whispering to me, 'jazzy.. major.. come back to me. Come back… yours.. Come back' I could feel my eyes returning to their red, and sat and looked at her.

'what? Major, why are you looking at me like that?' I shook my head.

'nothing' beautiful. couldn't agree more. I knew then, that something had just changed.

ONE MONTH LATER

It's been a month since I started feeling things for Bella and I change, but we still haven't acted upon anything yet. She's already doomed to this life, the life of a soldier. But why make it worse? Why should I doom her to spend the rest of her life to the most despicable vamp on the planet? I couldn't. that's why I haven't acted on my feelings yet. She'd too good to be destined for me, but I have to say that every time a newborn wakes up I panic. I think, what if he is what she wants? What would I do then? And I already know the answer. And its painful for me every time I think it.

I would let her go. It would kill me to do, but if she chose someone else, then I would let her. And then I already knew what I was going to do if this happened. I would go to Italy and ask to die.

Oh, I forgot to mention, didn't I? im fucking depressed without my bella. Maria has made the newborns move location so that the buggers wouldn't get distracted, and every day apart killed me a little more. I was slowly building myself up day by day till they got back and do you want to know why? Because I was going to admit my feelings to her when she came back. In the last month without her, I realised that I couldn't and didn't want to be without her. But at the same time I was building myself up to be rejected, because lets face it, what could I offer her? A life of war. I know what everyone's thinking while reading this, what the hell happened to the mother fucker everyone feared known as the god of war. Ill tell you what happened. He fell in love. And with one person that he is sure hates him for being a dick to her. And yet, ironically, my life was in her hands. And she could choose to destroy me in one word. No. I just hope that whatever happens tomorrow, she wont regret her decision to reject me, like I know she will, because like humans, when vamps die, you cant bring them back to life.