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The carriage ride was shall I say awkward...Inuyasha could not meet Sesshomaru's stare(more like a death glare) the whole ride. Inuyasha could feel the hate emanating of the older inu. He hated how this, Sesshomaru his mate hated him so much and there was not one thing that he could do to lessen the hate. If he could Inuyasha would just become a full demon and hopefully Sesshomaru would love him or even like him and consider to be an actual person. But he knew it could never happen even if he did become a full demon Sesshomaru would still hate his former self and according to his mother she had told him that someone must love you for yourself not for something that was anything other then your natural self. However at this point he felt its better to be loved for something he was not then hated so much for he was.

The hanyou sighed and immediately covered his mouth as Sesshomaru shot him another glare. Inuyasha turning his head to the side to avoid its intensity. He could only hope, could only pray that the carriage ride would be over faster. But how wrong he was.

The carriage ride continued for another three excruciating hours of only him and Sesshomaru in the odd carriage. Even with the demon horses that led them to there destination the land of winds was oh so far from his home. The only home he had known. The place where he had lived his whole life.

Inuyasha had lived in the palace his whole life. Never leaving the protection of the palace walls. There was too much danger outside of the palace his father had told him. But now look at him. Finally out of the palace and facing the so called danger his father had spoken of. He wanted to be back at the palace the warm place where he would at least have protection and safety there. Here he would not. He was alone with Sesshomaru.

These thoughts only making him more anxious. Yes, he felt weak having to rely on the protection of others but Sesshomaru was one to show no mercy. If something defied him he would crush it. Just as he wanted to crush Inuyasha since the time of his conception.

The thought of being killed by the one you love appealed to some people. However this thought did not sit well with the young prince. Being killed by the one you love was only good to the extent that you knew they were killing you because they loved you or dying knowing you were loved. Sesshomaru never loved Inuyasha. Which to Inuyasha was ironic because ever since he had known Sesshomaru he loved him and even before Sesshomaru knew him he hated Inuyasha. Was life not funny that way? The thing you wanted most never becoming yours?

That made Inuyasha want to sigh but he knew that provoking Sesshomaru more then he already was, was suicide. He just lowered his eyes to the floor fighting of the traitorous tears that where forming in his eyes. He couldn't cry. He wouldn't cry. Sesshomaru was undoubtedly not going to remain faithful to Inuyahsa alone. He hated him. And soon there would be another mate who he would crown as his Aijou(1) and leave Inuyasha the position of Kawaisou(2).

Inuyasha could only feel his squeeze painfully in his chest. Aijou was what either the one mate(by default) was granted or the favorite mate (implying more there is more then one mate) was granted. Kawaisou was granted upon the mate that was least favorite, most lacking, or was just a prostitute that was used to bare their mates heir. It was a demeaning position that once you were in you could not escape and automatically fell onto one who had bared their mates babe.

Tears were threatening to spill but he would not cry. Not in front of Sesshomaru. His body quivered trying to prevent the tears from falling and the sobs that wanted to escape his throat but he would not cry.

The travel to the castle of the wind was drawing to an end. Sesshomaru (although his facial expression remained stoic) was relieved that he would finally be able to get out of the carriage and have air away from the thing that was inside with him. It disgusted him to no end how his father the great Lord of the West could have fallen so low as to mate with a human. And give birth to that. He would see to it that itwould properly dealt with and was disciplined to learn its position and abide by it.

The sudden stop of the demon horses halted the two's thoughts. Sesshomaru rose from his seat and sent Inyasha a glare that he could only perceive as saying "Get up, shut up, and follow me." So that is what the hanyou did. He rose shakily to his feet, his legs felt like soggy noodles, his eyes were watery, his face was flushed, and his head down turned. He felt shamed by his own existence.

When he finally got outside the carriage he looked at the palace of wind. His eyes lighted up. In honesty this was the first time seeing one of the other lands his father's lands other then the main lands. The land of wind was beautiful. The most beautiful land he had ever seen(Not that he had seen very many) he would even goes as far as to say it was the most beautiful land in the whole world. With its pale whites and soft colours how could it not be? The trees bark was even more beautiful then the main lands. Instead of a brown they were a soft bluish. Even the grass was pretty! It was a soft green with a soft white coating it. Inuyasha took caution walking on it (which proved quite difficult considering that he was wearing his uchikake (3) ). But at some point or another Sesshomaru must have gotten impatient with the boys pace, because even though he hated having any physical contact with Inuyasha Sesshomaru grabbed the boys arm and dragged him through the palaces gate.

The gates doors closed with a resonating crash. That sound sparked a nerve inside Inuyasha. He was trapped. TRAPPED with Sesshomaru. He wouldn't escape. He couldn't escape. He was doomed. Where as another part of him was trying to focus on the vague description that Sesshomaru was giving him on the castle.

The two halted. Sesshomaru shot the boy a sharp glare.

"This is my bed chamber. You are never to enter unless I command it of you. If you do you will face severe punishment. Here that whelp?" Inuyasha nodded dumbly. 'Note to self to not enter chambers unless if you want to be royally screwed. got it.' Inyasha thought to himself.

"That is your bed chamber," Sesshomaru gestured to the room opposite his. "You are only to leave your bed chambers if I allow you too. Do you understand?" Inuyasha once again nodded. "Answer me in words mutt."

"Yes, my Lord. Do not exit my bed chambers unless you wish it. Do not go in your chambers without being called upon unless I want to face severe punishment. I understand my Lord." Sesshomaru left out a hmph. And tugged on the boys arm and led him into his bed chambers. Inuyasha's eyes widened. This was it.

"Father said he wanted me to mate with you by the night of the new moon. So be it I'm even taking you a night before the night of the new moon." Inuyasha's eyes widened.

Sesshomaru grabbed the boy and threw Inuyasha onto the bed. He started to dis guard his clothing. He felt disgusted that he had to these actions with the family taint. His father wanted to him to mate the welp so he would. From the corner of his eyes he could see Inuyasha cradle himself in his arms. Hah! Like that would help.

Sesshomaru leaned over the younger and wrenched his arms away from his body. Inuyasha turned his head to the side he couldn't watch this happening. His mother told him that when a couple made love it was because they were in love. Sesshomaru didn't love him. He knew it. So did that make this wrong?

Sesshomaru ripped Inuyahsa out of his uchikake. INuyasha felt the wetness in his eyes spill. And was met by a slap across his cheek.

"You should feel honored you dirty taint." Sesshomaru hissed at him spitefully.

Inuyasha brought his hands to his face and let out a sob. He didn't want this. Why did he do what his father said. He didn't want this. He wanted someone who loved him. Why wasn't he happy on his wedding day? Another sob. Why? He loved Sesshoamru so why was he crying. He knew the answer to that. He knew it well. He wanted his first time to be more special then this.

"Quiet!" Sesshomaru yelled slapped the boy again and flipped him over onto his stomach. Inyasha wanted to tell him to stop he wanted to scream no but when he opened to scream out his voice only let out a whimper. His body wouldn't respond. It obeyed him seme. Inuyasha cried and then a searing pain. White. And he let out scream, of pain, of anguish, of terror. Inuyasha had been entered. No preparation no time to recover.

Sesshomaru started to thrust into the boy. The motions became easier. Inuyasha knew that it was his blood. And it made him sick. The more times Sesshomaru would enter him the more pain he would feel. He felt like his body was ripping apart. Was this love? Was this how it felt to make love? He somehow doubted it. If this was Kouga would it be more gentle? More enjoyable?

Sesshomaru picked up speed Inuyasha's screams grew louder. Until Sesshomaru striked him fiercely with his poison pain was excruciating. He felt his eyes blur. And felt the blistering pain of the poison spreading through his body.

"That's enough!" Sesshomaru growled.

Inuyasha bit his arm. Tears streaming down his face. His fangs cut through his arm as though it was butter. The harder Sesshomaru would thrust the harder he would bite down so he would not scream. After what felt like ten life times of hell he felt a sticky substance release inside of him. Sesshomaru continued to thrust into him until the substance stopped being released. Inuyasha still had tears running down his face and whimpers escaping his throat. Sesshomaru pulled out of Inuyasha's thoroughly abused body.

"Get out." Sesshomaru said calmly. Inuyasha wanted to ask 'what?' but just stood. Sesshomaru had not kissed him once. Had not even placed a mating mark on the boys body.

"That's it?" Inuyasha croaked.

"Don't question me just get out!"

"B-But-

"Get out before I personally dispose of you." Sesshomaru stated his eyes were red and his demonic energy flowed. Inuyasha ran out of the room and into his own. The blood flowed down his legs. He ran on his bed and cried. Cried more then ever had. He didn't even know anyone cry so much but he had.

"I hate you." He said in a small voice. "I hate you so much." Inuyasha's body racked with sobs. His whole body was in pain. Not only from the rape but the poison. Inuyasha's body burned in pain and finally the little body couldn't take it and he fell into the darkness. Dark yet warm somehow. That darkness he would soon grow to love.

(1) Ai jou- means any kind of love. (So intended to be the loved mate)

(2)Kawaisou- Literally means Poor or unfortunate (Poor or unfortunate mate.)

(3) Uchikake- (I explained this in the last chapter but its been a while so...) Formal Kimono often used in Japanese weddings.