Okay guys so here it is (finally) chapter 5. I've had it ready for a while but me being me I kept making little changes cause I felt like it was missing something but I eventully realized I wasnt gonna make it any better so I really do hope you enjoy and please review cause every single one I've had so far has put a smile on my face so thank you =) Also Denise thank you for you diary name ideas I had already thought of a name by the time you reviewed but you'l soon see that it is similer to one of you suggestions.

Sophies POV

Sophie slammed the front door shut and went straight towards the stairs but half way up she was stopped by her mum shouting to her

"You want a coffee love?"

"Umm yeah thanks can you bring it up to me please"

Sophie attempted a second time to ascend further up the stairs but was stopped yet again by her mother.

"Hey I don't think so madam, if you want one you can at least take it up yourself"

"Fine just forget it then" Sophie said before sighing and yet again attempting to get closer to her room

"Whoa hang on young lady what you rushing off for, come here"

Sophie let out a huff before turning around and descending back down the stairs but stopped at the bottom.

"What?"

"Alright no need to take that tone with me, anyway answer my question"

"I'm goin to my room is that a crime or somein"

"Sophie what have I told you about that tone and anyway why you in such a rush?"

"Oh I wanna go up there so I can snort coke and get ready to do my rounds on the street corners"

"That's not funny Soph I'm only trying to take an interest, anyway how's everything at school"

"Umm yeah fine, look mum I'm sorry but I got a load of work to do so yeah We'll talk later ok" and with that Sophie legged it up the stairs before her Mum could ask anymore questions leaving her mum there looking rather confused that her daughter is actually planning on doing homework, deciding that it must be art homework she thought no more of it and went back to making her brew.

When Sophie finally got to her room she threw her bag on the floor and shutting the door behind her she fell back onto the door and slid down it untill she was sitting on the floor, putting her head in her hands she breathed a sigh of relief that it was Friday. As she looked up she noticed her diary on her bedside table. She stood up and grabbed a pen from her bag, she then grabbed the diary and flung it and herself on the bed and began to write.

Dear Brooke, yep I'm calling you Brooke, don't ask me why, it was just a name that popped into my head last night and if you don't like it you can go burn in a forest fire for all I care. Sorry I'm just a little stressed, lets just say it been a verrry long week. I'd like to say its all down to the mass amounts of coffee I've been consuming lately which by 3am every morning I instantly regret but alas no and funny thing is its not even completely to do with Sian. Okay how about I start with Monday well I can definatly tell you whose to blame for that day from hell, its Chesney, he broke up with me. Now I know what your thinking, 'isn't Chesney a guy' and 'I thought you where gay' well yes both of those statements are true. Okay maybe I should explain a few things, me and Ches have been friends since we were in nappies but we've only been really close or boy and girlfriend to the rest of the world for a year or so now, see what happened was…..

"You alright CHESSney"

"It's Chesney and why don't you go do one Ryan I'm not in the mood"

"Come on Ryan give him a break' Sophie chirped in, she was sitting on a table with another girl who was half painting her nails and half watching the exchange between the boys.

"Oh what's the matter did your maths book break up with you"

Chesney stood up he really wasn't in the mood for more of Ryans wind ups, he turned to face Ryan, if it wasn't for the fact Chesney was shorter then Ryan then they would have been eye to eye.

"Fuck off Ryan"

"Woo! Gay boy has balls" Ryan said looking up above Chesneys head, as Chesney turned his head to see what it was Ryan was looking at he saw Ryans older brother Chris who was a little taller then Ryan and far bulkier which was why he was the rugby player and Ryan stuck to football.

Sophie had been watching with a saddened face, she hated when Ryan did this, tried to act like the big man to impress his older brother, she knew deep down he wasn't all bad, when they were alone together and it was just the two of them he could be really sweet, granted he was still an idiot and a bit of a bully in front of everyone else. What was worse was that deep down Sophie also knew that whenever Ryan was being really sweet to her it was just to get into her pants and after hearing what Ryan had called Ches she'd had enough, of everything. She stood up and went up to Ryan, turning him around.

"Ryan seriously stop it okay!"

Upon hearing this, the whole hall started to silence obviously interested in what the girl was shouting about. Under normal and less public circumstances Ryan might have listened but with everyone watching he had to put his 'hard man' head on.

"Come on babes, I'm just stating a fact I know he's your mate but doest stop him from being the biggest homo since umm well I don't know but he still seems gay to me"

"Well he's not alright so just leave him alone"

"Oh yeah and how the hell would you know"

Sophie thought about her next move, this could ruin everything but she couldn't let Ryan push Ches (and even her sometimes if he felt like it) around anymore.

"Fine Ryan you want me to prove it to you"

Ryan folded his arms, waiting to see how exactly she was going to prove it.

Sophie turned round grabbing Chesney by the scruff of the neck and kissed him and he kissed her back after getting over the shock. The kissed only lasted seconds then Sophie pulled away. Ryans face dropped.

"There see now if he was gay he wouldn't have kissed me back would he"

Once Ryan had got over the shock his faced changed, he looked like a bull about to charge.

"You what!" he looked past Sophie and then lunged at Chesney, fist at the ready but Sophie stepped in the way

"Soph move or I swear I'll"

"Or you'll what eh hit me instead, you know what Ryan I really don't give a fuck what you do or who you pretend to be anymore we're over". With that, she grabbed Chesneys arm and they both left, leaving Ryan standing in the middle of the hall, Chris put his hand on his brothers shoulder who now looked like a lost little boy.

"Come on mate, they'll be other birds" but deep down he knew that wasn't the problem. The problem was that almost everyone was now whispering to one another and looking at Ryan.

Chesney and Sophie were sat leaning against a radiator in one of the many abandoned hallways.

"So what's goin on Ches usually you just ignore Ryan and his little outbursts what's up?"

"Never mind that, what the hell did you just do?"

"What d'you mean?"

"Oh come off it Soph I'm not the idiot in all this remember, never have you defended me like that before, usually you just give me the 'sorry there's nothing I can do' look and leave your brute of a boyfriend to it"

"Ex-boyfriend and I've wanted to do it for a while just never found the right time"

"The right time? Soph you just kissed me and broke up with him in front of everyone, how exactly did that seem like the right time to you?"

Sophie looked a little lost, how could she explain, she looked at Ches who genuinely wanted an answer to that question and truth be told she felt like she owed him that much.

"I'm gay"

Chesney shook his head in disbelief

"Wh…wh… what but Ryan and… What!"

"I've know for a really long time Ches and when it was just me and you as mates it never really mattered but then we got to comp and things changed, I started to you know 'develop' and guys were noticing me." Sophie stopped to see if Chesney understood and he seemed to nod a little to indicate that he did. "Anyway Amy came up to me one day and asked if I wanted to sit with them which is a little weird but I'd never really had and friends who where girls so I thought what the hell, she commented on the fact that I'd never had a boyfriend even though loads of what she liked to call 'proper fit lads' where interested in me. She pointed towards Ryan and told me he liked me or actually he thought I was 'fit' and then she said that "you'd have to be gay to turn that one down"." Sophies voice started to break a little but she had to get this out."I froze up Ches I was terrified people would find out, I mean why would she say that, why would she use THAT word. So I did what I had to, I got a boyfriend, and started hanging round with Amy and all that, I knew while I was with them no-one would question anything about me, hell I could say I was related to the queen and no-one would bat an eyelid"

"Wait so let me get this straight and excuse the pun but you hung round with Amy and Chris so no-one would have a go and Ryan was just part of the deal"

"Yep that's the long and short of it, I can't stand him Ches, I mean he can be nice sometimes but still every time I kissed him I felt disgusted with myself and repulsed by him"

"Hang on though doesn't that put kind of a hole in your 'wouldn't kiss back if he's gay' theory cause I mean your apparently gay and you kissed him back on more than one occasion and you just kissed me and from where I was standing it looked believable to me"

"Ches that's so not the point and besides he's an idiot, tell him the world was flattened while he was asleep and he'd ask if he'd be able to kick a ball of the edge"

"Ha fair point. You know I've missed you Soph we were mates for so long and then poof you just stopped hanging around, I always thought you'd come to your senses and realized you didn't want a dweep for a mate"

"Aww you big softy and Ches your not a dweep and I'm sorry ok I guess my survival instincts kicked in and I did what I thought I had to" Sophie grabbed him and pulled him into a hug. At that moment, Ryan walked around the corner followed by Chris who had his arm wrapped around the girl Sophie was with earlier.

"Aww well aint this cosy, so what you broke up with me for that, nice one Soph talk about down grading. You know what mate your welcome to her she was shit in bed anyway"

"What the fuck Ryan we haven't even slept together so why even bother trying to lie about it right in front of me, your really are an idiot aren't you" Sophie laughed a little at the stupidity of the boy standing in front of her, even Chesney giggled a bit.

Ryan walked off clearly not happy that Sophie had just embarrassed him again.

Chris went to go after him but the girl beside him turned him around and kissed him on the cheek

"I'll catch you up babe yeah" He nodded before sprinting after Ryan.

Sophie stood up to face her friend "Amz I'm sorry ok I know…"

"Save it Soph we're through okay and I hope you don't think you can come crawling back to us when you're finished with book worm over there"

"Come on Amy what about 'hoes before bros' Amy laughed

"Soph love we don't live in some soap opera in reality its 'sex before socializing'. I can't be your friend cause Ryan is Chris's brother and well that means it's either you or them and I'm sorry Soph but Chris gives me something you can't if you know what I mean". Amy winked and went to leave but turned back around "Soph also if you think Ryan's gonna let what you just did to him go you got no chance, and I don't mean breaking up with him, he'll probably have replaced you by the end of the day but you just showed up the second most popular guy in school, after Chris of course, so babes whatever happens it's your own fault" and with that she did leave. Sophie turned around and sat down next to Chesney and leant on him, he placed his arm around her, hoping this would somehow help a little.

"What have I done Ches, he's gonna make the rest of our time here hell. I'm so sorry Ches"

"Hey don't worry about it, he already made a nightmare of mine so nothings gonna change much for me" he smiled down at her trying to comfort her a little. Chesney was angry that she ditched him as a friend to keep her secret well a secret but he understood why she did it and deep down he knows he would have done the same.

"You know what I may have lost my friends, my boyfriend and my social status but I got something far better then that"

"Oh yeah what"

"My best friend back" Sophie smiled at him, she had missed him to, they had shared pretty much everything together and she was the reason they had lost that

"Aww now whose being the softy, come here" he pulled her in to another hug

"OH MY GOD that's it!" Sophie said jumping out of the hug

"What?"

"Ches everyone now thinks were a couple right?"

"Yeah I know I don't know what's worse people thinking I'm gay or people thinking I'm with a girl who IS actually gay"

"Hey I'm not that bad anyway you're missing the point"

"What are you talking about?"

"Ches if people think we're together then there not gonna suspect that I'm gay and since they're all just assuming we are its not technically lying, its just not correcting them"

"Rrrrrright ok so umm what you want us to go along with it" Sophie nodded rather proud of her attempt number two of 'operations Sophies closet' as she liked to think of it

"And what may I ask is in it for me?"

"Ah now that's the genius part cause not only will you score 'locker room' points for bagging such a hot babe but Ryan will no way want people thinking he was dumped for a gay guy"

"Well you definitely think highly of yourself don't you"

"Mah it's a gift, nah to be honest its Amy, I think after all this time she's rubbed off on me"

"Well I can see the logic I guess"

Sophie looked confused "What? In Amy rubbing off on me"

"No you plonker, in the whole 'Ryan won't want the world thinking he got dumped for a gay guy' thing"

"So you'll go along with it?" Hope rising in her face.

"Well I suppose I'l have to, after all when you make it sound as beneficial as that how can I refuse"

"Aww thanks Ches I owe you big time for this" she pulled him in to a big hug and even kissed him on the cheek.

"Soph I gotta ask though, what the hell are 'locker room' points?"

"Oh you know, all you guys gossiping about us girls and comparing notes about who was the 'fittest bird' or whatever. Well you would score big points cause whether I like it or not guys seem to find me physically attractive, thank god I have such an amazing boyfriend to keep them away" she smiled and winked at him, but Ches just giggled nervously

"Umm yeah Soph guys don't 'gossip' about girls and they definitely don't gossip to me, in fact guys don't gossip full stop and seriously you watch faaar to much TV"

"Oh whatever how do I know what you guys get up to behind closed doors and truth be told I don't wanna know"

Sophie and Ches sat there in silence until the bell went just glad that both had their friend back and Sophie finally relived that she had someone to talk to about her secret . As they got up to leave for class Ches stopped.

"Umm can I ask you something?"

"Yeah sure what's up?" She replied whilst putting her bag on her shoulder

"Well you know how you said that when you kissed Ryan it repulsed you, well was that how you felt when you kissed me" Sophie looked at him he looked so innocent and shy 'Aww bless him'. She just sighed then grabbed Chesneys hand and linked her arm through his

"Come on boyfriend we'll be late for physics and you no I would never dream of missing that" and with a sarcastic tone in her voice and a smirk on her face she dragged him away.

"Oh by the way what was going on with you earlier"

"Oh well Fizz has only gone and asked John to move in"

"What! Oh my god no way"

…..so yeah me and Ches and how we became 'a couple' and I know that deep down people aren't gonna automatically assume I'm gay just cause I'm single but right now that's the least of my problems, its why he did it and the way he did it that's getting to me. Anyway I'l be right back mums just called me for dinner and when I do I can tell you about the rest of my week. BRB X3X

And there you have it, now since it took me so long to upload this chapter I will try my very best to get chapter 6 up by tomorrow or atleast the day after =) And I do apologise that this fic is more focused on Sophie atm but I promise that their will be plenty of Sian chapters to come