Hey guys as usual thanx again for the reviews and also I apologise for the fact that I didnt update when I said I would but my internets been playing up a fair bit. Anyway to make up for it I'm uploading 2 chapters this time and I know their abit short but I'm hoping the next one will be longer. So umm yeah anywoo hope you enjoy and please review you guys cause I love them, their like better then birthday presents or chocolate or something =)

Sophies POV

Hey so I'm back. Nothing much to say about the food if I'm honest I mean what's to say, its food. Right on to the important stuff so you know how me and Chesney 'got together' now its time to tell you about how we fell apart, I say fell apart more like Chesney all of a sudden decided he wanted to be like all the other horny teenage boys and start thinking with his dick. Oh wait before I get onto the serious stuff there was one amazing upside to Monday, I got to see Sian in her bra and it wasn't cause I was taking a sneak peek in the changing rooms either. Nope, when me and Ches went to get her there she was standing at the top of the stairs in her short, black skirt but not so short that its sluty. It's like she had it at the perfect length that gets your heart racing just that fraction faster but still leaves everything to the imagination and imagine I did ;). Anyway, after only taking about two second to examine her lower half and FYI she has killer legs, my eyes travelled up to her chest. She was wearing this amazing black bra with red netting on it and her hair flowed down her chest which did cover her cleavage but I wont say that I'm disappointed cause that would make me sound like some kind of perv and I'm not cause I know there is way more to Sian then the fact then she has the most amazing and perfect figure ever. Her stomach is curved and perfectly tanned and not fake either like most girl but a real natural one which then made me imagine her sunbathing an awful lot in order to get it like that. Me being an idiot I just stood there gawpping at her like a horny teenage boy whilst the actual teenage boy in the room turned around like the perfect gentleman all be it mumbling the whole time and I swear I actually saw drool on his face. Fuck I've completely gone of topic but I just wanted to show you that I don't see everything in my life as all doomy and gloomy. Right so before the whole 'Sian bra' incident as it will hence forth be known, yeah I like the sound of that, anyway yeah before we went to get Sian I went round to get Chesney early so I could apologise to him.Sophie stood on the door step and knocked on the door. She didn't have to wait to long before Chesney swung the door open with his tie hung around is neck, not yet done up and his hair in a bit of a mess.
"Oh hey Soph, you're a little early what's up, Rosie doing your head in again?"
He moved out of the way to let her come in and then shut the door behind her and begun doing up his tie.
"Umm no, well yeah when isn't she but umm no that's not why I'm early"
"Oh so why then?"
"Look I wanted to apologise about what I said the other day Ches, it obviously got to you"
Chesney turned his gaze away from Sophie.
"Oh right umm apology accepted"
"Ches?"
"Mmm"
"Aren't you gonna tell me why it got to you so much"
"Soph it doesn't matter"
"No Ches it does mat… hang on what's that smell, Ches are you wearing aftershave, you don't even shave. Trying to impress someone is it" Sophie laughed
"Yeah so what if I am trying to impress someone and actually I do shave thank you very much"
Chesney turned away to face the mirror so he could sort out his hair and then grabbed a pot of wax from the draw and started to work it through his hair.
"And since when do you wear wax?" Sophie looked at him puzzlingly. "Ches whats going on?"
"Nothing what's wrong with wanting to make an effort every now and again"
"Yeah but its more than that, you just said you were trying to impress someone. So who is it? Is it that Katie girl who had a crush on you a couple of months back?"
"No, if you must know it's Sian" He said smiling at her through the mirror before returning to messing with his hair.
Sophie tensed up at this, she knew he liked her but he'd only met her a couple of days ago, then again so had Sophie so she understood how he could fall for her so quickly.
"But Ches in case you've forgotten she thinks we're together, everyone does, you go flirting with her and people are gonna start talking and you don't want that do you"
Chesney turned around to face Sophie
"No Soph you don't want that" He said pointing at her, his face had hardened and he looked angry, he started to raise his voice, like all that he had bottled inside was about to explode there and then.
"When we started all this I got something out of it to but Ryan hasn't bothered us in months and all I get out of it these days is all the hassle and commitment of a relationship without any of the benefits. Plus that Katie girl you spoke off, was really nice and she actually liked me but I had to turn her down, for you"
"So what Ches you breaking up with me is that it"
"Soph we're not actually together and you need to grow the hell up and stop being so bloody selfish"
"Sophie looked down at the floor, her face had saddened. Chesney softened his voice.
"You're my best mate, I love you and I would do pretty much anything for you and I think I've proven that, don't you. But Soph I cant keep sacrificing my happiness so you and your little secret can live in narnia. I'm done with all this, Now I'm eventully gonna ask Sian out even if she does laugh in my face and if you were a true friend you would let me".
Chesney looked at Sophie with pleading almost puppy dog eyes, he was doing it on purpose as he knew Sophie could never say no to them. Sophie didn't actually care that their fake relationship would be over, she had come to terms with who she was and deep down she knew no-one would automatically think she was gay just because she wasn't with anyone. No that wasn't what hurt Sophie, It was the reason he wanted to end it. Sophie could clearly see that Chesney had felt this way for a while but Sian was what had motivated him to end it now. Sophie knew she never stood a chance even less of a chance then Chesney did but it didn't make it any easier to deal with. Chesney was right about one thing though, she needed to stop being selfish, even if he didn't end up with Sian he did deserve to be happy with someone and in a real relationship that isn't full of lies.
"Ok" Was all Sophie could say
"Great anyway we better get a move on we told Sian we'd be there at 8:30 and its 8:28"

I was pretty silent for the rest of the day and just sort of zoned out, didn't really feel like talking if I'm honest which is weird for me, I usually at least mumble utter rubbish just so people don't question how I really feel. Its like in my head if I'm quiet people can ask me questions and try to figure me out so I learnt along time ago that if I talk non stop about absolutely nothing then I don't give them a chance. I figured something out that day though, it doesn't matter if you're a silent mouse or the gobbiest bitch alive, people don't give a fuck. Now that is something I should have learnt along time ago. If you could see my family you'd see why, there's my mum, the biggest question she's ever asked me is what I want for my tea, and why, because by the time she's finished with Rosies latest drama , she doesn't have the energy to deal with mine. She does try, I can see it in her eyes she wants to be there for me but I can also see that she wouldn't be able to handle it. I don't really see much of my dad anymore, he's got a baby see, Jack, from another woman, Molly her name was but she died not long after Jack was born. I'm doing it again arn't I, getting of track, my past is well my past and this diary and what I write not, is all about my future.
So getting back to the point, people don't give a fuck, Ches didn't once ask if I was ok that day even though he would have taken a guess at what was wrong with me and been wrong, he didn't ask. My teachers didn't seem to notice that for the first time ever I didn't crack a joke, I know its not their job but they didn't even seem to appreciate the fact that I was pretending to concentrate for a change. I think I may try and get an early night actually fuck that just checked the clock and its 1:03 wow when did it get so late. Anyway night Brooke XxX

Sians POV

Monday was dragging on, I had been given my timetable and found I shared only one class with Sophie, Art and our first lesson wasn't till tomorrow, I guess I just had to hope I would see her at lunch time but until then I was stuck with this real idiot called Ryan, I think. I was sat in my English class with him, he kept trying to talk to me and yeah I could have given him a chance but considering his first words to me where "Hi I'm Ryan I play football and I was just telling my brother that I thought you were fit" if that wasn't enough to convince me of his lack of brain matter then the fact he didn't take the hint when I completely ignored him, defiantly did. I just stared out the window the whole time thinking, thinking about Sophie. She was defiantly A weird one I'll give her that. When I first met her she was really quite then she livened up, then she was shy again, then today she was completely silent. From when her and Ches came to get me to when we got into the school the only words she said were 'oh my god' and only then its cause she saw me in my bloody bra, god what fool I made of myself. Maybe that was it maybe she was just embarrassed about that, or maybe she was pissed off cause Ches was trying to flirt with me again. I no it sounds like I'm being big headed but there's a difference between arrogance and knowing when someone is interested, but why though I mean is he blind, he has the most amazingly beautiful girlfriend, why would he be interested in me.
Lunch time finally arrived and I was looking for Sophie and Ches but with no luck, then as if out of nowhere this girl came up to me.

"Hey your Sian right, I'm Amy. I don't usefully offer for people to sit with us but since your new and at least an 8 I'll make an exception."
"Umm thanks, I think. What do'u mean, an 8?"
"Oh you know, well your good looking in a totally straight girls prospective kinda way"
"Umm thanks, I guess"
Amy took Sians arm and dragged her over to the table where Chris and Ryan were sitting, she sat down next to Chris and kissed him on the cheek leaving the only seat left, next to Ryan.
"Babes this is Sian, she's gonna be hanging with us from now on k. Sian this is Chris my boyfriend and this is…"
"Ryan, yeah we've met she's in my english class Amz, hey again, so umm how you finding Wethersfield high so far?"
"Oh umm yeah its alright, well so far anyway"
"Not like your last school then" Amy said looking into Sians eyes
Sian could feel there was something off about this girl, she made her feel uneasy 'why do get the feeling this girls gonna be trouble'
"Don't know what you mean"
"Well you went to a private school didn't you, parents must be loaded to afford that"
'How did she know what school I use to go to'
"Umm no their not really, my mums boyfriend paid for it"
"Wow well wasn't that nice of him" Amy said, she had this look on her face, like she knew more about Sian then she was letting on. 'your just being paranoid Sian, she probably doesn't know anything, maybe I give off this whole 'private school vibe' that I cant see but others can read it all over my face. Fingers crossed that's all people can read from me.
"So umm are you guys friends with Sophie and Ches?"
Chris spat his drink back into his cup in shock and Amy laughed into her hand. Sian looked a little confused and turned to look at Ryan who had mixed expressions, its was a mix of sadness, anger and a little bit of shock.
"Umm no babes and I would advise you not to be either" Amy said this as more of an order than general advice
'Oh shit why do I all of a sudden have a bad feeling about this'
"Umm why not?"
'I'm pretty sure I'm gonna live to regret asking that'
"Because she's a little slag who cant keep it in her pants and he's a complete and utter gay douch" Ryan hissed, the bitterness clear in his voice
"She had no trouble keeping it in her pants with you though"
Ryan stood up and walked away, Chris stood up to go follow him
"Babes why do'u have to go say that, you don't have to be a bitch all the time you know" Chris left to go run after Ryan
"Don't mind them, Ryan's just pissed cause she broke up with him for Ches and completely humiliated him in front of the whole school and Chris well he's Ryans brother and loyalties a big thing to him, part of why I love him"
"So I guess that's a no to my original question then"
Amy leant over the table so she was mere meters aways from Sians face.
"Look let me give you some friendly advice, you hang with us you'll want for nothing. You hang with them and you'll regret the day you moved here"
"Is that a threat?"
Amy leaned back again
"No as I said just some friendly advice, just think about it yeah, if you choose us then I'll see you here tomorrow lunchtime, if not then well, you'll soon find out"
Amy stood up and winked at Sian and with an almost evil smirk, she left Sian sitting alone.