BEEP BEEP BEEP BE…

Sian slammed her hand on the snooze button. She just wanted to stay in bed all day after only one day in her new school she was already dreading it. She had spent the rest of Monday afternoon trying to figure out what to do and after getting nowhere; she got home and buried her head in her homework then a bit of telly. It wasn't until it got to 10 o'clock that night that she'd realized she hadn't eaten anything and by then she couldn't be bothered so went straight to bed, but not to sleep. She stayed awake most of the night weighing up the pros and cons. If she chose Sophie and Ches she would get to spend time with that fascinating girl, the one that seemed to keep her guessing, that made her want to smile all the time for no reason, the girl was making Sian questioning every reason she'd moved here in the first place. On the other hand though if she stuck with Amy and the boys she wouldn't have to worry about people pestering her, pushing her, except for Amy herself but she could deal with that and as a bonus, Sophie wouldn't hate her for Chesneys constant flirting, it was getting ridiculous, the boy was like a dog on heat or something. Sian could tell Sophie didn't like her for it when Chesney was standing by the gates at the end of the day, stopped Sian, and offered to walk her home. Sophie just looked at them and walked straight past them, what made it worse was that Ches didn't even seem to notice or at least he didn't seem to care, God are all guys dicks.
Sian heard the front door slam, her dad was home from his night shift, he had gone to work yesterday morning, come back for a couple of hours sleep while Sian was in school then he was off out again for the night shift, either that or he slept in the station. Sians dad was a fireman and now Sian was living with him he needed the extra cash so was working double shifts. He knocked on Sians door

"Sian love its 8 o'clock you up yet, you'll be late otherwise… Sian?"
"Yeah dad I'm up"
"Okay well I'm gonna try get a few hours kip but I have the night off tonight so we can get a film and takeaway in if you want"
"Umm yeah that would be great"
Sian heard her dads' bedroom door shut as she got up, realizing she needed to get a move on she legged it down the stairs and made herself a quick cup of coffee before legging it back up again and jumping in the shower. Once she was out she dried her hair and looking at the clock she realized it was 8:25
"Fuck, shit Ches is gonna be here any second"
Sian rushed around the room getting all her stuff together; she was still no closer to deciding who to choose when there was a knock at the door
'Oh fuck please don't wake my dad' She walked down the stairs and opened the door
"Hey Ches your gonna have to be… oh its you"
"Sorry to disappoint" Sian smiled, she was many things but disappointed was not one of them
"Umm come in Soph, sorry its just Ches said he would come meet me is all"
"Yeah well he txt me saying he had to go in early, something about a physics project or something, and he asked if I could come get you"
"So you weren't gonna come originally then" Sian smirked 'Shit am I flirting with her'
"No"
Sians smirk faltered
"Shit sorry it's not personal"
"Right, so umm you want a cuppa"
"We have to get to school"
"Oh yeah right school" 'duh what's wrong with you Sian have you lost the capability to think'
As Sian and Sophie left the house Sian took a pack of cigarettes out of her pocket and shoved one in her mouth, she waved the pack in front of Sophie who shook her head
"Sorry didn't have time to have one this morning, can't get through the day with out my morning fag"
"Those things will kill you, you know"
"WHAT! Oh shit I didn't know" Sian laughed "I've been meaning to quit for a while, even did for a short while but I guess the whole lifestyle change started me up again"
"Why not try and quit again, tell you what you quit and I will to"
"But you don't smoke"
"Exactly I've kept up my end of the deal now you keep up yours"
Sophie smiled at Sian but still had a serious look on her face.
Sian couldn't help but bask in the glow the smile was radiating 'good god she could knock out gods with that smile'
"So why weren't you gonna turn up"
"What?"
"You said you weren't gonna come with Ches to come get me"
"Oh umm me and Ches had a bit of a fight that's all"
"Oh, you guys are alright though aren't you?"
Sian was trying to search Sophies face, she could see the girl was debating whether to tell her the truth or not. They had arrived at the school gates but before they walked in Sophie turned to face Sian
"We broke up"
"What! Why?"
Sophie looked away from Sian
"Umm don't know guess it just wasn't working"
"So it was a mutual thing then?"
"Uh no Ches broke up with me"
"Oh I'm so sorry Soph"
Sian put her arm around Sophie hoping that it wasn't anything to do with her but Sophie shrugged her arm away
"Umm look I'm sorry but I have to go" and with that Sophie walked away leaving Sian standing there. 'Shit it was to do with me wasn't it' It was in that moment that Sian made up her mind, She would stick with Amy and the lads, not for herself but because her being around Sophie, as much as she wanted nothing more, would cause problems. She hadn't even been here very long and she'd already broken two people up, it seemed that no matter were Sian was she would cause people pain at least she didn't have to worry about that with Amy's lot or at least it wouldn't bother her as much.

Sophie's POV

Sian had been so nice to me and I just blew her off it was just that when she put her arm around me I knew that if I didn't push her away there and then, then I would never want her to let go. Her touch was electric; it went straight through me and made my heart beat at 100 mph. I know I could have dealt with it better but it doesn't matter now anyway, I've lost her for good. I knew I had art with her after lunch and I know I could have waited until then to apologise but I thought it better to get it out of the way at lunch so there was no weirdness. That is when I saw her, with Amy, Chris and Ryan. They had got to her, she was laughing and chatting with them and although she looked slightly uncomfortable, that was probably just new girl nerves. I wasn't gonna try and compete with them, they were cool and popular, everyone liked them or wanted to be them and me and Ches well we're just a closet case and a geek. Now you may be thinking, why does she have to choose and in another life she wouldn't have to but in this one she obviously knew she had to. She had the chance to sit next to me in art, no one else she knew was in that class and I had an empty seat next to me but she chose to sit on her own. Yes, I know I hadn't apologised yet so technically she might have thought I didn't want her to but I guess pride got the better of me. Ches found me at the end of the day and told me that Sian was hanging with Amy and that lot, I didn't have the heart to tell him that I already knew and that it was partly my fault. So things went back to normal, well sort of, me and Ches weren't back to being 'a couple', Ches was still oblivious to how down I was and was still determined to ask Sian out. Problem with being so quite, after a while you tend to leave your own head for a while and focus on what everyone else is doing and from what I could see Amy was medalling again like she had been with me and was trying to set Sian and Ryan up. I give it a month before their an item. I feel kinda bad though cause when I see them what I should be feeling is pity for Ches but instead all I can feel is jealousy for myself. The rest of the week is pretty much a blur with the same routine, get Ches, walk to school and pretend to listen to what he has to say. Sit in class staring out the window chuck my lunch in the bin and sit in the empty corridor buy the radiator cause Ches is in the science or maths block and although id normally go keep him company and in return he would help with/do my homework but this week I just couldn't be asked. Then I'd go home, sit on the couch and watch TV until dinner was ready, eat half of it then chuck the rest away while my mum was too focused on Rosie to notice. Then I'd go upstairs shove my headphones in do some art work or write to you then fall asleep either listening to 'The Pretty Reckless' or 'My Chem's' new album. So there you have it, my week in a nutshell. I think I'm gonna get some sleep this whole week has tired me out. Night Brooke XxX