You shimmy shook my bone leaving me stranded all in love on my own
Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby where do I sleep?
Feel so good but I'm old, 2000 years of chasing's taking its toll- Kings of Leon

B.P.O.V

I'm stranded. Trapped inside of the walls of love that has dragged me to hell and back. The sweat continued to roll off of my back as I tossed and turned in the confines of my bed, the cool sheet smothering me causing me to hyperventilate. The black sky's shown in my bedroom as the thunder and lighten soared above the clouds.

The storm had not let up and I did not believe that it ever would. The raging storm that had swept it's way into Forks had over powered the storm brewing inside of my heart. I kept my eyes shut tightly until I could not longer hear my television.

I sighed, opening my eyes, and siting up in the darkness. Sweat glistened off of me soaking my silk night gown as I took a deep breath. I stood up from the bed and walked out of my bedroom and down the hall. Charlie and Renee were fast asleep. I smiled lightly at them for a moment before proceeding down the stairs in a quest to find candles.

After I had failed to complete my mission I went out onto the front porch. Maybe I was a little crazy or suicidal I guess it was fine to think that at the time. I stood on the porch quietly with my eyes closed as the rain began to consume me. The thunder continued to roar above me and as I tilted my head back allowing my body to be consoled by the rain.

His scent filled my lungs, burning my body to the core. I could see his face behind my eyelids. It disgusted me how I wrapped myself up in my thoughts lately.
But my thoughts of Jay could not over power the hateful words that Edward said to me. Maybe there were some truth to what he said. After all I was a twenty one year old without a plan. I had not college degree or an idea of what I wanted out of life. My life had been consumed by what I thought I wanted. I lived my life not for myself but for someone who did not love me at all.

I can't tell you how long I stayed that way. But I stayed out in the rain longer than I thought were possible. The rain was cold and hard as it hammered my skin. I wanted to drown. I needed to wash away the pain. I thought that I was strong enough to pick up and leave but I was not. I had fooled no one but myself.

The storm continued for hours. I found myself lying on the cold floor of my bedroom in my silk night gown as the tears poured from my eyes. I couldn't pick myself up from the position that I was in. All of my will power was gone. My body was drowning in regret. I regret the night that we shared in Cabo that lead to this mess. I regret falling for Edward's charm and running off with him.

Who is Bella Swan?

Sleep soon took a hold of me. I was numb in my dreams. It was not until I felt two arms pull me into an embrace that I relaxed. Maybe it was Jay? No matter how hurt I was deep down inside of me I wanted it to be him. Only he could heal me. But he would never get get the opportunity. How could I forgive him after he made me fall for him and then hurt me? How could I look at him the way that I use to if he did not give a damn about my feelings?

I sighed, savoring in the warmth of the arms wrapped around me. I never opened my eyes but I continued to cry. The tears I fought so hard to contain during the day had won the battle. I was sobbing. My legs curled, as my body formed a ball on the floor. The arms never let released their hold on me. I was satisfied for that because the warmth was holding together the remaining sanity that I held inside of me.

J.P.O.V

I sat awkwardly on the living room sofa. Leah went upstairs to tuck Lana in about ten minutes ago. That meant for the last ten minutes I had been beating myself up. It was taking Leah longer than usual. Lana had a fear of thunder and the storm had not died down. I waited impatiently for her to come back down the stairs. I would never fully be ready to do what I knew I had to. A part of me wanted to be selfish and not tell Leah what occurred in Texas. I had no idea if I would see Bella again. Why should I risk hurting Leah, someone who I love who love me back, when I would probably never have the woman that I am in love with?

I sighed, repositioning myself on the sofa. I could hear footsteps behind me. My heart pounded rapidly in my chest as Leah wrapped her arms around my neck kissing me softly before taking my earlobe between her teeth. I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on what she was doing. Maybe it would help me to relax. After a minute I realized that relaxation came with the truth. I had to tell her. I had to do it tonight.

"Wait," I said pulling my body from her embrace.

"What's wrong Jake?" Leah asked.

I gazed over my shoulder to see the worried expression on her face. It was clear that my rejection had hurt her as the tears formed in her eyes.

"Leah we need to talk," I said. "I want to tell you about Texas."

She walked slowly around the couch until we were face to face. I reluctantly gazed into her big brown eyes. Her eyes showed every emotion that she had suppressed. But the dominate emotion was fear. She was afraid of what I would say next. Honestly, I was afraid of what I would say too, What if the words came out wrong?

No matter how I word the truth the fact is that I would break her heart. I wondered if my eyes mirrored the same as hers. Could she see through me? Had today been the quiet before the storm. It was ironic because there was a storm brewing outside and there was also one coming to the surface in this room.

Lean moved closer wrapping her arms around my neck and began kissing me again. I did not respond to her advances. It was a distraction. She had a way of doing that whenever we fought in the past and I knew that were her intention. She was stalling but for time neither of us had.

We had already waisted enough time as is. When Lana's mother disappeared I settled. I settled for Leah because I believed that she would be the only one who would want me. I felt broken beyond repair, alone, and scared raising an ill child on my own. Leah was there for me and Lana. A part of me felt as if I were betraying her. She had stuck by me through it all and I was prepared to leave her for someone I had not known for very long.

What am I doing?

Leah's soft lips finally made their way to mine. She moaned against my lips. Frustration filled her being as her body tensed against mine. Leah sighed, her face now resting in the nape of my neck. I could feel the tears on my skin as she silently cried against me. I was like glass, transparent and she could see right through me. I held on to her tightly for what seemed to be hours. But in reality I held on to her for five minutes before she pulled back from my embrace. I gazed into her tear filled eyes as my own tears began to fall from my eyes.

Never in a million years did I imagine that I would hurt her.

"Jake," she said. "I love you."

"I know," I said taking her hands into mine. "I love you too."

"You fell in love with her?" she asked.

I nodded.

Leah snatched her hands from mine and stood to her feet. I followed behind her quickly as she stormed towards the front door. I had no idea of what I could say to make this right.

"Leah wait," I said grabbing her arm.

With force Leah snatched away and pulled the front door open.

"No Jake," she sobbed. "Let me go."

"Not like this Leah," I said to her.

I released her arm as she paused turning to face me, "What if we start over. I can make this right if you give me a chance."

"It's not you," I said to her. "It's me."

She laughed tauntingly and continued her stride down the steps. I followed her. We were soaked from the rain with in seconds. The thunder roared above us. My vision blurred slightly from the lightening bolts above our heads. Fear took a hold of me as I followed her.

"Leah let's go back inside," I yelled.

"No Jacob," she yelled. "I'm not going to go back inside and listen to you tell me what I already know. What was so damn special about her? What did she do that I did not? I've been here through all of the heartache and pain. I loved you when you refused to love yourself. You can't hurt me this way Jake," she said falling to her knees.

I rushed over to where she was. I got down on my knees beside her and wrapped my arms around her tightly. She sobbed loudly, nearly overpowering the thunder. I held her close to me with her head pressed firmly against my chest. Her nails dug deeply into my skin with every tear that fell from her yes. I was numb to her pain as we both remained there. My face buried in her hair attempting to comfort her even though I knew there was nothing that I could do to help her.

I pulled away slightly, "Leah, look at me please," I said.

"I can't," she said.

"You can," I insisted. "Sweetheart look at me please. I'm so sorry I never meant to hurt you. If I had known I wouldn't have-"

"Don't say that," She yelled snatching away from me. "You would have gone Jacob. I would have made you. Everything that you did was for Lana."

We were on our feet now. I stared at her in the darkness. The only light was from the raging storm above our heads. I was afraid that something awful could happen while exposed to such a storm but Leah's well being had brought me out here.

"Let's go inside and talk about this Leah," I yelled. "The storm is getting worse."

She shook her head no, "I'm in love with you. Why is that not good enough for you?"

"Listen to me. You deserve to be with some who will love you the way that you love them. That person is not me. I wish I could be the man that you need. I wish I could be the guy that you deserve but I'm not. I never will be. I don't regret what we shared I only regret wasting your time. You deserve to be happy. But I can't make you happy."

Leah sobs picked up again, "What's her name?" she yelled.

I was silent for a moment.

"What's her name, Jacob?"

"Her name is Bella," I said in a whisper.

"I can't believe your ending us after all that we have been through."

"You'll thank me someday when you are truly happy Leah."

"Yeah," she said angrily. "Today just is not that day."

I watched hopelessly as Leah walked off. I wanted to go after her but I did not. She needed time and I knew that her house was only a minute away from mine. I slowly walked back into the house and closed the door behind me. My back was pressed firmly to it as I closed my eyes to hold back the tears.

Bella, please make this worth it. I just lost my best friend.

B.P.O.V

I opened my eyes to see that I was resting between my two best friends. Katy was in front of me with her arms wrapped protectively around me. Angela's head was resting on my shoulder. They were asleep. I smiled lightly.

Here we were sleeping on my floor like a couple of high school kids. I stir slightly hoping not to wake them but my attempt failed. Katy's eyes opened slightly as a smile spread across her face, "Morning beautiful."

"Morning," I replied. "When did you guys get in?"

"A few hours ago," she replied.

"But the storm is awful."

"You think a storm will stop Angela Webber?" she smirked.

"Yea," I shrugged. "I guess your right."

Angela stirred and sat up quickly. I gazed over my shoulder to see her staring wirly at me. I sighed and sat up too. Before I could move Angela pulled me in tightly for a hug. I held my composure as I pulled away.

"Thank you,"

Angela, Katy, and I, washed up, got dressed, and head downstairs for breakfast.

Charlie and Renee were in the kitchen. Dad was having his coffee and eating breakfast as usual. Rene was watching him. Katy and Angela sat at the table as I made out plates.

"So Angela and Katy how are you?" Rene asked.

"I'm great. How about you?" Angela asked.

"I'm wonderful. Are you going to visit your parents while you are here?" Renee asked.

"I don't think that's a good idea."

I slammed my fork on to the counter. Renee knew that Angela's parents were a sensitive topic for her and it always pissed me off that she consistently asked Angela to see her parents when she visited.

"Mom," I said. "Can you help me please?"

"Sure."

Rene helped me carry the plates to the table. After we had breakfast Rene went to do some shopping with our neighbor Sue. Charlie was called in to the station early. Angela, Katy, and I ended up back inside of my room. I laid flat against my bed folding my pillow tightly. Angela sat quietly on the edge of the bed. Katy was siting at the computer desk texting quietly amongst herself. I knew that they were waiting for me to tell them what happened. A part of me was afraid. I knew that explaining what happened meant tears and more pain. But I also knew that bottling it all up would hurt me in the end. I sighed and Angela turned to me taking my hand into hers.

"Do you want to talk about what happened?" she asked.

I shook my head no, "Not yet. I want to make it through the day in one peace. But I
promise to talk tomorrow. Please just help take my mind off of this."

Katy's head shot up to stare at me amusingly, "So let's go to a club tonight," she stated.

"I don't know it Bella is-"

I interrupted, "Count me in."

Angela looked at me with wide eyes. I smiled lightly at her and turned my attention back to Katy. I had no intentions of enjoying the club. I wanted the alcohol to help numb my pain. That was the only thing that I hope to gain by going.

"Okay so it's settled. The club it is."

K.P.O.V (Katy)

I had the perfect plan. It was when I realized that my plan would work that I had a change of heart. Bella agreed to go to the club. All that I had to do was tell Jay where to come and the dust would be clear. But I could not bring myself to send the text. I felt so many different emotions from the moment that he told me in the hotel that he was in love with Bella. She deserved to be happy and there was no doubt in my mind that he could give her the happiness that she deserved. I wanted the best for them both but I also wanted...well I wanted him too.

I had him in my grasp. I was ready and willing to change who I was to be what I thought that he wanted. Our first date was beautiful. Talking with Jay had been easy going. We talking about our lives and what we wanted out of life. He took me to a quiet restaurant. It was a romantic setting. We spent the entire evening drink cocktails and enjoying each others company. By the end of the night I was too drunk to drive and Jay was a complete gentleman. He forbid me to drive that night so I stayed at Bella. I woke up the next morning in his warm embrace and I felt as if I had found someone who got me. I felt at home.

So there I was sitting at Bella's computer desk pretending to listen to Bella and Angela talk about clothes as I read Jay's last text.

Where at in Washington, Katy? I need to speak with her.

You can't.

Why the hell not?

Because she's no where near ready Jay. She won't talk to us about what happened.

I don't care. I need Bella...I need her to listen to me.

Jay...

I sat quietly as I waited for him to respond. After a few second my cellphone began to ring. It startled me as I tossed it to the floor and sighed.

Oh thank god.

Bella leaned over to grab it, "Hello?"

"Katy," Jay said.