A/N: Hey guys! I just wanted to take a moment to say thanks for reading. I have extended this story for a few more chapter than I planned. I just hate to see it end so quickly. Anyway let's get on with it shall we?

B.P.O.V

"Hello?" I repeated.

I shrugged and flipped the phone closed. My eyes met Katy's. She had a horrid look on her face as she scrambled quickly to her feet, snatching the phone away from my hands.

"Whoa Katy where's the fire?" I asked curiously. "I did not mean to-"

"Don't worry about it Bella. It's just that guy from the gym. He's been trying to get me to go out with him. I guess you frightened him."

I chuckled, "You should get your phone number changed," I suggested.

Angela simply nodded her head from where she sat on my bed. I watched as Katy walked back to my computer desk and sat down. I sighed and laid down on my bed. Minutes turned to hours and hours felt like days had passed. I gazed over my shoulder and realized that both Angela and Katy were sleeping on my bed. I rolled over facing the wall and away from them. The clock read seven. I would wake them up in an hour. This weekend would be the first that all of us actually relaxed with out drama. I really needed this.

My thoughts began to wonder to a place that I wished that they dare not go. Edward had a child. He had a precious baby girl with someone who loved him just as much as I did. His last words were so cold to me. He was a stranger. I had spent my last year living in a dream with a stranger who had harmed me mentally. His cruel words seemed to surround me. The left bruises on the outside and the inside. I no longer felt like myself. I had no idea of who I am.

Once again the tears fell from my eyes as I hugged my pillow tighter. I did not want to feel the way that I felt. It was so confusing that my heart cried out for someone who I hardly knew. I closed my eyes and he was there. Images of him stroking my hair with his bare hand. His deep brown eyes seeking mine as if he were staring into my soul. There was still so much that I would never know about him. A part of me wanted to know exactly what he had to explain the day I left. But my stubbornness would not allow me to ponder on those thoughts alone for too long.

I was willing admitting to myself that I, Bella Swan was in love. I was in love with Jacob and now I had to get over him because I would never look at him the same way again. He lied to me. He made me trust him and even though it was also my decision to engage in an affair with him it was his choice to hurt me. I never wished pain on him and where ever he was at that very moment I hoped that his pain was far worse than mine.

For a moment I found peace in my dreams. My vision was dark and clouded. I relaxed my body against the bed and sighed. I needed to clear my head, create a plan, and figure out what to make of my messy life. That was what I should have been doing a long time ago. But if anything I did not understand how many opportunities can pass you by when you live in the moment. I had lived in the moment of pretending to be happy with Edward and now that moment was gone. I had no idea as to how I could pick up the pieces. I had no idea of where to go from here.

An hour later I was shaken awake by a very sad Angela. She said that I was crying and whimpering in my sleep. Funny how I thought that I slept peaceful. I sat up on the bed staring back at her. I did not want a pity party. I did not wish to talk about what happened yet. But I knew that Angela was persistent and that she would do anything to help mend my broken heart.

"Bella," she said. "Please...tell me how I can help you?"

I did not need her help.

"Angela, I don't need help."

"You do Bella it's-"

"I said I don't need your help," I yelled. "I can handle this."

"Not alone," she replied. "You can not handle this alone. That is why we are hear Bella. Let us in. Tell me what happened."

"No," I said angrily. "I don't want to talk about it. What's done is done."

I got up from the bed and walked over to the closet. The last thing I cared about was my appearance but I needed a distraction."

"Bella you fell in love with him. Love does not fade over night. It's only going to get worse if you don't talk about it. I don't want to see you hurt any more. I want my Bella back. We have been friends since we were kids. When your hurt so am I."

I turned to face her. The tears were forming in her eyes. That alone made my walls of hurt crumble to the ground. I walked closer to where she sat. Angela stood to her feet and wrapped her arms tightly around my. Not even a minute later I was crying. She did not ask anymore questions. Angela allowed me to cry on her shoulder for as long as I needed. My tears had answered her questions. She could tell just how deeply in love I had fallen and now it was her duty to help me get over him.

We were interrupted by Katy who had come back into my room from her cigarette break.

"Wait," she said. "Now Angela slowly remove her top."

I lift my head up to look at Katy who had a smirk on her face and chuckled lightly, "You are such a perv," I said in between sniffles.

"You know it doll. So are we still headed to that club Seattle. I am in need of penetration."

Angela let go of me to toss as pillow at Katy.

"Hey," Katy laughed. "That was not nice."

"I think a club is what we need," I said. "I could use a few drinks."

"Honey, you could use the entire bar. I will tell you what if you at least enjoy a night out with your girlfriends I will buy you drinks all night," Katy said.

"You are so on."

J.P.O.V

Idiot.

Coward.

Ugh!

I walked silently along the beach watching Lana toss a few pebbles out into the ocean. She turned to face me and smiled. Her huge brown eyes full of wonder as she continued. My thoughts drifted back to what had occurred an hour ago. I was such an idiot. I had Bella on the phone and instead of talking to her I hung up like a coward. Admittedly I was afraid. I was afraid that she would have hung up on me but I was more afraid that she might tell me that she did not feel the same way that I did. I needed to talk to her face to face. She needed to see the sincerity in my eyes when I apologize and she needed to see the look on my face when I tell her that I love her.

Hurting Bella was something that I could never come to grips with. I did not want to live in a world knowing that she hated me. I did not want to exist knowing that the one person that had my heart was hurting because of me. Things were not getting better with Leah. She did not return any of my calls today and when I stopped by her house Seth reluctantly told me that she was not there. I knew that she was avoiding me. After all I could not blame her but a part of me wanted to make it right. Time heals all wounds and I was pretty sure that in due time Leah would lick her wounds and move on. She deserved the world. She is one of the most purest souls that I had ever known. Her smile alone could bring light to any mans life unfortunately I had known her forever and not once have I felt that I could not live with out her.

I was just selfish. I had nurtured my relationship with her even though I knew that we would never be anything other than what we were. She was my best friend and I did not want to lose her. But I may have.

I sighed. My thoughts were interrupted by a giddy Lana intertwining her fingers with mine. I gazed down at her and smiled.

"Daddy, where is Leah?"

"Kid, let's talk for a second okay?"

Lana nodded. I led her over to a large tree log and sat down. I patted the seat beside me. Lana sat down quickly and turned to face me.

"You know that Daddy and Leah were together right?" I asked.

"Yes," she said. "You made kissy faces together."

I chuckled, "Yes well daddy and Leah are not together anymore. That means no more kissy faces."

Lana held her head low, "Is Leah going to disappear like mommy?"

I used my finger tips to adjust her face so that she were staring into my eyes.

"Both mommy and Leah loves you. Mommy had issues and she could not handle being a parent. But she loved you Lana so very much. When Phoebe held you in her arms the day that you were born it was breath taking. You look so much like her. Mommy had issues Lana. They got out of hand when we realized that you were sick. Soon after that she disappeared. She was afraid that she would lose you forever. We both were."

"But daddy you did not leave me," she said.

"That's right kid and I want you to know that daddy will never leave you. I was a lot stronger than your mother was."

"Is Leah still going to be my mommy?" she asked.

I pulled lana closer to me and sat her on my lap, "Leah was never your mommy. No one can ever take Phoebe's place. We have to give Leah some space right now. She is hurting because of daddy."

I watched the tears fall from Lana's eyes, "Why would you hurt her daddy?" she sobbed.

"Because I loved her. I loved her Lana and the right thing to do when you love someone is to allow them to be happy. Daddy had to let her go."

I held Lana close to me. We watched the sun fade from the sky. My thoughts shifted from Leah back to Bella. Katy did not respond to my text. I had just about given up on her. I knew that her loyalty was with Bella. She would always side with her and I did not blame her. If I had just been honest in the beginning. I had to fix this on my own. All that I knew was that Bella was in Washington. She was so close, so very close that it made my heartache. I body was calling out for her. But there was no awnser.

I gazed down at Lana in the darkness and realized that she fell asleep. I lifted her to my chest and stood up. My phone began to vibrate inside of my jeans pocket. With one hand I reach inside of my pocket to retrieve it. I started my stride up the hill. My heart stopped as I realized the text was from Katy. Quickly I flipped it open.

I've all ways wanted the things that I could never have. That included you. All day I debated on doing what would make Bella happy and what would make myself happy. Maybe there is some good in me after all. I love her...obviously more than I love myself. She deserves to be happy and I know that only you can do that. Don't make me regret this Jay. We will be in Seattle tonight at a club called masquerade. Fix this. -Katy

I will- Jay

I smiled lightly as I reached my dad's house. I tucked Lana into my old bed. Billy agreed to watch her for the night. I spared him the details of what was going on in my life. I was too afraid of being slapped by the old man. He loved Leah and if I had told him what my intentions were tonight he would have shot me dead.

I reached my house to find Paul and Jared waiting outside on the porch. I climbed the steps quickly.

"So it is true?" Paul asked. "You broke poor little Leah's heart."

"Shut up," I hissed as I unlocked the door.

"Why did you do it?" Jared asked. "I thought that you guys were playing house. Leah thought for sure you were going to propose to her when you came back."

I paused as we entered the living room, "What?"

Jared sighed, "Well I was not supposed to tell you but Melony and Leah were chatting. She said that you wanted to talk to her when you got back. Something about changing your lives."

"I was not going to propose. I was planning on ending our relationship. I can't believe that she misunderstood what I said to her. I really fucked up with her."

"Yea you did," Paul said. "I talked to Seth this morning. He says that she has been locked in her room all day and wont eat. But here you are ready to get on the prowl already. You are such a dog JB."

"Why are we going to this club anyway?" Jared asked. "Melony hates it when I go out."

"I sort of fell in love."

"Oh god," Paul laughed. "Your crazy. Did you tell Leah that? I'm surprised that she did not chop off your sack."

"This is not about Leah," I snapped. "This is about my happiness and I'm not completely happy with Leah. I love her and you know that. But I'm not in love with her. Leah loved me when I was down and out and when we are together I feel like I am relying on her to hold me together. But when I'm with Bella I feel like a man."

"That's her name?" Jared asked.

I nodded, "Leah is one of the best things that has ever happened to me but I can't force something that just is not there. For the past couple of days I felt as if I was dying without Bella being near me. I've never felt that way while in Texas. I did not think of Leah half as much as I thought of Bella."

"Hey man I understand," Jared said with a smile. "Don't pay Paul's miserable single ass any attention. If he's so worried about Leah's well being he should go take care of her."

I smirked, "You know Bella has a friend that I sort of owe a favor to."

"Jake seriously don't fuck up Bella's friend's life like that."

"She can handle him. Don't worry about that."

B.P.O.V

The music fled through me as I swayed my hips to the beat. It was amazing that I had not collapsed from exhaustion yet. I was having a great time and just as Katy promised she kept the drinks coming. My pain was numb and all I could think of was the strong hands feeling me up. I was so far gone that nothing mattered to me. The steam was forming in the room as I opened my eyes slightly. This club was not half bad. The only thing being is that it required everyone to wear a mask. I sort of liked the idea of being someone else tonight. Bella was gone. I was on the prowl.

I leaned my back into the arms of a stranger and he helped sway my hips to the beat. His warm breath making the hairs stand up on the back of my neck as he whispered sweet things in my ear. His hands roamed freely up my sides under the swell of my breast. His moist lips were pressed firmly on my neck. The strangers hand roamed back down to my exposed thigh squeezing gently sending sensations straight to my core. I threw my head back onto his shoulder as a small whimper escaped me.

So maybe I had gone a little to far. But to me this guy was no stranger it was Jay. It was all him.

"Bella," Katy yelled.

My eyes flashed open as she snatched me from the strangers embrace dragging me over to the bar.

"Sit," she said.

I reluctantly did as I was told. Angela chuckled and ordered another round.

"I want a cherry bomb," I said to the bartender.

He was cute dirty blonde guy. He had deep green eyes and a pearly white smile. I turned to face him.

"Nothing for her," Katy said. "She's had enough."

"This is your fault," Angela joked. "Miss you can have all you want to drink."

I ignored their bantering and continued to stare into the eyes of the bartender who had no problem with me eye fucking him. He smiled lightly, "So what's your name? Since I can't see your beautiful face."

"It's Bella."

"And Bella is not interested," Katy chimed in.

I rolled my eyes at her and leaned over the bar further giving him a good view of the twins.

"Pay no mind to my friend," I said.

"I haven't."
"So Mr. Bartender do you get a break?" I slurred.

"Yea," He said.

"How long?"

"Twenty minutes," he said.

"That's long enough for me to-"

"Hey Bells," Angela interrupted me. "I don't think that is a good idea."

I watched as the bartender went to make more drinks for other customers. My body slumped down on the stool as I turned to face the crowd of masked men and woman having a good time. I stood to my feet quickly only to be stopped by Katy.

"I left my cell in your car Bella. Come with me to get it."

"Katy," I whined.

"Please. You need some air anyway."

"I'll wait here," Angela said.

I followed Katy out of the club and into the parking lot. She wrapped her arm around mine to help keep my balance. We reached the car. Grabbing my keys I tried to unlock it only to have her stop me.

"Katy it's cold out here," I whined. "Let me open the car door."

"Your going to hate me for this," she said.

I turned to look at her. The look in her eyes were fear. That sobered my state slightly as she released my arm.

"Why am I going to hate you?" I asked confused.

"Bella I want to help you and this is the only way to do it. Do me a favor?"

"Katy your scaring me. What are you talking about?"

"No matter how you feel just listen before you make a final decision. I'm doing this because I love you."

There was a familiar voice that sobered my stated complete coming from behind me, "And I'm hear because I love you too."

J.P.O.V

"I can't believe you fucking invited him here," Bella yelled as the tears fell from her eyes. "I'm done with this and I'm done with both of you," she said attempting to storm off.

I moved swiftly, grabbing her wrist and pinning her to the car. I did not hurt her but there was no way that I would watch her walk away from me again.

"I'm not going to allow you to just run off again."

"Where I run of to is none of you damn business," she spat.

"Can you just stop for one minute please," I asked hopelessly.

"Did you stop for one minute to realize that I was a real human being whose feelings you were toying with? I was just another piece of ass to you and him," she yelled.

"That's not true," I said. "That is not close to what you are to me."

"Bella, I did this for you," Katy said interrupted.

Bella's attention shifted to Katy.

"Why?" Bella yelled attempting to break my grip. "You only want him for yourself well you can have him."

Bella turned her attention toward me and looked me straight in the eyes and said, "Because I don't want him. I hate him."

"You don't mean that bells," Katy said. "I'm going to leave you to alone."

"Don't you fucking dare leave me here with him Katy," Bella hissed. "Get your ass back here Katy and deal with this."

She began to struggle against me attempting to shove me away. But her attempts were unsuccessful. Bella turned her attention to Jared and Paul who were a few feet away, "This is assault. Get him off of me."

"Jake dude," Paul started.

"I'm not hurting her. Go with Katy in the club. I'm not going to hurt her."

Jared nodded and tugged on Paul's arm. I watched as they disappeared. My attention shifted back to Bella who had stopped moving completely. Her chest was heaving up and down.

"We need to talk Bella."

"No we don't," she said. "Let go of me right now."

"Not until you listen to me. I want to tell you the truth."

"Now you want to tell me the truth Jay? Well I am not interested. You can go on and live your life without any interference from me."

"I know that you love me Bella and I know that I hurt you. There is no changing that. I should have told you the truth. I should have had a heart but I was so helpless. You have no idea of the ultimatum that I had. I love you and it kills me that I hurt you. I want to make it better. Please..."

"I don't want you. Your presence disgust me and if it were not for the fact that you have me pent to this car against my will I would have walked away from you minutes ago. What do you want me to say?" she sobbed. "You want me to pretend as if everything is fine because it's not. You tricked me. You made me believe that you actually cared for me and then you...you turned into him. You used me."

I sighed and released her from my grip. Bella remain still with her back pressed to the silver Volvo behind her. I stared deeply into her tear filled eyes and sighed, "I have a daughter and she was very sick-"

"Really Jay I can't handle another lie," she yelled.

"I may have lied about many things but my daughter is nothing to lie about. She is the one girl in this world who loved me from the beginning and will love me in the end. I've been afraid for her the moment that the doctor's told me that Lana had a heart disease called Dilated cardiomyopathy. It's when the heart is enlarged and the pumping function is diminished. She needed a heart transplantation. I did not have the money for one and I thought that she would die. Edward helped me but of course that required something in return," I said. "Bella I never meant to hurt you and I never expected to fall in love with you but I did. I love you."

Bella stared at me in shock. The tears continued to fall from her eyes. The silence had begun to eat away at me. So much that I could no longer stand it.

"Please say something," I begged her.

"What do you want me to say to that Jay?" she said. "I can't...is she alive?"

"Alive and well."

"Oh thank god," she said."Jay, you really hurt me," she whispered.

I walked closer to her. Bella kept her attention onto the ground. I used my finger tips to bring her attention to mine. She gazed into my eyes. I could see fear and love lingering there. Both feelings hanging in the balance.

"Jay did hurt you. I was pretending to be someone that I am not. But I'm beging you please don't hate me anymore."

Bella I missed her beautiful smile so much.

"I never hated you. You broke my heart and I can't forgive that easily."

"I don't expect you to. But please allow me to help piece your heart together again."

"I don't know I might-"

I silenced her lips with mine. Bella wrapped her arms tightly around my neck. I could feel her warm tears on my cheeks as she opened her mouth allowing me to deepen our kiss. She moaned into my lips as I pulled away allowing her to catch her breath. My forehead rested against hers as she opened her eyes.

"I'm sorry. You mean so much to me."

"Promise me something," Bella said.

"Anything," I replied.

"Love me the right way and don't make me regret starting over with you."

"I promise," I said before pulling her for another kiss.