A/N: I am so sorry. I know I said I would try and update sooner, but in my defense, this story is getting really hard to write. I don't know why. I hope you enjoy the way that it's going so far. I know I am. I did not know that it was going to be anything like this. But the more I write the more I want to put into the story. Please comment. If you have any suggestions or comments or anything to say for that matter please share. Like I always say, There is always room for improvement. Thank you for reading! ~DeanLover92~

Chapter 9

"I can't stop thinking about the night that I found out the truth. That was five years ago, today. Cas handed me the paper with my destiny on it and I found out what I was supposed to do. That night I burned the paper in the parking lot of the motel. Sam and Dean never found out what happened that night. And they never will. I haven't seen Cas since that night. I found out a way to block the angels from knowing where I am.

I'm still with Dean and Sam. We are just doing the same thing as always. Hunting things, saving peoples lives and so on. Dean's 31 now, it doesn't show though. Sam's 27 and loving it. We just had a big party for my 21st birthday. Well, big for us. We when to Bobby's house and had a great time drinking and laughing at all the stupid birthday traditions that normal people practice. I got my very own tattoo to keep away demons. Though, I got mine on my side and not my chest. Right now, I'm riding shotgun while Sam is sleeping in the back. Dean is driving and we are heading for California. We are actually just going to see an old friend of Dean's. Well, I'm going to talk to Dean about something."

I closed my diary and threw it on the floor.

"Dean, I've got a question."

"No, I do not know why you are always writing away in that stupid little book." He laughed to himself and looked at me. There was no traffic at 6:30 in the morning.

"Dean, I just want to know if I could borrow the car tonight. Can I?" I thought of all the lines he could follow that with. He chose…

"Why? You gotta hot date?" He laughed again. He looked forward and spend up to jump over a small hill. After catching some air, we hit the ground and Sam jerked awake.

"Oh God, what just happened?"

"Nothing. Go back to sleep." I looked back at Sam. His hair was standing straight up and his jacket was turned sideways. He nodded and fell back down on the seat. He was asleep instantly.

I smiled to myself. "No, Dean. I do not have a hot date. But, I do have someplace I need to be. And before you say anything, I don't need to tell you where. I am 21 years old and I can do whatever I want. I'll even bring it back with a full tank."

Dean looked like he was thinking about it. Just then his cell phone starting ringing. He pulled it out of his pocket and answered it.

"Hello…who is this….go to hell." He hung up the phone and stuffed it back in his pocket. "Guess who that was?" He looked at me. He was pissed.

"The devil?" He didn't laugh like I wanted him to. "Who, Dean? Stop being so serious."

"That was your friend, Castiel. He says he wants to see you." He was close to yelling. I was surprised that Sam could sleep through that. I stared at Dean.

"I haven't seen or talked to Cas in 5 years." I looked out the window. Memories came flooding back of times I had with Cas. My stomach turned over and my heart beat fast.

We arrived at California at 2:00 that afternoon. No one else had said anything the entire way. Let's just say it was a long ride of non-stop Metallica. Dean left as soon as we got to the motel. Sam decided he wanted to go drinking. So by 4:00, I was at the motel alone. I decided that I had something more important to do then go to see my boyfriend, Taylor.

I walked into the woods behind the motel. I was ready for something that I never wanted to do.

I held my voodoo sack in my hand and my lighter in the other. I looked around at the clearing I was now standing in. I was so not ready for this. I struck my lighter and held the flame to my sack that kept me protected from Cas for 5 years. It burned quickly and I dropped it onto the leaf covered ground. The flames were turning blue and I could smell burning fabric.

"Alright, Cas. Come and get me. You want to see me? Then come on."

"You grew up."

My heart raced. His voice was the same as always.

"Of course I did. It's been 5 years. That's a long time." I didn't turn around, despite the fact that I thought my heart would explode if I didn't.

"That's not my fault. I've been searching for you the whole time. You were the one who hid yourself." I could feel him walking closer. I gave in and turned around. He hadn't aged a day. I guess when you are processed by an angel, you don't age. He had the same serious look on his face as he always did.

"You know why I had to do it. I can't do everything you want me to do. Find somebody else. I thought you got that message when you couldn't find me."

"You didn't say anything to me, how was I supposed to know?"

"You're an angel. I thought you were smart. What do you want anyway? If you think I'm going to go off with you and save the world, you're crazy."

"Actually, I just wanted to see you." He looked away as if he were embarrassed. He turned his back to me. "I remembered the way you made me feel when I was around you. I wanted to feel that again."

My heart beat out of my chest. The feeling of his lips returned to my mouth. I grew hot and faint. "That's not going to work. You can't just come back into my life 5 years later and expect me to fall in love with you again. You can't do this to me. Not after you messed up my life 5 years ago. You and that stupid prophecy." He turned back to me and came closer. I could hear his heart beating from 3 feet away.

He looked at me for a long time. I held my breath. He brought his hand to my neck. "You are much more beautiful then I remember. 5 years have been good to you."

He came in to kiss me. I pushed him away as hard as I could. He stumbled back and hit his back against a tree. I started to run away.

"Your parents are still alive."