I Still Believe, Miroku
This is a chapter that I can't believe is coming sooooooo fast...
Sigh…
This is San/Mir… so that makes it my favorite chapter so far!!! I love them together… (but that's not why I wanna make this story Mir/Kag!!!)
Enjoy!
(ummm… the song, I Still Believe, is sung by Hayden Panettiere while the other one. I'm All Out Of Love is by Air Supply. I do not own any of those too.)
Miroku's POV
I don't know what came over me.
I just felt that… I wanted to kiss her so badly…
So I did.
I felt Sango struggle at first. But she soon calmed down and reciprocated. After a few minutes though she pulled back, said, "I'm sorry, Miroku. This can't be happening. I must be dreaming."
Then she ran away from me.
Is Sango practicing to be a runner these days?
Sango's POV
I fell back on my bed with a loud thump.
Everything that has happened is so confusing… I'm so confused…
I pushed a pillow away. Kagome and Inuyasha tried calling me for about 7 times already but I never replied.
I don't want to talk to anyone yet…
*Sigh* I continued staring at the brown ceiling of my room.
I heard some footsteps coming and saw a shadow by my door.
"Sango, dear! Come on let's eat!"
My mom…
"N-no… I'm not hungry yet. But thank you mom…"
I heard her sigh.
"Okay then. I'll just tell Kohaku-kun to bring your food later."
I then heard Kohaku tell my mom, "I bet Sis got dumped by Miroku-san again…"
Grrrrrrr…
Mom laughed. "Kohaku, if that's true then we better leave your sister alone."
"I know. Sis turns into a demon when she's angry." He laughed.
Kohaku… if only I didn't love you so much you'd be DEAD by now…
Ah… my little brother. Kohaku-kun. He's quite pesky, that kid. Always causing mischief.
But I love him so much. He's worth more than the whole world to me.
Until I started loving Miroku for real…
I scolded myself.
Sango! Stop thinking about him! He's not worth it! He's just… he's just a stupid creep!!!
I began to cry.
Sango… stop it…
I pulled the pillow closer to me and hugged it.
In doing so, I remembered how Miroku pulled me closer to him and… gave me that sweet… kiss.
Augh! This is no use…
I glanced over to my desk and saw my open diary.
I reached out for it and read the entry on the opened page.
Dear Diary,
When Kagome and I were younger, we both believed in love. She always told me, "It's destiny. You and Miroku are destined to be together until forever!"
Now I don't know if I still believe.
Kagome loves Inuyasha, and Inuyasha loves her too. That's love. That's destiny.
But Miroku… Miroku…
I love him… but he hates me…
I keep on believing… but how can I keep on having faith if I know there's no hope?
I always cry myself to sleep… and it's all because of him… I love him.
But I know he'll never love me again.
I wish I never loved him. I wish we were still children, still best friends. He loved me when we were young, why can't he love me now?
I know he loves Kagome…
They're so close… I won't be surprised when I find out that the two of them are already together…
Kagome tells me she does everything for me… she only wants to help… I appreciate what she's doing but… all she does is hurt me! She keeps on… trying to help… but she's… not helping me…
She's just hurting me…
Miroku and her…
It hurts me to think that the two of them are together…
Now, how can I tell her straight in the eye that I still believe…?
Your pathetic owner, Sango
It was only until I finished reading the entry when I realized that the page was drenched… with my own tears.
I laid down on my bed, letting my tears flow freely.
Suddenly, I heard Kohaku come in the room next to me… and following the sound of his entrance… a beautiful melody filled the house, making me cry harder.
I don't know if that was just me… but then… I heard someone sing. Someone… someone was singing my favorite song.
Somehow I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
I won't give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away
'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe
Believe in love
(Na na na, na nana,na na na, na nana)
I know what's real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for a while
With just one touch love can conquer fears
Turning all your tears into smiles
It's such a wondrous feeling
I know that my heart can't be wrong
'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing Love is forever
When you fall
It's the greatest time of them all
Oh I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Yes I still believe
Believe in love
(Na na na, na nana, na na na, na nana)
I Still believe in love
I still believe
Believe in love…
"I still believe…" I repeated.
I then noticed a shadow against my sliding door.
"Kohaku?" I asked.
I noticed that the shadow was way too tall to be my 11-year-old brother's shadow.
"Nnnn… Kohaku!" I called to him.
My sliding door open and my brother's face peeked in.
"Sango-neechan!" he shouted.
"What?"
"You have a visitor."
"Ummmm… okay… just call him in."
He nodded then came closer.
"What?"
"Did you cry big Sis?" he asked me.
I felt guilty realizing that my brother was worried about me.
"Kohaku…" I said, stroking his hair.
"Sis…" he replied, touching my hand.
"I'm not crying."
"You cried…"
"Anyway Kohaku… did you play my favorite song?"
"That song from a while ago?"
"Yes."
"I didn't."
"Then who did?"
"I thought you did."
"Hmmmm…"
Kohaku mumbled something.
"Huh?" I asked, confused.
"You were singing it a while ago."
"I was?!"
"Yup. Maybe you heard yourself."
"I…"
"That's why I was asking if you're sad." He told me.
I sighed. "Kohaku…"
"You don't need to be sad, Sis… and you don't think to hide anything from me… I know you always sing that song… especially when you're sad…"
"Kohaku… you're still young…"
"But…"
"Come on…"
"…"
"Oh yeah… who's the visitor?"
"I'll just let him in…"
"Okay…"
Kohaku stood up from my bed and started towards the door. Halfway there, he stopped and looked back at me.
"Sis… there's nothing wrong with believing in love or destiny… all that matters are your feelings…"
I gazed at my young brother.
Is he… giving me… love tips?!
He smiled. "Don't worry… I'm sure he believes in love too… just like you."
Then, my brother went out the door. I sat stunned, on my bed. My door suddenly opened and in came… him.
My back was facing the door but I knew it was him even if I couldn't see him.
What… are you doing… here?
Miroku's POV
Here I am… lying on my bed alone… and depressed…
I have to stop this…
That night, I went home later than usual. Who can blame me? I passed by my favorite place first. The day's events made me all stressed out.
I didn't even eat. I just hurried up to my room. I don't think I wanted to meet anyone.
I have to apologize to her!
Just suddenly kissing someone… Augh! It's unforgivable, I know! But…
I need to say sorry to her!
I need to make things work between us…
I need her…
Suddenly, I heard a familiar song coming from downstairs.
Dad's "favorite song" when he and Mom fights…
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Damn! This isn't helping…
I'm missing Sango more! And it makes me feel more guilty…
I stood up from my bed, making up my mind.
I gotta pay Sango a visit.
She… cried so much a while ago… she must still be crying until now… and it's all my fault…
I hurriedly dressed up, and went over to Sango's house. It's a good thing Kohaku-kun was the one who let me in.
Coming inside their house, I heard someone singing.
"Kohaku-kun? Is that…"
He nodded. "Yeah. I think that's Sango-neechan."
We made our way towards the living room first. Kohaku offered me some milk and cookies to eat. I politely refused. I wasn't there to eat anyway.
"She… still has a beautiful voice…" I commented, still listening to the song.
"Y-yeah. She likes singing. But I don't … like it when she sings. S-see, Miroku-niisan… she… o-only sings when she's sad… and that particular song… she sings it when she's… s-sad…" Kohaku-kun explained.
I flinched, hearing the lyrics, after what Kohaku-kun told me.
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
Why… why do I have a feeling that… augh! Why do I get this feeling that the song is talking about…
"Mi-miroku-niisan… your expression looks so… guilty. It's like… the song is talking about you, huh?
The young boy in front of me smiled.
I smiled back, but it must have looked like a nervous one.
"Something happened between you and my sister, right?"
"Ah…"
"Oh, so something DID happen…"
"N-no it's…"
"It's okay niisan… it's all okay…"
"Kohaku-kun…"
"My sister is just... a l-little sad. I'm sure she's... fine."
"Fine. Great."
"What did you do this time anyway?"
"I... I didn't do..."
"Do what?"
"Er... nothing..."
Kohaku smiled.
Ack! His smiles are kinda freaking me out... maybe he's mad at me? Oh no...
"Come on, I'll accompany you to her room." he said, standing up from his chair.
I just hope Kohaku-kun is not mad...
We both climbed up their stairs. While walking, my thoughts were all scattered in my mind.
Okay… just take a deep breath Miroku…
Kohaku said that Sango… is okay…
You just have to apologize to her…
*gulp* I hope she won't kill me…
I waited outside Sango's bedroom door while her brother talked to her.
After a few minutes, the door opened.
I gulped nervously. Out came Kohaku, who put a finger to his lips.
"Shhh… you can enter now, niisan… but I didn't tell neechan who you are…" he whispered.
Ack! You're making things harder for me Kohaku!!!
And why are we whispering?
I nodded and entered the door.
It was quite dark in her room, there was only one lamp opened beside her.
She appeared to be lying down on her side away from me. I made my way towards her bed quietly.
"S-S-Sango?"
She didn't seem to notice me. In fact, she didn't even turn to look. I reached out to touch her when she suddenly spoke.
"Do… do you still believe Miroku?" she asked. "Because… I still do… I still believe…"
How did she know I'm Miroku?
"Sango…"
"I still believe… even after what the two of you did to me…"
Ack! Did… did Sango lose her mind?!
To be Continued…
Weird… but one of my favorite chapters…
Anyway, thanks for reading!
Oh yeah... I'm pretty curious too... "is Sango gonna lose her mind?" I'm pretty sure that won't happen... bummer if it does...
(Hmmm… this chapter is ummm… a songchap… [heehee…that's what I wanna call it!] for Sango and Miroku. I'm currently figuring out what songs to use for Inuyasha and Kagome's…)
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