Second chapter and it coming along lets see the love-hate relationship unfold.
Previously
Entering the apartment was a relief. I stuck with a super simple meal of rice and fish not feeling up to much more. I ate quietly and glanced at the clock. 10:25. Kakashi would be here in 5 minutes. I might as well bathe. I thought offhandedly.
I entered the shower not thinking. Just feeling. Small hot drops of water slid down my body. Steam rose a light pink blush from my skin. It felt nice. However, I didn't know that shutting my brain down like that made me want to fall asleep so waking to Kakashi in my near nude apperance was a slight shock to me. Glancing at the convient clock on the wall it said 3:30am. In the dim light I could only make out Kakashi's sliver hair. He was still in his clothes he had left in. I decided that the postion he was laid in would leave him aching in the morning so I moved him so he was laying on top of me. I didn't mine; it was like having a heavy warm comforter on me. Feeling drousy once more I fell asleep also, glad to know I didn't have work the next day...and hopefully neither did Kakashi.
Now
Sasuke woke up refreshed. He felt the heavy wait that was Kakashi on him. He moved swiftly in order not to distrub the older man and headed to the Kitchen. Today, Sasuke hoped they could explore the city together. He was pretty sure Kakashi would be against, but he had a trump card just in case. Sasuke smiled at the thought of the older man. He was happy right now in this moment. Happy he left. Happy to be here cooking blueberry muffins. It was strange, yet famailar.
He remembered first meeting the man on a swing drunk. After that they met alot and argued even more. Making cheap shots at one another's life just to get a rouse out of the other. But when they met again they didn't mentioned a word of it acting as if it never happened. He also remembered when this odd relationship started. The pains of being at home with all its' lies was unbearable. Running in the rushing onslaught of rain. No clue where he was headed until he got there. He ended up staring at Kakashi's multicolored eyes. The conversation was fuzzy but he could remember bits and parts of it.
You need an escape and yet you come here
What about your lil'boyfriend what was his name...Na...ta...ro or something like that -so condescending a taunting
STOP TEASING! I KNOW I'M MESS'D UP! OK!
Heh your wrong-I can't see his eyes, but his lips are moving
Sasuke blushed as he stopped cleaning the counter. He remembered so clearly of the action that took place. Him hanging from the ceiling by his arms. Kakashi shoving the didlo in his unprepared entrance. THe toturous cock ring and Kakashi's lips wrapped around his manhood. Sasuke moaned silently as he slipped his hand inside his pants. Stroking himself long and slow.
I want you Sasuke and sense your handing yourself to me so willingly I'm taking you for all your worth.
Tell me does that Naruto fuck you hard like this
Does he let loose the screams and cries of pleasure I do. Huh? Answer me!
Nooooo ohhh Noooo! Kakashi
That's sensei to you whore. When your with that Naruto I want you to literally feel me pounding you
When he whispers words of love I want you to hear my words of lust
Sasuke speed his hand up as his memory became clearer. He put his fingers at his entrance remembering how Kakashi ripped the didlo out of him only to be replaced by his pulsing cock. Drool steadly coming out of his mouth eyes clenched tight.
When he touches you, you will feel bearly contained disgust.
When you touch yourself I want you to scream my name in escatasy! DO you here me?
Ahhhh yess Kakashiii-senseeeii ohhh
Tell me what I want to here
Oh oh oh god I'm yours! All yours!
Louder! Tell me more!
I'M YOURS! ALL OF ME! YOU OWN ME! I"M YOUR COCKWHORE, SLUT, PROSTITUTE! ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING! I"M YOURS!
Heh I guess you deserve to come now
Sasuke came in his hands but felt unsatisfied realizing Kakashi was not there and he did not cum in him. Calming his breathes he lifted himself off the counter and opened his eyes only to be greeted by the amused and lustful eyes of Kakahsi.
"Kakashi" Sasuke gasped.
"Having fun babe" Sasuke turned his head away. He couldn't meet the man's eye nor stand his mericless teasing. Sasuke heard foot steps approach him and stop in front of him. Kakashi grabbed Sasuke's hand, licking the white substance of his hand. Sasuke blushed.
"Look at me" Sasuke followed the command. He became mesmerized by the licking of his fngers.
"I could have this for breakfast" and in a flurry the moment ended as Sasuke rushed to the muffins sighing in relief that they had not been burned. Sasuke could hear a sigh of annoyance from Kakashi. He turned around.
"I-I-I..." He didn't know what to say.
"Your going to fix this problem in the shower" Kakashi gestured to his pants "after we eat.
-after shower-
"Let's go out"
"No" was Sasuke's immediate response.
"You can''t stay in all day" He placed his hands on his hips.
"Hn wanna see me try" Kakashi said as he continued to read his porn. Sasuke sighed exsperated.
"Fine" Sasuke marched to their room and changed with a bang to the door. When Sasuke came out he said "I'll just go by myself"
At this Kakashi glanced up to see Sasuke in a dress. A black billow-y dress with a blue ribbon criss-crossing along the back showing off patches of pale skin while tighting the front. He wore black heels blue ribbons also criss-crossing along his legs and a hat with a blue bow.
"Humph bye"
-15 minutes later-
Sasuke walked through the streets with a disgruntle Kakashi, a scraf covering most of his face. Mentally, he celebrated his win against the man. It was hard to win with him most of the times. Sasuke stared at the massive buildings, graffitti covered walls and little children playing near the suprisingly spacious park. Yes, he was still in his dress and really cold, but Sasuke had successfully got the man next to him to come out in the daylight. He knew if it wasn't winter the man would be wearing a doctor's mask blaming it on a no-exist deseae.
All of a sudden, Sasuke felt a warm arm incircle him. He looked to his right, Kakashi's face was straight. PDA (public display of affection) wasn't Kakashi's thing. Now that he thought about it, most of the time they went out people would mistaking Kakashi as a friend so they could flirt with him. Sasuke didn't mind. He didn't like it when Naruto did it. Being with Naruto was..an obligation. But to be with Kakashi for better or worst by free choice was refreshing. Kakashi arm's around him Sasuke felt like he was being possessive of him somehow.
"Let's make this a date okay?" Sasuke leaned in a nodded.
And so the day went by. Walking throught the forest like park and then ending up at a mid-sized mall. They mindless walked; talking about random things. How's work? What would you like for your birthday? Are you hungry? Out the mall and they headed to an aquraium. Sasuke looked in wonder at all the fish. Glittery, wide mouth, some with whiskers. Down in the basement level left Sasuke breathelss. Jellyfish lighting the whole place up. Sasuke read the small panel about them
Jellyfish glow a bright blue or purple. It is their way of either signalling they want a mate or that they are mating.
Sasuke blushed brightly. Kakashi caught it and read the panel. He laughed. In anger and embarssement Sasuke stomped away. However, Kakashi was not going to let him get away and kissed him dead on the lips. Sasuke struggled for a whole 2 minutes, but gave in when he saw how determined Kakashi was to placate him
It was moments like that that Sasuke hated loving Kakashi.
And Sasuke knew Kakashi felt the same way.
We are suppose to be cold-hearted loners. So, why are we fighting so hard to go against that image? Why when I fight so hard I end up giving in to you? That was the question that ran through Sasuke's head as he kissed Kakashi.
"How about I treat you to dinner?" Kakashi said in his ever bored voice, exiting the aqraium.
"Okay" Sasuke whispered. They headed to a dinner/bar. The place was a little dingy and a little run down. But the price was right. A Karoke in the front Sasuke assumed was use to brighten up the place. Sasuke got a few catcalls as he enterd which Sasuke rolled his eyes to.
"Come on let's order" said Sasuke tugging on Kakashi arm. He knew Kakashi hated others staring at him.
Sasuke listen to customers sing some actually trying to serenade him. He scoffed in disgust. He saw the bar tender give him an apolgetic glance. Sasuke nodded in appreciation and came up with a brillant idea.
"Hey, lets help this bar get a little business" Sasuke glanced at the Karoke. He knew Kakashi got the hint. He saw the inner war raging in him. On one hand he hated drawing unnessaray attention to hisself on the other if he heard another man serende to Sasuke he was going to kill him.
"O.K" Kakashi replied reluntactly.
They got up to the mics and selected a song.
"Ready?"
"No"
"too bad"
[Sasuke:]
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No...)
[Kakashi:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
[Sasuke:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
[Kakashi:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
[Sasuke:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oh..)
[Kakasi:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Sasuke:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
[Kakashi:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
[Kakashi:]
Yeah... Oh...
[Sasuke:]
That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (oh..)
That's how much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you
[Sasuke:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. so...
Sasuke didn't know why this song seemed to describe something about them, It was as if the words came naturally to them. Sasuke was shooked out his thoughts by cheers and applause. The bar tender even applauded and gave them a free beer. Kakashi lite a cigerette which he knew how much he hated. But Sasuke let it pass. The man did not do it often and since he did sing with him...
They left the bar into the night. Sasuke saw Kakashi discard his smoke and he ran into the street to the park. Cold air whipping the hat on his head off and his hair going in all directions. He knew Kakashi was chasing him. Oh, how weightless he felt. Twirling again his dress floating up revealing hairless pale legs. He noticed Kakashi getting closer and closer, hat in hand, till they were under the only blooming flower tree. Blue and white flowers fell in a shower, hiding passionate kisses and tender touches.
Sasuke wondered if they were going to make love that night...
_Bedroom_
"Ah Ah Kashi" Sasuke didn't know what to think. They were going so slow, yet he was incrediably close. Was this making love? The passionate touches, unbearable heat, and delicious friction. No! You get this from just fucking, but this wasn't fucking. Sasuke felt Kakashi dip his tongue in his belly button thrusting steadily. Almost as if he wanted to make it last.
Kakashi never said he loved him. He had countless times expressed his lust for him, but love. It was strange to both of them. His father said he loved his mother but constantly cheated on her with Minato and same with Minato. Mother and Kushina had some lover they constantly met even though they returned those I love you's. Sasuke himself never said he loved Naruto although he said it so many times to him. The only one who seemed to know was his eve wise Aniki. Part of him wished he'd left a number for him to call.
Sasuke's thoughts went fuzzy for minute as Kakashi strucked his prostrate head on. His thumb pad rubbing blantly at the slit of his cock. He wondered if Kakahsi knew what love was. He lost his father to suicde and mother in child birth. He wondered if he love Kakashi enough would he know what it felt like.
"Kakashi...oh clooose" Sasuke moned in warning. He didn't mind if Kakashi didn't say it. He only wanted to feel for now. Maybe one day he might, but not today. Today he could feel Kakashi..."Ahhhh Kakashiii" Sasuke came with Kakashi. He felt suddenly exhausted and so did Kakashi. The silver haired man scooped him up in a possessive hold and fell a sleep. Sasuke was still awake. He hated Kakashi and he wanted Kakashi and despised Kakashi and needed him.
Oh how the world was so cruel.