A/N: so I realized that I have really changed Izumi's personality in this fanfic and I'm sorry to those who really like his sadistic traits, but I really like him in this story and he really adds to some parts and plus this is my story so I can make the characters however I want but yeah so again he is really out of character here but please don't let it bother you too much about the story. I mean I guess Mitsuki and Takuto are out of character too but I am just trying to make their personalities fit the story line of my story…so anyways I hope you enjoy the next chapter

Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, they all belong to Arina Tanemura and as well if I ever use song lyrics they as well do not belong to me

A/N: Just like I said before this story is on the border line of the rating T and leans a little more towards M just to let you know.

Chapter 10

If you only knew

Her neck was sore and she groggily opened her eyes to see the dark forest surrounding her. Slowly she sat up. At first she thought it was a nightmare until she felt the cool breeze brush her skin. That was when she realized it was a reality. But where was she and why was she there? Her mind raced in a wild blur until she realized where she was. Her eyes immediately shot to a dark figure sitting against the large tree. He smiled timidly at her which she returned.

"H-hey" she stuttered brushing her hair back from her cheek.

"Hey" he returned in the same uncomfortable tone. His eyes shot to Mitsuki when a small shiver raced through her body. "We should get going" his voice was ragged and Mitsuki could only guess that it was from his actions the previous day. The rims of his eyes were still a soft red and there were dark circles underneath them.

"I'm okay" She said quietly, she honestly wanted to stay alone with him a while longer. 'Eichi'. Her conscience seemed to be attacking her more and more each day, and she continued ignoring it more and more each day.

"But aren't you cold?" he asked before clearing his throat trying to smooth out his voice. Mitsuki quickly shook her head and Takuto sighed slowly unbuttoning his shirt. Mitsuki blushed then turned her head closing her eyes unsure of why he would strip in front of her. "You can't lie to me" he spoke softly.

"Takuto?" her eyes flew open when she felt him wrap his shirt around her shoulders. Although it was thin the fabric still held the warmth of Takuto's body heat. Her cheeks turned red that instant. "But wont you be cold?" she asked seeing he only had a thin black t-shirt on.

"I'm fine" he replied sitting back against the tree "I've had worse" his voice seemed to grow darker at his sentence and Mitsuki slowly brought herself to her knees.

"Takuto" she whispered "You can tell me, like I said before I'll be there for you" she had slowly crawled on her knees across the small space so that she could place her hand on his.

"Mitsuki?" he asked quietly sliding his hand away from hers.

"Yes?" he slowly brought his knees to his chest then rested his elbows on them. Mitsuki didn't make a move as she watched him change positions.

"I-I want you to leave" he whispered hiding his face in his palms. Mitsuki took in a sharp breathe feeling something plunge into her heart.

"B-ut Takuto why?" she whispered not allowing him to hear how much his words hurt her.

"I don't want you here anymore, you have to go, be set free. You're such a pure kind person, I don't want to turn you into some dark depressed person like me" She let out the breathe she had been holding when she understood. It wasn't because he didn't want her there. He was doing this for her own good.

That was when it all flashed in her mind. She saw herself running into Eichi's arms, he was holding her tightly not giving her a chance to let go. She was seeing everything she had always wanted. They were at the alter getting married. They were spending the rest of their lives together. It was everything she had always dreamed about

…but then

She saw him breaking down. She left him and she could have stayed, could have fixed him. It had appeared that everything she had told him was a lie. Promises of helping him were lost as she ran away and it terrified her…only she wasn't terrified of him. She was terrified of running away from him. She didn't want to leave him. She wanted to stay by his side. But why did she want this she didn't love him, her heart already belonged to someone else and she knew it was wrong to fall for another. So then why did she feel so captivated by him?

"No" she said sternly, his head shot up at her new tone. "I will not do that" his expression slightly darkened at her words. Mitsuki bit her lip but would not take back her words.

"Mitsuki you don't want this!" his voice was getting angrier. "You don't want to have to go through the hell that I have my entire life!" Mitsuki shook her head.

"I don't care Takuto, I was the one who did this to you anyways…well from what I know it was my fault, that's what everyone tells me" she ignored his glare carrying on with her speech "I want to help you, I've seen some of what you had to go through and I want to fix it! I want to show you-"

"No" his voice seemed final "Mitsuki I don't want to do this to you, you don't understand. There are so many better things you can do with your life then stick around with someone like me!"

"That's where you're wrong" Mitsuki was starting to feel anger of her own "Wouldn't you want me to suffer more! I thought you hated me!" she was trying to pull at any thread possible to make him speak sensibly.

"Mitsuki I…I never hated you I, I only said those things" A cold brisk breeze flew around the forest slightly sending Mitsuki's hair in a cool frenzy. The faint sound of a raven could be heard in the background and the rain had slowly picked up again in the grey sky.

"B-but I thought you?" she didn't know how to respond anymore.

"Mitsuki I only said I hated you all those years because that's what was expected of me. Do you know how much my family would hate me if I said that I lo- that I don't mind you, that I think of you as my…as my friend?" Mitsuki felt her cheeks heat up.

"Takuto why would they be mad if you are happy?" She stopped when an evil laugh bubbled from his lips.

"Because why should the centre of the curse be happy when they bring so much frustration and pain to those around him? Mitsuki I've said it before, my family hates me. Everyone hates me, I can't break the curse" Mitsuki shook her head.

"I don't hate you Takuto" she whispered "How could I-" she was interrupted when Takuto started laughing incredulously.

"And you are the one who should hate me the most Mitsuki" he laughed leaning back against the tree letting his left leg straighten.

"No Takuto your wro-"

"I am the reason why you are hear Mitsuki!" he roared leaning forward "Think about it, you are the only other one who is connected to the curse"

"Takuto stop" she felt tears springing to her eyes. All this time she thought it was Kato who had sentenced her to this hell.

"I was the one who personally asked Kato to bring you here! I am selfish Mitsuki I wanted you here so that I could break the curse and find my own happiness! I wanted everyone to stop hating me!" he let out another dark chuckle "Not so strong anymore are we Mitsuki? Now that you know the truth"

"N-no" she squeaked, it wasn't true…was it.

"Put the pieces together Mitsuki I'm not as good as you think I am!" That was it Mitsuki felt the tears spilling down her cheeks. Without even knowing what had happened she had gotten to her feet sprinting away from him. Her mind was racing in a wild array. It couldn't be…could it?"

He let out another dark chuckle before bringing his knees back to his throbbing chest. He finally did it. This was his last resort to saving her. He had to make her hate him. Although what he had said was true he hadn't wanted to tell her so harshly. This was the only way though. He knew this was how it should be, why should he be happy when everyone around him were suffering? It killed him to see her cry but at least this way she could run away and be happy.

He felt the cold tears slide down his cheek once again, this time he did not want comforting. He was the one to make her run and he deserved every inch of pain his heart induced.

"I'm sorry Mitsuki" he whispered. Why couldn't he just have her, make her his and love her? He hated that he had to hurt her, he hated that he was the reason for the curse…he hated that he had to make the girl he wanted to love hate him. He leaned his head harshly back against the tree letting the cold rain which was falling quite heavily stain his shirt and heart. It almost felt good, the physical and mental pain. His entire life was filled with pain and to him there was no sense in trying to end that now.

Why was she running? Why was there a pain so intense streaking through her heart? She still didn't believe his words. What did he mean he was the reason she was there? It couldn't be true, it was probably just him trying to play with her mind so that he could protect her in someway…wasn't it?

The cold forest seemed to be a weird mess of green. She followed a creepy dirt path that was twisting every which way there seemed to be no end. Her stomach slightly grumbled reminding herself that she had not eaten anything that day. The time was unknown but she assumed it was nearing the afternoon because she could faintly see the sun in the middle of the sky even though it was masked by the clouds.

Her paced dropped to a walk and she found herself gasping for breathe. The sultry thick air attacked her lungs. Although there was rain the temperature had changed from frigid to humid in a matter of seconds. She caught herself on a tree when a weird head rush ran through her mind. Her body was reacting strangely to her surroundings. Maybe it was the atmosphere or maybe the fact she had not had anything to eat. She knew that she could get low on blood sugar because of past health problems but it had never attacked her like this before.

'Just sit for a moment Mitsuki' she thought resting beside a small tree. When the whirling in her mind had finally ceased she took the time to observe her surroundings. At first she had thought of this forest as a terrifying atmosphere but looking around she found herself short of breathe. The beautiful evergreens molded together making a mirage of green while the warm breeze freshened the musky air. Not only was the scene beautiful but the inhabitants seemed to add to the beauty of it all. It was almost like a song, she could here small birds singing together along with the soft rippling of a nearby stream. When she came to think about it, this forest was one of the most beautiful things she had ever seen.

Another warm breeze swirled around Mitsuki's body and she looked at the now clear blue sky seeing the storm clouds had passed on. As soon as the clouds faded another thing happened…the pain had returned. Mitsuki was so captivated by the beauty of her surroundings that by the time her mind was no longer entranced by its beauty she was brought back to reality.

'Why did I run away from him?' she wondered. 'I could have stayed to help him, I could have gotten a reasonable response from him' She brought both her hands to her face wiping them against her eyes while letting out a soft moan 'please forgive me Eichi' she thought rising to her feet. She had to make things right with Takuto. She had never even thought about Eichi…well not as much as she used to or would like to. And now that she did think of him there was not much to think. She loved him and she knew that but what else was there. She couldn't think of much, she always thought of him as perfect and that was it. He never complained to her, he never asked her for anything, he never lied, never spoke out of turn, never yelled at her, never did anything but love her. What more could she ask for, she had a perfect love

…didn't she?

This made her stop for a moment. What did she really know of Eichi? He never spoke much of himself. He always wanted to talk about her and nothing more. Really all she knew was that he wanted to be a great astronomer. All this made her feel selfish. Not once had she asked him about himself. Not once had she asked what his biggest fears were, what made him laugh, made him cry. What did she really know of her love Eichi Sakurai? What did she know of love?

Then again what did she know of anyone?

Well except for…

She knew that Takuto's biggest fear was to have his family hate him, and that was already happening. He was living his greatest fear and without her it would remain that way forever…her eyes widened. Most people were afraid of something silly like spiders but in the moment they can run away from them but not Takuto. He was living his nightmare and there was nothing he could do to get away.

"Takuto" she whispered. She probably hurt him bad when she ran away. She was such an idiot, why did she only do things for herself? Slowly Mitsuki tried retracing her tracks through the maze of a forest.

"Takuto!" she called after what seemed like hours. Everywhere she turned seemed to be a replica of the other. It seemed that the forest was turning into it's scary monstrous self again and not the beautiful scene like before. It reminded her of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. One moment it was inviting and kind the next it was evil and a blur.

"Takuto I'm sorry!" she cried dropping to her knees "I didn't mean to run away and I don't care if it was you who chose me I want to help you!" she screamed when she heard someone clapping behind her. "Ah Izumi you freak!"

He stopped with an unimpressed look on his face "I'm a freak? I'm not the one sitting in the middle of the forest apologizing to someone who isn't even here, but has been looking for you for the past four hours when you didn't return even though he said he was the reason you ran but oh no then I get the 'Shut up Izumi and just help me find her' I mean he is so stupid. I think you should tell him that by the way when you see him because he is going to act all moody and 'I pretend to hate you' to your face but he is just kidding. I mean I give you serious props for putting up with all of his-"

"All of my what?" a dark voice came from behind. Izumi let out a dark chuckle and Mitsuki gasped as they both turned to see the new addition to there little group.

"Takuto!" Mitsuki cried running to his side.

"Mitsuki" he whispered dropping his stare "I know I said some stupid things to you to scare you off and I'm sorry"

"Hmm guess you don't need to tell him how stupid he is after all" Both glared at the blonde. His eyes went from Mitsuki to Takuto "Well I can see when I'm not needed" he stated raising his hands like a burglar caught by the police. "But Mitsuki don't turn your back on him" That did it Takuto's face turned bright red with anger.

"Izumi you fucker!" he roared.

"Whoa language!" Izumi called over his shoulder. Takuto sighed angrily running his hand over his eyes.

"M-Mitsuki" he said softly. His cheeks had turned a soft pink but this time it was with embarrassment. He was never good with apologies…or expressing feeling for that matter. "I'm sorry" he rushed. Mitsuki blinked not catching what he had said.

"W-what?" she asked quietly.

"I'm sorry!" he said more eligible.

"For what?" He stared at her incredulously.

"What do you mean for what?" he sounded almost irritated "I'm sorry for being the big stupid jerk I was earlier and I, I didn't mean it. I mean the part where I didn't…where I said I didn't want you here I" he stopped letting out a big breathe "I still want you to stay here!" he rushed through his last sentence again.

"You don't have to apologize" she smiled "Takuto you helped me realize something today and I just wanted to say I'm sorry as well"

"What are you sorry for?"

"I was never honest with anyone before and I was being selfish" he stared at her confused.

"What are you talking about?" he asked confused. Mitsuki giggled then turned to smile at him.

"All this time it was always about me and nothing more. Takuto you helped me see that"

"I still don't think I follow" Mitsuki shook her head.

"That's okay all I'm trying to say is we are going to make it through this together!" Her stomach growled after her little speech and Takuto noticing just shook his head not trying to push their conversation any further.

"We should go back and get some food" Mitsuki nodded then looked around the forest confused. She still wasn't quite sure of where the exit was. Takuto sighed. "It's this way" he replied walking past her in a direction she would never have guessed to go.

"Wait for me!" she called running up to him.

It was funny to Mitsuki that how before the forest seemed like an endless maze, but to Takuto it was as if he knew the place like the back his hand. They travelled through shrubs mud and everything in between Mitsuki would be relived when she would be able to have a shower. They had started travelling down hill when Mitsuki's foot slipped on the soupy mud.

"Wha Takuto look out!" She cried sliding on her back down the small bank. "Takuto!" he hadn't heard her yell and it looked like he was deep in thought. She was going to hit him.

"Ah what the hell!" he yelled when his feet were kicked out from underneath himself.

"Oomph" Mitsuki groaned when Takuto landed on her, he was much heavier then he looked. At this point both were sliding down the hill at a fast rated. Takuto had somehow managed to roll off of Mitsuki somewhere down the hill then pulled her onto his chest for safety.

When they hit the bottom Mitsuki had opened her eyes which had been shut with fear. Her cheeks immediately grew hot when she felt two strong arms wrapped around her. Slowly she rolled over so that she was face to face with the man who had probably just saved her life…again.

"What was that for!" he asked still holding onto the girl tightly.

"I I'm so sorry Takuto my foot slipped and then I called to you but you weren't listening and I tried to slide around you but-"

"Okay!" he cut her off "It's okay, just as long as you weren't hurt" Mitsuki looked to the side still blushing. Not even Eichi held her this close before and her heart was beating erratically.

"T-thank you" she whispered

"Y-your welcome" he stuttered finally realizing their positions.

"Takuto?" every fiber in her body was buzzing with…excitement.

"Yes?" he asked hesitantly. Mitsuki had no idea what got over her as she slowly started leaning in. This was so wrong but she didn't care. She was so close to him that she could feel the warmth of his lips mingle with hers. Brown eyes clashed with blue as he finally understood what she was doing. Mitsuki's heart almost took off when she felt his arms tighten around her torso. She closed her eyes starting to close the last gap.

"Takuto!" Mitsuki did not hear the stranger that had called his name and leaned in. Her eyes flew open when her lips touched a smooth cold surface. The first thing she saw was that Takuto looking at her from the corner of his eye. She had been expecting something else.

"Mitsuki?" She immediately pulled back from Takuto's cheek. His arms immediately left her sides and he hastily pushed her off of his chest.

"I'm sorry Takuto" she blushed. He only nodded his head jumping to his feet.

"Well well, what do we have here?" Mitsuki's eyes shot up to see Kato standing before her looking bemused. "Mitsuki may I talk to you alone for a minute?" he asked politely. Takuto's eyes shot to his brother horrified but Mitsuki did not notice.

"Kato its fine we were just-" Kato lifted his hand silencing Takuto.

"I would just like to speak to her for a moment my dear brother so if you wouldn't mind" Takuto's eyes bounced to Mitsuki's and back.

"No" he said sternly.

"You will listen to me and I will talk to the girl privately for a moment" he snarled through gritted teeth.

"Kato I will ki-"

"Takuto he just wants to talk to her for a moment please just come with me" Takuto sighed angrily when Tarou walked into the scene "Come" he said in an authoritative tone. Takuto nodded then walked off stealing one last glance at Mitsuki. She did not miss the terror she saw in his eyes.

"Ah Mitsuki" she swallowed hard then looked to the now frightening man before her…the boss.

"Y-yes Kato?" she asked politely, he smiled then walked forward.

"What do you think you're doing?" he asked. His voice was not rough, but this somehow made his words more menacing.

"P-pardon?" she tried to hold back the fear in her voice.

"With Takuto what do you think you are doing?"

"N-nothing we were just-"

"Mitsuki listen here you little bitch if you think that you can fix him your wrong! He has and never will have happiness he is damned just like the rest of us so stop-"

"No!" she screamed he had hit the core of her anger "All you do is poke and prod at his wounds yet you never try to help! What is wrong with you? Can't you see he needs help! That is what I am trying to do and if you think" she bit her lip when Kato walked over to her.

"Shut up!" he screamed grabbing her jaw "Mitsuki you are going to be the one who breaks his heart" he eyes widened.

"No!" She whispered, Kato smiled

"Yes you will, you will tell him you love me and that will be it nothing more" His hand tightened "Do you understand?" Mitsuki shook her head.

"No I won't-" Kato gritted his teeth throwing her to the ground. Mitsuki shook in fear then rolled to her knees trying to run free when something grabbed her hair. She cried in pain then flung to her back. Kato crawled over top of her pinning her to the ground.

"Do it" he growled clamping his hand over her mouth. Mitsuki's eyes widened and she shook her head. Kato shoved her head harshly into the ground growling again. "Fine then it appears that I will have to make the deal better…do it and I wont kill him" he grinned taking his hand off of her mouth waiting for a reply.

Chapter End