A/N: Well this one's gonna surprise me as much as it will you.
ENJOY!!!! Before I blab all my ideas for this fic. Thank you all who'd reviewed this and I really hope that this is a success.
CEWO YOU'RE THE BEST!!!
SPECIAL NOTE: Duo's voice over will be italicized, super- and succeeded by a double plus (++).
WARNING: Voice overs will be used throughout the fic. I can't write any of it over 'cause I've already got up to chap four like this. Can't help ya there.
CHAPTER ONE
++I'm my usual self around the guys. Heero and Wufei sit in the middle of the couch while Quatre sits in the armchair. Trowa somewhere in the estate. But I was gonna make my fun time last. I waltz over to Wu-bear and sit right down beside him. He and Heero were in the middle of a snuggling session, remaining silent as they cuddled with a starry eyed Arabian watching and eating popcorn. Of course this was my time to interfere as usual and get a group conversation going.
Now, I'm not one to get between two lovebirds who're using some sort of telovepathy1 to communicate with each other. But seeing the two people I care most about snuggle in a couch without the Duo (yes, the Duo) for the umpteenth time in one day is going to drive me over the edge eventually; and so I decide to stop it while I'm ahead.
Using my gift of vocal impersonation, I talk into Wufei's free ear as seductively as possible with a tint of a French accent.
"Oh you set my soul on fire," I say, knowing that they'd stop a little before I'm done and glare at me. "It is not just a little spark. Oh no. It is a flame. A big roaring flame!2"
As expected, Heero lowered his head in exasperation and Wufei turned to glare at me. And of course, I replied with my million dollar grin. Pearly whites all around. Ahh…Aquafresh does wonders.
I felt a popcorn hit me in my temple. I look over at a clearly disappointed Quatre, but smile anyway. He gave me a hard look, claiming he was watching that; like it was some sort of gay porn movie.
Che. Well sorry to burst your bubble but I wanted to change the channel.
I only stuck my tongue out at him and hit him with the same popcorn. Then I tell him to go do the same with his girlfriend if it turned him on so much.
No, Quatre's not gay like everyone else. He was in a relationship with the pink horror.
Yes. I went there.
Q-man and Relena Piece-o-crap were dating now. I don't know what came over the guy to be honest. But frankly, the girl grew up a lot and they saw a lot of common ground between them. Although I hated her guts and wouldn't wish her upon any of my closest friends no matter how much they pissed me off…I was more than happy she'd found someone who kept her occupied other than my Heero.
Sadly, Heero wasn't mine then. I'd lost him to another that I'd longed for at the same time. Ain't that a bitch? You'd think I'd lost Heero or Wufei to someone I'd spend the majority of my time plotting their death. But no. I'd lost both of them to each other. How could I hate the two people I hold so dear? I just couldn't do it. If you could manage something like that; I applaud you. Finally there's something you can do that I've tried and failed at.
While we were busy knocking jaws, the oriental pair decided to advance from cuddle to full on making out. Again, I had to break it up. This was going to drive me nuts one day. But I was slowly getting over it. SLOWLY. ++
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Duo put a hand between the two approaching lips and they touched his index and middle finger. He silently vowed never to let those two fingers touch water ever again. And when onyx and Prussian opened to see pale skin they blinked and frowned at the American.
Their glares did nothing to the American as usual; but the lingering lust for one another that still burned in them was enough to make him back off. It was painful for him. In truth, it was probably going to be the death of him one day. Duo snorted to himself ruefully. He could just imagine his autopsy.
Duo Maxwell
Time of Death: 12:45 a.m.
Cause of Death: Heart Break
He nearly laughed out loud then as he left the living room to go to his room. A room he could never hope to share with Heero again. He and the Japanese always roomed together. That's how they became best friends. But that had changed when Heero had been seriously injured. Wufei had jumped at the opportunity before Duo had a chance to blink. And right in front of him, his world crumbled. The only perk out of that was he could not only imagine them having sex as his own personal porn movie; but even watch them in action in reality. The major drawbacks were that watching and/or listening to them in reality made him ache. Both in his heart and in his groin. Then the fact that he couldn't be inserted right in the middle of it all.
Duo actually chuckled this time.
As if losing the first real friend, family and home he had weren't enough; Fate decided to screw him over another time by making it impossible to even have a love life. It was like he was supposed to be converted to Heero when they first met:
Alone and friendless.
Happiness never stayed for long. Just like the air we breathe, it comes and goes. All in a single breath.
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It had been almost two years now since that day; and both Asians were officially bound to one another both affectionately and sexually. About a day after Duo had intervened on their snuggle time, they'd rode the box springs of ecstasy. And right next door to Duo. Relena had come over then; and she and Quatre were at it as well. Trowa was on a mission then, and that left just Duo in a room in a cold bed. Alone.
So very alone.
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++ Of course in the morning I looked like shit but I really didn't care. What ate at me the most wasn't the fatigue. It was the fact that everyone had a nice little love life (I couldn't tell you about Trowa) while I was stuck listening to sex screams all night. At that point I would've welcomed the nightmares of my past if it was only to have me forget about the fact that I was completely and utterly alone. In all honesty, if it weren't for the fact that there wasn't anywhere I could go to be physically alone, I think I would've hidden somewhere and cried until I was dehydrated.
I'm the kind of person who pines for affection and physical contact, however friendly. Not rape based. And the lack of all of these was ripping me apart. Even after just two unbelievably short years, Heero and I drifted; but I'd say Heero floated off to Never-Never land with Wufei and forgot all about poor little Duo. Even Quatre; the one I'd considered a brother, had replaced me with Relena. It was like all he breathed and lived on was Relena, and Heero Wufei. You'd think I'd go to Trowa and confide in him all my worries and pains then just have sex with him to release all my pent up emotions. I'm sorry but no way. Trowa didn't seem like the type to want to listen to a pathetic love-sick puppy's sob story and comfort him. I don't know if he's even gay for that matter. As far as I was concerned we'd only told each other of our pasts and called it that so we could understand each other better and why we do what we do.
This was not something I was ready to share with him. I still don't think he'd told me everything I needed to know; only what I'd asked of him. Besides; he'd said to me himself that he didn't like to have people coming to him with all these sad teary shit. He didn't say it like that, but if you read between the lines that's what he said. Howard had died shortly after the war and Hilde was happily married and with children. She had bigger problems than this. There was no one I could turn to. Even if Doctor G was still around I definitely wouldn't go to him with this. It would just give him and the other old geezers something to laugh at.
No matter how I looked at it, I was alone. And there was nothing I could do but dream about the relationships that I could never be or hope to be in.++
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1) Telovepathy: Telepathic way to communicate sappy love words and cuddly shit to each other without speaking. Yea…
2) I got that from the Tom and Jerry Show. It was hilarious.
A/N: YESSS!!!! This is the official first chapter to Treading Through Troubled Waters. You're lucky I even typed this up. I'd gotten these two books from Sherrilyn Kenyon: Devil May Cry and The Dream Hunter yesterday. I started Devil May Cry and couldn't put it down. Then I got these exams (of course you know this) and my mom took it away. I could've cried. If I wasn't stuck trying to keep my little brother from causing mayhem I would've been done by now and moving on to the other book.
I guess you should thank her, in any case. She was the reason you got this chapter. If she didn't take the book, you'd be shit outta luck for at least another week or two; regardless of my Christmas exams.
NOW A SPECIAL NOTE TO MY SPECIAL READER WHO LEFT A SPECIAL REVIEW
Cewo. I was so very touched by that wonderful review. I swear if you were right there I might have hugged the life outta you. I figured my writing style was just good enough to get the meaning of the story out clearly. But still, even though you say my writing is good enough to surpass some of the older writers at only 14 *blushes slightly out of astonishment at the prospect* I say I may never be able to surpass cjmarie's or Dyna Dee's art of GW fic writing. They are like two of my favorite writers. Namely Yaoi writers. Sadly, cj's retired and only writes one shots for Torchwood, a show that I could never bring myself to watch (no offense to those who love the show with every fiber of their being).
Goodness. My Author's notes are taking up everything! But I can't help it. I'm a sucker for one-sided conversations; just like Duo. Somehow or another, don't care how weird it may be, I think we're related. Get that? Me. Related to an anime character. Well, it's not all that unexpected. I mean almost everyone I meet here at home is either a cousin or an aunt or uncle or something.
(ANYWAY…) Next chapter:
TROWA WALKS IN
Heero tells us his views on the whole situation. Tells his reaction and what he did when Trowa came back from his mission.
How will Duo react to this new dilemma? Will he survive this? ….Well that was a dumb question. He'd been with them for a while before this whole lineup as aforementioned in the previous chapter. But hey, his in depth reaction's more important than what he said before, right?
'Till next time,
-Kenny.