Okay. Here is the next installment since this appears to be the only method I am capable of writing in. PLEASE do not make fun of me for the song choices. I don't even know why I have some of them on my Zune. *shrugs* Anyhoo, hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: Do you see me hanging around with the guys? No? That's what I thought...OBVIOUSLY I don't own Big Time Rush! Or any of these songs.


What Hurts the Most- Rascal Flatts

She looked in the mirror, shaking her head when she saw her reflection. She looked like a zombie with her sallow features and pale skin. She took a deep breath and began to get ready. This would be a day she would pretend like everything was okay she decided, pulling her hair back from her face.

She passed through the living room, giving a forced smile to Logan, James and Carlos that they returned with equally forced smiles. Inside they were all falling apart. She tried to ignore the pain in her chest at seeing them without Kendall, heading out the door.

She began walking, never stopping until she finally reached the cemetery. Her steps slowed as she found the all too familiar gravestone. In Loving Memory of Kendall Knight: Beloved Son, Brother and Friend. …and it was only then she allowed herself to break down. She fell to her knees, sobbing into her hands. "I love you! I love you…" she cried, wishing she had told him before it was too late.

Whiskey Lullaby- Brad Paisley

"I'll love her till I die." She stared at the note in her hand, rereading it for the hundredth time since his death. She watched as more tears fell on the paper and the writing grew blurry as salt tears burned her eyes. She took a swig of vodka she had stolen, trying to numb the pain.

But nothing ever helped. Kendall's memory still haunted her to no end and she was the only one to blame for his death. If only she had admitted how much she loved him instead of telling him she wanted to break things off. But she'd been so afraid of what she was feeling and where they were going…and now she'd lost him forever.

She gazed at the picture she held in her hand, those mischievous green eyes looking back at her from beneath the veil of his sandy blond hair as he laughed at some long forgotten joke someone had been telling at the time. She broke down again, clutching it to her chest as her bloody wrists stained it red and she felt the life leave her. Her last thought was she hoped they buried her next to Kendall.

The Hardest Thing- 98 Degree

"We should break up. I'm sorry, but I just don't love you the way I use too," Kendall told her, his face a mask of complete indifference. He had to do this, no matter how much it was killing him. He could see the tears in her eyes and he hated himself for it. He wanted nothing more than to hold her in his arms and kiss away those tears, but he couldn't.

"If..if that's w..what you want…"she stammered out. He gave a short nod even though every part of him screamed to tell her it was all a lie. It took every ounce of strength he had to make himself turn around and leave her standing there. His own eyes began to sting and his chest felt painfully tight.

Once he was out of her sight, he pulled the tabloid magazines out of his messenger bag, throwing them into the trash and glancing only briefly at the covers that were spreading all kind of horrible rumors about her and he knew it was all because she was dating him. He could take whatever they said about him, but he would not let them tear her apart like that! He'd do anything to protect her…even if it meant breaking her heart…and his.

That's When I'll Stop Loving You- NSYNC

"Do you think there will ever be day when you'll stop loving me?" she suddenly asked one day as they sat curled up together on the couch of 2J. She couldn't quite recall how she'd reached this question, but she definitely wanted to know the answer.

"Sure…I'll stop loving you someday…" Kendall said very nonchalantly as he shrugged, making her bolt up from where she'd been wrapped in his arms, looking horrified. If he believed he wouldn't always love her, then why was he even wasting his time now?

"Oh? And just when are you going to stop loving me?" she wanted to know. "I'd like to have a heads up!" Kendall chuckled and pulled her back into his arms, which she surprisingly allowed, though she looked pointedly away from him, obviously still quite upset.

"When the stars all go out…when earth stops spinning…when time completely stops…when love no longer exists at all," he whispered, emphasizing each statement with a kiss to her neck. "When all of that happens, then I'll stop loving you." Before he could utter another word, her lips pressed sweetly to his own. Suddenly she very much enjoyed his response to her question.

She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5

Where was she? Kendall glanced around the room that was packed with people for the next huge part thrown by the "Hollywood Super Party Kings of Hollywood." He still couldn't find her and it was worrying him to no end. What if something had happened to her? He finally found the man that was supposed to be her boyfriend, asking him where she was but he just shrugged like he didn't even care.

Kendall resisted the urge to pummel the guy, thinking instead of where she might be. He knew her better than anyone...wasn't it always him she turned to when was upset or when she was happy or excited? He loved her more than wretched excuse for a man ever could! Suddenly it came to him where she was and he rushed out the door to find her.

Sure enough, he found her sitting there on the roof, the neon lights reflecting in the tear tracts on her face. He didn't pry into what was wrong, simply coming up behind her and placing his jacket around her shoulders. She turned to find him standing there and all but fell into his arms. They shared a kiss like the so many they'd had behind the other man's back and Kendall knew that as long as he breathed and lived…she would be loved.

Worldwide- Big Time Rush (Words cannot describe just how in love with this song I am! This will probably be a bit longer than the rest…)

She reached tiredly for the phone with one hand, the other rubbing the sleep from her eyes. She frowned when she turned over and her eyes fell on the spot next to her in bed where Kendall should have been. In her sleep fogged mind, she didn't even think to see who it was calling…but whoever it was, it had to be important for them to be calling so late. "Hello?" she said, stifling a yawn.

"I woke you up, didn't I?" came the wonderfully familiar voice. "I'm so sorry, babe! I didn't even think about what time it is there."

"No, Kendall…it's okay! I didn't hear from you at all today…I've missed you!" She glanced at the clock again. "Besides, shouldn't you be asleep too? It's pretty late there too…"

She heard him laugh a bit lightly and she could almost see him raking his fingers through his sandy blond hair. "That's kind of why I called. I never got the chance to talk to you today and I…I just couldn't sleep without hearing your voice. It calms me down…"

She smiled and giggled quietly. "You're so cute; you know that," she teased. "But I know how you feel. I wasn't really sleeping all that well anyway. I miss you holding me…"

"I miss holding you…" he told her. "I don't think I could handle having to say goodbye to you again! When we get home, I'm staying home for good. I won't go anywhere without you again! I'll be home soon, I swear…"

"I know…and I'll be waiting," she whispered. They continued talking, murmuring sweet words of love to one another until finally they both drifted off to sleep, phones still at their ear as neither of them had managed to hang up. But for once it like they were together again, sleeping peacefully side by side.

Turn On the Radio- Reba McEntire

Kendall sat there in shock, listening to the radio play beside him. He'd never known what had happened to her in those months after they'd broken up…hadn't even seen her to be honest. And now here she was signing on the radio with was apparently a smash hit song.

Kendall was happy for, really. He just wished the message in her song wasn't so obvious. It gave every little detail of their rather messy break up, but honestly he was the only one who was going to be able to realize this song was about him.

He sighed in frustration as she sang about how this was her final goodbye to him. And he knew that the only way he was ever going to hear from her again was if turned on the radio.

Ellsworth- Rascal Flatts

The family all gathered around, looking towards her. She pulled her young grandson into her lap and stroked the hair of her granddaughter who was sitting next to her. She smiled warmly as she began to tell the story of how she and Kendall had met all those years ago. He'd long since passed away from his own old age and her heart ached terrible from missing him.

Her family was always amazed that she couldn't remember where she was or who the people around her were half the time…she could always talk about Kendall with the utmost detail and clarity. If they were being honest, they'd begun to lose her the day he'd passed away. But all they had to do was ask her about LA, 2010.

All I Ask of You- Phantom of the Opera

Kendall rushed to her room, unable to stop thinking about the desperate text that he'd received begging him to come. He called her name as he pounded on the door, worried sick about her. All he could think about was the bruises and cuts and broken limbs that had showed up when she began to date that loser boyfriend of her's!

Finally she opened the door. He looked at her in horror, her left eye blackened, a bruise on her jaw and a busted lip. He didn't think he could know the extent of the damage and still keep himself in check. He choked down the murderous rage when he saw how frightened and upset she was…she needed him and he wouldn't let her down.

She threw herself into his arms and he held her close to him as she cried in terror, clutching on to him as though he were the only thing keeping her grounded. "It's okay…I'm here…you're safe," he murmured softly. "I won't let him hurt you anymore, I swear." He stroked her hair and held her, vowing silently to protect her and guard her with his life…because she needed to know that someone loved her.

I'll Never Break Your Heart- Backstreet Boys

It all made sense now…Some jerk had destroyed her heart and she was still picking up the pieces, terrified of having it shattered all over again. But he was nothing like that guy! She had to know that! He would never do that to her! He'd rather die than hurt her like that!

Kendall sank down against the wall of his bedroom, burying his face in his hands in frustration, his fingers raking through his hair. He couldn't stop thinking about her. He just knew that if he were given the chance to be with her, he would never break her heart like that.

So I've been thinking that I might could turn one (or a couple) of these drabbles into a full length story. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE review and tell me which of these songs (from the first chapter too) you'd like me to write it on! Also which couple you'd like best... Kendall/OC, Kendall/Jo, or Kendall/Camille...Heck! Even Kendall/Jennifer! ...I am really sorry, but I am just not comfortable doing slash. No offense meant to anyone at all!