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Chapter Four

Dreaming about Edward has become a nightly occurrence, as much as I refused to think about him during the day, my nights are filled with his face. It makes me angry in ways that I can't even explain. I remember a point in time that I begged to have dreams about him, it was right after he left and I felt as long as I could dream about him then I still had a piece of him with me. Now I beg for them to stop. They aren't even just dreams they are memories playing on the white screen of my mind. Every night I watch our life together, from our first kiss, to the first time we made love. Last nights was the worst of them all.

It was an unusually warm day in April, Edward decided that since it was so nice we should visit home. We had been living in Seattle for about two years at this point. We were speeding towards Forks before I knew it. He was acting funny all morning. He was jumpy to the point that he snapped at me when I asked him to change the song on the radio. The closer to Forks we got the more agitated he became. Finally I couldn't take it anymore, it was just as we were reaching the towns outer limits. He had snapped at me about twenty times, all over trivial things.

"Just drop me off at my parents." I finally snapped at him.

"What, Why?" he questioned, his voice becoming angry again.

"Because you are in a shitty mood and I would rather not be around you right now."

"Fine." he snapped, slamming his hand down onto the steering wheel.

We drove in silence the rest of the way to my parents. As soon as the car stopped in front of my childhood home I was out of the door.

"Call me when your in a better mood." I said before I slammed the car door shut.

He didn't even respond, he threw the car into reserve and screeched off down the street. I stomped my way up the path and into the house. My Mom came out of the kitchen when she heard the front door slam.

"Bella." she said happily "I didn't expect you today."

Then her eyes took in my face and she must have noticed the look of rage there. "What's wrong baby?" she said walking towards me.

"It's nothing." I said walking past her into the kitchen. I opened the fridge to grab a soda.

"It's obviously nothing sweetie." she said coming up behind me "Did Edward do something?"

I snorted.

"I'll take that as a yes. Do you want to talk about it?" she said pulling out a chair out at the table for me.

I plopped down into the chair and sighed "Everything was fine this morning, he woke up in a great mood. Once he noticed the beautiful weather he suggested we come home for a visit. But once we were in the car his attitude turned shitty. Before I knew it he was snapping at me for everything.I got fed up with it and told him to drop me off here. That's it" I said, I laid my head down on the table. How did today get so far off course. Just this morning Edward was about bouncing with excitement and now we were at separate houses pissed off at each other.

"Well honey." my Mom started "Men are confusing sometimes. I remember a time your Dad acted the exact same way. He called me and told me to get dressed up that he was taking me out somewhere nice. So I did. He took me to The Lodge for dinner but he was being an Ass all evening. I finally about left him and walked home."

"Well did you?" I asked. I barley had ever seen Charlie lose his temper.

"No I didn't, he was just acting out because he was nervous." she said

"What was he nervous about." I was genuinely confused.

Then her face broke out into a look of understanding. She looked at me and smiled. "Oh baby." she said laying her hand on my cheek.

"What Mom?" I was beyond confused now.

She blinked a few times and dropped her hand. "Nothing, I was just admiring how beautiful you are, that's all."

"Mom you didn't answer my question. Why was Dad nervous?" I had a feeling the answer was important.

"Oh I can't remember now. He was just nervous." she said obviously lying. But before I could protest she jumped up from her seat and said "Why don't you go out in the yard and enjoy the sunshine. You could take a blanket and a book to read. I am going to make us some lunch.

Then she turned to the counter officially ending our conversation. I spent the next few hours laying on a blanket in my backyard staring at the white fluffy clouds passing me by. I must have dozed off because I awoke to a dark shadow over my face.

"You looked to peaceful, I didn't want to wake you." came Edwards velvety voice from my side.

"What are you doing here." I said still angry over his earlier behavior.

"I am in a better mood now and I came to apologize." he sat down next to me.

"Well you should be sorry." I said not ready to give in yet, no matter how nice it felt to have him by my side.

"Well I am." he said not putting up a fight at all. "Let's take a drive."

"Okay." I said feeling uneasy. He was acting too calm now.

He stood up and then pulled me to my feet. "I should go let Renee know that I am leaving." I said turning to towards the house. He clamped his hand down on my wrist stopping me.

"I already told her." he said pulling me towards the car.

We drove in silence for a few minutes. I finally realized where we were going, our meadow. We got out of the car and walked the couple of miles in silence, just holding hands and enjoying each others presence. After about an hour we reached our destination. The meadow always took my breathe away, it didn't matter how many times we have been here it still held a magical quality to it. He walked me to the center of the meadow and stopped.

"Bella." he said turning to me "I can't apologize enough about what happened this morning. I should never had taken my mood out on you."

"It's okay Edward." I whispered, "You don't need to apologize anymore for it, I'm over it."

"Well I'm not." he said grabbing my hands. "Today wasn't suppose to go this way. I about ruined everything."

"Ruined what?" I asked, he was confusing me now.

"This." he said dropping to his knee. No he can't be. My heart starting racing as he reached into his pants pocket and pulled out a little blue box.

"Bella." he started "I am not perfect and I screw up a lot. But you make me the happiest man alive. I promise to love you and cherish all of our lives. Will you please do me the honor of becoming my wife."

I could feel the tears running down my face. Are we to young for this, yes. Do I care, no. I dropped down on my knee's in front of him.

"Bella what are you doing. Stand up." he said looking at me confused.

"No" I said, his expression turning from confusion to hurt "I mean no I won't stand up, if we are going to do this, were going in as equals. Face to face. I love you Edward and I will marry you, everyday for the rest of my life if you want."

He grabbed my face and pressed his lips to mine, kissing me breathless. "I love you" he kept murmuring in-between kisses. We gradually ended up lying on the soft dewy grass. Moments or hours passed with both of us declaring our love over and over again. Finally he pulled away from me and said "Before I forget, this belongs to you." he grabbed up the blue box from the ground. Opening it up he presented me with a single solitaire round diamond ring. He slipped it on the ring finger of my left hand and then he kissed it. I never seen him look so glorious.

I could handle all the other dreams but this one about killed me. I could fell the ghost of hole he left ripping a little open. I could handle it if the dreams weren't so real. I could feel the breeze on my cheek and the warmth of the sun on my skin. The worst part was that I could smell him, even after I woke up his scent still lingered in my nose. His taste was still in my mouth. Shaking my head trying to rid it of the images left behind, I slipped out of bed and into the shower. The hot water slowing washed away the hurt and memories. By the time I was done I was feeling better. I looked at my clock on the way to the kitchen 9:14 am. Good I still had plenty of time before Riley showed up. Today was our second date and I was getting pretty excited. He is a really nice guy and we do have a lot in common. I was kind of regretting not letting Alice hook us up sooner.

I spent the next couple of hours getting ready. I put on the outfit Alice suggested and let my hair do it's natural wavy thing. I put on minimal makeup, a little eyeshadow and mascara. Topped off with a shiny lip gloss. I was all ready to go when Riley knocked on my door at exactly 11:30.

Opening the door, I realized once again how good looking he is. He was wearing a navy blue sweater, over top of a white button shirt. Jeans and rugged boots and a leather jacket to keep him warm.

"Hi." I said shyly

"Hey, are you all ready to go?" he said, not taking his eyes off of me.

"Yeah just let me grab my hat." I turned from him and grabbed my red loose knit beanie off of the table. I slipped it on my head. I followed him out into the hall and shut the door.

"You look beautiful, by the way." he said smiling down at me in the elevator.

"You look pretty nice yourself mister."

Once we were settled into his car we talked about our weeks. He told me about a case he just took on and I talked about a new book I was editing. The conversation was light and freeing by the time we reached the park I felt like I had known him for a long time.

"I figured we could explore the area, taking pictures as we go." he said helping me out of the car.

"Sounds like a plan."

We spent the next few hours chasing each other around on the beach, snapping pictures of whatever caught our eye. I think he had more pictures of me then anything else. Thankfully my feet were cooperating today. I only fell once and Riley caught me before I hit the ground. After a while Riley turned to me and asked if I was hungry.

"Sure." I said wiping sand off of my pants.

"Let's go then."

We made our way back to the car, where he pulled out a huge picnic basket and a flannel blanket.

We found a nice grassy spot and laid out our picnic. He pulled out all the stops on lunch. Three different kinds of sandwiches, grapes, cheese, a cold pasta salad, and a very nice wine.

"I wasn't sure what you liked. So I picked a little of everything." he said honestly.

"I all looks good to me." I popped a grape into my mouth.

"I've had a lot of fun today." he said after we ate our sandwiches.

"I have too, it's actually the most fun I have had in along time. I guess that's probably a little cheesy to say." I said blushing a little.

"It's not cheesy at all, I actually feel the same way." He said flashing me a charming grin. Which caused me to blush even more. After we were finished eating, we packed everything back up and loaded it into the car. Riley turned to me and said "I'm actually sad to see this date end."

"I know what you mean, it has been really nice." I said then something occurred to me. "It doesn't have to end yet."

"What do you mean?" he asked shutting the trunk of his car.

"Well, I guess I am wondering if you would like to have dinner at my place tonight, then we could watch a movie. That is if your not sick of me yet." I added on the end.

"I would love to, plus who could get sick of you." he said smiling at me.

"Great, do you like spaghetti?" I asked climbing into his car. I was trying to remember what I had to make at my apartment.

"Sure do." he replied

We made small all the way back to my apartment. When we arrived he helped me out of the car.

"I'm going to go back to my place to change and put everything away from lunch. I will back in about an hour and a half." he said once we were at my door.

"Alright, that will give me time to change and start dinner."

"Do you want me to bring a movie?" he asked leaning in a little closer to me.

"Sure." I said, enjoying his nearness.

"What do you want to watch?" he asked, glancing down at my lips. I involuntarily licked the. His eyes glazed over a bit.

"Surprise me." my voice coming out huskier then I intended.

And just like that he leaned in and kissed me. Much better then last time. I leaned in more deepening the kiss. I felt his tongue sweep across my bottom lip, seeking entrance. I complied. He tasted sweet like grapes and wine. Slowly he pulled away, feeling breathless I leaned back, bracing myself against the door.

"So....yeah, I would apologize for that but I'm not sorry." he said looking a little embarrassed.

"Well neither am I." I said sucking my bottom lip into my mouth and biting down on it.

"Okay, well I better go do those things. Um...yeah I will bring a movie." he said walking backwards down the hall, away from me.

"Okay see you soon." I squeaked out, opening my door and stumbling inside.

I barley had my door closed before my cell phone started ringing. I pulled it out of my bag and looked at the caller id. Alice.

"Hello Alice." I said into the phone.

"Why hello Bella." she chirped back. "Can I come over now and talk about your date?"

"No actually you can't." I said slipping my boots off.

"Why not." I could actually hear her pout through the phone.

"Because my date isn't over yet." I began

"Oh your still with him." she said

"No, he is coming back over to my place soon for dinner and a movie." I explained.

She then made a noise that I can't even explain. "Are you serious!!" came her excited voice after she calmed down.

"Yes I am, now I have to go. I need to change and start dinner." I said standing in my closet trying to decide which t-shirt to put on.

"Okay, call me when he leaves. I want to know everything." she gushed out

"I will, bye Alice." I said hanging up.

I decided on a long sleeve white shirt. I left on my skinny jeans and slipped on a pair of black flats.

I had dinner almost ready when I heard a knock on my door. I let Riley inside and almost laughed. He had changed into a long sleeve white shit also.

"So I guess two great minds think alike." he said when he noticed our matching attire.

"I guess so. Dinner is almost ready." I walked back into the kitchen.

"Can I help you with anything?" he said leaning against the door frame.

"You could set the table if you want to." I said showing him where everything is.

Once the table was set, I loaded to plates with food.

"This looks delicious." he commented after we sat down.

"Thank you." I said digging into my plate.

Riley ate his way through three plates of spaghetti, telling me repeatedly that he had never eaten anything so good before. I just blushed. After we were finished he helped me to do the dishes. Which resulted in a mini water fight. After we were both throughly soaked and laughing so hard that tears were running down our faces, Riley looked down and said "I guess I should have brought another shirt."

I couldn't help but notice how the wet shirt clung to his perfectly sculpted chest. "I...um...I probably have a shirt your could borrow." I said stammered out. I hadn't been this attracted to a guy since Edward. Not the time to think about his naked chest though. That could cause some problems.

"I would appreciate that." he laughed, grabbing some dish towels off the counter to mop up some of the water. I then noticed that my short also wasn't leaving much to the imagination.

"I'll go get that." I said sprinting out of the room. I could hear his laughter following me.

Once I changed into a soft gray long sleeve shirt. I pulled out my extra large Forks high school gym shirt for Riley.

I made my way back into the living room to find him.

"Here you go." I said handing him the shirt. "It's the only one I have that will probably fit you."

"It will work."

"I will throw your shirt in the dryer so you can wear it home." I told him, grabbing up all the wet items and depositing them into the dryer.

After he was changed and settled onto the couch I popped a bowl of popcorn and grabbed a couple of cokes.

"I left the movie sitting on the counter." he called from the couch.

"Okay." I said grabbing it up as I left the room.

As I was putting it into the dvd player, I realized what movie he brought with him.

"The Jerk." I said laughing, pushing play.

"It is one of the best movies ever." he defended.

"Oh I would have to agree with you there. I was just surprised that's all." I said settling in next to him on the couch.

"Well you did tell me to surprise you right?" he laughed, scooting a little closer to me.

"That I did." I laughed leaning into his side a little. I now realize how much I missed having someone to touch, to lean against during a movie. In a way I was angry with myself for waiting so long to move on. Obviously Edward had no problem finding someone else to replace me.

"What's your favorite scene." he said taking a sip of his soda.

"It would have to be the scene where he's at the gas station and that guy starts trying to shot him and he thinks it's because they hate the cans." I said laughing. "What's yours?"

"That one and the scene where he is ready her breakup letter in the bathtub. It doesn't matter how many times I watch it, I still laugh so hard at those scene's"

We watched the movie for a while in silence. About half way through I felt his hand slowly creep over and grab mine. It was nice and relaxing. I looked over at him and realized how right he looked among my things. He fit in here. Like he was meant to be apart of my life. Once the movie was finished. I stretched and yawned.

"Well I better be going." he said standing up.

"I had a lot of fun today."

"Me too." he said slipping his jacket on.

"Oh let me get your shirt for you." I turned towards the laundry room.

He grabbed my arm to stop me "It's alright I will get it next time."

"Next time then." I said walking him towards the door.

He leaned in and kissed me again, much like last time. His tongue probed my mouth, fighting mine for dominance. Before to long I was feeling breathless again and he was pulling away.

"I will call you tomorrow okay." he said opening the door.

"Okay." I decided to be brave and pushed myself up on my toes and pecked him on the lips. His face broke out into a pleased grin.

"Goodnight Bella."

"Goodnight Riley." I quietly closed my door, leaning against I let a big breathe of air. I think I am starting to really like this guy. Smiling to myself I went about picking everything up. I finished tidying up the kitchen and put away the now dry towels. I draped Riley's shirt across a car to give to him "next time". I knew that I needed to call Alice soon or there would be hell to pay in the form of an early morning visit. I decided to change into my pajamas before I called her though. I slipped into a pair of short shorts and tight white tank top. I pulled my hair up into a messy bun and went in search of my phone. Just as I found it, someone started knocking loudly on my front door. I knew I should of called Alice earlier, now I am not getting to bed until really late. I set my phone on the table by the door and called out "Hold your horses Alice I will be right there.

I yanked open the door ready for Alice to pounce. I wasn't ready for who was actually standing there.

"Edward." I gasped out.

I know I am an asshole for leaving it there. But who doesn't love a cliffhanger every once in a while. No one that's who. I am just mean. Okay I am going to go hide now!! I am sorry for the shorter chapter I wanted to get it out today!! Oh and enjoy New Moon tonight I know I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now go review, you know you want to!! Chapter five will be up in a few days!!!