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Last Chapter

"Edward." I gasped out.

"Bella" came his slightly shaky voice. I have never heard his voice sound like that before.

I took involuntary step closer to him. It was always like that. Him the magnet, me the metal. With him so close I could smell him. I breathed in, his smell hitting the back of my throat like a cold drink on a hot day. He smelt the same, woodsy and sunshine mixed together, but there was another scent there that I couldn't put my finger on. I saw him shift as he brought his hand up to my face. I felt his finger tips ghost over my cheek. Electricity sparked through out my whole body and then I heard it, my brain finally broke through the Edward induced haze and was screaming "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?? BACK AWAY WHILE YOU STILL CAN!!!" Snapping me back into reality. I abruptly jerked my face from his hand and took two large steps back from him. I am sure my expression turned cold, because his eyes became confused and hurt.

"What are you doing here Edward?" my voice came out strong and angry, not showing any of the emotional turmoil that I was feeling inside myself.

"I needed to see you." his voice no longer having that shaky quality to it making me wonder if I only imagined it.

"Well now you've seen me." I sneered, putting my hand on the door getting ready to shut it. "Now you can go."

He flung his hand out catching the door before it closed. "I also have things I need to say to you also. Don't you want you hear what I have to say?" His voice showing signs of impatience.

I ripped the door back open and hissed out "Well I have things I need to say to you also, I'm sure you don't mind if I go first." I took his blank stare as a go ahead.

"You are a douchebag, not a lowly douchebag but the president of the club. You are ball less and a liar. I hate you!! I hate you with every fiber of my being. If I could go back to the day you asked me to homecoming I would have ran away from you as fast as I could of. You were so right in your letter, I do deserve better. I deserve so much more then you ever gave me. I deserve someone who actually loves me." He visibly flinched at that. "You don't get the right to show up at my door four years later and think that I am going to give you the time of day. So no Edward I don't want to hear what you have to say. Save your sorry ass explanations for your new girl, because your old one doesn't give a shit."

During my enraged speech I had stepped closer to him again, our noses were millimeters apart. I breathed in through my nose, his scent once again filling my head. I then realized what the other smell was. Alcohol. Appalled I took a step away from him and snapped out "Your drunk."

"What!?! No I'm not." He stammered out.

"Save it Edward, I can smell it on you." I said with disgust evident in my voice. He couldn't even face me sober.

"Please Bella, give me a chance to explain things to you." He begged.

"I already told you that I don't want to hear your explanations."

"I know and I deserve everything you said, but I am begging you." he pleaded. I felt myself wavering. I don't want to give in though, Edward just always has this effect on me.

"Can you please just leave." came my defeated voice. I knew I couldn't fight him much longer, I needed help.

"I'm not leaving until you listen to me." His voice stronger now, he must have picked up on my weakening stance.

I knew then what I had to do. I reached over and grabbed my cell phone off of the side table. I pushed memory one and send. Bringing the phone to my ear. Edward stared at me in confusion, trying to figure out what I was doing. I heard the shrill ringing, then a sleepy male voice say "Bella are you okay?" I knew I was calling later then I usually do.

"Emmett I need you." I whispered into the phone. Edwards eyes went wide with shock.

"What is it Bella? Are you hurt?" came his slightly frantic voice through the phone.

"No, I'm not hurt. But Edward is at my door and he won't leave." I stated calmly, breaking eye contact with Edward, turning my eyes to my bare feet.

"MOTHER FUCKER." Emmett boomed out loud enough that I knew even Edward heard him. I could hear him moving frantically around his house. "I'm on my way. That mother fucker is dead." Then the phone went silent. Emmett had hung up. Edward has about ten minutes.

I looked up and realized that his eyes were no longer on me, they were focused on something behind me. I glanced back and realized that he was fixated on Riley's shirt hanging off of the chair. I turned back to him and about gasped as his eyes were no longer his normal green but pitch black. He had a look of total rage on his face.

"Who the fuck does that belong to?" his voice calmer then his face. But something was different about him, gone was the remorseful begging Edward from a minute ago and in his place was a man I didn't even recognize. His face was taunt, his jaw tight, and his eyes they were unlike anything I had ever seen. But I couldn't find it in myself to be scared of him or really care that he changed so fast.

"That's really none of your business, now is it?" I snapped, losing my patience with this entire situation.

"Damned if it isn't." he snapped turning his livid eyes on me.

"You really should go should go, unless you want your face to meet Emmett's fist."

Chuckling, he took a step closer to me, pressing his taunt body against mine. So many different nights flashed across my mind. He leaned his head down to my ear and breathed out "I will go, not because I am afraid of your brother. I'm going because I really don't want to have to fight him. But this conversation isn't over." Then he jerked away from me striding towards the door. "We will finish this another day Isabella."

"Edward." I called out as he passed over the threshold. He turned towards me, smirking like he just won the lottery.

"Your wrong." I stated gripping the door again.

"About." He asked.

"This is over, has been for about four years. Stay the fuck away from me." Then I slammed the door in his irate face.

I knew that I should stop and absorb everything that had just happened but I really didn't want to. I strode into the kitchen and yanked out the lone bottle of alcohol that I keep in my freezer. I unscrewed the cap off of the vodka and took a long hard chug of the bitter liquid. Shuddering I put the cap back on and slid it back in it's place by the frozen peas. Something was very wrong with Edward. It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out. The way he changed so quickly made my blood run cold. I stopped myself right there. I was being silly, he had obviously been drinking. His change was probably just the effect of alcohol. I knew for a fact that Edward didn't hold his liquor well.

Before I could go any further with that line of thought, there was a loud bang as my front door hit the wall.

"Bella, where are you?" came Emmett's frantic voice.

I walked out of the kitchen and about busted up laughing as I took Emmet in. He was standing in my foyer in a white wife beater, his plaid boxer shorts and cowboy boots. Then I realized that a disheveled looking Rosalie was standing behind him in nothing but a long white shirt and ballet flats. I couldn't stop myself, I started howling with laughter. I dropped to my knees and just laughed.

"I'm glad you find this so funny Isabella. Where is the fucker at?" Emmett boomed, obviously not seeing the hilarity in the situation like I was.

"He's gone." I said in-between chuckles. "If you could only see your selves."

"You let him leave!!!! I wanted to break his face." Emmett pouted, dropping himself onto my couch like a five year old who was told that Santa was no longer real.

"Did he hurt you." came Rosalie's shaky voice. She sounded scared. It was really unlike her. It instantly sobered my laughing stint.

"No he didn't hurt me. He showed up here demanding that I let him explain his self. I said no, proceeded to tell him off, and then showed him the door. He refused to leave until I listened to him, so I called Emmett." I left out the part of his character change. Didn't really want to get into that. "He high tailed it when he realized you guys were on your way. That's it" I finished.

"Well you did the right thing calling me." Emmett huffed from the couch.

"No the right thing would have been not to answer the door at all." Rose snapped out. Anger was her front when she was upset.

"Yeah well I figured it was Alice. I mean she called earlier wanting to come over tonight. I told her no but the usually doesn't stop her." I defended myself, its not like I knew Edward was going to show up here.

Emmett suddenly hopped up from the couch and looked at me with an angry expression on his face. Crap what did I do.

"Is that what you were wearing when he was here." his voice was clipped and angry.

I looked down and took in my tiny black shorts and tight low cut tank top. Not the most modest clothing I owned that's for sure. I could feel the blush starting to spread up my chest.

"Yeah well, I had just changed for bed when I heard the knocking. I didn't even think about it."

"Bells." Emmett groaned. Before he could go on another loud boom filled my apartment. Turning I found an angry looking Jacob standing in my now cramped foyer.

"Where is he? Did I miss the beat down?" came his breathless voice. Oh great another person who thought running up the stairs was smarter then taking the elevator. Jacob continued on without stopping "I got here as fast as I could. I had to get gas. Bella what are you wearing?" His eyes darkening as he took in my appearance. I just rolled my eyes, I was really not going to get into that again.

"What are you doing here Jake?" I asked, starting to get annoyed. Seriously I just wanted my brother to come and scare Edward away, not the whole damn calvary.

"Emmett called me when he was on his way here. He told me that the blood sucker was here and wouldn't leave. I jumped out of bed and got here as soon as possible. I wasn't going to miss getting my shot in." He said in a rush, flopping down on my empty couch. First tossing a large duffel bag, that I didn't realize that he was carrying, on the floor.

Kicking it I asked "What is this?"

"I figured I needed some clothes if I was going to be camping out here for a while." he said nonchalantly.

"Staying here? What do you mean by that?"

Before Jacob could explain himself Emmett jumped in. "Bells, Edward obviously knows where you live and we all don't like the idea of you being here alone just in case."

"Just in case what?" I demanded "Just in case he goes psycho and wants to talk me to death? Come you guys, I am not a little girl anymore and I don't need big strong men to protect me!!!"

"I have to agree with Bella." Rose jumped in "I mean he only wanted to talk, its not like he is any real danger to her. If she needs anything she will call."

"I'm not going to fight over your safety Bella. I know you're an adult and you think that you know Edward, but people change. He could have changed. I would personally feel better with Jake sleeping on your couch like a guard dog." Emmett said, completely ignoring Roses statement. I'm sure he would pay for that when they got home.

Jake looked up at me with a huge wolfish grin on his face. "Plus if you want me to leave your going to have to physically remove me." He chuckled throwing his feet up on the couch. I contemplated it for a second before realizing that my 105 pound frame was no match for his 220 pound one.

"Fine." I huffed out, throwing my hands up in exasperation. "It's your back." indicating that the couch would not be a comfortable place to sleep. "But I'm only agreeing to let this go on for a day or two tops! Then I will physically remove you, even if it means renting a appliance dolly and strapping your ass to it."

"Did anyone ever tell you that you look like an angry kitten when your mad? It's adorable." Jake said, grabbing the afghan from the back of the couch and spreading it over his long body.

I just gave him a glare and spun around on my heel heading for my bedroom. "I'm going to bed now. Goodnight Rose, I will call you in the morning." I called out over my shoulder, completely ignoring my brute of a brother.

"Come on Bells don't be that way. I only have your best interest at heart." Emmett called out as Rose dragged him out the door.

"Goodnight Bella, Night Jake." Rose chimed out as she shut the door behind them.

Jake turned on the television, flipping through the channels at an impressive speed. I ignored him as I grabbed a pillow and thick blanket from my linen closet. I walked over and promptly dropped them onto his upturned face. He mumbled something from under the fabric, I just turned around and walked into my bedroom, slamming the door behind me. I sank down on to my bed, I was throughly exhausted from the events today. Before to long I found myself in a restless sleep.

"Bella" a voice whispered into the darkness that surrounded me.

"Yes" came my unsteady voice. "Is someone out there?"

"I'm out here" came the voice again.

I tried to make out anything in the darkness but it was impossible. I couldn't even tell you what I was sitting on. I reached my hands out to feel around and felt nothing but the cool flat surface that was underneath me.

"Where am I?" I asked the voice.

"You are where you are." The voice said mysteriously. I was becoming agitated with this situation.

"That doesn't make any sense." I snapped at the voice.

"Do most dreams make sense?" answered the voice.

"So I am dreaming then?" I guess that explains it.

"I would assume so, do you usually spend your waking hours in a dark room?" The voice laughed out, sounding much to familiar. I knew I should know who it belonged to but I couldn't quite place it.

"No, not really." I mumbled back. At least I was having a made-up dream and not another memory about Edward. EDWARD that's who the voice belonged to. How did I not realize that right away? Must be a funky brain thing.

"Edward?" I whispered out.

"Yes" came his melodic voice.

"Why are you here?"

"Its your dream love, why don't you tell me." His voice sounded closer now, like I could reach out and touch him.

"I don't know. Maybe its because you showed up at my door today wanting to explain your disappearance." I said in the direction on his voice.

"Oh, what did I have to say for myself?" His voice and body now at my side.

"I don't know. I wouldn't let you tell me." I whispered out.

His arm wrapped around me, pulling me into him. I rested my head against his chest, I could hear the steady beat of his heart. I couldn't fight him in this place. I just wanted the peace that always came from being close to him.

"Why wouldn't you let me fix this?" His voice rumbled through his chest.

"Because you waited to long Edward, to much stuff has happened, I have angry for to long and I don't think I can be anything else now." I said lifting my head, hoping in vain that I could see his face in the darkness.

"You have to give me a chance Bella. Listen to what I have to say and then make that decision. You don't know the whole story. I know that I love you and whatever reason made me leave, it had nothing to do with my feelings for you. Something deeper is going on here and you need to find out what it is." He said as his hands came up and grasped my face. "Promise me that you will give me another chance."

"I can't promise you that Edward." I said, sadness creeping into my voice. "I just miss you so much."

Then his mouth came down onto mine. I sat motionless at first as his lips pushed and grazed against mine. His tongue slipped out and slid across my bottom lip. I was such a familiar move from him that I couldn't stop myself from giving in. I wrapped my arms around him and tangled my hands into his messy bronze hair. Tugging his impossibly closer, I granted him access to my mouth. His tongue slid in and gently caressed mine, slowly at first, then into a heated battle both of us fighting for dominance. I don't know how long we were like that, pushing and pulling, all of a sudden Edward stilled against me.

"What is it?" I whispered out, my voice husky from the make out session.

"It's almost time for me to go." He said remorsefully, pulling me tight against his chest.

"I'm going to miss you." I whispered.

"Then find me and talk to me Bella. I know we ca fix this." He said back vehemently.

"I don't think we can. I don't even know who he is anymore. Does that make sense?"

"What makes sense anymore?" came his wavering voice, I could feel him slowly fading away. "The only thing I know for certain is that I love you. Do you love me still Bella?"

I couldn't answer him, so I just clung to his fading form.

"Bye love, I'll be seeing you." His voice was so faint that I barely heard him. Then he was gone.

"Bye Edward." I whispered into the empty darkness.

I woke with a start, shooting straight up in bed. That dream was so real, I could feel him and taste him. God I have an overactive imagination sometimes. How does my brain come up with such things? Stretching, I could hear Jake sawing a log in the living room. At least he was still asleep. I really wasn't in the mood for small talk or big talk for that matter. I needed to get out of here and clear my head. I slipped out of my shorts and into a pair of worn out jeans. I threw on an oversized hoodie over top of my tank top. Grabbing a pair of socks I went into my personal bathroom to finish up the morning routine.

About ten minutes later, I had successfully slipped past sleeping Jake and out the door. Once I was out of my building, the cold early spring air hit me. I sucked it in. Letting it cool down my warm body. I walked aimlessly until I found myself at the park not far from my apartment. I slid past the iron gates and wandered down the nearest path. I really didn't pay attention to the beautiful park, I was to lost in thought.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't interested in what Edward had to say. I mean our relationship was far from perfect, but I always thought we both were happy. Edward was always so devoted to me. Once we were together he never even noticed all the women that threw themselves at him. He was attentive and loving. I just don't what went so wrong. I knew that he could answer that for me. But part of me was terrified that he really didn't have a reason. What if he just left? I would rather be left with my imagination then to actually hear him say that he just wanted to go. Plus why would he need to tell me anything when he was obviously with someone else. I don't honestly believe that he would want to be back with me after all these years. I foolish to believe that he wanted to be with me the first time.

Maybe he had guilt for leaving things the way they were. Maybe he wanted to marry Tanya and he wanted to make peace with his past first. The thought of him marrying someone else tore my gut open and I thought I was going to be sick. But that thought brought on more. Him touching her with his beautiful hands. Running his fingers down her back. His mouth on her. Them making love. I had to stop. I leaned down and grabbed my knees. My chest physically hurt. I spotted a bench not far from me and I made my way to it. I pulled myself onto it. I laid down in a fetal position hugging my knees to my chest. I really didn't care if someone saw me like this.

I wonder when he tells her that he loves her, does his mouth quirk up on one side. Does she instinctively know that he has entered a room without even lifting her eyes. Why do I care. It's not like I loved the bastard anymore. It has to be because last nights dream. That was my Edward, loving and always wanting to fix me. He made me weak for the real Edward and I couldn't afford to be weak now. I had to banish these feelings and strengthen my will power. I would hold my ground next time I see him and send him on his way once again without hearing his explanations.

Resolved I pulled myself from the bench and started walking again. I let my thoughts drift to last night and how quickly his demeanor change. It was so unlike Edward to get that angry. Part of me wondered if something was wrong with him but the other part told me that I was being silly. He had clearly been drinking. Maybe when he woke up this morning he would realize what an ass he was last night and steer clear of me from now on. One could hope. I started towards home. I knew Jake would be upset if I wasn't there when he woke up.

When I was about half to the park gate when I got a eery feeling you get when someone's following you. I quickly glanced behind me to see nothing but trees and bushes. Shaking my head I continued walking but I couldn't shake the feeling all the way home.

"Where the hell have you been Bells." Jake demanded as I walked in the door. He was awake and very angry.

"I went on a walk to clear my head." I defended myself.

"You should have woke me. I would have went with you!" He said.

"The whole point of the walk was to clear my head. I obviously couldn't have done that with you jabbering along behind me!" I was getting angry, I was so sick and tired of him and Emmett acting like I was a twelve year old little girl!!

"Well you could have at least told me you were going, I was worried when I woke and you weren't home!" His voice was getting louder with his anger.

Rolling my eyes, I said "Yes Dad, next time I will write you a note and call every ten minutes also. Gosh Jake stop being such a jerk!"

"Yeah well I may be a jerk but you suck." He huffed out and stomped off to the guest bathroom. Yep that was Jake, the epitome of maturity.

I made my way into the kitchen, knowing that he needed time to cool down. I decided some breakfast was in order. After I had bacon frying and pancakes in the warmer, I heard the bathroom door open and turned to see a sheepish Jake standing in the kitchen doorway. His hand was up rubbing the back of his neck and he was staring at the floor.

"So I suck huh?" I dead panned.

"Yeah I'm sorry about that." he mumbled. "I was just worked up because I was worried about you."

"You guys have nothing to be worried about, I promise." I said grabbing the plates and silverware. Jake grabbed them from me and went in the dining area.

"I know Bells, but your like a sister to me. I just don't want to see Edward hurt you again." he said coming back into the kitchen to grab the pancakes and syrup.

"Yeah well either do I. But you and Emmett both need to back off a little." I said once we were settled at the table.

"Fine! I will see what I can do."

"Thank you." I said digging into my breakfast.

Once breakfast was over and everything was cleaned up I settled onto the couch with Jake.

"So I think it's time you headed on home Jake. I'm sure Vanessa would like to see you." I said patting his knee.

"Maybe I should stay here one more night." He said curling his around mine.

"Remember the conversation we just had about you backing off a little. Well this would be one of those times you should do that." I reminded him.

"Your right. I'll go on one condition." He said squeezing my hand.

"What's that?" I asked wearily.

"If he so much as breathes in your direction, I want to know about it." He griped my hand tightly.

"I guess I will agree to that. But I have to say you and Emmett totally blow everything out of proportion. Edward is not some weirdo that is going to hurt me!! I lived alone with him for years and look at me I'm fine." I waved my free hand over my obviously intact body.

"Well I didn't really like the idea of you living with him then either." He huffed

"Not really the point Jake, I just mean step back from the situation. Don't you think you and Em are going a little overboard?"

"Yeah I guess." He finally admitted. Victory for me.

Twenty minutes later I was all alone in my apartment. Having ushered Jake out the door as soon as possible, I was excited to have the day to myself. That didn't last long though. Alice called and begged to come over and discuss everything, but I finally after much begging of my own, we made plans to have dinner tomorrow. After that I laid on the couch eating Ben and Jerry's chunky monkey and caught up on my tivo'ed episodes of The Ellen Degeneres show. All in all it was nice and lazy Sunday. Just as I was slipping into bed the phone rang. Groaning I was tempted not to answer it. Finally I decided I better. I was excited to see it was Riley.

"Hello." I chirped into the phone.

"Hey beautiful." his voice warm and inviting. "I kind of missed you today, so I decided what the heck and threw the dating rule book out the window and called you."

"How rebellious of you. I'm glad you did!"

"So I was wondering if you had any plans for Friday night?" I could almost hear his smile through the phone.

"Nope, not at all." I said

"Well I think dinner is in order. I mean I do need to get my shirt back." he laughed out.

"Then by all means, we better have dinner. I would hate for you to go shirtless." I joked.

"Well yes, most people don't trust a lawyer that walks around half naked." he quipped.

Then we both burst into laughter. After I finally calmed down enough to talk again I said "So Friday?"

"Yes Friday. Can I pick you up at 6:30?" he asked in all seriousness.

"Sounds like a plan to me."

"Great. I will see you then."

"Bye Riley." I said

"Bye Bella." I heard him say as I shut my phone.

I'm so sorry my lovelies for the wait!!!! You are all amazing!!! Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I'm sorry for any grammar mistakes, I'm still without a beta. If you or someone you know would like the job PM me!!! Until next time!!

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