Chapter 3-
Cody looked on as John continued to stare down at the floor. John had poured his heart out but it seemed to Cody like he as only just beginning. John had torn open his mind and let out some horrible memories of things that had happened to him. Cody had never even thought that John would have been bullied.
Cody had the perception that John had always been strong. Always been muscled. Always been a guy that people looked up to and never got on the wrong side of.
That was the thing. People's perceptions can be wrong. People's opinions can be just that. You can look at people and see one type of person when inside they could be several.
Cody had been given an awakening on how he shouldn't judge people on what they look like.
Cody sat down next to John and said "It's ok John we can stop talking about this if you want I can see it is getting to you."
John replied still with his voice a bit muffled from the small amount of crying "Its fine Cody. I have had that locked inside my mind for so long that I was beginning to think I would never let it out. I want to continue to try and get these demons, these thoughts these regrets out of my head."
Cody looked confused. He watched as John started to rub his eyes. Cody asked "What do you mean regrets? You're living out your dream in the WWE and you are married to your childhood sweetheart. I know your marriage is a bit rocky right know but what regrets could you possibly have?"
John quickly started to backtrack his words. "No I don't have any regrets. It was just a slip of the tongue Cody."
Cody shook his head as Johns eyes started to roll. John was hoping praying that Cody didn't go into it further.
Cody walked around the room a little and sat back down. He looked at John and said "I may be a lot of things but I'm not stupid. What regrets John? You said that you had these demons to get out so let them out now. Whatever you say will not leave this room. One because I respect you and your confidentially and two because you will kill me if it does."
John had a small smile across his face. He turned to Cody and sarcastically said "Since when do you give me advice?"
Cody laughed and replied "Since you got us locked in this depository…. Oh wait that was me."
John nodded his head and replied "I really don't want to go into it Cody."
Cody replied "Come on John."
John snapped "No Cody drop it."
Cody quickly shuffled away "Ok John I'm sorry."
There was twenty minutes of awkward silence. John sat on one side of the room. He had his fists clenched. Small amounts of sweat was on his knuckles and forehead. He wasn't angry about his regret it just brought feelings and emotions flooding back.
John had been in the WWE for 9 years. He had done everything there was to do professionally but his personal life was another matter. He could never get it right. He was with his childhood sweetheart. They were married but there was a distance between them.
Cody decided to break the silence "Guess this means I can't get Layla a present now."
John quietly replied "No I'm afraid not Cody."
Cody moaned "Oh damn it. She better not leave me."
John laughed and replied "She won't leave you for not buying her a present. It's not her birthday is it?"
Cody lowered his head "No."
"Well there you go then. I have never seen someone get so worked up over a present." Said John as he walked back over to sit next to Cody.
"Well I really like her John. It's not something that happens to me very much." Said Cody looking in his own world.
John hugged Cody's shoulder and replied "She won't leave you and if she does then I will go and see her."
Cody sarcastically replied "Oh great she would have split up with me and then the first male she sees is you. I wouldn't stand a chance."
John laughed but then went serious and answered "Well if she does leave you and you really like her or even more than like then fight for her. You don't want to be referring to Layla as the one that got away. You don't want to let her walk out of the door never to return and you don't want to spend the rest of you life thinking what could have been."
Cody looked bemused. John spoke like he knew exactly what Cody was thinking. Exactly what Cody felt.
Cody asked "Did your wife walk out then and you fought to win her back is that how you know?"
John knew he had to talk now. He wanted to keep this last regret. This last demon locked away but it at the front of his mind now. If he didn't tell Cody he would go crazy.
John answered "No Cody. I was talking about someone different. Someone I let go. Someone I let walk out of my life without even fighting.
"Who are you talking about?" Asked Cody
John sat up straight against the wall. "Time for another story Cody."
Cody replied "Ok Granddad."
John lightly punched Cody on the arm before he started to talk.
"When I first came to the WWE I was in awe. The people that were walking around the legends, Future hall of famers, superstars I grew up watching and idolising. Every time I got to work I would try and bust a gut to talk to people. Every time I approached someone they would tell me to go away or make an excuse to walk away themselves. This went on for months. The only friend I had was Randy."
Cody could see that it hurt John that nobody gave him the time of day.
John carried on "But then one day that changed. I remember it to every last detail."
"I got to work the same time I always did. The show started at seven I was always there between two and four. I went to the locker room to put all my things in there. I headed to get some coffee."
"I was there by the coffee machine and Bob Holly came over."
"Hey Bob how's it going?"
"Don't talk to me rookie. I've got no time for wasters like you."
I thought to myself "That's a great start to the day."
"I continued to walk around the backstage area and stretching keeping the blood flowing ready for the show. A saw big show stood by the lunch tray."
"Hello Paul. I was wondering if I could ask some advice."
"Here's some advice leave me alone."
"There was no way I was going to push my luck with that guy. I was getting really fed up with people giving me the cold shoulder. I wanted to find a hole somewhere and just crawl away. I loved being in the ring and the sound of the crowd but once I went back through the curtain I hated it."
"I made another coffee and sat on a flight of steps just counting down the minutes until I had my match. I watched as superstars laughed and joked around. The divas were there doing there make up."
"I looked on as a group of divas kept looking at me pointing and laughing. I just lowered my head thinking "What's the point?"
"As I looked up one of the divas were walking over to me. I lowered my head again thinking this was just going to be another humiliation."
"Hello there im Torrie Wilson."
I wasn't in the mood to be mocked and made a fool of.
"What's the deal did you draw straws to see who had to come over here and humiliate me."
"No not at all. I actually think it is horrible how people are treating you just because you are new around here."
"I was shocked. I didn't know if she was genuine or not but I wasn't going to stay sceptical."
"Sorry. I'm John Cena."
"Pleased to meet you. Do you fancy getting a coffee? We have a while before the show starts."
"Sure sounds good."
"We went and got our coffees and sat in the canteen. I couldn't believe that this girl was giving me the time of day. She was funny, caring, friendly, and smart and to throw in my thought at the time she was the sexiest women I had ever seen."
Cody butted in "Hold on Torrie Wilson. That's the playboy cover girl. Go 2002 Cena."
John snapped "No Cody it was nothing like that. Just shut up and let me talk."
"So how long have you been here then John?" Asked Torrie
"About four months now." Replied John
"How are you finding it?" Enquired Torrie
"I love being in the ring. Doesn't matter who it is against." Replied John with a smile on his face
"Yeah there is nothing like a WWE crowd. They give you that adrenalin that you need regardless of the result." Replied Torrie
"Yeah that's exactly it. Not very popular back here though." Answered John as he lowered his head.
"Im guessing some of the 'veterans' are giving you a hard time?" Asked Torrie
"Yeah the are. I respect every last one of them but I would have thought they would understand. They must have been in the same position as me." Replied John
"I know how you feel John. When I first went to WCW I didn't know anyone. If it wasn't for Peter I don't think I would have lasted very long."
"Who is Peter?" Asked John
"Oh Peter is my husband." Answered Torrie with a smile on her face
"Well I would like to meet Peter. He is a very lucky guy." Said John as he smiled knowing he had finally found a friend in the WWE to talk to.
"Aww thank you that's very sweet." Replied Torrie as the sparkle in her eyes made John smile again
John looked around as some of the other superstars glared a hole right through him.
"Well at least I will have one friend here. Thank you Torrie."
"Give it time Hun. You just have to get to know some people. We will finish our coffees and I will introduce you to Rey, Eddie, Chavo and Peter."
"Thank you Torrie. Just one question. What made you come talk to me?"
Torrie fluttered her eyes and replied "Just something about you that's all."
"We were really good friends for years after that. Once I was friends with Torrie I started forming more friendships. The whole time that I was on Smackdown we would hang out. Go to movies, out to dinner we even went clubbing once."
I helped her through her divorce. She was heartbroken and she needed a friend. I was a shoulder to cry on. The thing is with every day and every minute I spent with her I started to fall for her."
Cody quickly steadied himself as he almost fell of the chair. "You were in love with Torrie Wilson."
"Yes Cody I was. We were friends for years. We even were dating for a little bit but it was never going to last because we were such good friends." John spoke
Cody replied "Well were you really in love with Torrie. I mean come on every guy in the world has been in love with a playboy cover girl if you know what I mean. How exactly did you feel about Torrie?"
John glared at Cody. John knew exactly how he felt about her but was it something he wanted to re surface.
"Do I really have to do this Cody?" Asked John
Cody quickly replied "Yes."
John sighed and started to talk….
"When I looked into Torries eyes they looked like stars. They mesmerised me and had me thinking about her all day. I could just pass her and say hello and that was it I would think about her for the whole day. Her golden hair looked like angels themselves had come down from heaven putting a little bit of sunlight in there for all to see. She had a smile that was infectious."
"I could have been having the crapiest, most miserable day and one smile from Torrie made everything better. Her body was carved to perfection. When God created the heavens and Earth I am sure that Torrie was his template."
"Every time I saw her fireworks set off in the pit of my stomach. She sent electricity along my veins and nerves. She was like a drug if he saw her once I wanted to see her again. If I was with her wanted to be with her for longer. If I had to leave then I would get annoyed. If she had to leave then I would get upset. Every emotion I had for so many years centred on that woman."
"She had me in love with her. She had me hating anyone who did her any harm no matter how minimal. She could make me happy. She could make me sad. I would get jealous, I would get protective. I would go nuts just thinking about her thinking of her from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep."
"There Cody I told you how I felt about her."
Cody watched as John tried to get his breath back. Cody muttered "Ok so you were head over heals in love with her."
Cody asked "Why didn't you ever tell her?"
John replied "Because there was always some kind of drama. She had so much going on her life. So many things that was more important than me. We were such good friends if I told her all of that then I could have lost her completely. I decided that I would rather have her as a friend than not at all."
Cody good see how much it had affected John. "That is your one regret isn't it? You never told her how you felt."
John answered "I always dropped little hints but I always used her first reaction as a clue. If her reaction wasn't good I quickly turned it into a joke and diverted her attention to something else. I had one opportunity that would have been perfect. It was the day she left the WWE"
"Thank you all so much. That was a wonderful leaving party. I'm going to miss you all. God bless you all." Torrie shouted as she got into the car ready to go back to Houston Texas.
They started to drive the car to the airport.
"That was an amazing party. I am really going to miss everyone." Said Torrie still wiping tears from her eyes.
"Everyone is going to miss you too Tor. You're like a ray of sunshine around that locker room." Replied Lillian hugging Torries shoulder.
"I am a bit upset about one thing though." Said Torrie as her mood lowered a bit
"Oh yeah what's that?" Asked Lillian
"Where was John? He was one of the most important people I wanted there." Replied Torrie as her voice went a little quiet
"He is the top guy now Tor. He probably had some interview or TV appearance to be at." Answered Lillian trying to keep Torries spirits up.
"I know but he is one of my closest friends and I haven't even been able to contact him today. Have had no texts, calls anything. It is like he isn't even bothered that I am leaving." Replied Torrie in a sharp voice
"Of course he would be bothered you're leaving. Maybe he didn't want to be around those tearful goodbyes. You know what big muscular men like that are like any kind of emotion they run a mile. I'm sure you will hear from him before the day is out." Answered Lillian in her soft caring voice.
"Yeah im sure your right." Said Torrie
They arrived at the airport.
"Oh my god I complete you're leaving Tor. What am I going to do without you?" Said Lillian as she and Torrie both started to cry.
"Don't be stupid. You will be fine. Remember you are always welcome to come see me. Are you sure you can't stay and wait with me?"
"Sorry Tor got to get back. Got to get on the road tomorrow."
The two of them hugged as tears ran down there face. Torrie waved as Lillian got back in her car and drove away. Torrie wiped the tears from her eyes and went to check in. She sat down in the café and waited to hear her flight be called.
Torrie just sat there stirring her coffee thinking of her six years in the WWE. All of a sudden she dropped the spoon to the ground.
"JOHN" she shouted
She ran over and hugged John tightly.
"John what are you doing here?"
"You didn't think I was going to let you go without saying goodbye."
"Why weren't you at the party? I missed you tonight."
"I couldn't face it. Everybody would be talking to you and wishing you well. I wanted to say goodbye on your own."
"Aww John that's so sweet. I have an hour until my flight do you want to get a coffee."
"No its ok Tor but could we go outside want to talk to you somewhere privately."
"Sure ok."
The two of them walked outside and stood by a small garden that was near the airport.
Torrie watched as John checked nobody was around.
"You really don't want to show anyone else your sensitive side do you." Laughed Torrie.
John took hold of both Torries hands.
"I have so many things I want to say to you and only a small amount of time to say it."
Torrie looked into Johns eyes. She sensed heartbreak and hurt but thought it was just because of the goodbye.
"You are the most kind, caring, sensitive, wonderful women I have ever met. You have brought light and happiness to so many people me included."
Torrie held tightly to Johns hands. She had more tears running down her cheeks. She replied "John you're the best male friend I have ever had. You have helped me through so many dark times in the last few years. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for you."
John put his fists against his eyes trying to stop any tears from coming out. As the two of them stayed with there eyes fixed on one another's, dark clouds started to form overhead.
John continued to talk "Torrie you are a beautiful women, with an even more beautiful heart, you are strong, determined and a fighter. With everything you have been through and you are still standing. You are stronger than most in the world including me."
Torrie wasn't afraid to show her emotions. Tears were running down her face. Her mascara had run down to her cheeks. Torrie looked into Johns eyes as two single drops of tear fell from John's eyes.
"John you have no idea how much I am going to miss you. You have no idea how much it is going to affect me not being able to see you everyday. It's going to be like a piece of me is missing….."
Torrie stopped talking as John let go of her hands and hugged her tightly.
"Im going to miss you so much Torrie."
John was crying properly now tears were falling down his face. Torries mascara had run onto the shoulders of Johns white shirt.
"Let's not talk John. Let's just say nothing."
The two of them held onto each other tightly. The minutes passed by as rain began to fall down. They didn't say a word they didn't move a muscle.
Torrie just kept her arms wrapped around John's waist. She rested her head on John's chest. She listened to his heart beating in tune with the rain. Rain flowed through her and down her back. She didn't care. She wanted to savour these last few moments with John.
Johns white shirt was soaked. The shoulders were black from Torries mascara. His tears mixed with the rain and fell into Torries hair. He leaned his head next to Torries. He started to smell her hair. Even with all the rain the scent of apple blossom still lingered in her hair. His arms clung on to her waist. He never wanted this moment to end.
John started thinking in his head "Just tell her. You have to tell her." Then he was startled as Torrie moved her head and looked up to his eyes.
"Im Sorry John I have to get my flight."
"Ok Torrie."
Torrie lifted her head and softly pressed her damp lips to Johns. She softly kissed him and moved away. She slowly took her hands away from his waist and stroked his hands.
She moved away and whispered "Goodbye John"
John watched as Torrie walked back towards the airport.
All of a sudden he shouted "Torrie I need to say something."
Torrie turned around. John could see her bright blue eyes glisten from the street lamp. His stomach whirled with butterflies.
He took a deep breath before those three words came from his lips.
He continued to hesitate before he said "Safe Journey Torrie"
"Goodbye John"
John watched as Torrie walked back into the airport.
He fell to his knees and leaned his head into the muddy grass below.
He began to sob "Why couldn't I say it? Why couldn't I say it?"
He stood up and punched a tree shouting "WHY COULDN'T I SAY IT?"
Cody saw tears falling down Johns face. John started to mutter "Why couldn't I say it Cody? Why Couldn't I say it?"
Cody went over and pulled John onto his shoulder.
Cody replied "Because you loved her enough to let her go John. Torrie needed to leave that night and you loved her so much that you let her go."
The two of them stayed in silence. John cried for a little longer on Cody's shoulder. Cody just let John lean.
A few hours later.
"Have you two been in here all night?" Said a security guard
John and Cody quickly stood up. John replied "Yes officer we locked ourselves in last night."
The security guards "Ok guys lets go get you a coffee."
Cody replied "Cheers officer."
Cody began to follow the security guard. He looked back and John was stood there.
"What you waiting for John? Don't forget you still have to help me find something for Layla." Said Cody in a very confident voice.
"I won't forget Cody. Just need to pick something up from my box." Answered John
Cody carried on walking and shouted back "Ok then well hurry up. I want to miss the morning rush."
John walked back into the depository. He put a chair by the door so it wouldn't shut again. He walked over to his box and unlocked. Inside underneath some other things was a piece of paper. He took out the piece of paper and locked his box away.
He left the depository and walked to a pay phone and dialled some numbers.
"Hello"
"Hey Tor its John"
End of Story
Sorry that took so long to update. Hope people still liked it.
Thank you all for the lovely reviews I enjoy getting them and they help me to become a better writer.
If you haven't already check out my other ongoing story Soldier of the Kingdom. It is my favourite story I have written.
Also thank you to Cenationxprincess. I have been writing exactly a year now and there is no way I would have even thought about writing if it wasn't for her.
Thank you Lady your one in a million and even though I have been writing a year still want you as my fan fiction pro and manager Lol.
That CM Punk segment on Raw was absolutely awesome. It is the best segment I have seen for a long time and CM Punk is going to be sorely missed. He is a great wrestler good on the mic and one of the top guys in the WWE just never given much of a chance.
Thank you all again
Matt