Summary: Sequel to 3 years later. After 4 years of marriage, Bella and Edward still love each other as ever. Life was perfect; that is, before disaster strikes. Now, they have to cope with the everyday problems arousing with their marriage, including Edward's Job, Bella's insecurities and possibly an infant. "Every marriage goes through this, right?"

Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns everything

Chapter 7: Confusion

BPOV

I looked at the blank computer screen and willed my fingers to move. My mind was at a blank. Where was my muse? It's been one of those weeks where everything sucked. I usually would call Chris but he's a million miles away, he can't come to the rescue anymore.

I find it so hard to concentrate. Edward hasn't come home all week; a new record. Somehow along the way, I've stopped bothering to care. The only time we met this week was when he asked me to bring some stuff over to the hospital.

I forgot what I've been doing this pass couple of days; I'm just going through the motion. I'm so caught up I forget to go grocery shopping, I go back to the shower after I've just gotten out, I call Alice and immediately forget what I want to talk about as soon as she picks up the phone.

Now, I'm confused. I look at the letter on my desk, the words on it looks like it's all jumbled together. I remember the conversation Edward and I had about me getting a job. I remember calling my old boss in San Francisco for a job, but now all I can think of is how stupid this all is.

I re-read the letter. After a few moments I finally gave up. It was impossible. I shut down the computer and went to run a bath.

Who was I kidding? I'm not the same 'care-free, stay out of the house 'till dawn' girl anymore, I can't write the same articles I did back then.

When I got out of the bath, I saw a miracle. At least I think I'm seeing a miracle, Edward was there, on the bed, with Mozzarella lying next to him.

"Sweetheart, you look like you're seeing a ghost" Edward said smiling at me from the bed

"If I blink, will you disappear?" I asked uncertainly, surely this boy lying on my bed looking like a God could not be my work-a-holic, see you when I can husband, could it?

"Aren't you going to kiss me? We haven't seen each other all week" He said

"What's new about that? Why are you here? You're just gonna get called back soon by the oh-so-great-Dr. whatever-his-name-is, right? Are you here because you want to make me cry? To give me that 1 little hope that I can still see my husband even for just a few hours, that he's not too busy for me? Is that what this is?"

"What are you talking about?" Edward asked

"Edward, I can't sleep because whenever I hear a little sound, I think it's you, I think about you all the time that I can't remember whether I've used shampoo or not, I can't keep up in a conversation with Alice because I'm hoping, no, willing for the phone to ring and it's you! I'm going crazy!"

"We've had this conversation, remember?" He said as he runs his hand through his hair

"I know! Being a doctor is so important to you. I get it. I just, I think we need some time apart. I need to get used to the fact that you won't be around. I need to start to do things on my own. I need you temporarily out of my life"

Edward looked at me silently. I wish he would say that he'll stay home more often, I wish he would convince me that he can't live without hearing my voice whenever he can steal time away, but instead he said "Fine" as he kissed my forehead "Call me when you've made a decision" He said as he walked out

"YOU DID WHAT?" Alice yelled at me when she came over to the house that afternoon "HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT TO HIM?"

"Stop yelling, I'm tired" I said as I picked up a muffin

"No!" She said as she stole my muffin "You don't get a muffin, instead I'm taking all your sweets, and you need to be punished" She said as she took away the plate full of muffins

"I baked those" I said

"Well I'm taking them! How could you say that to Edward?"

"Because I'm tired! I'm tired of waiting, of wondering whether or not he's coming home! I'm tired Alice, and I give up. I want him to want ME! I want him to choose ME! But he didn't" I said. Just then I suddenly got light headed and fell down

"Are you okay?" Alice said quickly getting me to the couch

"Yeah, it's been happening lately since I'm stressed out"

"Maybe you should get that checked out" She said

"No, I'll check it in two days, I'm up to meet my gynecology anyway." I said to her

"Ooh, me too! I'll accompany you"

" I thought you went to the gynecology 2 weeks ago" I said to her

"Yeah, but Jasper and I are trying to have a baby" She said with a smile

"Well, there's nothing wrong with you, you're pregnant. Congratulations" The doctor said

"WHAT?"

"I take it, it was unexpected?" The doctor asked

"Unexpected? This wasn't even thought of" I said with horror "How can this be?" Then I remembered, the weekend Chris came to stay.

"You're pregnant?" Alice asked before she stormed out of the room

"Alice! Wait!" I said as I tried to pull my clothes on. I tried looking for Alice all over the hospital, but I couldn't find her. How could I be pregnant? I don't want to be pregnant. Alice is supposed to be pregnant.

What am I supposed to do? I'm at a point where my husband is never home, my best friend is furious at me and I am craving brownies right now. Oh what do I do?

I dialed the phone and to my relief, it was answered by the third ring

"Hello?"

"Mom? I need to talk to you"

"What's wrong mi hija? I'm taking Spanish lessons. Phil is taking me to Spain for our second honeymoon"

"Well, that's amazing. Listen mom, what did you feel when you got pregnant with me?"

"Why are you asking all of a sudden? Are you pregnant? Am I finally going to become a grandmother? My I feel old" She rambled

"What? Mom, can you please focus? Yes, I'm pregnant but I don't know if I'm going to keep it"

"WHAT? Isabella Marie Swan-Cullen you take those words back right now! How can you even say that? A baby is a gift! Okay, that totally didn't sound like me, but honey, are you sure? I mean, I've always been pro choice, you know that, but I mean I always also thought that if it's not pushing or dangerous you have to take responsibility for your actions"

"I know mom! It's just a lot of things have been happening and I'm confused. I just, mommy I'm scared" I was scared, being in the verge of tears. I spotted my car and quickly jumped in as rain started to pour

"Isabella," I hated when my mom called me Isabella, I feel like a five year old being told off because I ate cookies right before dinner "I'm not going to force you to have this baby, I will support you no matter what. All I'm saying is that don't rush into this. I've been there, before I had you, your father and I we lost a baby, we didn't know why, but it was painful and I just want you to think this through"

"You lost a baby? Why didn't you ever tell me?"

"What was the point? We were happy, I cried for a really long time. When I was pregnant with you, I followed strict, healthy diets, I didn't move much, I gained 40 pounds! Bella, have you talked to Edward about this?"

Edward. Right, the father of my child, the one I have not seen in a long time, the one I'm not sure I want to see. "No, mom, I just found out. I'm in front of the hospital; I'm going to talk to him right now. Love you mom, I'll call you later"

The run from the car to the hospital felt like an eternity, by the time I was in I was soaked.

"Excuse me, have you seen Edward Cullen?" I asked a nurse

"Oh, Dr. Cullen, he should be on his break, why don't you try the cafeteria" She said with a friendly smile. After saying thank you to the nurse, I walked calmly to the cafeteria, my heart was racing, I was really nervous.

"Bella!" Carlisle called me as soon as I got into the cafeteria "Looking for Edward?"

"Yeah, have you seen him?"

"You just missed him, go out and turn left, he went that way. By the way, Esme wants you over for dinner tonight. We'll see you at 7, okay? Are you soaked?"

"I'm fine, I'm going to find Edward. Make dinner for two" I mumbled the last part

"What was that?" Carlisle called after me. I was already out like a lightning bolt. I had to find Edward. In a little while, I saw him. He was with that Doctor whose name I cannot for the life of me remember.

I saw the doctor mutter something then Edward turned towards me, he looked exhausted.

"Hey" He said as he kissed me on the cheek

"We need to talk, it's about…"

"Sorry, but Edward is about to meet with a patient, we should be leaving" Dr. Oh-so-important said. This guy is really trying my patience.

"No, now! Right now!" I said to him.

"Bella what's up?" He said as he led me into a storage room

"I'm pregnant" I said as soon he closed the door

"What? That's great! Oh my God! I'm going to be a dad!" He said as he came to hug me

"Wait, I said I was pregnant, I didn't say I was keeping it," He smile immediately turned into a frown "Even if I was, I don't know if I even want you there" I said with tears running down my face. I never knew how much he had hurt me, until this point.

"Bella, what are you talking about? I mean, are you saying you want to get rid of our baby? This is ridiculous! Do you know how stupid you sound right now?" He yelled

"I'm sorry Edward. I can't do this, not with you" I said as I walked out. When I got out, I saw Dr. Annoying "There, are you happy? You have him all to yourself" I told him as I walked away.

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