Her is chapter one... I just wrote it pretty quickly so if there is any mistake, please tell me...

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Chapter One

I woke up to my bedroom door being jerked open suddenly. I sat up on my bed and looked towards the door, seeing none other than my master with Tim on his head. Realising that my face was covered by tears, I quickly wiped them away with the back of my hand.

"Oi, idiot apprentice," I heard him say in his authoritarian voice, "You're coming with me for training, either you like it or not. We'll leave the Order after breakfast. Tell anyone and you are dead." I blinked up at him. Leaving the Order? Maybe that could help me move forward and help Lavi? I nodded hesitantly. "Pack all your belongings. I don't know when we'll be back." With that, he turned his back towards me and left the room. Timcanpy came flying towards me and rested itself on my head.

I was not really in the mood to eat but I forced myself to. I had not seen either Lenalee or Lavi since the previous day. Lavi had gone on a mission with Bookman so he was not there and Lenalee was surely helping her brother with his work. I had already packed my belongings and my suitcase was waiting for me in my room. I merely had the time to finish eating when my master contacted me through Tim, asking (more like ordering) me to go to Komui's office where he would be.

I walked through the hallway of the Order with Timcanpy flying around me, being greeted by fellow exorcists or Finders. I only nodded in response, not feeling like having a conversation. I felt like a living dead walking here and there. How could one single person do this to me? I did not feel like crying as I had cried all I could the previous night. Anyway, I could not cry all my life, right? It was clear that Lavi did not love me even a bit. So why would I cry over someone who would not cry over me? What hurt me the most was that he had betrayed my trust. I trusted him with my life but he had taken it for granted. He had betrayed me with Lenalee of all people. I liked Lenalee; she was like a sister to me. So it hurt me knowing this. Though I could not bring myself to hate any of them; I loved the both of them too much.

I entered the mad scientist's office. I walked towards where Komui's desk was supposed to be but I was stopped by someone calling my name. I turned to my left and saw Reever-san smiling at me with a pile of papers in his hands.

"Yo, Allen!" he greeted, "Can you do something for me, please?" I nodded lifelessly, though he did not notice, "Can you give those papers to Johny? He's there," giving me the papers, he pointed to my right. I looked there and in fact, Johny was there with other members of the science department. I left Reever-san and walked towards them.

"Ah, Allen," Johny said, noticing me, "Is that from Reever-san?" I nodded, not saying a word, "Thanks!" He took the pile of papers from my hands and returned to work. I was about to leave and go to Komui but I was stopped, again.

"Allen-kun!" Lenalee said, seeing me. I winced inwardly. I really did not want to talk to her. She had taken my love away from me... "Can we talk a moment, please?" she asked, putting the tray of coffee she was carrying in her hands on a nearby table. I REALLY did not want to talk to her but I also did not want to become suspicious of my behaviour. So I nodded, though hesitant as it was. She walked a bit away from everyone so that no one could hear us, while I followed her. "Say, Allen-kun," she started uncomfortably, "Can you keep what you have seen yesterday a secret?" I blinked at her. So she really did not know that Lavi was supposedly going out with me before the incident...?

"Sure, Lenalee," I replied with a smile. It was fake but I had to try my best. And anyway, even thinking about the previous night hurt me a lot, so why would I want to go around and tell people about it? If I was revengeful I might have done it, but I was not.

"Really? Oh, thank you so much, Allen-kun," she said happily, "you see, our relationship was a secret. We don't want either Bookman or Komui nii-san to know about it, or else we'll be dead." She giggled. It pained me to hear all of this but I was glad to see her happy. "I always knew that you would never tell anyone. It's not like you to do this. You're the sweetest boy ever!" On normal basis I would have blushed from the compliment but this time I simply nodded, said my goodbye and went to Komui's desk where my master was waiting for me.

"Oi, idiot apprentice. What took you so long?" master asked in an annoyed voiced. I simply apologised, though as weak as it was, and sat on the couch beside him, as far away from him as possible, facing Komui.

"So, you rely are leaving?" Komui-san asked. His usual childish behaviour was gone, letting his seriousness take place.

"How many times do I have to tell you, Komui?" Cross asked, annoyed.

"But!" should have known he could not stay serious long. "Everyone will hate me if I let Allen-kun go. We all love him a lot here." He pouted. Then his seriousness came back again, "The Millenium Earl is still after exorcists. You need at least some guards."

"Do I seem to you like someone who needs guards?" I looked to the side and saw shishou's eyebrow twitching. "Well goodbye, Komui." With that, he got up and said, this time addressing me, "We're leaving now, idiot your belongings to the boat." And he left. I bowed before Komui and took my leave too.

It was a month now since I had left the Order and since the incident. I still had not been able to get over Lavi. But at least, I did not have to see him every day. Shishou and I had gone to Russia. He gave me such a shock when he really started training me. He trained me during the morning until lunch and then he would go to a pub and drink alcohol and flirt with all the women he could find. We stayed at an inn and during the time he would leave me alone, I would either do the chores or I would help the innkeeper. He was a nice man and I got along with him very well. Being with him reminded me of Jerry-san from the Order. He was also the inn's cook and his cooking was as good as Jerry-san's. I had gotten better at poker as none of my master's debts remained unpaid.

Even with Lavi still on my mind, I would try my best to smile. Clovis-san, the innkeeper, had listened to all my worries. It was good to talk to him and now he knew everything that had happened. When I got depressed, he would do his best to cheer me up. I had gotten other friends. They were all town folks who would come at night to the inn to play poker. I sometimes played with them just for the fun of it.

Two more months passed by quickly. It was becoming less and less difficult for me to smile. Shishou had long seen through my mask, though he never said anything about it. Sometimes, I wondered if he knew everything... I started feeling different about him. I had always admired him, though I had never said it out loud, but this feeling was different and I did not know what it was... then one day, the unexpected happened and I discovered what that feeling had been all this time.

I was doing some shopping for Clovis-san. Just when I was about to return to the inn, someone grabbed me and dragged me in a dark alley. There in front of me stood a man. I had often seen him at the inn and each time he was there, he would observe my every movement. It always freaked me out but as Clovis-san was always with me, I felt assured. But this time I was alone and this man was looking at me with such predatory eyes that it was scarier than looking at the soul of an akuma.

"Hey, cutie," he said in a slurred voice. Was he drunk? My question was answered when he pushed me against a wall and put his face only inches away from mine. That man smelled highly of alcohol. I was used to this smell, coming normally from shishou when he would return to the inn at night. But smelling this from that man made me uneasy an unable to do anything. He pulled his face closer to mine. I closed my eyes tightly, being scared to my bones.

"Oi, what do you think you're doing?" I heard an oh-so familiar voice saying. I opened my eyes hesitantly and saw that the man was looking towards the alley's entrance. I turned my head ther too and saw my master. Tim was flying around him and shishou was smoking a cigarette like usual.

"What do you want?" the man asked, getting away from me and walking towards my master, "Can't you see that I'm busy?" He started running towards my master, his punch ready to give a blow to my master. Shishou dodged the punch and side-kicked the man, making him collide with a nearby wall.

"Tsk, idiot apprentice. Can't you be more careful?" He seemed clearly annoyed. But I wondered why he had actually helped me...? "What do you think you're doing, idiot? Don't stay there like the idiot you are. Move!" I blinked at him but quickly composed myself, took the shopping bags and hurried towards shishou. But just when I was passing by the man, he grabbed me by the wrist and pushed me violently against the wall behind him. My head collided violently against the wall, amking me almost lose consciousness. "Tsk, idiot." I heard my master's annoyed voice. I closed my eyes tightly as I was starting to see stars because of the collision.

Suddenly, I felt the hand which was holding my wrist forcefully free it and I felt another hand, a gloved one, pulling me away from the wall I was being held against. I opened my eyes and saw that it was now shishou holding my wrist. He got 'Judgement' out of his coat, while letting go of my wrist and instead putting his hand around my waist. He pulled me so close to him that there was no more space between us, making a deep blush creep itself on my face.

"You come near my idiot apprentice again and you are a dead man," my master threatened the man, pointing 'Judgement' towards the man who was on the ground. The way he had said 'my' seemed... possessive. But I quickly let that thought out of my mind as it was shishou I was talking about. So it was near completely impossible for him to be possessive of me. The ma quickly got up and ran away from us, clearly terrified by my master. Who would not be? Master 'tsk'ed and let go of me. He took the shopping bags from the ground and walked towards the inn. I looked at his back in dear disbelief. Disbelief because first of all; my master was not one to help anyone and least of all me, and second; I had discovered what that feeling I had towards my maser was... I was slowly falling for that jerk!

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