Visibly Invisible 2: Prince Caspian

Chapter 6: Insecurity

I gazed at Prince Caspian sleepily as Lucy called a small adorable mouse cute and they talked about how they were settled at the How, some place where Aslan's stone table was, cracked and all like always. I took a step forward as Caspian started to lead us and immediately, I felt myself wobble and stagger. Thankfully Ed caught me and looking into his chocolate orbs tinted with cerulean, I fainted. Again.

I blinked my eyes, once, twice before closing them again. Something was creeping inside of me and I felt it like some sick liquid like Hon was eating my nerves out. I felt a hand on my forehead and a lingering kiss on my mouth which I responded to for a second and realized I was too weak to do it any longer. Ed pulled back and I thought I heard slow, gentle hooves before a calloused hand touched my cheek and I heard a low murmur. Opening my eyes, my vision cleared after two blinks and I saw the entire Pevensies and Caspian crowded on me.

'What?' I snapped in a weak voice, and everyone hurriedly backed out including Ed. Blinking again to firmly restore my fading vision, I saw a centaur join Ed above me. Now that I noticed, there was something soft and grassy under me and my surroundings were warm and yellowy.

'How are you my lady?' the centaur spoke in a deep voice as I tried to see through the pain and haziness. The centaur spoke again and I tried to keep track.

'When that tiger bit you, either there was some amount of poison in its teeth or you were just not immune enough, but you have a whole poison mingled with your blood,' I blinked at the centaur and then groaned a little. Frankly, I felt like Bella Swan right now; pulling problems like a magnet. The centaur looked apologetic.

'I'll have to take it out,'

I raised my eye brow at him but before I could retort in any way, he plunged a blade right into my forearm where the faded scar from the tiger attack was. The pain was more intense than before and I screamed out loud, glaring at everyone who covered their ears. My almost blinded eyes travelled to my forearm and I gaped at it through the haziness.

There was no blood. It was a sick bluish green liquid seeping down my sleeve. I saw the centaur frowning as normal blood replaced the unknown alien blood. The pain got better and I felt the creepy Hon sensation die down.

'Who on earth fed her Hon potion?' the centaur asked in anger and disbelief; Susan could only giggle nervously.

By early evening, I was a lot better, my arm bandaged and all. But I was terribly bored sitting all alone in a secluded corner of the How as everyone debated on whether Miraz's castle was to be attacked. Side note: Miraz is the whole villain thing, Caspian's uncle who kicked him out, wants throne, typical story…

Anyways, back to the real world, here I was as Ed raised the point that they would starve in the How if they stayed put. Long arguments short…they decided on the attack the next night. Insert a groan here.

'Hey,' I softly acknowledged Ed as he sat down on the heather beside me. The How mysteriously trickled empty at once except for Teria who sat in the corner observing us. Ignoring her placidly, Ed took my face in his hands and pulled me gently to his chest, where I kept my head listening to his oddly soothing heartbeat. He caressed my bandages and I took a shaky breath, trying to inhale as much of him as possible. His scent was intoxicating, like berries and mangoes and that faint gun powder I still remembered.

Hearing him chuckle a bit, I looked up as he grinned at me.

'What?'

'Nothing really,' he replied casually, rubbing my back, having no idea whatsoever what that did to me. It drove me up the walls or something.

'Shouldn't you be somewhere?' I flinched at the harshness of his voice, and was glad to see he pointed that at Teria who pouted and left without a retort. I gaped at her retreating back before something caught me off guard.

If I had ever imagined Ed controlled by hormones, this was the moment it turned to reality. Without a second explanation, he took me roughly by the shoulders and crushed, yes crushed, his lips to mine, almost knocking me backwards as he almost got on top of me, kissing me like he never had before; and I gave in to his scent, pulling him closer, a bit surprised on what brought this on. After about a vigourous ten seconds, he pulled apart looking at him as I stared into his brown orbs questioningly.

'Sorry,' he breathed and I closed my eyes, trying to catch my breath.

'You're an am-amazing kisser you know that right?' I muttered as he played with my hair, now fully on top of me, propped up on his elbows to keep himself from crushing me.

'So um…,' I tried to distract myself from Ed's breathtaking motions as he ran his fingers down my face casually. 'I…,' damn it I was stuttering. 'Um…what brought that on?' my voice was still shaky and nervous as he trailed his lips down my jaw bone to my cheek and back. I heard him smirk.

'You just looked so cute. I needed that. I hope you don't mind,' he said in such a tone that clearly meant he didn't mind me minding at all. And I didn't.

'Sire?' I snapped my eyes at a fawn standing in the doorway with a sheepish look on his face and flushed right there and then. Ed just stayed where he was, his hands caressing my face, not in the least moving from the kind of awkward position we were in.

'The High King wants you to plan strategies for tomorrow,' the faun was still flushed. Ed looked at him briefly out of the corner of his eye and all he had to say was…

'Get out,'

Ouch, that was harsh.

I lay in bed that night, a smile still playing on my lips as I thought about Ed and me. He had only been this romantic on the night of our first kiss and the night when he proposed to me. He had finally been forced to leave less than ten minutes later when he asked the fawn to get out by a very angry Peter, who as much looked wooed, didn't really take the romantic side story. I didn't see Ed since.

And now it was nightfall, and he was probably sleeping.

Throwing all thoughts away, I fell asleep uneasily, trying to forget the fact that there was going to be a war soon.

The next morning turned out to be sunny and bright, quite against my expectations. I had expected it to be gloomy and rainy, but it was innocent and fresh, indicating something was good today. But wars are never good. I thought to myself pouting.

'Dylexia,' I looked at Teria who was standing in the doorway with an annoyed expression on her face. I raised my eyebrows at her as she came and sat heavily down on the edge of my heather.

'Look,' she had on a very serious look that made my fears return again. Seeing my nervousness she laughed bitterly, and it sent shivers down my spine. 'Look,' she repeated. 'I love Ed, and I want him like, real bad. So I would please request you to stay away from ma man,'

An invisible knife plunged inside of my heart and a lump stuck in my throat as Teria casually got up and trotted outside. I also got out of the warm heather on shaky legs and went outside of the How, a sense of insecurity settling deep inside of me. She was better than me; Ed had no reason to reject her.

And then I saw him, sitting there on a log, drinking from something, talking to Teria with a large smile he usually gave me. I couldn't help it and without a reason I burst into loud tears which Ed noticed, even from there. Oh shoot.

'Dy!' he yelled after me but I ran towards the woods, my insecurities flashing within me. So I did what I felt was right; I sunk against a tree trunk in a spot where the sunlight didn't reach and sat there, crying my eyes out. He chose me, and even though in a corner of my mind, I knew my insecurities were stupid, I couldn't help feeling they were true. Who wouldn't choose Teria, she was perfect and rich. Who would choose me, me the neglected, me the orthodox.

Approaching footsteps caught my attention and I saw it was only Ed, making his way towards me with a worried expression. I hid my face in my knees as I felt him sit beside me and pull my head to rest on his chest.

'What's wrong?' his voice was gentle, testing and I sniffed, realizing how stupid I was. Ed would never leave me.

'Nothing. Emotional breakdown,'

'Why?'

'Um…,' I searched for an answer, so I went with the truth. 'I was insecure. I…I thought…you…you'd choose Teria instead of me because I wasn't good enough and…,'

He cut me off by pressing his lips to mine softly for a second.

'Regardless,' he muttered. 'I always thought you were retarded,'

So, good, bad. Review. Please!