Ginny made her way back up to her quarters and now more than she had in a long time she felt the need to be with Harry. The hug that made her forget the situation they were in, the hug that made her baby kick for the first time. She walked slowly she had agreed to meet him for coffee but at what price. At the price of having to wait another four months before she could get him out of her head again?
Yet as she approached her quarters she couldn't help but notice Dane sitting outsider her door. He had fallen asleep, waiting by her door; she tapped him lightly on the head,
"Did you need something?" Dane got up quickly
"Ginny you have to tell him, he is here it won't be in a letter, you have to"
"Dane I can't I told you it would mess with his head, I already did enough of that four months ago," she was getting agitated, she turned her back to him
"He's a good guy Ginny, a decent guy he deserves the truth from you, you owe it to him" Dane said now following after her
"I'm sick of people saying I owe Harry something! I don't owe him anything he messed with my head for years and years, pay back is a bitch!" Dane looked at her at first a little shocked but then his expression softened.
"Ginny that's not why you are doing this, you are scared, you know it and I know it, you are looking for reasons not to tell him because you yourself don't even know why anymore. You owe it to the man you love to tell him you are carrying his baby,"
"It moved, today when Harry hugged me, it kicked. For the first time since I've been pregnant I realized I have a person growing inside of me. And I couldn't celebrate because I realized I might have to do it on my own, and I don't want to Dane I don't want to I'm so scared," Dane came in and hugged her for along time he just held her there. He brushed her hair away from her face,
"You have to tell him Ginny, even if it all goes to hell he deserves to know"
"I can't I can't" she was shaking tears were streaming as she kept sobbing it hadn't happened in a long time; with every fiber of her being she was truly scared.
"Ginny, I will be here for you, no matter what I am going to do whatever I can to help you, but you have to tell him, if it goes terribly, that's terrible for him, you would deserve better" he was now rocking her
"I can't lose him, I can't I'm not ready please," she was still sobbing into his robes, which were getting more and more wet with her tears
"Gin, its okay breathe, really he loves you," Ginny's body just surrendered everything stopped, the shaking, the tears, she was just breathing, looking down at the ground,
"Okay, tomorrow, I'll tell him,"
"Really?" Dane asked somewhat shocked at her newest revelation,
"Yeah, I'm going to do it," her eyes were closed and it almost pained her to say it,
"Come here," he just hugged her, "sleep well Gin, everything will be okay, and if its not I will make it so"
"Thanks," she didn't think he knew what an important fixture he had been in her life, with Dane everything seemed alright, there was no guess work with him
He walked away with a heavy heart. It was as though nothing in his world seemed to make sense. He was in love with a girl who was in love with some one else, she was carrying his baby, but he couldn't help it. It was something in the way she seemed to speak her mind so well, she wasn't afraid of her feelings and everything about her just made sense.
Yet he knew that it could never be, that was the tragedy, it was unrequited. He may have been in love yet he knew it was only on his side, yet he couldn't keep away, she needed him. It was everything he could do to stop her tears, it killed him to know some one could do this to her, yet in many ways she did it to herself.
He put a smile on. It was no ones fault but his own. And as long as he could make her happy, and put her in a better situation, it would be enough.
The next morning Harry awoke with a skip in his step. For the first time in a long while he felt like everything was as it should be. Last night more than ever had confirmed that he was right, he and Ginny would find there way back together, whatever they had was still intact.
He got a seat at the front of the Café he ordered to coffees and sat down with the Daily Prophet.
Ginny stood in front of her full length Mirror and tried to say it over and over, 'Harry I'm pregnant', 'Harry we are going to have a baby', 'Harry I'm four months pregnant', it never sounded right, but she was sure it never would.
She walked slowly to the café, when she saw Harry his eyes lit up, and she couldn't help but smile to know she still had that effect on him.
"Ginny," he said stepping in to giver her a hug, put his head near hers to smell her hair,
"Did you sleep well?" she asked hoping to ease into a pleasant morning conversation before she dropped the bomb
"Very, and I woke up happy knowing I was going to see you,"
"Oh really?"
"Mhm, you still have that effect on me," she blushed and turned her head,
"We were pretty good together huh?"
"I'd like to think we were amazing together," he said now leaning in closer to her face
"You've always been so good to me," she would tell him she had to
"You make hard sometimes, but very worth while," and it was time.
"Harry I'm sorry, for all of that, but I need to tell you-"
"Gin, don't. It was really hard in the beginning; I didn't know what you meant. I changed careers, and-" he paused "I'm having the time of my life, and I know its all going to be okay because you were right, we will find our way back to each other. One day Gin, it will be perfect,"
Her eyes had welled up slightly; she put on a smile, and nodded. It was all she could do, she couldn't tell him now, it would have to wait. He was happy and he was right, "one day" it would be perfect, not today, but one day.
"Thank you, and just so you know, I still love you, very, much"
He took in a breath, "I never stopped," and there they sat in the middle of this café. Two people in impossible situations, it was sad, it was tragic yet it was there own, and in a way it would make their love stand out more than any other.
"Can I walk you back to your quarters?" he asked,
"Do you have to go soon?"
"Not for a while I just thought it would be more comfortable"
"Okay,"
As they walked she could feel his eyes on her, he opened doors for her without even thinking about it, and as they entered her quarters she felt his hands on her shoulders.
"I should start a fire,"
She walked to the fireplace, lit the fire and sat on the nearby couch, Harry joined her. He put his arm around her and they just sat there, he kissed her head. It was all she could do to not want more.
He stroked her arm, she looked tired, stressed, he did his best to relax her, such a good job that soon she was drifting off to sleep. After about an hour he had to leave.
"Gin,"
"Mm" she mumbled still asleep
"I need to go now,"
"No no" she started saying
"I love you," he kissed her head,
"I love you" she said, he kissed her again trying for her cheek but then she turned, they kissed, it was brief, no more than a few seconds but it was enough.
He walked out quietly and shut the door behind him as he watched Ginny fall back asleep. His heart took a leap, it would all be okay.
Ginny couldn't remember the last time she slept this well had been the week before she got her acceptance letter to the academy, she had gone to Harry's for the weekend and the comfort of having him near had ended all of her anxieties. Yet when she awoke it was no longer to the dream of what used to be, or could have been, but the reality she had to face daily.
At this point she would not see Harry or Hermione again for a long time, she would not see her family until the baby had been born, from here on out she did not have to hide from anyone. At last she had decided to make her mistake into something good. She would no longer see this child as a problem, but as a new adventure.
At around noon she heard a knock at the door. It was Dane, surely coming to see how it all went.
"I couldn't do it," Dane's face fell,
"What? Why?" he was perplexed now, she had said quite calmly the night before that she would do it yet now it was a complete 180.
"He said he was happy where he was, that he finally saw why we had to part, and I quote 'one day it will be perfect'. And I knew he was right, one day, not today it will be our chance again," she was now sure, if she had doubted anything in her life this was not that kind of situation.
"So you aren't going to tell him?"
"Not until after the baby comes,"
"Okay, well I'm here if you need me for anything Gin, anything at all"
"I'll take you up on that I'm sure,"
"Can I take you to lunch?"
"Um, actually I need to go to the mediwitch for my monthly appointment, I should find out the sex of my baby today, and then after that I think I'm just going to sleep,"
"Alright then, I'll see you around"
"Bye,"
She made her way to the hospital wing, ever since she felt the baby move she had been itching to know what to call "it". She hated referring to her baby as though it was some inanimate object.
The ride home from seeing Ginny Harry felt happy, happier than he had been in a while, it seemed as though everything was falling into place beautifully. Ginny hadn't moved on, she still loved him, and more than ever now he was in love with her, if they could stand being apart for this long he was sure a lifetime would be no issue.
When he arrived at his flat he heard yelling, Ron and Hermione were at it again,
"I just don't see why you don't want to help your mother and I. Its your wedding too!"
"Hermione I told you I don't care!"
"We are getting married and you don't care about the wedding? Great Ron speaks wonders for your views on the sanctity of marriage!"
"Hermione you are into all that girly stuff, I really just don't care I could marry you in knockturn alley as long as it meant being with you!"
"Ron, I just want you to be a part of this, please,"
"I'll try but you will kick me out of the wedding I'm sure"
Harry opened the door as he heard the waters seem to calm.
"Harry! How was breakfast with Ginny?" Hermione asked immediately
"Really good actually, she still loves me, I still love her, which after all we have been through together is pretty miraculous and for the first time I feel really, really okay with where we are right now,"
"Really?" Ron blurted
"Yeah," Harry responded not really paying attention but looking at the letters on the kitchen table, "Are these mine?" he asked holding them up
"Yeah they came yesterday,"
They were letters from Puddlemore, first a letter from the owner, and then a letter from Wood.
Dear Mr. Potter,
Congratulations, due to a trade we have made entailing Michael Faye, you have been named the new starting Seeker for Puddlemore. Your practice schedule will remain the same however I suggest training even harder for your starting debut this weekend.
Best wishes
Tom Hannigan
He had done it, he was a Professional Quidditch Seeker.
Harry!
I just heard the news! Congratulations! We will be unstoppable now! See you at practice Monday morning! We will go out and celebrate after so bring a change of clothes!
Wood
"What is it Harry?" Hermione asked
"I'm the starting seeker for Puddlemore United,"
"What I thought Michael Faye-"
"Traded. My first game is this weekend,"
"Whoa," Ron said now more astonished than ever
"Would you both come, please?! I'll see what kind of tickets I can get but I'm sure it would be fun,"
"Of course Harry!" Hermione said now that Ron's mouth was gaping open like a codfish of sorts
It had been a good weekend for Harry, everything seemed to be turning out perfectly.
A/N: Next chapter should be exciting! Again everything in this story happens for a reason! Thank you so much for your reviews you have no idea what an encouragement it is to see you guys continue to love this story even if you do dislike Dane... even though he is a really good guy. :-) Well good luck on Finals if you have them! i just finished my history exam this morning!! CROSS YOUR FINGERS THAT I GOT AN A:-D
