A/N: This is an experimental fic. Trying out the style of using cut phrases, jagged sentences, poetic intervals, etc. They're meant to be snippets of Sakura's thought processes. I'm aiming to have her thoughts eventually mature as time goes on, rather then these dreamy splotches of color every now and then. Critique welcome. Enjoy!
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October.
week 1.
.
don't
don't do this
i love you
so –
so –
don't leave me.
i won't be able to take it
just stay.
i'll make you happy
i promise.
.
.
nononono
sasuke-kun please
.
.
those last words
what are they supposed to mean?
.
week 2.
.
this flower
it doesn't know
how to bloom
…anymore.
.
suddenly
everything is
different
without you
.
i can only trust Naruto
he's the only one
left
he'll bring you back.
he has never
failed me before.
.
come back
i'm waiting
i'll make you happy
this time around.
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week 3.
it seems as if
all that is spinning
my head
my vision
the earth
.
it's all gone now.
the only things
that has an axis
is the pain
revolving around
the hurt.
.
i have never been
a source of gravity
i've always been
a moon
one of many
just a particularly useless piece of rock.
.
a rock that couldn't help
but be sucked into his orbit
like all the others
.
but he's gone now
off chasing what used to be his sun
but collapsed into the black hole.
.
i can't follow.
i can't see him
i've been abandoned
by someone
who never wanted me.
.
so how am i supposed to spin
when my world is gone?
week 4.
it's over now.
the worst is over.
now all I can do
is help pick up the shattered shards.
Naruto –Naruto
I've relied on you too much
you're always so bright
so obnoxious
but now
you're so –
so broken
but you still smile
.
I…
your strength
it is admirable.
I don't know how you stand
and laugh
but at least
I can try to copy
your example
and become stronger
too.
.
Give me some time
-I know it'll take a while
but wait for a bit
so next time
you won't be alone.
I'll help bring him back.
.
I won't be a hindrance.
.
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