Escape the fate – It's just me

"I'm creeping my way out so you can see me
I'm crawling my way around 1,000 cities
You all stop and stare, I don't need your pity
I'm living my life in this hell

Now I'm crawling away cuz the stress has killed me
I feel like I fell from a 10 story building
You best run and hide before the devil starts her bidding
I'm living my life in this hell

I'm not one for the crowd to see
It's just me
It's just...

Just a little more, come on and satisfy me
Just a little more, come on and terrify me
Just a little more and I'll be done with it
Take my life and then I'll feel okay"

"Ave, are you fucking out of your mind?"
"What? It's not like he will notice or anything! I'll give it back to him tomorrow!"
I sighed and shook my head. After I had seen the cage we had headed back to Aves house, arguing about the… thing, that was in it (which we we're still doing).
"I can't believe you did this" I said and looked over at the spider in the cage. "He's going to kill us when he notice that we have his spider!"
Ave rolled her eyes.
"Oh come on Xiana, stop being such a joy killer. He's not going to kill us."
"Of course he is, he's a vampire Ave! That's what they do! They kill people!"
"No they don't… Well, not all of them that is. But my point is that you need to relax, nothing is going to happen! Just trust me on this one, okay?"
"Like I trusted you when you said that it was okay that we borrowed your brothers car?" I said as the memory hit me.
About two year ago, Ave and I had wanted to go to this really "cool" party, but since the party was about one hour of walking (which was A LOT for Ave), she had suggested that we could take her brothers car.
First, it had sounded like a good idea to me. And you can't really blame me for that, I mean, I was a fourteen year old girl who had never learned about what's wrong and what's right in life and I had a totally crush on the guy who had held the party (now he is the biggest moron ever, sadly). Anyway, we had taken the car (since Ave knew how to hotwire a car and she had convinced me that her brother and dad had thought her how to drive a car – and I believed her, yes, I was pretty stupid when I was fourteen years old). But to make a long story short, we started driving for like twenty seconds (no one in her family was home that night) and then she crashed the car into a tree. Luckily, we both survived without any serious injuries, but the car got really damage. And from that night, none of us were allowed to drive any car that her brother bought – ever.
"That was a stupid idea" Ave started saying. "But this idea isn't stupid at all, I'll promise! Please trust me, nothing's going to happen!"
"Fine" I sighed and shook my head. "But if something happens, it's your fault."
"I can live with that" Ave said, grinning. "By the way, what's with your arm?"
"What do you mean?"
"You're bleeding. You know, red liquid blood. It's what vampires drink, heard about it?"
When I didn't answered immediately, Ave gaped.
"Omg, did you let the vampires drink blood from you? Cause that would be really wicked, I mean, I have always wondered how it would feel!"
"No I didn't! What's wrong with you Ave?" I sighed and looked at the wound. I must have forgotten it, because of all the other things. Although, it wasn't that bad. Sure, it was bleeding, but it didn't hurt. At least not that much.
"Oh" Ave said and sounded kind of disappointed. "Well, would you do it?"
"Do what?" I asked and looked up at her. "Can you give me a towel or something? Or some bandages?"
"You know, let a vampire suck your blood" Ave said and threw me a towel.
"Yuck, never" I said and put the towel to my arm. "That would be disgusting. And bloody."
"I would" Ave said happily and sat down on the floor.
"Yeah right, and I am going to become the queen of England tomorrow, and I'm going to marry a wealthy prince from Poland and we are going to live a happy life together" I said with my fake British accent.
"I'm serious Xiana" Ave said and tried to look angry, even though I knew that she was really amused. "I would want a vampire to drink from me. I mean, haven't you read any books about it? It's said that it feels better than having sex, like, a zillion times better!"
"Yepp, and when the vampire is done, you're dead" I smiled.
"Do you have to be such a joy-killer?" Ave asked, clearly annoyed. "I wouldn't die from it, just… Lose some blood. It would feel awesome, I promise! Especially if that hot brown haired vampire would do it" she said and grinned.
"Yeah, what's up with that? Do you have a crush on him or what?" I grinned and got a stinking pillow thrown in my face. A really unfair punishment if you ask me.
"I don't have a crush on him! I just think that he's really hot" Ave said and blushed. "Hey by the way, don't you think that we should let out the spider?"
"Oh hell no! You are not letting that… thing, go free in your room, not when I'm here!"
"Oh come on, it's not like it's going to bite you or something" Ave said and actually opened the spiders cage!
"Ave! Close the damn cage!" I shrieked and closed my eyes.
If I just hadn't closed my eyes at that moment, it wouldn't have happened. As fast as I had closed my eyes, I heard a scream. Then, before I could even react, the room was filled with silence and I opened my eyes.
When I saw her, I just wanted to scream, but nothing came out of my mouth. I wanted to sit down beside her, but my legs wouldn't move. I wanted to do something, but there was nothing I could do!
I was at least sure of something. She was dead. Definitely dead. She had to be. Her face was more pale then it had ever been and the bit mark just looked… Horrible. I couldn't even describe how it felt to see her like this. I just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up again. I just wanted to die.

But I couldn't do that of course. After something that felt like an eternity, I reached out for the phone and called the police, the hospital and Steve. I didn't knew why, but having Steve near made me feel kind of… Calm. And he always made me happy. Even if he was a dumb as sometimes.
I couldn't call her family. I just shook my head when the police asked for Aves parents number. I just couldn't tell them what had happened.

About one hour after the police had arrived, I was sitting in the hospital and waiting to hear something from the doctors. Aves parents and her brother had came to the hospital, but I couldn't sit near them, or talk to them. Just thinking about them made me feel horrible.
Steve hadn't answered the first time I had called him, but right when I had stepped into the hospital he had called and told me that he would be there as fast as he could, so now I was sitting and waiting for him to come. And I was praying, for the first time in my life. I prayed for Ave, and for the first time in my life, I just couldn't make fun of religion. It actually felt like it was the only thing that could calm me down at that moment.
"Xiana, there you are!"
I looked up and it felt like a stone had been lifted off my shoulders when I saw Steve.
"Are you okay?" He asked and hugged me.
At that moment, I didn't care at all about him hugging me. Even though his memories rushed through my head. Memories that showed his life at home, with his alcoholic mother, memories that showed all of his anger that no one usually saw. Sometimes, seeing other people's memories made me… Well, kind of depressed. Especially right now, when I had to deal with my feeling about Aves injury and Steve's horrible life.
"I-I'm okay" I said as fast as the memories were out of my head. "I'm just… A little… Chocked, upset, I don't know."
"Well, it's not that weird, she's your best friend after all" Steve said and loosened his grip around me a bit. "How is she by the way?"
"She's… Alive. The doctors haven't told me anything else."
Steve nodded.
"What happened by the way? You didn't say anything about what happened."
I told him the fake story that I had told the cops as well. We had stolen her dads booze and had a little to many drinks, taken her dog upstairs and playing with him and continued even when he got pissed and then he jumped on Ave and bit her face. Not a good story, and they probably didn't believe me, but that was the best I could make up in a minute.
Steve didn't seem to believe it either, but he didn't say anything, so I was satisfied with that.

After something that felt like hours, I got restless and angrier when I asked the doctors (for about the thousand time) if I could visit Ave and got a no. Steve had left after a while, but I couldn't get myself to leave. It just felt wrong to leave Ave. What if something else happened to her? If it did, it felt like it would be my fault.
The worst thing about this was that there was nothing I could do. I had no idea how you could cure a spiders bite. I didn't even knew what happened when a spider bit you. And I didn't know someone who knew either. Or did I…?
I almost screamed out in joy when I thought of it and started to rush out of the hospital. Of course! The vampire, who owned the spider, he knew! He had to know! He was probably still there at the circus as well, so if I just could talk to him… Maybe I could get him to cure Ave!
I ran as fast as I could and didn't stop for a moment before I was at the cirque. When I stopped, I had to sit down and catch my breath. It was a really long way from the hospital to the cirque and I was a really, really bad runner.
I forced myself to stand and to continue walking after a while. I went straight to the door, and surprisingly, the door was open. I went into the room and looked around. No one was there.
In one way, it was a good thing, since it meant that no one would notice me. But at the same time, it was a bad thing, since it meant that I had to look around for the fucking vampire and that Ave might die before I got back to the hospital.
I continued walking until I walked out to the stage. It actually looked even more scary now, when no one was performing and there was no audience. Maybe this was a mistake. Maybe I should have headed back to the hospital. Maybe I just needed to…
Suddenly, someone grabbed my arm and before I even had time to react, the person put his hand over my mouth so that I couldn't scream.
I tried to get away, but I couldn't. The person was to strong and suddenly, just like that, I felt how everything started to turn into black.
As the world started to turn all black, the person loosened his or hers grip around me, but it didn't matter, I was to week to try to run away. The last thing I saw before everything went raven black in front of my eyes, was the brown haired vampire with the yellow aura.
"Are you really going to turn her into one of us?"