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Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.

David Borenstein

Chapter 2

Everyday after I saw him, I made sure I was in bed promptly at nine and slept with my wand under my pillow. I was disgusted at myself for letting him get away, and even more disgusted at the fact that my eyes were always scanning the crowd for a familiar blond.

"Ginny! Ginny, wake up, your mum's throwing a fit. You should have been ready thirty minutes ago" Hermione told me as she tried to shake me awake.

"I'm up, I'm up" I grumbled, flipping over to lie on my back.

" You can quit shaking me now" I rudely snapped at her.

Hermione was used to morning behavior and did nothing but hand me a mug of coffee.

" I will be back in five minutes, just to make sure you don't fall back to sleep" She informed me as she walked out the door. "Oh, wear a sweater. The weather is absolutely horrid!"

"Well, this is our last day here, I'll be waking up in my dorm tomorrow" I muttered to myself as I moved to sit on the edge of the bed, stretching my arms over my head.

I quickly put on a pair of jeans, a white fitted t-shirt and a black zip up hoodie. My family was going out to finish our last bit of shopping. Mum had promised we could shop by ourselves, as long as we stayed together.

By the time Harry, Ron, Hermione and I finished shopping; the sun was just starting to set, probably giving us another hour of light. We decided to quickly check into Quality Quidditch Supplies and Flourish & Blotts before heading back to the Leaky Cauldron to meet mum and dad for dinner.

"Ginny, what do you think" Harry asked. I really had no idea what he was talking about; I hadn't been listening at all. So, I just nodded my head and replied, "Yeah, sure".

"You unquestionably have no idea what I was talking about, do you" he said playfully.

"Not in the slightest. Sorry, just lost in my own thoughts"

"Anything you want to talk about?"

"No, don't worry about it. I was just trying to remember if I repacked my charms book, I was reading it last night." I easily lied.

"Ah, pulling a Hermione, reading a school book during your free time. She's really rubbing off on you, huh".

"Hey! It happens to be a very interesting book!"

"Of course it is" he joked. "Anyway, I was asking if you wanted to share a compartment with us back to school or..."

"Yeah, that would be great! You don't mind if I bring Luna, right? I promised her we were going to sit togeath-" I never got to finish my sentence, all the words seemed to stick in my throat.

A few feet ahead of us, a tuft of blond hair was sticking out the hood of a cloak. Only one person had hair that incredibly pale and this time, I wouldn't let him get away.

I detangled my hand from Harry's, not remembering how it got there, and started to walk in Malfoy's direction. When Harry turned around about to ask me what was going on, I was already a few feet away from him.

"Ginny, where are you going?" he yelled

I inwardly cringed. Why did he have to be so loud?

Looking for the source of the call, Malfoy looked back and our eyes met. We both stood there for an immeasurable amount of time. But then, he wrenched his eyes away and looked over my shoulder. I am almost positive that I saw a look of panic cloud his features before he turned around and broke into a slow run.

"Don't worry Harry, I think I dropped something. I'll meet you at the Leaky Cauldron," I called back running to catch up with Malfoy.

I could barley keep my eyes on him as he darted through the crowd. "Damn it" I muttered under my breath, I wouldn't let him get away, I couldn't. I pushed my way through the crowd, trying to run a little faster.

My legs were slowly staring to ache; it felt like I had been running for miles. Malfoy abruptly made a sharp left turn into a dark alleyway that lead to the back end of Diagon Alley. I had to harshly yank my feet to the left or else I would have missed the small alley.

I was losing him, his longer legs making it impossible to catch up. However, to what I thought was my immense luck, his foot caught on an indent in the road. His running faltered as he tried to regain his balance.

At what seem to be lighting speed, I pushed him by the shoulder, slamming him into the side of the building. As I did this, I managed to get my wand in my other hand and roughly jammed it at the hollow base of this throat. We stood there for an eternity just trying to catch our breath.

I was absentmindedly zoning out, staring at a brick above his right shoulder, trying to ignore the sound of my heartbeat in my ears. I drew in a shaky breath as I tried to collect my thoughts and looked him straight in the eyes.

I was completely puzzled by his eyes. I expected a whirlwind of emotion; I expected his eyes to be filled with rage and malice or … anything. Anything other than the empty ones staring back at me, void of emotion, like he had been expecting this. After a while, I finally regained my composure and remembered why I was doing this.

"You!" I sneered, pushing my wand even harder his neck.

"You, evil, loathsome little git. I should be blasting you into a thousand tiny peaces. How dare you?! You have ruined everything and somehow you got me to let you go! And you got me to promise! To promise not to tell anyone I saw you! You are the reason He is dead and I let you go. I should kill you, I should make you suffer!" My breath caught in my throat. " I should" I began, unable to continue. " I should…" I was now gasping for air and had a small amount of salty tears escaping from my eyes.

I opened my mouth once more to try and speak however; I was cut off by a loud "Ginny!"

I instantly whipped my head around, that had been Harry's voice!

Malfoy made a slight move and I pushed him closer to the wall. "No you don't, I'm not going to let you leave again".

"Ginny!" Harry called again.

"Just a minute, I'll be right there," I hoarsely yelled back, my voice breaking in fear.

" I lowered…" I heard Malfoy choke out. I turned to look at him, bewilderment flashing in my eyes. " I lowered my wand, I didn't want to do it," he whispered. "I lowered my-"

"Ginny! Where are you?"

" I'm coming," I half-heartedly shouted. In my surprise of what Malfoy just said, I turned around to face the opening of the alley way as I replied, and unknowingly let go of Malfoy. What did he mean, he didn't want to do it. None of this made any sence.

Realizing that I was no longer hold him, I quickly turned only to find he was gone. I spun around aimlessly in a circle, my eyes searching everywhere but, he was nowhere in sight.

In exhaustion, I leaned against the side of the alleyway, resting my forehead on the cool brick. 'What the hell just happened' I thought.

"Ginny" Harry said, now only a few feet away. "What are you doing? You really scared me, leaving like that. What were you thinking?"

"Sorry, I just thought I saw an old friend of mine" I lied.

"You know better than that, wandering off like that on your own. Thank God you are ok. I don't know what I would do with myself if anything happened to you". He then took a deep breath. "Come on, I told Ron and Hermione we would meet them back at the Leaky Cauldron. Your mum wants to have one last meal as a family. Lets go, its getting dark."

I wordlessly followed him, keeping a tight grip on his arm as he led the way. 'One last meal as a family'. For some reason those words were stuck in my mind making me grip his arm even tighter.

If I had only known how true those words really were.

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