Bella's POV

Something's wrong with Jake. I noticed it last week after Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and Edward left to look for Renesseme, who hasn't been seen for 3 weeks now. He didn't come home the day before they left. Seth, Leah and Alice have been avoiding the house too. The last day I saw Jake, he looked lifeless and heartbroken, like someone had ripped out his soul and sold it to the devil.

The search party returned Mon. and I got my answer. They found Renesseme's body near a river with a knife and blood all around her. Jasper thinks she let her blood empty from her body. What makes it worst was that they picked up the little girls' blood that went missing the day Reneesseme did. That weds. the girls' parents noticed she didn't come home on the bus, and Jacob noticed Renesseme wasn't at school or hadn't gone through the forest path to the house.

At first I was confused, then destroyed but it's been almost a whole week and I'm starting to heal. But I'm the only one who seems even close to being … sane. Everyone is either crying their eyes out or is close to becoming half ghost. I don't know if it'll end, I mean of course I loved Renesseme and I feel I've lost a part of my human life but it was already disappearing. Or maybe I'm not as bad because I wasn't close to Renesseme and neither was she to me. She preferred Jacob, Alice or Edward before even coming in contact with me. She refused to come live with me and Edward. Said she would rather sleep with Jacob (not in that sense), so she slept at Carlisle's. I really don't have much to miss about her.

The thing that seems most confusing is why. Edward heard Leah talking to Seth about maybe the likely hood that Renesseme would have had something to do with the girls' disappearance, but even Leah liked Renesseme too much to actually further the thought.

2 months later

Now I'm starting to worry. Nobody and I mean nobody will even come in contact with me or anyone. Esme and Carlisle are the exception, Esme stays crying and Carlisle comforts her with great grief and agony reflecting in his eyes. Emmett went on the almighty search for the greatest grizzly; Rosalie went to Northern Canada to exterminate anything and everything. Alice disappeared the day before search party got back. She already saw their findings and Jasper thinks she went south again. He took off the next day for her. Leah went with Rosalie, which was expected seeing how close they are and Seth is somewhere in the forest apparently looking for Jacob. Edward paces everywhere. Around Carlisle's house, our house, the perimeter of La Push. He even spent 3 hours at the bottom of the ocean.

3 months later

I saw Jake today. Seth finally found him and persuaded him to visit La Push to convince Billy he was alive. Jake was the worst of them all…. I don't even know what to say. He's the one I worry about the most. He takes the word depression to a new level. It's like his world has been blown up and he's just floating now in nothingness. Although I'm sure everyone saw this on that coincidental run-in with him, but nobody commented.

Finally people started to show signs of life again, at least the vampires/ werewolfs in Forks did, in reaction to Jake reappearance. Esme stopped crying as much on the chance Jake would come to back home again. Edward tried to be friendly and started to socialize with Carlisle and Esme but still no communication with me. But he was trying so I tried to act like nothing bothered me on the chance he would say something.

On Sun. he rushed to me, in the woods near the middle school, in a frantic voice

"Hurry, you'll never believe what Esme found,"

Esme came across a substance in a pair of Jacob shredded pants which looked peculiar. So Carlisle tested it and found it was a few drops from a container of destrome, a highly dangerous poison. This was a new low, I mean I guessed after all Jake has been through he would be used to rejection. I knew this was something different but I thought he'd at least know how to cope by now. If Jake had a container or even a small bottle of poison known to stop a heartbeat in the first few seconds it touches your lips, so dangerous that even vampires quivered at its name. Then I was wrong and Jake was in danger.

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