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Bella's POV

I can't believe Jake, would even think about killing himself. It scares me now knowing he had this with him for who knows how long. Then it occurred to me that he hasn't been seen for a week now.

"Edward. I need to run over to La Push really quick. I'll be a second." I ran out the house and was already in the forest when Edward gave some information that had completely left my mind.

"Bella. Bella. You can't go over there, there is still a treaty saying we can't go on their lands" He looked at me hopelessly because he too knew the thought that I had. "Maybe Sue is at your father's house?" He said letting some hope drip its way into his face.

I thought about it. And I really wasn't ready for Charlie to know about Nessie just yet but I guess Sue would have told him by now anyway. But maybe she didn't. She was really falling for him and maybe she didn't tell him so he wouldn't be sad.

"Edward, I don't think I'm ready to tell him yet." One look told me he understood. But I had to reach Jake still.

"Maybe he's with Quil or Embry by their beach" he said already running in that direction. I took off after him hoping that he was right.

When we got there, there was no sign of them anywhere. Me and Edward looked for hours until we finally gave up and began to head home, when we heard rustling near the edge of the forest. It was then we realized we actually were trespassing into La Push. Edward said in a cautious voice,

"We apologize, it was not meant intentionally" he said looking around for a wolf in the trees. When there was no response, but more rustling he started backing up and so did I. Suddenly I saw a body coming from the trees. Expecting it to be Paul, who was even now more annoyed with us more than ever, we were practically running backwards.

"No need to leave it's just me" a weary voice said. Embry walked into view. He must have seen our relief, since he attempted a friendly smile. But there was grief in his eyes, and a longing for his best friend that I once again drove away.

That's the conclusion I've come to Jake is avoiding everything that Nessie touched, or saw. And it didn't help that the house had been a graveyard. He's gone. Gone. I felt sensation rise in me but I pushed it down, Embry was already upset. I tried to smile back and I walked forward but then Edward stopped me. He was staring into the trees behind Embry. What was he staring at? I glanced causally into the trees and saw a wolf standing about 15 yards behind Embry. It was growling… at us. And Edward started growling at him. Embry turned around and I believe he laughed.

"Really Paul, is that necessary" He turned back around.

Paul's POV

"These leeches are on our territory, and you want me to calm down. Really Embry?" I barked through my teeth. Damm if the leeches are getting away without my input. After all they've caused. With the packs depression, and Billy's seriousness. And Rachel! Rach won't even speak to anyone she just goes through photo albums of Jake and cries. They ruined my wedding.

As I walked into the clearing, "I mean isn't enough you've finally destroyed our pack, not to mention the whole Black family." I paused for their reaction," you decide to torment Embry here who practically was married to Jake?" I stared at them for a minute for their response, ignoring Embry who was trying to redeem himself.

Bella began crying herself and to my surprise the parasite didn't comfort her, he didn't do anything just stood there looking dumb-struck. Then he gulped and looked down the road. Finally ran out of words did yah? He looked at me with sorrow in his eyes. That's right leech feel your destruction you've made Jake and us deal with. Be ashamed you ripped a perfectly good tribe, no family apart. Realize that now we might never see Jake again. I looked at him, knowing he heard me. He gulped again and swiftly rubbed his face. Ha-ha I made him cry.

Embry looked like he wanted to comfort both of them but he didn't. Instead he gave me a mortified face, which I returned with a broad smile. He started to say something but I cut him off

"Just leave. Please just stop pretending you actually care about anyone outside your family. And leave." I was moving toward the forest, when

"Don't say that ever again. I would hurt, no destroy anyone who thought about hurting Jake." Bella screamed at me, "and I would search forever for Jake. And so would my family, we cared about him too." She fell to the ground in sobs. Again he didn't do anything.

"You know she's right we loved him just as much you and the rest of the pack did. You have a right to be mad at us, but you could never say we didn't care. Never" So he talks. He picked Bella up and left.

"You don't have to be such a jerk, just cause Rachel won't talk to you now her brother is missing" Embry said then phased before I could respond.

I wasn't about to follow him to tell him that I cared for Jake more than he could imagine. I even respected Jake for staying with his dad after both of his sisters left. I could never tell him how much I worry what Jake will do now he doesn't have to worry about his father's safety. That was the only reason he's stayed all these years, he wanted his father to be safe. Everyone knows he hates La Push and now he never has to come back.

I phased and ran toward the Black's house.

Bella's POV

As Edward carried me back to our little cottage, I looked to his face once to see suppressed sorrow building up. I felt the sensation rise again but crying wouldn't help.

My thoughts drifted away as the wind brushed my face. I can't believe he said that, those horrid, false things about Jake's security, us and how we feel about Jake. But he's right I destroyed everyone's life. Everything and everyone that mattered to Jake, the only true friend I've ever had, life's shattered. I took their friend, their brother, a son away; someone that was so caring and influential is lost for who knows how long. Its my fault, my daughter was who he fell for unwillingly after multiple rejections from me. I would never tell Edward this but lately when Edward is gone I think back to my….my decision. Not that I don't love Edward or regret the decision but I wonder what it would have been like. Our relationship has had so many obstacles but during those few months with Jake it truly was like breathing. Oh no, that ship sailed a long time ago. He was so distressed after he came to live here, partly because of the apparently repulsive smell. But more so he never wanted to be an Alpha and I don't think he ever got over that. I used to wait for him to get mad at me or go off on me after the few times I yelled at him for stupid reasons. He never did. He probably never will, he's too good of a... person to do that. He was even friendly to my family, those first couple of months after things calmed down, for me. Or maybe there's another reason that I'm just missing.

I must have fell asleep. No vampires don't sleep, I probably blacked out and ended up waking up on the couch in our now dreary cottage. Edward was pacing again. No he was talking to someone on the phone. No he wasn't talking at all. The voice sounded familiar so I got closer but still in a different room. The voice sounded smooth, elegant, independent but restrained. Why do I feel like I once knew this person, so well. Like I should be able to pick the voice up from anywhere? The name is on my tongue but just can't come out.

I heard, "Please come here. You don't have to go back, you won't see them EVER again. Just come here I need you. Please." And I knew who the voice belonged too, I even knew who it was talking to. Edward was tracing the call, that's why he wasn't breathing. Usually I would be completely against this rude involvement in someone's private conversation. But the voice belonged to Rebecca, Jakes sister who lived in Hawaii. She seemed to be trying to get him to go home, no come home…. to….her… home in Hawaii? That didn't make sense why would he go to Hawaii, to live on a different reservation, and deal with more problems. I wonder how Edward picked up this conversation. No, I didn't , I was annoyed that Jake would call and listen to this as if to actually think about moving to Hawaii? Leaving his whole family and us behind. He's been through a hard time, yes, but WE can help him more than HER. We can make the pain lessen if only he'd let us try.

Edward was still pacing after the call ended, with Jake saying "Thanks Becca for your hospitality, but this won't just go away with moving to a different state. I might come later on, if you really need me." She said that she would always need him and to come as soon as possible. I causally strolled up from my hiding spot to Edward, kissed him then asked if anything happened. I decided not to tell him that I heard the call, I wasn't sure I wanted him to know. He didn't know Rebecca or this side of Jake, but I remember a little about Rebecca from my deteriorating childhood. I knew what she had done to Jake at such a young age, leaving him alone with his crippled father. She knew nothing of the current events that have happened since then. She doesn't belong to the secret society only the vampires and werewolves know of.

But that wasn't the last time Rebecca secretly contacted Jake. It wasn't the first time either. It just so happened that Rebecca had accidentally dialed the Cullen's house once, realized her mistake and hung up. She didn't call for about six weeks, during that time Jake was said to be in the middle of woods meditating or just thinking. Seth reported that Jake seemed to be improving barely but still improving. Jake didn't talk or breath really. He was anti-people. On those rare occasions that I saw him he wore sunglasses, a mauled baseball cap, long jeans, and a three-quarter length shirt. That's so unlike his usual cut off jeans and shirtless outfit. The only positive thing you could say about him is at least he's not leaving, at least we know where he is.

Charlie finally found out about Renesseme through Sue. I'm not mad though, he sensed something was wrong and then he noticed Jakes absence and he needed some explanation. His reaction was surprisingly not excessive or over the top. He did flip out over Jake's second "escape" and Billys' lack of reaction. That was until he visited Billy, and discovered his once friend was now an unmoving statue in the doorway of Jakes small bedroom. He seemed to begin his own journey through the unsocial period after that visit. He didn't even contact me, not that I expected him too but still.