365 Letters To A Rower and Rider

by kulaqua

Its a story of how ashley and spencer have broken up and ashley is writing her letters everyday of there break up. Its about getting to watch ashley grow and get over the hardships of a breakup.Ashley hopes to get back with spencer but only time will tell

9. Chapter 9

Letter Fourteen

Yesterday was an interesting day spencer I broke out into hives all over my body. I obviously had an allergic reaction to something but we have no idea what. I took some Benadryl and went to bed an hour later when I woke up they were gone and you were on FB. I sat there and debated for an hour weather or not I should message you. Aiden said it was a bad idea and when I finely decided to you logged off, I should have realized it was a sign but I went ahead and sent you a text asking how you were doing. That was an hour ago so I assume you wont be responding. I knew you wouldn't respond but it still made me upset anyways. I did how ever take a big step and deleted your number out of my phone, your moms and Glens number are still there but yours is gone. Its not that I want to be having it there is to much temptation for me to try and contact you when I know that you don't want me to. I do have your number saved someplace else so I can look it up if I need to but at least its not right at my fingertips. The last thing I need to do now it take you off my FB. I have been waiting for you to take me off knowing that it is going to upset me. You haven't though and now I find myself stalking FB to see if your online and to see when your going to put your status back up that you are in a relationship with someone else. I need to take you off but I want to know how you're doing and im afraid that if I do you'll completely forget about me.

I don't know why today im so upset all over again. I had this dream last night and you told me you still loved me but you had ment it as just a friend. That you were seeing someone and it happened when his dad was being deployed he was upset and you went to comfort him. You told me things just kind of happened and the girl he was seeing had just broke up with him. I tried to kiss you and you got so mad and me.

I just got the news your seeing someone else. I finely took you off my Fb. Now I feel like im dieing inside because its over and I now have no chance of getting you back.