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Chapter 3: Stare-fests
I bounded into the cafeteria, my face set with determination.
I took three steps in, looked at our table and did an automatic U-turn right back out the doors, no doubt looking like a complete idiot.
He was there.
At our table.
What. The. Fuck.
I was already half way down the English hall in my hurry to get out of the cafeteria. I had no idea where I was going, I just didn't want to go into there and act like I hadn't thought about him constantly, because that would be impossible! What if I slipped up and said something stupid like, Hi nice to see you again Jasper. Just so you know I've been fantasizing about you since we met. I was known amongst our group of friends for having serious cases of word-vomit when I get nervous.
And I was nervous.
But why?
I couldn't help but ask myself. I hadn't thought about this happening. I mean, he wasn't here this morning so I had deduced that he wouldn't be here now! I was at my locker now, putting my books inside it as slowly as possible. I leaned my forehead against my locker door and practiced breathing slowly. The cool metal felt nice on my feverish skin; I contemplated moving but decided against it. I could just stay here for the remainder of lunch, right?
"Alice!"
Apparently not.
I turned my head to see Bella walking up with a concerned and confused expression. I didn't say anything.
"Hey" She said as she approached. "You were in and out of there so fast I wasn't sure if it was you. What's up?" I was briefly surprised to see that Edward wasn't with her. They were usually attached at the hip. I let it go.
I decided to tell the truth. Why lie to Bella when I was going to talk to her about him this morning anyways? It just seemed stupid now. Oh well.
"Do you remember this morning when I started to ask you and Rose a question about a guy, but the bell rang and you took off and so did Rose?" I asked quickly, embarrassed. I almost felt like I was going to start sweating, and that was not okay.
"No not really…" Bella replied quietly with a blush. She was always blushing, even about the most random things, such as right now.
"It's okay. Anyways the point is that guy sitting at the lunch table was who I was asking about. He moved in down the street from me, and we had this random chance meeting and now I can't stop thinking about him! It's ridiculous!" I was babbling at light-speed.
Bella stood quietly, getting her thoughts together with a pondering look settling on her features. I waited impatiently, tapping my foot incessantly on the ground.
"So you met him, and now you can't stop thinking about him," She concluded. I nodded and my earrings jingled. She continued, "But I don't get why you ran away from him. I mean, wouldn't this be a good opportunity to talk to him?" She finished.
"But Bella you know how I get when I'm nervous! I could say something stupid or – or something!" I said while my hands flew up in the air and dropped back down to my sides again. I couldn't think of anything else to say really. Suddenly my argument felt weak and childish. I hated that feeling more then I hated last season's pumps.
Bella just raised an eyebrow at me. She did that a lot when she knew she was right, just to annoy me. It used to bother me so much because I couldn't do it. I searched my brain for something else to say; something to make me sound less pathetic.
"And I'm scared Bella. I seriously have been thinking about nothing but this guy all weekend but I know nothing about him. I don't who he is or where he comes from. He just…invaded me!" That seemed like the right word choice to me, but Bella stifled a laugh anyways. I scowled at her before continuing. "He showed up and all my logic went out the window. Plus he is incredibly attractive!" I added that last bit on just for kicks.
"Well if you come back to the cafeteria with me, I know a couple people who can answer those questions for you," she said with a smile. I wondered why she had said 'a couple people'. Couldn't only Jasper answer my questions? Oh god, did she expect me to talk to him? No, no, no…
Bella was so caring, it was very like her to want to fix everything and keep me happy. She would make a great mother one day. I shot her a nervous glance at the mention of actually going in the cafeteria again today.
"Alice! I've known you a long time and I know you can do this! Just be you; you take control of everything! No guy can bring my best friend down." She stated.
"I know Bells, this just feels…important, you know? Like its set in stone or something…" I didn't want to start throwing around words like 'fate' or 'destiny' because that was way too weird. My thoughts flickered back to this morning's car ride and I outwardly scowled.
Bella took the scowl the wrong way and frowned at me. I didn't feel like explaining that odd experience this morning so I just changed my expression and shot her a smile that probably looked more like a grimace than anything.
"Hey, if it makes you feel better," she started quietly. "I kind of know how you feel." She sounded very sympathetic.
"How? How could you possibly feel how I feel right now?" My voice was hard. I can admit I was taking this out on her a little. She looked hurt, but was trying to cover it up so I wouldn't notice. "I'm sorry, that was rude." I added.
She took a long breath in and began. "I know how you feel because that sounds just how I felt when I met Edward. Don't you remember? I was an obsessed wreck. I never shut up about him! The second I met him it was like I knew we were supposed to be together. I didn't know about his past or where he came from or even what his favourite cereal was!" She paused and giggled. "Sure, it took a little while to get there for me, to admit to him that I liked him and maybe that I was an obsessed teenage girl, but look where we are now. I love him and he loves me. Plain and simple. You can't let fear get in the way of having something like that whether it's with Jasper, or any guy." She finished her pep talk with a pointed look at me.
What could I say? No? Maybe it wasn't the exact same situation but some big details matched up. Bella was right: if I didn't get to know him, I would always be scared, and I wasn't having any of that! Part of me knew that I couldn't be afraid of him. It was like my subconscious mind was set on having him in my life and I had no control over it, even if I wanted to. And he was too fine not to get to know. Mmm…
"You're right. I'm acting like a stupid idiot. Thanks Bella." I let out a breath I didn't know I had been holding.
"Wow. That was easier then I thought it would be! Usually it's pointless to even consider debating with you." Bella laughed out.
"Well I know you're right this time, what can I say?" I replied sounding a little more defeated then I would have liked
"I'm a genius, I know. It's rare when all that wisdom comes out, but I choose to share it with you," she joked, sporting a smirk. She lifted her hand out to me with a look that said it all. She was going back to the cafeteria, and so was I. I let out a gusty, over exaggerated sigh and slipped my palm into hers.
"So, if you don't mind me asking, what the crap happened on the weekend? How did you meet him in the first place?" Bella asked.
"What the crap? Seriously? Bells, just curse once in a while. It feels good. Shit, fuck, bitch. Sometimes you just need to!" I told her while we walked through the hall towards my impending doom. Bella never swore, if she did, it was a very extreme situation.
"No, and Miss Cullen I believe that was you avoiding the question!" She poked at my side and I squealed, jumping away.
"Fine! Okay, okay…" I continued on to tell her about the whole Saturday ordeal, including the luck that I happened to be wearing the butt jeans.
"So really Bubbles is at fault here," she stated as we approached the doors to the cafeteria. I looked at her and she smiled a very big uncommon Bella smile, so I pushed open the doors and casually strolled over to the table where we usually sat. At it sat Rose and Emmett, Edward and him.
It was then that it struck me. They would probably ask why I ran out in the first place. Fuck. And then I realized that I was also standing there making a complete fool of myself, staring off into space.
"Hey guys!" I said cheerily before sliding out the chair beside Bella. It also happened to be across from Jasper. The table stayed silent, we could here everything going on around the cafeteria. The constant chatter of the students created a buzz while individual noises stood out. Emmett was burping, forks were scraping, a cell phone was beeping. Finally someone spoke.
"Sorry about that, guys. Alice had my biology textbook in her locker and she wanted to give it to me, but she forgot so she ran back to get it," Bella explained quickly. Edward gave her a questioning stare. He probably knew that her bio textbook was in her bag like always. I saw her elbow him under the table, his response was to smile widely.
"Well you have it now, so time for introductions! Emmett?" Edward said coolly.
Emmett cleared his throat to start speaking as I glanced at Bella and mouthed 'thank you'. I turned back as he started.
"Alice, this is my cousin Jasper. Jasper, this is Alice. Badda bing badda boom!" He laughed a loud booming laugh over the noise of everything else.
His cousin, eh? So Emmett could answer my questions, not just Jasper. Hmmm. This information just raised more questions. I decide to try and play it cool, despite the fact that I felt like I was going to vomit.
"Actually guys, we have already met." I paused when all the faces looked confused except for Jasper and Bella. "Courtesy of my cat, on Saturday." I said matter-o-fact-ish. So far this was going good.
"How could I forget?" He said smiling at me. My heart went wild in my chest, hammering against my ribs. My memory had deceived me, his smile was so much better in person. I smiled back, making sure I made eye-contact with those gorgeous orbs of his.
"So, you and Emmett are cousins then?" I asked, trying to act seemingly uninterested but probably failing epically. Even I could hear the slight longing in my voice.
"Yeah my pop and his mom are siblings," It was hard to actually listen to his words when all I was hearing was that accent. I was trying not to just zone out because I actually wanted to hear this. This was the information I had been craving all weekend! "We just moved here on Friday night." He finished.
"Why did you move?" I asked. I was probably prying but I really wanted to know. Besides, he didn't look like he was upset that I was asking or anything.
"My mom felt like she needed a 'change of scenery'. It was really sudden and Aunt Trudy suggested we come to Forks. I wasn't too excited about moving down here because it's always been so rainy when we visit," he paused, looking directly at me. "But right now it doesn't seem too bad." He smirked at me across the table.
"Well the weather is nice today isn't it?" I played back at him with a coy smile, and then started to rummage through my bag for the apple I knew was in there. It was hard to look away from his angel face.
Yup. Crazy obsessed teenage girl much.
"Actually I was talking about yo-" What he said was sending waves of butterflies through my stomach, but Emmett cut him off. I shot him a glare, but he didn't notice.
"Alice, he used to live in South Carolina! Isn't that cool? Can you hear his accent?" Emmett asked between mouthfuls. I wasn't sure how Emmett could eat so much, but he kept going.
Could I ever, it's so fucking sexy! I thought.
"I can Emmett, good job!" I leaned across the table to give him a high five, and he slapped his bear hand with my very small one. This was going surprisingly well! I glanced over at Rosalie while sliding back into my chair and she pointed back and forth between me and Jasper then winked with a thumbs-up. I giggled, and Rose started laughing too.
"Jasper, you should hang out with us sometime, if you're not too embarrassed to be seen with this in public." Rose said, pointing to her own boyfriend.
"Aw, babe!" Emmett said in a mock-hurt tone. Rose playfully resisted as he pulled her into his muscled arms. She gave in and kissed him softly on the lips before leaning away, leaving Emmett satisfied and stuffing his face once again.
"Well he is family!" Jasper laughed out. His laugh. Oh my Jesus on a jack hammer. Could I kiss him? Please? I stopped myself by biting my apple before the words literally came out of my mouth. "But I wouldn't mind hanging out with you folks at all." He stated to everyone, but his eyes never left mine. I was blushing! That's embarrassing! I looked down at the table, and when I peeked up at him through my lashes his smile grew wider.
I held his gaze there. I couldn't think of anything to say, but I didn't feel like I needed to. Edward and Bella were talking about a bio project, and Rose and Emmett were debating on what we could all do together, but I could barley hear them. It was like it was just us in the room, even though it was crowed and loud.
It was weird.
It was intense.
It was interrupted by the bell.
I jumped about four feet back, and Jasper blinked and shook his messy hair out. We all stood up and said our goodbyes to Bella and Edward as they headed off to bio hand in hand. Rose and I walked in front of the guys down the hall on our way to our classes. I may or may not have been swinging my hips.
"Ali! You two would make such a cute couple!" She whispered in my ear.
"He is so cute! And nice! And I really want to jump his bones!" I whispered back.
She giggled, and then asked, "What happened on Saturday?"
I gave her a significantly shortened version of events and she smiled.
"Go bubbles! Man, it's like kitty-induced fate!"
"I know right! I thought the same thing after. He is a very perceptive cat, thank God!"
"Seriously though, you two were having a little moment when the bell rang! What was that about?" We were still talking quietly, but it was hard to hide our enthusiasm.
"I don't know! It was like one minute we were talking and the next we were having and intense stare-fest!" I blushed again as I told her. What the fuck, was I Bella now? I thought quickly.
"Woo girl, you are in trouble. I can see it in your eyes, and I can feel it in my Gucci gladiator sandals." I laughed at her as we approached my class. "I'm serious! My spidey-senses are tingling!" We giggled and she hugged me goodbye. Emmett bumped fists with Jasper, and waved at me as he went to walk Rose to her classroom door. It was me and the hunk left.
He was staring at me.
I was staring at him.
If we didn't stop having these stare-fests, our eyeballs would dry up and fall out. I decided to be the responsible one and save our eyeballs by saying something to him.
"So what class do you have next?" I asked quietly. I prayed he was in my class.
"English," he replied.
"Oh. Well, this is me," I gestured to the door on my right, very let down. More let down then I should be at this point. He just nodded, and I took that as my cue to stop fantasizing and leave.
I turned on my heel to go inside when he grabbed my hand.
Oh. My. God. Cue the squeal. I pursed my lips from doing that anywhere outside my now-scrambled mind.
Heat flew up my arm like a flare and my breath hitched. He spun me around so I was facing him and slowly backed me up so I was leaning against the lockers behind me.
Thoughts were running through my head at a million miles a minute. Most consisted of KISS ME, KISS ME, KISS ME.
I gulped audibly, and he chuckled. He brought my hand up to his lips and kissed my knuckles softly. It was like a raging case of pins and needles where his lips touched me.
"It was very nice to see you again, Alice." He said huskily.
"Mhmm!" Was all I could squeak out. He walked away silently. My head fell back against the locker and I let out a huge sigh. Holy shit. Those words would haunt my dreams, and I do not mean nightmares.
I had it bad. Terrible actually seemed like a better word choice. I dragged myself through the door and to my seat in a daze. I couldn't help but wonder when I would feel those pins and needles on my lips, and I was hoping it would not be long.
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