Snape broke through Hermione's wards to wake her up in the morning, strolling to her bedroom door he knocked lightly before entering; she had a grand double bed, intricate carvings all the way up the poles that held up her bed canopy which was made of dark wood just like all over her bed, the covers and pillows were black satin, but the underside of the cover was a deep blood red colour, the pillows were black and the whole thing complimented itself nicely, she had a dark wood desk and a dark wood chester draws while the carpet was a deep red, and the walls were a Victorian style red wall paper, and of course there were dark wood bookcases were ever she could fit them. Apart from the bookcases cram packet full of books, Hermione's room was nothing at all like he expected, walking hesitantly over to her, he placed his hand on her shoulder and shook her gently to wake her up, up against that bedding she looked quite pale and the dark circles under her eyes stood out even more than usual, opening her eyes, her first rather sleepy words were "How did you get in here?"

"I broke into your wards, but don't worry I put them up and made them stronger"

"Oh" she mumbled "Thank you"

"Now get up" he ordered "You have to eat breakfast and you have lessons again today"

This earned a grown from her which shocked him, God she really must be mourning he stood and headed for the kitchen where he whipped himself up a coffee while thinking I might as well make her one to, he was being too nice to her, he needed to grumpy up and nice down, she came out of her bedroom her hair tamed as Snape turned to hand her the coffee he had made his chin almost hit the floor, She had a brown muggle nightgown on that ended dangerously high up on her thighs, the front had 3 buttons that she had undone revealing enough to distract anyone but hiding enough to leave a awful lot to the imagination, his gaze lingered to long but he wasn't sure he noticed as he handed her the coffee and turned his back on her,

"Oh Professor?"

"Yes Her, Miss Granger" he covered up his slip up and prayed she wouldn't notice

"I have a free period for the first to lessons so I will probably just stay in my room"

"Okay, unlike you some of us have to work, so I will see you for double potions after break"

"Yes Professor" she said returning to sipping her coffee and gazing at the fire

"Oh and Miss Granger, I may check on you at the start of break so if you and Mr Malfoy intend to have anymore run ins I would appreciate it if you were finished by then"

"I wasn't intending on it" she snapped "But thank you for the idea, I was wondering what I could do if I got bored"

"Are you aware of the sort of trouble you could get in if you get involved with Malfoy?" he snapped and she stood throwing her cup into the sink before spinning to face him as he leant against the counter trying to control his temper

"Are you aware of the sort of trouble you could get in for checking out a student?"

"I did not check you out Miss Granger!"

"Oh really Professor, that's why your chin nearly hit the floor as soon as your saw me!"

"Oh don't flatter yourself Miss Granger!" he growled stepping towards her

"Don't lie to me, how am I suppose to trust you if you lie!"

"I am not lying Miss Granger! What do you want me to say! That I want to ravish you!"

"If that's the truth then yes"

"Well it's not Miss Granger, I will see you for double potions, goodbye" he snapped

"Goodbye" she snapped before storming into her bedroom and pulling on her school robes roaming the castle before being pulled into a dark alcove once more, his hands on her hips pinning her to the wall

"What do you want Malfoy?"

"The same thing that I got yesterday"

"Why don't you ask Pansky? Im sure she would be all but to happy to oblige"

"She doesn't, let's say, fully satisfy me" the back of his hand stroking her cheek "I need something more, someone more," his hand moving to her thigh "someone who doesn't throw herself at my feet, I need someone like you"

"Well you aren't getting me Malfoy" she said grabbing his hand

"That is exactly why I will make sure I get you, you are one of the only girls who denies me"

"It's because I despise you"

"I despise you to Granger, let's call it hatred with benefits" he smirked "But we will keep this are dirty little secret, no one will know"

"You're telling me you haven't told anyone about yesterday?"

"No"

"Oh of course how silly of me, why would you want people to find out about you fraternizing with a Gryffindor, a blood traitor, a muggle born and part of the so called Golden Trio"

"Exactly Granger… anyway what were you and Snape arguing about?"

"What are you on about? I haven't seen him today" she snapped

"Why was he coming this way looking like he had a storm brewing?" he questioned smirking, sure to have caught her

"I don't know" she snapped "Why do you hide in dark alcoves waiting for people to walk past when you are bored? These are the questions that keep me awake at night" she proclaimed sarcastically

"Oh so you think of me at night do you, when you're all alone, in your bed, I'd love to know the things you get up to"

"No shut up Malfoy!" she growled

"Where are we?"

"Somewhere where I can give you something to think about me by at night"

"Malfoy I don't get this we hate each other"

"We both know you don't hate me and I don't hate you, you're too smart to hold grudges and frankly you turn me on so much I can't hate you"

"Oh" she said allowing him to pull her along behind him slightly further down the passage, to be honest she didn't hate this boy, she knew he had a hard life and thought that most of the time he was just acting to keep up his appearance and status, and he was rather attractive, she mentally slapped herself not knowing why she was taking this risk but she was finding it rather enjoyable, they appeared outside a heavy looking wooden door and Draco lead her in. Inside there was a grand fireplace with a rug with the Hogwarts cress on it, a red sofa and a double bed with a canopy and green sheets. Pulling her down on the sofa next to him she was surprised when he didn't move.

"What's wrong?" She asked

"I only want to do this, whatever this is, if you're ready after everything that's happened"

"The sense of risk is strangely appealing"

"Is that a yes?"

"It's a, I'll tell you If you go too far"

"Okay" he said smiling weakly, this was a completely different Malfoy to the one she knew, and a completely different Hermione to the one he knew he turned his head to see her looking at him with a concerned expression on her face, smiling weakly, he put his hand under her chin and pulled her lips towards his kissing her gently, before he moved his hand to her cheek before sliding it back into her hair as he traced her lips with his tongue, slowly Hermione opened her mouth for him in disbelief the whole time and his tongue slipped in gently but passionately kissing her, teasing her tongue, grabbing her he pulled her onto his lap so she was straddling him, and moved his other hand to her thigh, hers were tangled In his hair and resting on his chest, slowly his hand slid up her thigh and around to the small of her back pushing of her robe and pulling off his own, she slid his hands down his shirt undoing it before he began on hers and she jumped off him, looking extremely shaken

"Sorry, I…. what's wrong?"

"No it wasn't you, I have…. A scar, and it hurts if I do certain things and it brings back so many memories and…."

"We all have scar's, some more than others and they all have memories so much worse than others, look" he said pulling away and sliding his shirt off before turning, his back was marred with scar's "That one was Voldermort got angry because I wouldn't torture my mother, that one he got angry because I wouldn't fuck my mother or my Auntie, and the rest are from all the times I have been raped"

"Im sorry, I didn't know"

"It's alright" he smiled weakly, he slowly approached her and started to hesitantly undo her shirt, slowly revealing her scar and before he could stop himself her let out a whispered "Oh my God" looking up at her with horror in his eyes "Who did that to you?"

"I don't know" she said swallowing the bile that rose in her mouth at the mere of thought of it

"You can't look at it can you"?

"No" she said looking disgusted with herself, walking up to Draco she started kissing him again and they both welcomed the distraction as he kissed her back, pushing her up and against the bed post, Draco reached down a grabbed her thigh bringing her leg up to side and running his hand along it under her skirt, she began to slow her kissing, before pushing him away and grabbing her shirt "I can't do this, I shouldn't have even let it get this far, I love Ronald Weasley, not you and I am certainly not going to become your hoe"

"Hermione"

"Don't call me that, don't even say my name! How could you be so insensitive to even mention this to me, you knew I wasn't going to be thinking straight! Yet you carry on, you said my name like you actually cared about me! You talked to me like you actually cared about me! I feel sick! How could I do this to him! To his family! To Harry!"

"Hermione he's dead"

"I bloody know he is! I was there! I could have saved him!" she yelled doing her buttons up and sliding on her robe "Don't you dare mention this to anyone or to me ever!" she said threatening him with her wand "Got it?"

"Yes"

"Good" she said spinning around and storming out the door back to her quarters, before curling up on the sofa and crying. It must have been the start of break as there was a knock on her door, pulling herself together she called "Who is it?"

"Professor Snape"

Opening the door she let him in, avoiding looking at him but it didn't work

"Miss Granger have you been crying?"

She closed the door and seemed to become suddenly interested in it "No"

"Just because you're not facing me, doesn't mean I can't still tell that you are lying"

"And if I have been? What then?"

"I don't know, you know I find it incredibly difficult to be nice to people"

"No you see" she spun around "I think you find it incredibly difficult to be nice to some people"

"That makes no sense Miss Granger"

"It makes every bit of sense, you find it incredibly difficult to be nice to incompetent fools so you are not, and you are only nice to me because you have been ordered to and not because you care about me in anyway, you still think im an insufferable little know it all, and frankly I think you find it incredibly difficult to even be in the same room as me without snapping, or without thinking about how pathetic I am in your eyes, and honestly I agree with you! I am pathetic and im a horrible person so I hope your happy I really do" she yelled at him and stormed past but he grabbed her wrist

"Miss Granger, what an earth are you going on about! What's happened in the past two hours to make you like this?"

"Malfoy! Draco Malfoy is what's happened! I went too far, I didn't go all the way, but I went too far, I let him know about my scar, how it effects me, I shouldn't have, then I… I threatened him."

"Is this my fault?"

"No it's mine… he jumped me again in the corridor but I didn't resist him, he took me to this…. This room, the only reason we didn't is because he… he tried to take my top of but I stopped, I jumped off him, I wanted to run but I couldn't he, he saw it, he should me his to, he told me how he got them, I betrayed him, his family, Harry…." She paused her eyes full of pain and terror almost whispering "What's happened to me?"

He got the gist of what she was going on about and replied "Your going through an extremely tough time Miss Granger, you weren't thinking straight, he'll understand that, as for his family and Harry they don't have to know, you haven't betrayed anyone, you're not in a relationship with him anymore and I know it hasn't been longing but in the months of grieving, no one thinks straight they do things they would never have done before and then they regret it, thinking that they have betrayed them, but you haven't you were just being reckless, trying to hide the pain, to stop it, that's all. As for what you said about me, do you really think im the type of person who would sit in a room and silently think horrible things about people without voicing them? And would hold back from snapping at them?"

"No… No im sorry… I… just." She sputtered slightly

"Did you take your dreamless sleep potion last night?"

"Yes why?"

He frowned "You look tired"

"I am" she smiled weakly "Nothing im not used to"

"I shouldn't have left you here"

"You have a job and your job is a lot more important than me, are you feeling okay?"

"Yes, I am feeling perfectly fine" he snapped

"Sorry Professor" she said calming herself from her rant

"For what?"

"Oh about earlier, are little fall out, im sorry"

Snapping "You apologize too much"

"Sor..." she began to apologize but he silenced her with a deadly glare "Okay, I shall bear that in mind"

"Humph" he said "It nearly the end of break I better be getting back"

"We still have ten minutes…. Don't be like that"

"Like what?"

"Like a grumpy old sod"

He spun around to face her "Excuse me?" taking a large step towards her

"I do believe I said like a grumpy old sod" he took a large step towards her again and they were millimetres apart "I am well aware of what you said Miss Granger, you deserve a detention for that"

"Ah I thought so" she said thoughtfully stepping backwards to give herself some space

"Do enlighten me to what you thought Miss Granger?" he stepped towards her forcing her to take a step back, landing her back against the wall and him in utter control of her

"The lingering looks. The mood swings. All of it. Your beginning to care about me, and it scares you"

"Care about you?" he repeated sceptical

"Yes care" she said matter of factly, raising her hand to his chest, closing her hand on his robes holding him away before shifting her fist and pulling him close

"What an earth has gotten into you Miss Granger!"

"I honestly don't know Professor, im so sorry" she said letting go of his robes blushing furiously, but he didn't move, their eyes locked and neither of them could "Umm, we need to umm" she stuttered

"Lessons, yes, right" he said stepping away from her but still closer than normal conversations, letting out a breathe she relaxed slightly, looking away, not knowing what came over him, he put his hand under her chin, gently turning her head, she could see the conflicting emotions in his eyes but wasn't sure which ones he would act on, he looked in her eyes and seemed to find what he was looking for as he slowly leaned in and planted his lips gently but passionately on hers, she froze and he worried he had over stepped the line but before he could pull back she had moved her hand and tangled in his, incredibly soft not at all greasy hair, while his came around her waist his hand resting at the bottom of her back, making her feel like her back was on fire (in a good way) causing her to arch towards him, while their other hands entwined together. Hermione met his gaze her breath shaky but her eyes never wavering,

"I shouldn't have done that" he growled to himself and pulled away but Hermione held on to his hand and pulled him to face him

"Sometimes" her voice shaky before she took a deep breath and ploughed onwards, her voice much stronger now "Sometimes in life you have to break the rules, I know it because many a time I have, but life's too short for regrets, because the mistakes you make shape you, I would know, I have made plenty, and when I think back there are something's I wish I could have done differently or did when I had the chance but I didn't and yes I took me a while to accept that and overcome the regret but when I did it made it a little bit easier"

"Well your mistakes are much smaller than mine!" he growled but didn't take his hand from hers

"How do you know!" she immediately sparked up realising his hand "You don't know ANTHING" she threw her hand in the air "About me, you don't know what I've done, you don't know what mistakes I've made"

"Miss Granger!" he growled cutting her off "Your biggest mistake is getting frisky with Malfoy" and he knew he had gone too far, he eyes immediately filled up, her hands clenched subconsciously into fists and she stood up extremely straight, her jaw clenched, he had never seen her lose it like this, even on the many an opportunity she could have, especially with friends like Potter and Weasley "Get out please" her voice scarily calm, her hand going into her robe and pulling out her wand, pointing it at the floor, where sparks where flying threateningly from them

"I…"

"Professor" she growled her voice breaking a bit, God if he didn't leave now she was going to explode at him "Please, get out" her calm faltered slightly as she growled "Now"

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