RECAP: The Titans fought Slade and beat them, resulting in the apparent deaths of Robin, Starfire, and cyborg. Raven and Beastboy have unreasoned guilt sex. The tower burns down. Raven and Beastboy have not talked about their one night stand and are trying to avoid the upcoming emotional breakdown that will result from them losing their friends and home.
Beastboy tightened his grip on Raven's hand as she rose higher. They were flying away from the city. Beastboy didn't care where Raven was taking him, he just wanted to be away from the city just as she did.
they flew for miles along the coast. Far away from civilization. People on beaches stared at them as the flew by.
Raven dropped Beastboy a few feet from the ground above a felid of long, bright grass. She touched down a few yards away. Raven immediately allowed herself to fall backwards into the grass. Beastboy sat down beside her and began to pluck clovers and tie them together.
"Raven?" Beastboy said after a few minutes.
"Yeah?" she replied, gazing up at the few clouds in the sky.
"I know now isn't really the time, but I need to know. About the night in the infirmary-"
"I-I uh, I mean you're right. Now isn't the time to talk about that." She interrupted, Beastboy pursed his lips.
"Well," Beastboy started again, "Then I wanna talk about how I feel right now," he paused, but Raven said nothing, "Fine, you don't have to listen. I am scaring myself right now. I don't feel all that sad about... You know... All I feel is intense anger. And not even towards Slade! Fuck! I'm angry at myself, our late friends, the city, and even you!"
Raven sat up and looked at him, "I don't feel like that at all. I am trying very hard to keep my mind off of this. I can't exert my emotions like you. I am currently calm feeling, and lonely, that's why I don't want to talk about us, well, sleeping together. I can't deal with this emotional stress."
Beastboy sighed and nodded, "I understand what you're feeling. I mean, earlier, I felt like The Beast was trying to get out. I felt like..."
"Like you had to suppress it," Raven finished his sentence, "Yeah that's exactly it." she looked down sadly.
Then Beastboy stood up, "Maybe we don't have to suppress it! We've already lost everything, why don't we just take it out on the world!" he said with excitement.
Raven looked up at him worriedly, "Beastboy, no." she said quietly. She stood up slowly as Beastboy continued.
"Yes! I can become the beast, you can release your rage, Raven! We don't have to be good anymore!" he shook her excitedly by the shoulders."
"Stop it Beastboy! Just stop! Please!" she pounded to fleshy part of her fist on his chest, but not hard enough to hurt him.
Beastboy grabbed her arms, "What the matter? Don't you wish you could just let go? I mean it's seems so easy to be bad!"
"Azar! Beastboy I know! I think about how easy it would be to kill, more than you could imagine. But knowing that my best, and only friends believe in doing good and stopping evil is enough to prevent me from doing that!" she took a deep breath and calmed down, "If you turn away from justice, then I will lose my freedom to decide for myself if I should be good or evil. If you turn evil, I have no choice but to follow. That's not what I want." she pleaded with him.
Beastboy rubbed the back of his neck and shrugged apologetically, "God, Raven. I'm sorry. I was thinking impulsively. I guess I just associate anger with evil," Raven nodded her head at his words but still seemed unsure, "Here," Beastboy grabbed her hand tightly, "I promise I will never, ever, ever give up justice. We need each other right now. So I won't let go."
Raven gave a weak smile and embraced Beastboy. He gently rubbed her back.
"Thank you." she whispered. Then she pulled away and regained her composure,"We should contact the Titans East. They need to know what happened. We'll also probably end up staying with them until we figure out what we will do about Jump City. Nobody except- except Slade knows what happened besides us. If the tower is burnt down everyone, including villains would think we were all dead."
"And that's a bad thing." Beastboy added in.
"Yes," Raven said, "we don't want a crime spree to occur because people think there is no one there who can stop them." Raven started thinking and Beastboy looked around at their surroundings.
"Raven?" Beastboy started, "We don't have to leave, you know, now, do we? Because right now, all I really want to do is reminisce with you, here. I mean, just because they're, well, they're gone, uhh, doesn't mean we should forget about them."
Raven nodded, "Yeah, sounds like a good plan."
Beastboy's eyes brightened and he held his hand out in a gentlemanly manner and when Raven took it he fell backwards on the grass and pulled her down with him.
"Remember our first official mission? Not where we rescued Starfire, but a few weeks after when Robin called us all?" Beastboy shook his head happily, remembering the moments.
"Cinderblock..." Raven almost laughed, "Yeah I remember... Wha? Beastboy, are you, are you crying?"
He turned away from her and chuckled, "We barely knew each other, yet we already fit together like, I don't know, a team made in... Heaven. Like a family. Yes, I'm crying. I lost my family." he looked to the side and saw dark clouds in the distance.
"I'm still here." Raven said. She put her hand on his chest, a comforting gesture, but she was really trying to grasp his emotions. Beastboy continued to stare at the far off clouds, oblivious to Raven searching his soul. She dug though his heart and felt his sadness and joy, the anger he had told her about, but there was something else, something that didn't feel like an emotion, that he was thinking about. Raven pressed her eyebrows down in frustration as she tried to grab what Beastboy was thinking, and she felt him wondering about something. She found herself unconsciously pressing her hand down harder on his chest, and then his thoughts suddenly got really loud and Raven knew what he was thinking. But then Beastboy grabbed her wrist.
"Look!" he pointed towards the sun, where a silhouette could be seen getting bigger as it neared them.
"No..." Raven whispered, wide eyed.
"Oh my God! Is that really-"
"That's Impossible! It can't be!" Raven said in a strained whisper to herself.
To Be Continued...
Review, maybe you can guess who it is, tho I think it's pretty obvious and ninety percent of you will guess correctly.