WOOOHO! Chapter 6 is now up! To LemonDropsWoolSocks I am trying really hard to include Andromeda and she will pop up if only briefly in the next chapter I hope she is up to your standards if not tell me and I will fix it! And to lalakid87 you crack me up! I thought someone would think the story ended there it did seem like it could but no I wouldn't do that to cissy and sev it's just not fair! And you are exactly right Cissy will mend his heart maybe not in this chapter but she will get around to it! Lastly but never least to singingequestrian89 I am so glad you like my story that means a lot! And you summed up what happened to Cissa right then and there a perfect explanation 20 points to whatever house you are in! Thank you for your understanding about the honors thing and for you luck I'm going to need it! Thank you all for commenting and as I have said before any suggestions comments concerns loves or hates I am all ears for!

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Clareabell

Chapter 6

I was a broken man. After the Lily incident and Cissa's marriage my heart was replaced with a cursed device that was designed to hate anyone and anything. After Cissa had left I realized I had shared her feelings but it was too late she was lost forever to powerful, rich, handsome Lucius Malfoy. I buried those feelings deep inside me. Inside a place only Cissa could reach. I had lost my heart and the one person who could find it and mend it was lost as well. Hopeless, heartless, hopeless. After my Seventh year at Hogwarts I left and did the only thing a heartless person could do. I joined the Death Eaters.

"Rise." Said the cold high voice.

Lucius Malfoy patted me on the back and said

"You are one of us now." At the time I thought that this was all I could have ever wanted. But I still had Lily and Cissa tucked away in the deepest most secret inner corners of my mind.

After the Dark Mark ceremony Lucius caught up with me.

"Some of the others are coming to a small get-together at my Manor I would be most delighted of you joined us." He smiled.

"It would be an honor." What did I just do? Did I just agree to go to Cissa's house? Yes I did. Shit.

"Wonderful, Come I will escort you there." Lucius and I walked to the apparition point and apparated together for there. Malfoy Manor was one of the most darkly beautiful things I had ever seen. It was four stories tall with jet black stone and grey roofing. In the garden there were what looked to be albino peacocks. Lucius lead me to the front door and into his and Cissa's home.

"Have you met my wife Severus?" Lucius broke my train of thought.

"No I do not believe so." I don't know why but I thought it best that Lucius was kept in the dark about Cissa's and my friendship.

"I must introduce you! NARCISSA! Get down here we have guests." I could already tell this was a loveless marriage. Not just the fact that Cissa did not want to marry Lucius in the first place but because of the way Lucius talked about her as if she was some sort of trophy. Which she was.

I heard a small sad voice call down the stairs.

"Just in the nursery dear I will be right down."

Lucius looked displeased I would soon learn it is never good when Lucius is displeased.

"Do hurry up Narcissa." He growled the words out like a dog who had just had its bone taken away.

I however was hung up on Cissa's statement. Nursery. She had said she was in the nursery. It couldn't be…

"Ahhh…There you are my darling." Lucius said. "Allow me to introduce my wife Narcissa."

I looked up to see a beautiful young woman with a long pail face the color of porcelain. Her eyes the color of the sky on a summer's day and still the largest eyes I have ever seen. Her face had not changed at all except she bore a thin scar just under the right side of her jaw.

When I got her alone she will tell me where that came from. Weather she wants to or not. She was thin, almost to the point of being unhealthy, except for her large protruding belly. Cissa was pregnant.

"It is a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Malfoy, Severus Snape at your service."

Cissa did not look shocked nor happy, sad, or angry; she looked the same as she did when she came down the stairs. She looked like she was a doll, a puppet, sad and out of control she looked broken. And she was.

Lucius broke the silence. "Darling, Severus has just joined my club isn't that wonderful you know how we have been looking for a skilled member! We were so lucky to have found you Severus!" I was shocked. He wasn't even telling her the truth, a club he called it. Some club.

"Lovely indeed Lucius dear, Mr. Snape I am happy to welcome you into our home." She gave a graceful incline of the head just as Bellatrix had once done to me and a small smile. That single Mr. Snape was worse than an 'I hate you'.

"Would you like to be shown around the house Severus? I am sure Narcissa will be more than willing."

This was it this was my chance to talk to her alone. "That would be lovely."

"Wonderful, You two go on I have some other guests to attend to. Excuse me." With one graceful swish of his cloak Lucius was gone.

"Cissa…Where did you get that scar? Was it Lucius? I have seen what he has done…" She had held up her hand as a signal for me to stop.

"Don't act for a moment as if you care. And I would advise you not to speak ill of Lucius and what he has done…You are no better. Now come I was supposed to be giving you a tour." She did not seem angry or agitated but there was coldness in her voice that had never existed in the Cissa I knew.

I obeyed her command and followed her down a dark hallway filled with pail regal look looking faces all staring down at us with haughty sneers. Cissa lead me to a small blue room and muttered many complicated incantations at the door. She turned around and motioned for me to sit. I did as I was told.

"I do apologize if I was harsh Severus but this is the only room where Lucius does not have spies. Now you asked about my scar. Yes it was from Lucius no it was not an accident. And no I do not care." The look in her eyes said otherwise.

"Cissa…You need to get out of here." I lightly touched the scar I could tell it had been a deep gash. "It's not right…"

"When I said 'Don't act for a moment as if you care.' I meant it Severus."

"Of course I care Cissa! How could you say that?" I was deeply hurt but then again she had a right to feel this way I had broken her heart just as Lily did mine.

"I think you could answer that for yourself after all the words came out of your own mouth. 'I love Lily always have and always will'. Don't act for a minute as if you give a damn about how I feel when you have you precious Lily. Did you ever try to contact me after I left NO! So what makes you think that I should believe you when you say you care about whether or not I get hurt when you didn't even bother to check on me! You didn't care when you ripped my heart out so why Severus should you care now? I know what you have become and I am ashamed of you." She collapsed into the chair closest to her and sobbed.

I had never seen her like this it was as if all of her past emotions over the years had spilled out of her. It was then when I abandoned all reason, walked over to her and held her in my arms just like she did when I had called Lily a mud blood.

"I-I missed you so much Severus…Lucius…He…He hit me for not giving him an heir fast enough when I became pregnant and had a girl he…He gave her up for adoption and said we would t-try again. I was so upset I begged him to bring her back but he wouldn't hear it and that's how it got the scar…"

"Shhhh Cissa…That child is far better off without Lucius in its life." I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"This one is a boy." She sniffed. She smiled and rubbed her stomach. Without thinking I did the same.

She looked up into my eyes a pleading look on her face. "I'm scared Severus…Lucius might lose his temper one day and…and kill me…I don't want him to raise my baby…Severus promise me you will take it if that happens promise me you will raise him please." She looked so helpless and so afraid so unlike the Cissa I knew. I couldn't speak I did not know what to do. She looked deep into my eyes and after what seemed like an eternity she spoke.

"There is hope for you Severus. You are still that young boy who was kind enough to share a seat with me on the train; you are still that boy who would cut off his own foot for Lily Evans. Your heart is not lost forever it just may take a little while to find it." She looked down and whispered. "I still love you."

I looked into her eyes. Before I knew what I was doing I kissed her. This kiss was nothing short of a dream. I was the most right thing in the world. All of our troubles and worries where gone just for a moment the world was at peace. We pulled apart and I found the exact words to express what I was feeling.

"You had my heart all along…It just took me a while to realize you had stolen it. I love you Cissa Black."

Haha I was bored and couldn't sleep and this is what happened I hope you like it it's not my best chapter but eh whatever next up Severus changes sides, falls in love, and loses a dear friend. Oh and Draco is born duh lol! Thank you all!