This whole chapter is in Jess' POV :)

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I told Lester I was going out and I think he knew where I was going... to find Becker. I hated it when he was mad at me, and with these hormones it doesn't take alot to make me cry.

Pulling up at Becker's last known were abouts I seen Abby and Connor there and the anomaly had opened again in the exact same place "Which way did he go?" Abby shrugged and I looked at Connor for answers but he shrugged his shoulders to.

Getting back into the car I thought about where he might be and decided to try home but when I got to the car park his car wasn't there so I was pretty sure that he wasn't there and when I went into the apartment he wasn't there... he had been though because all his stuff was gone. He's left me. There was a note in the kitchen and even though I didn't want to read it I thought it might help.

Jess...

I'm sorry but I have to go after Katie, she's my little sister and I can't leave her alone in that anomaly in God knows what time period. I hope to be back for the birth of our child

I love you lots and lots... Becker xx

My whole world came crashing down at the short note he'd left me. Of course I wanted Katie to be OK but I couldn't bring up his child on my own, he promised he would be there for me and he lied!

Katie shouldn't of gone with them and when she went through the anomaly and confronted him about it. She's a 16 year old girl and now she's most likely dead and James has to deal with that for the rest of his life and Becker isn't getting off the hook that easily either because he shouldn't of agreed to let her go, she would've been safer at the ARC with me.

I didn't feel like staying alone here so I went back to the ARC and got sypathy looks off everyone that I passed and I didn't want their sympathy looks... I wanted Becker!

Sitting in my seat I felt someone grab the back of the seat and turn it around, I came face to face with Lester "Come into my office" I nodded and followed him into his office and took a seat opposite his.

We didn't talk for a couple of minutes "They have been classed as missing but I don't think they'll come back alive. Not both of them anyway. Abby and Connor couldn't stop him, he shot Connor with the EMD and Abby was getting coffee when he went through and if I'm honest Jess we don't even know if it was the same time period"

I thanked him for being honest with me and he tried to make me take time off but I didn't see the point in going back there to an apartment which we used to share and now it's just me alone. I don't want to go back there at all if I'm honest with all them memories of Becker and Katie there.

Abby came to my station when she got back from anomaly patrol "I'm sorry Jess, but he's a fighter... he'll come back with Katie and they will both be fine" she rubbed my back in a comforting way but she didn't understand.

"How can you tell me that everything is going to be OK? Becker and Katie have gone through an anomaly which may not even lead to the same time period. I'm about to have his baby and he's not here... does that seem like everything is going to be OK? No it isn't going to be OK... they'll probably end up dead and I'll be bringing up this baby by myself like I knew I would be!"

Everyon turned to look at me and they looked at me like I was crazy, wouldn't they be a little crazy if they were in my position?

I knew when I found out I was pregnant that I would end up doing this alone because Becker would end up dead sooner or later and it just goes to prove that I was right. This baby that me and Becker made together was just now my baby.

Maybe I could take that time off the Lester offered. Knocking on his door he opened it and instantly said "Yes the offer for leave is still avaliable Jess and you can take as much time as you need... actually I don't want to see you in here working until you've had your baby OK?" I nodded without arguing because I just couldn't be botherd and left.

There was no need to say bye to anybody because they knew where I lived and my phone number if they really wanted to see and speak to me. I think people knew though as I left Lester's office and I knew I was going to be the centre of gossip because of what I said to Abby but I don't care.

Matt instantly knew that I was leaving work for a while because he stopped me in the car park "I think Becker would kill me if I didn't come and make sure that you were OK every now and then, if you need anything Jess then you can call me... you know that right? Any time of day... Lots of people have probably offered that to you but I mean it. Me and Becker didn't see eye-to-eye all the time but he's a decent bloke and I'll look out for you"

He was sweet and he was wrong, nobody had offered to come round and look after me or be there for me and I knew he meant it and it really was sweet of him to offer but for a few days I just wanted to be by myself and think things through.

What will I do if I go into labour? Who's going to be there? Who's going to help me look after my baby? I'm going to have to go through labour on my own and I'm going to have to do it all by myself! I swear if Becker was here now that I would get an EMD and shoot him myself... more then once.

I pulled up at home and got out of the car and went upto my now lonely and quiet apartment and sat there all night thinking about Becker and Katie and where they are, what they might be doing, did they find eachother... but I couldn't bring myself to answer any of them.

Becker was probably gone forever and so was Katie. I wouldn't see them ever again and I knew it... I'm not stupid.

8 1/2 months pregnant

I shot up in bed with a sweat like I had done every night since Becker and Katie had gone missing and it was the same nightmare.

Becker and Katie had gone back in time to the Jurassic period and they tried to stay alive but they ended up dead... both of them.

They were not apart of my new life anymore, they were apart from my old life and when my baby asks where it's daddy is I'm going to tell them that their daddy was in the military and died saving people's lived because they didn't need to know that their daddy left them when mummy was pregnant no matter what the circumstances were.

Matt had up held his promise and came to see me every few days, sometimes with Emily. He would always bring me some shopping and buy little bits for the baby now and again and he told me once that I'm to call him when I'm in labour because he will go through it with me becuase he didn't want me to be alone.

I hope Becker realises that he's lost his child and he did the moment he thought about going through that anomaly. Even if he does come back I don't want anything to do with him because I want someone who will be there for me constantly...Ahh!

There was a sharp pain in my stomach and then there was a puddle of water on my bed. I was in labour... no no no, this was not ment to happen for another two weeks!

Grabbing my phone I called Matt and he answered "Hello?" I told him I was in labour and he said he was getting Emily and coming round to take me to hospital.

It wasn't long before they showed up and we left so I could have my baby.

We arrived at the hospital and Matt stayed with me whilst Emily went outside to ring everyone to tell them, Matt was so supportive bless him, he held my hand, wiped the sweat off my head, rubbed my back and was doing all the stuff that Becker was supposed to do.

The doctor came in about an hour and a half later and felt around a bit "Your ready to push" she said with a smile on her face. I turned to Matt and he grabbed my hand and encouraged me the whole time.

I pushed for what seemed like forever and then a cry was heard throughout the room and I feel back on the bed with a huge sigh "You did it Jess... Well done" Matt said and kissed my forehead.

"Congratulations... you have a little boy"

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OK so Jes has had the baby... what will she name him? will Becker come back ever? will Katie ever come back? All these answers will be answered in the next few chapters... Much Love M xoxoxo