OK I know I haven't updated in a while but my laptop is still broken so I'm still using my brothers computer…

Becker

I got to the ARC and went to Matt's office as he had summoned me through Lester. I walked in without knocking and stood in front of him waiting for him to speak. He looked up at me and dropped the pen he was holding.

"I have an address for you. It's where Jess and Alex are. Don't ask how I got it, I just want you to go there and sort it out with her"

How did he get the address? Did she tell him? Why did she tell him and not me?

I rushed home and packed my stuff, booked my ticket to Ireland so I can go and get my family back.

When I landed and got my bags I went out the front and got a taxi to the address Matt had given me.

When I got there I stood at the door hesitating to knock but I know I had to… I took a deep breath and knocked on the door, I heard footsteps on the other side of the door then it opened and Jess was standing in front of me. She opened the door wider for me to come in and lead me to the living room where we sat next to each other on the sofa. "Why are you here? I would've told you were I was when things had calmed down"

I knew she would be angry that I was here but I didn't care. I wanted my family back. "Matt gave me an address. Why did you tell him where you were but not me?".

"I didn't give him or anyone the address. Please can you leave… I need time by myself for a while, when things settle I am going to get my own place here and I'm going to stay here permanently. You can come and visit whenever you want"

No! She wasn't going to move here with my son and leave me behind. "Jess you said you wouldn't leave me. I need you and Alex, how about I move with you? We start a fresh new life as a family… me, you and Alex?"

Jess seemed to go over the idea in her mind for what seemed like forever "I need time to think and I need to be re-assured that if I agree to giving us another chance that it will be different this time… different for the better"

I could give her the life that she wanted if she would give me another chance "Jess I promise that I will be better, I'll be whatever you want… just let me be there for you"

Jess

I have to admit that since leaving Becker I had missed him so much and I didn't feel complete without waking up next to him every morning.

I suppose there really was nobody better for me then Becker, we even each other out and I can't honestly see myself without anyone else… the thought of him with another girl made my skin crawl.

"OK. We can give us another shot and believe me when I say this… this is your last chance, if you screw this up then that's it we are over for good"

I nodded and he hugged me, it felt so good to be in his arms again so I snuggled down deeper into his embrace and as soon as I did he tightened his grip on me "I'm sorry for everything… I love you" he whispered to me.

ALEX'S FIRST BIRTHDAY

Everyone had flown over from London to see Alex on his first birthday.

We threw a little party for him in our new house which we only moved into three weeks ago, Abby kept saying how lovely it was which made me smile… I had decorated most of it by myself.

Alex got so many presents and I wasn't sure where I could put them all, we only had a small house and it was already over filled with toys of his… he really didn't need anymore.

Abby and Connor got his a football kit with his name on the back and the number 1 below his name and Connor made him a toy EMD that shot blue spongy balls which he wasn't playing with for a couple years. I didn't want to lose my son to the military even though I'm sure Becker will do something to make him into a little solider boy.

Matt and Emily brought him a new walker because he would only take a few steps before falling over again and his old walker got broken by the mover people who dropped it. I kept meaning to buy a new one but I was so busy with moving and all the rest of it.

Lester had put money in a card for him and it was a lot of money 500 euro actually. Me and Becker decided to put that money in a bank account we set up for him so he had a secure future.

As the night went on Becker and Matt stayed far away from each other, I was half grateful for that because then they couldn't argue with each other but it's Alex's first birthday couldn't they get on for one weekend or at least pretend.

Thing's between me and Becker couldn't be better, the only arguments we had since getting back together were about silly things like him leaving the toilet seat up… normal stuff.

Becker put Alex to bed when it was his bed time but everyone stayed and had a few drinks and have a little catch up.

They had hired a new field co-ordinator and not many people like her because she was a 'slut' apparently and since working there she had slept with various members of the ARC team and since she was hired there were a lot more injuries in the field.

Lester had put Becker's second in command as head of security and everyone seemed to get on with him OK they said he was nice but really quiet… unlike Becker.

I sat down on the sofa with a 'humph' when everyone had left. Becker sat next to me and we cuddled "I love them all to bits but they do talk an awful lot… especially Connor, that boy does nothing but talk" he laughed and kissed the top of my head.

I looked up at him and we looked into each other's eyes for a second before we kissed, it was a deep and passionate kiss. Becker picked me up as he stood up off the sofa still kissing me, I wrapped my legs around his waist and he walked us up the stair, past the bathroom and Alex's room and then we got to our room.

Becker threw me on the bed and I giggled, then things heated up from there.

Becker

I awoke the next morning to the sound of Alex making his usual gurgling noises and I looked at Jess who was fast asleep, she looked so beautiful and peaceful laying there.

Quickly and quietly I untangled myself from the sheets and Jess then put my boxers and some pyjama bottoms on and went into Alex's room, he was standing up in his crib smiling at me "Morning little man" I said as I walked over to him and picked hum up then put him on the floor so he could play with his toys.

Going back to my room I seen Jess still asleep. I grabbed the baby monitor and gave Jess a quick kiss on the cheek and left the room closing the door and went downstairs to the kitchen to make Alex some breakfast.

After his food was made I went and got Alex and brought him downstairs to eat, he didn't like being brought away from his toys but as soon as he spotted the food his toys were soon forgotten.

Jess came down as he was finishing his breakfast "Look at mummy… isn't she beautiful" I said to Alex who wasn't really listening as he was still eating. She laughed and walked over to us, kissing Alex's cheek then kissing me on the lips "I always loved you in my shirts"

She looked so cute when she blushed, she knelt down to my ear "I always loved you without a shirt on… so hot" she whispered then got up and started making food "You want something?" she asked.

"No I might make something later" I could hear the pots and pans clanging around and doors opening and closing, she always made so much noise when she was cooking.

"Everyone will be round later… don't forget we're going out somewhere. I'm bringing Alex, are you coming with us or are you going to be un-sociable?"

We had decided to go for a picnic at a local park but we knew this secluded bit that meant we could chill without people noise and talk about the ARC without being caught. We were having a good time until Matt started talking to Jess and trying to hold Alex whilst he was eating which he didn't like.

As the day went on me and Matt were annoying each other to much and started arguing. He started it by asking Jess if I had hit her or upset her in any way.

I shouted at him before Jess could reply and before long we started fighting, Emily tried to stop us fighting as did Jess but they soon stopped and left with everyone else, probably going back to my house.

Just as I took him down to the floor I was on top and raised my hand to punch him when he shouted.

"I'm Alex! I'm your son!"

I want at least 3 reviews for this chapter before the next one comes out… much love M xoxoxo