Title: Fix You (4/?)
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Tragedy strikes Arizona while in Africa, forcing her to come home.

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Disclaimer: I own nothing. I do not intend to profit in any way, shape or form by posting this story. It's for fun, nothing more, and nothing less. Please don't sue me.

A/N: Wow, I got this out more soon than I thought I would be able too! This chapter is a little shorter than my usual, but the ending felt natural. Thanks soooo much to Drea for pretty much betaing this for me. Lol She's really the most awesome human being ever, everyone should thank her for pushing me to get this out asap! Thank you for all the reviews, I so so appreciate them all!

Also, I know there was a complaint about spacing when pov's change. I have no idea why FF. net has issues with me adding spaces, but it does. There are additional breaks between those paragraphs on my LJ postings, so I just wanted to apologize to anyone who gets confused because I'm incapable of adding those line breaks! Enjoy chapter 4!

Callie was leaning back on the couch with a medical journal in her lap. The television was on and Dora the Explorer was dancing on the screen while teaching some random words in Spanish. She wasn't really paying enough attention to know exactly which word until a three year old mop of blonde hair jumped up from the other side of the coffee table. "Sombraro!" He shouted and his lips curled into a huge smile, two dimples popping out from his cheeks. His blue eyes were bright and trained on Callie with so much mischief and love that she feared her heart would burst.

"Do you mean sombrero, bebito?"

"Means hat, Mama!" The little boy grabbed a small red baseball cap that was on the coffee table and put it on his head. "Hat, Mama! Dora has brown hat!" He pointed to the television to make his point and Callie was nice enough to look up and nod once when she saw that Dora was, indeed, wearing a brown hat.

"What color is your hat?"

"Rrrrred!" The little boy fell back onto the floor and pulled his red hat to his chest and hugged it. "Red my favorites!"

"Red is your favorite and I know, bebito. You talked your Mama into painting your room with that fire truck motif." Callie grinned remembering when she was installing the fire truck bed into the little boys room. He ran into the room and jumped onto the mattress and begged for walls to match his bed. She could never say no to her little bebito.

"M… mo.. mo teefs?" He gave his mom a confused look that just made Callie chuckle.

"Don't worry about it, bebito. It just means your room is all red because you love red!" He nodded and clapped his hands before turning back to watch more Dora the Explorer.

The door to the house opened and she listened as some shuffling occurred at the door and then rapid footsteps were heading the way of the living room. Suddenly, a mass of dark brown curls flew over the back of the couch and landed right next to her.

"Mama! Mis dientes eran perfectos!" The little five year old brunette girl had dark eyes and tanned skin that matched her own. She gave her Mama a big smile, showing off her beautiful white teeth. Callie reached out and grabbed her and pulled the girl into her lap while tickling her. The girl giggled helplessly for a moment before she scurried away from her to go sit next to her brother and watch Dora. Callie watched as he snuggled into the girls embrace and she felt such pride that her children loved one another so much and were so close.

Moments later she heard some shuffling from the kitchen behind her, so she turned to look over the couch and smiled as her very pregnant wife was waddling to the kitchen with a bag of groceries.

"Dude, did your back ache like this the two times you were pregnant?" Arizona stretched her back slightly while she started to empty the cloth bag.

"You don't remember all the complaining I did, Arizona? You don't remember the night you went to the bathroom and locked yourself in for an hour while I complained at the door?" Callie laughed now, though at the time she was extremely livid. "You're spending too much time with Alex, you know."

"He is one of my attendings, you know." Arizona made it a point to mock Callie when she said that and then laughed, "And yes… Now I remember, I can't wait to annoy you to the point of hour long showers so you don't have to listen to me talk." She watched as Callie rolled her eyes and laughed softly. "By the way, thanks for the all the help with these groceries…" pouted Arizona as she placed the bag on the counter, but it only lasted a second before turning into a grin. "Next time, you get to deal with the dentist and I'll stay home and playing with Timmy."

Callie gave Arizona a look of mock hurt, "Playing? Is that what you thought I was doing? I was actually reading this little medical journal which happens to have an article in it in which two very awesome doctors saved a little boy by operating on him and using this special cartilage to make sure he could walk again. It was an awesome article."

Arizona gasped and dropped the apple she was about to put away onto the counter so she could clap her hands. "They published it?" Callie laughed at her wife's exuberance and nodded. She was about to say more, but the doorbell sounded in the house.

"DOOR!" Two little angelic voices rang out from the living room.

"Yeah, thanks for letting me know… And since I'm up, I'll get it." muttered Arizona as she started waddling her way toward the door. She could hear Callie laughing behind her and the thought of her family in that room just made her smile. She loved her life.

She walked to the door and opens it and then feels her heart plummet to her feet. She can't breathe and her entire body feels like jelly. There, in front of her, was the man in the white beret sitting on his stallion with a grin on his face. Next to him stood his two cohorts, also with sick grins on their faces as well. Arizona felt sick to her stomach and stumbled back a step.

"We came to finish the job," was all Arizona heard as the horse stepped toward her.

I jolted awake and felt my heart attempting to march right out of my chest. I was sweating and it made me feel uncomfortable and itchy… or it was just the crappy hospital sheets. Maybe both. I let out a long sigh and sniffle back some tears, but they were still streaming down my face despite my attempts to stop them. I felt hot and stifled and wanted nothing more than to get up and walk right out of the room and go smoke a cigarette. My heart is still racing and I can't help but look behind me and make sure the man in the white beret is not there. With another sigh of relief I look around the rest of the room and my heart just breaks all over again. Callie is sitting at the end of the couch which was brought into my private room and she has her arm around my mother, whose head was resting against her shoulder. It looked as though they both had been crying.

Arizona Robbins, bringing the pain to all that love her.

And even though they were in pain over what happened to me, there they were, side by side supporting me and each other. Even with the cold shoulder I gave Teddy while I was in Africa, Teddy ignored it and supported me when she found out I was back. I'm having trouble deciding if I'm blessed or cursed. My hands are still hurting, but I don't want to bother Calliope. I just can't keep my eyes off her. She's so beautiful, even with no make-up and in scrubs. She looks so calm and peaceful when she sleeps. I can't help but grin. If she knew I was watching her sleep, she'd make it a point to remind me when I used to complain about her doing the same to me. I guess I understand now. I lean back in the bed and my eyes immediately are pulled toward the window and the darkened sky outside. I knew sleep wouldn't come, but at least I had plenty of pretty things to try and distract my mind.

"Dude, what's going on in there?" Alex nodded toward the room in which the other residents were standing.

Cristina scoffed and turned toward him. Her eyes widened and she laughed shortly again and then slapped Meredith's arm. "He doesn't know."

Meredith's eyes widened as well for a moment and then she turned and looked at Alex who wore a really dumb abused puppy face.

"What don't I know?" Alex's voice sounded gruff as always and he tried to peer into the room, but there were too many white coats in the way to even get a glimpse of the patient.

Lexie took a bite from the candy bar in her hand and then jumped slightly at Alex's question. "She means you don't know that Dr. Robbins is back."

"Robbins is back! YES!" Alex pounded the nurse's station with his fist as though the counter was his bro. "Stark sucks. I mean, seriously, seriously sucks. So if Robbins is back, then I can get back to peds and actually enjoy my job."

"Awww, the babysitter inside you is strong with the force, Alex." Cristina laughed like what she said was the funniest thing ever. Meredith and Lexie chuckled, but April… Well, April just glared at them all.

"I can't believe you guys are standing here and joking around when Dr. Robbins' surgical career hangs in the balance." She crossed her arms over her chest and shook her head. "She is such a strong woman. How does one even come back here after everything she did? I don't think I would have set foot back here. The chief is upset that she's not still in Africa, because the publicity from the grant committee for the hospital was great, but now they have a surgeon from Columbia that replaced her. Callie was completely overwrought by how they ended things, which we still haven't gotten the whole story of…"

"Oh, I got the whole ear full…" Cristina said with a sharp laugh, one that meant nothing was funny about the situation.

"…what? Surgical career hangs in balance? Dude, are you high?" Alex was just staring at April with a scowl.

"April…" Avery said quietly, trying to get her to stop her rant.

"…except Cristina, I guess. And then Mark was in full jerk mode when he found out she was back, but that before he knew…" April finally stopped and sighed. All six of the residents peered into the glass door of Arizona's room and for a moment, the sea of white coats parted and there sat Arizona. Her hands were on a small table as the doctors discussed whatever they were discussing.

"Dude, what the hell happened?" Alex basically yelled as he stepped toward the door. He was so loud that it caught the attention of everyone in the room. Bailey turned at them and scowled. Mark stood rigid with a small frown on his face. Owen and Teddy were looking at the x-rays which were mounted on the light box. Derek was pointing something out to them and to Mrs. Robbins, who was hanging on their every word. Chief Webber stood off to the side, a guilty look on his face. He had already assured Arizona that Seattle Grace – Mercy West would be taking care of all of her medical expenses, since she was working on behalf of the hospital during her time in Malawi, but it didn't stop the feeling of utter guilt because of how angry he was when he learned she was back and way before the allotted time.

And then there was Callie. Callie was replacing the dressings on both of Arizona's hands. She had glanced at the group of interns momentarily, but quickly gave Arizona all of her attention. They were talking quietly to one another as though they were the only two people in the room. Arizona had a small smile on her face and Callie was grinning at whatever she just said. Callie took a moment and raised her hand to gently caress Arizona's cheek and Arizona leaned into the touch. Callie said something and nodded once at the end of the sentence and then went back to work on Arizona's hands.

"Are they back together?" Alex asked as he nodded toward Callie and Arizona.

"You never know with those two." Meredith said with a shrug.

"Do we know which of us are going to be on this case yet?" Avery asked, "…because from what I heard, this will be the first case where Torres actually uses the cartilage she makes. And that can be the difference between two healthy hands that will operate again or two hands that may as well be amputated." He shrugged lightly.

"God, could you be more of an ass?" April said while she smacked his arm.

"This is one of us, a surgeon, and one who saves children for god's sake; can you at least pretend not to be so callous?" Lexie rolled her eyes.

"I thought it was kinda funny. I mean, think about it, how would a lesbian be able to live with no hands?" Cristina shrugged slightly and lifted her hands so that she could wiggle her fingers at everyone. She then looked at Meredith. Meredith was trying to hide the laugh that was dying to come out.

"Cristina!" Lexie and April both turned to look at Cristina with wide eyes.

"That was kinda low, even for you Yang." Alex muttered under his breath. He felt like he was in shock. His mentor, the only teacher that really seemed to put up with him, the only person that really seemed to believe in him and his abilities, may never operate again. Outside, Alex looked normal, but inside, inside he was mourning. Mourning all the children that would die because they didn't have the amazing Arizona Robbins on their side, they'd end up with some lazy jerk like Stark who would rather finish his tiramisu before getting to the hospital and operating on them. Mourning his own career, because he just knew he would never get to the level he felt he could with Dr. Robbins. "This sucks."

At that moment, his eyes locked with Arizona's and he felt his heart breaking for his mentor. She looked lost and haunted and it made Alex wonder what he would do if he were in her situation. He wasn't sure he'd survive, since the first thought he had was to just kill himself. He wouldn't know how to live if he couldn't operate. And he knew that thought must have gone through Arizona's mind, because despite her sunshine and rainbows demeanor, she was a hardcore surgeon. He glanced at the other residents, they were just standing around and chatting as though today was a normal day, but it wasn't!

"Screw it." Alex marched right into the room. He walked right past Chief Webber, ignored Shepherd, Hunt, Altman and Mrs. Robbins. He looked at Callie, who was still working on Arizona's hands and she nodded her head at him. He stepped up next to Arizona and looked into her eyes again. Her eyes were wet with unshed tears as she looked at him and he just wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her into him in a warm embrace. She rested her head against his chest and sobbed. He looked over at Callie and she frowned and looked as though she was holding back tears herself.

"Who's that?" Mrs. Robbins asked Derek.

He glanced at Alex and then back at Barbara. "That is Arizona's star pupil."

Barbara nodded at this revelation and couldn't help the small smile that appeared on her lips. Her daughter was so successful; it made her swell with pride. She wasn't just successful as a doctor, but she was a humanitarian, a teacher, a wonderful daughter. It amazed her that she gave birth to such an amazing woman. And she was over the moon that Arizona found Callie. She knew Callie was the one for her daughter. The way she took over care for Arizona and not only her surgical care, but emotional and mental care, it gave Barbara hope. Hope that even if the operation didn't work, that Arizona could survive because she had Callie to support her. She was putting her faith in both women that everything would work out for them.

Meanwhile, outside of the room, the five other residents were watching with eager eyes what occurred before them. Avery rolled his eyes, unimpressed with Alex's actions. Then again, he didn't work much with Dr. Robbins and he didn't really like peds. He felt bad for Torres because of all the rumors flying now, so he really didn't care about Dr. Robbins, only about the surgery. He wanted in on it and hoped Torres would choose him.

Meredith smiled and watched as Alex talked softly to Dr. Robbins. She knew Alex had squishy insides and it wasn't often he let other people catch a glimpse of them, but people he cared for were his soft spot. It reminded her of when Izzie was in a hospital bed, how Alex cared for her. And when she was back at work after her many surgeries, he made sure she ate and took her medicine, when all she wanted to do was stay in the program. He let himself be uncomfortable to try and give her a better life. Yeah, Alex Karev was a good man.

Cristina was watching with a stoic face, but he was glad Alex was in there and comforting Robbins, cause she certainly wasn't going too. She was there when Callie was falling apart because of Arizona's leaving. She watched Callie cry her eyes out and be a general pain in the ass. The only good thing about Robbins being back was maybe the old Callie would come back. At least, she hoped so. As of right now, it looked like Robbins might be to broken to be fixed and she could understand why, after all, Cristina was a surgical whore. She had no idea what she would do without her hands and that's exactly a future Robbins might have to deal with. Cristina shuddered from the thought.

Lexie was sporting a wry smile as she watched Alex comfort Dr. Robbins. She knew Alex was a good man, despite their past together being rather volatile at times. She wished that he would find someone that he could love as much as he loved Izzie. She could never be with him again after the shooting and it hurt her. She was falling for him and finally getting over Mark, but everything ended up tail spinning when Alex cried for Izzie as he was fighting for his life. She was mostly disappointed because she saw a future with him. And watching him pull Dr. Robbins into his arms and comfort her made Lexie want the easy going days of their relationship back.

April was feeling a little uneasy. It was weird seeing all of the doctors working on one of their own again. It brought back feelings from the shooting that she really didn't ever want to revisit. She felt like that day was scarred to her very soul and it frightened her to think someone could hurt Dr. Robbins. Dr. Robbins helped children. She was nice and perky and kind of like April, only blonde with dimples and a killer smile. Not that her smile wasn't nice, but she always found Dr. Robbins attractive. Not that she was a lesbian, but if she was one, Dr. Robbins would be the kind of woman she would want to date. Not that she wanted to date women, but just if things were different. But knowing someone out there could hurt Dr. Robbins just made her wonder how easy it would be for someone to hurt her, or Dr. Sloan, or Alex Karev.

The one thought going through everyone's head was that the world was really a scary place.

Bailey made her way to the door and stuck her head out of it for a minute. "Get back to work, all of you. Seriously, standing there gawking like this is a circus." She shut the door and immediately closed the shades. A few minutes later Alex walked out of the room with a smug grin on his face. "You guys don't have to worry about who is on Dr. Robbins' case now, since she asked for me… personally." He winked at them and walked off, but not before holding up the chart like it was a trophy. Suddenly, all five of the other residents were rethinking their opinions of the man.

It was a little past six in the evening and all of the doctors had finally cleared out of my room, except for the only doctor I wanted there. My mother had gone home and said she would give my father a call and let him know that the surgery would take place tomorrow. We both laughed because my mother and I said at the same time that he would be on the next plane out. To be honest, I'm actually looking forward to seeing my dad again. Since being admitted to Seattle Grace- Mercy West, I felt like I was on a rollercoaster. Lots of ups and downs, but I am feeling a bit better. I didn't realize all the support I had here, not only from the Chief, though I know he felt a bit disappointed with me, but from my fellow doctors and residents. And then there was Calliope. She just takes my breath away and makes me feel like by just having faith in her, everything will end up okay. Maybe she's right.

I'm sitting up in bed and Callie moved the hospital tray over my lap. She had a little grin on her face as she put a brown bag on the tray. "So, I had a nice conversation with your mother earlier. She said she had a dream in which you were operating again and said that she had faith in me as a surgeon. Have I told you how awesome your mother is?"

"She said that to you?" Callie nodded and I couldn't help by smile. "You know, Callie… I didn't really live in a spiritual home, but you make me believe. I do have faith in you and… just thank you for having faith in me." Callie reached up and wiped the tear that started to fall down my cheek. I leaned into her touch and we just stared at each other for a moment.

"Arizona, I love you. I know the way we left things and we weren't exactly nice to one another, but we've always fought each other so hard. And it's how I know that you're my one, Arizona. You're it for me. We fight and we both fight dirty, I mean, just look at our names…" I couldn't help but laugh at that, she was right, we weren't blessed in the name department, but we were unique. "But even through everything the love I feel for you is so, so strong. When you were gone, I felt like a piece of me went with you and no matter what I did, I just couldn't get it back."

She licks her lips and looks away from me, tears welling in her eyes. "But now I feel it again. I'm whole because you're here. And I know you're not ready to talk and have things just magically go back to how they were, but I need you to know that I love you. That I want to be with you. That I want to take care of you. I want a family with you, Arizona and only you. So please, just regardless of the outcome of this surgery, I need you to know that I love you and that I need you. Okay? You don't have to say anything or agree to anything or say certain words back to me," she laughed slightly and looked back up at me. Tears were making tracks on her cheeks, but her eyes shined with so much love… love for me, she looked like the most beautiful woman in the world.

I raised my hand to her face and then sighed as I realized my heavily bandaged hands couldn't even caress her cheek and comfort her right now. I wanted to tell her. I wanted to say it, but my lips wouldn't move. More tears fell down my cheeks as I slowly put my hand back down to my side and nodded at her. Even though I said nothing, Callie smiled so widely at me, it was like I just gave her the world. She leaned in and gave me a soft kiss on my temple. How I wish she kissed my lips, but I can't ask for that. I can't ask for more from her, not until this surgery is over and I can process what may happen in my future.

"Okay! Now that I've got that out of the way, I will resort to plan B to get you to love me." She laughed and winked at me. I don't think I ever loved her more than I did in that moment. She was cheering me up, even though I just dismissed her heartfelt plea to me. She understands me like no other person ever had, not even Timothy. She opened the brown bag and pulled out food containers. The smell made my stomach grumble rather loudly and she glanced down toward it. I felt my cheeks warm from embarrassment. "Sounds like the monster you're hiding down there is happy with plan B."

I laugh and nod. "I'm so hungry. I can't exactly eat on my own and all I had earlier was a small baloney sandwich my mother fed to me."

"Hospital food, yum!" She laughs and it's infectious and soon I'm laughing too. "Well, you're in luck. I ran down to that little Chinese place you love and got you an order of chicken and broccoli with some white rice." She nodded to the containers. "And some orange juice." I laughed that she remembered the orange juice. She opened the containers and grabbed a fork and loaded it and then brought it to my mouth while making airplane noises. I raised my brow at her and she laughed. "Hey, I figured you're a peds surgeon, you might need the help to open up."

"Thank you, Calliope." She winks at me again and feeds me dinner. We chat about the surgery and the impact it may have on my life in the future. We chat about how hard therapy will be, but I assure her that I'm going to fight and fight with my might to operate again.

"I have faith in you, Calliope. If anyone will give me a chance at operating again, it's you."

"It makes me so happy to hear you say that, Arizona." She leans in and kisses my forehead. She cleans up our dinner, which was delicious and flops herself on the couch in my small hospital room. "I have a few medical journals here, would you like me to read something to you?"

"Calliope, you don't have to stay here with me. I'm not going anywhere, I swear." I laugh softly and turn to look at her. She looks so tired, but she stays and feeds me and entertains me. I just can't believe how much support and care she's giving me despite how I've treated her. Am I really worth all the love she is giving me? "You should go home and get some rest. We have a big day tomorrow, you know." I hold up my hands to make my point.

She smiles at me and leans against her thighs while looking me in the eye. "Arizona, there is nothing you can say or do to make me leave this room. There's no place I'd rather be than with you. Not having you close for a little over two months was enough, so let's just be together, okay?" She smiles at me and I nod again. "I really don't want to fight with you anymore, especially since I like having you around here."

I laugh and shake my head. "I don't want to fight with you either, but having you here with me has really helped, Calliope. I… I felt c-completely helpless. I lost control of e-everything, Calliope. I lost control of my career, my hands, my l-love, my life. I was feeling like I wasn't here, it was another person, a shell of who I was… But you being here, you make me feel like I can get back to the person I was. I want to be that person again, Calliope. Maybe when I get there…" I couldn't finish the sentence, but I watched as a tear slowly fell down her cheek and she nodded.

"I understand, Arizona. And I'll be here for you as long as you let me… And maybe even if you don't." She laughed and grabbed a blanket and covered her legs. She turned the light in the room off and the moonlight ignited her in a soft glow that I could have sworn she were an angel. My angel. "Get some sleep. Tomorrow is the start of a long hard road."

I snuggle into the uncomfortable bed, which was probably just uncomfortable because I had been stuck in it all day. I feel exhausted, but I know it's the pain and medications I'm on. I also know that this is just the start of the hell I'm about to endure, but I can do it. With Calliope by my side I can do anything… "I love you too, Calliope."

The words are a soft whisper, but Callie hears them being mumbled from Arizona's lips as she relaxes and drifts off to slumber.